Buying a new keyboard and taking it easyhow r u 2day, anon?
>>82995627Nah, I kinda halted and me and my mom argued about it yesterday. We made up later though.
Trying my best to hold on while there's work to do. I hope I can get it done in time. I hope I can live my life again.
Thinking about how many anons we've lost from this thread. Makes me sad.
Are you getting a keyboard with the right side "tenkey" though, this is important
>>82998626Bought a new logitech mouse, ergonomic stand up.Playing the shit out of my switch 2 and my PC.Have an appointment in 1 hour and a half.
Sometimes I just spend an entire day watching webms on /pol/. I don't even engage in posting.
>>82998775what does ur mom want u 2 do?>>82998878>Trying my best to hold on while there's work to do. I hope I can get it done in time. I hope I can live my life again.u'll b able 2 eventually. These things always pass>>82998940yeah i miss them 2>>82998941what's that?>>82999009what sort of appointment?>>82999056eh i don't like that placewhat sort of webms do u watch?
>>82999104The numpad section on the right side of full sized keyboards. You can bind all sorts of functions to them in games
>>82999120oh i think it has that. What sort of binds have u got?
>>82999104>what sort of appointment?With a psychiatrist to renew my drug prescription.
>>82999104>u'll b able 2 eventually. These things always passI know, but I'm impatient and making awful decisions that only prolong it.
>>82998626Are you buying a Wooting keyboard like a real pro gamer!?
>>82999339nah. I bought a cheap 20 euro one cuz baka is a brokie and he needs 2 save money>>82999157what sort of meds do u take? I take meds 2>>82999335it's okaywhat's important is that u try 2 take it one step at the time rn
>>82998626Boring rainy day. I went to this store to buy some pants but they had nothing worthwhile. Then got some beer and im gonna chill with it by the train tracks.
>>82999352>what's important is that u try 2 take it one step at the time rnI know. I just wish the tears would stop at the very least.
>tfw everyone took it so easy that the thread died
>>82999361y r u gonna do it outside? The weather sounds awfuly not chill inside where it's warm?>>82999975there there...*hug*the tears will stop eventually>>83001031sorry i took a snooze haha
>>83001764>the tears will stop eventuallyI know. I'm just tired of it.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=paneqmGdM84
>>82989140>r they very spooky?Noroi kinda is, the effects are kinda cheesy though. I'd say they have gloomy atmosphere more so.>have u ever visited japan after the 2000s?Yeah visited twice. Once in 2018 and last year. I started watching content about Japan in the late 2000s and really got into it in the early 2010s. I thought about doing the whole working holiday thing after I got my bsc. but didn't pan out that way.
>>83002338it will pass soon, i know it!>>83002378>Noroi kinda is, the effects are kinda cheesy though. I'd say they have gloomy atmosphere more so.what's it about?>Yeah visited twice. Once in 2018 and last year. I started watching content about Japan in the late 2000s and really got into it in the early 2010s. I thought about doing the whole working holiday thing after I got my bsc. but didn't pan out that way.how was it?
Hi anons. I haven't gone on /r9k/ in about 6 months. A lot has changed since then for me. I started dating a girl, we dated for 4 months, then I broke up with her. I started developing a new indie game, it's almost done and releases some time early next year. I made friends with one of my co-workers and we go out for drinks or smoke weed together once every two weeks or so. I started seeing a new girl, we've been on 2 dates and I'm having her over tomorrow to make her dinner.
>>82998626I turned in a proof of a check clearing in to my mortgage lender today.Now I'm overcaffienated and making some mini raviolis because moving is expensive.
i woke up with less <6 hours of sleep, have headache. been awake 3.5 hours so far. ughhh.
>>83003081>what's it about?Follows a paranormal investigator who is looking into an old legend about a demon who drives people to insanity Not sure if you want spoilers so I'll stop there. It's pretty good, worth a watch imo.>what's it about?Very fun! First time I went during summer which was rough. Humidity in Tokyo is no joke. Got to visit Akiba and some other touristy places that time. Bought way too much stuff and had to get an extra suitcase. Second time was during fall and I visited an onsen and visited Sapporo. Food was really good too.Have you ever been or do you plan to visit?
>>83003636ur life seems 2 b going nicely, good 4 u!what sort of game r u developing?>>83003685how much coffee did u drink? Did the ravioli turn out well?>>83003713mayb take sum panikillers anonheadaches suckr u able 2 take a snooze?>>83004525i'll check it out mayb, sounds like an interesting premisemayb eiki will make a movie night out of it, who knows?>japanhow expensive was stuff there?what did u get?did u go alone or w someone?>Have you ever been or do you plan to visit?idk, mayb? It would b nise 2 visit it
>>82999104She wants me to do just anything at this point. Just so I don't leech of them anymore.>what sort of webms do u watch?Usually videos of indians getting hit by trains.
>>82998626taking it easy after worktoday i didn't wake up as tired for work as i usually do after a trip, was nice being able to sleep until a bit later, now that it doesn't bother me as much that i hop off work at 6 pmeating some airfried lasagna now, things are pretty good so fari gotta clean up the place though, take out the trash and dust my bedroom... bleh>>82998940anyone in particular come to mind?>>82999975let it all out, eiki anonfeel, and feel as intensely as you want, it's okcry all the tears until they dry up, only then you'll be able to move forward properlywe'll be here for you meanwhile>>83004784>spoilerm-m-monster based
Holy shit the intrusive thoughts are really fucking bad tonight. I'm gonna go to bed.
Living life, existing and trying to work on a game. Though, it's challenging.
>>82998626On Saturday, I drove all the way to see BABYMETAL in LA all by myself an drove back home that same night til morning. I saw the sun rise in the east that very morning too.
>>83005665Me too, Randall anon. Me too.
Christ, I got almost no sleep. My alarm hasn't even gone off yet.>>83004878Thanks. I've still got a few days off crying left.
>>82998626Cleaned my keyboard only a week or two ago. It was really gross but im glad I took the time to clean it out. Today has been tolerable as usual. Work sucked more than usual but nothing you can do about it.
>>83007160we'll be here for you, alwaysbe safe, and drink plenty of water, ok? those tears will leave you dehydrated sooner or later, lol
i baked some bread and watched some anime comfy day
>>83007336i crave bread right now. soft sopapillas i dream of.
What's it called when by all metrics I should be happy, but I still want to kill myself?
>>83007516its called being depressed (like everyone else on this board.)
>>83007466I maded some garlic scape/chili/cumin breadstill dicking around with shaping it and whatnot its fun
>>83007538This is actually so awesome and it brings me joy and happiness
>>82998626I might have a date friday. We're planning to go see the chainsaw man movie. Listening to some music right now.>>83005904whats ur game anon?>>83006456thats sick, are you a big fan?>>83007538Looks rlly good anon, do you bake often?
>>83007526What's it called when by all metrics I should wanna kill myself and I wanna kill myself?
>>83007588its called being depressed (the type that gets you sent to the psych ward)
>>83007577>do you bake oftenNot really it's just my current kitchen mood swing but im in between jobs rn so i wanna get it down by baking every day before i have to wagey again.Im really bad at sticking to things like this i went from curing meats to making cheeses to baking breads Still fun though
>>83007622I want to learn baking. I have a few dream dishes in my head that i really wanna learn how to make (sopapilla)
>>83007622curing meats and making cheese is so cool, is it hard? You got pictures?
>>83007651Looks fairly straight forward to me slightly similar to bannock but with some variations using corn flour or nixmatalized corn flour (masa) You should try it sometime plus it doesn't look to hard to make sweet or savory versions of it
>>83007604Maybe i'll make friends in there!
>>83007678Honestly the hardest thing about either is being surgical tier sanitary, mold and yeast are literally everywhere so you have to really do your due diligence on sanitizing everything you use in the production process including yourself.
>>83007725i have heard only terrible things about psych wards
>>83007736Thats a lotta cheese! How are they? Have you tasted them?
>>82998626Doin alright all things considered, I made some ginger snap ice cream and ate it with some homemade pumpkin pie that my mom made out of a big ass pumpkin my mom got. Picking up my gf from work in like an hour
>>82998626My life feels really empty. It's just one of those days spent moping around the house thinking about all the ways your life sucks and feeling like shit about it. No girlfriend, no job, no life outside of my room because I haven't finished my homework yet so I don't have the free time to be going to events and meeting people. No spare time to put my plans into action. I feel stuck but honestly that's my fault. Just a bit more effort and I would have more free time to actually try some of the things I've been wanting to try.Anyway, I just read a yuri manga and now I feel better. I like cute love stories. Makes me dream about being in love with somebody and spending carefree days together.
>>83007788i mostly give them away and only save a small slice of each for myself lmao so far really good although i accidentally made a wheel of appenzeller taste like chocolate with the brine rub and the yeast in the liqueur medium i usedWas very confusing but anyone who tried it raved about it
>>83007810You live the dream. I aspire to be like you, random /r9k/ poster...
>>83007815>homeworkCollege?>I like cute love stories. Makes me dream about being in love with somebody and spending carefree days together.I want to read more love stories. I try to immerse myself in them to forget that its a really shitty idea for me to get into a relationship. One of these days i want to find someone to love, and i want to love them without ever hurting them.
>>83007822Anyone can live the dream by appreciating the small blessings in life anon, I had an argument with said gf but through some determination and some real effort and elbow grease that ive put into this relationship, we made up. I have two shitty jobs, a large credit card payment to make, and some looming criminal justice exam in the near future, but taking moments like these to slow down and think of all the good stuff I have in my life makes me appreciate everything so much more despite any shit that comes my way.
>>83007831>College?Yesyes.>I try to immerse myself in them to forget that its a really shitty idea for me to get into a relationship.A lonely anon can dream, even if that's the case...>One of these days i want to find someone to love, and i want to love them without ever hurting them.I think it comes with experience. How you were raised probably affects it too. Wouldn't it be nice to love without ever hurting anyone? I wish I never hurt anyone, but I doubt that I can be perfect. Doesn't stop me from trying, though. Perhaps one day you'll have worked on yourself enough to the point where it wouldn't be a bad idea being in a relationship anymore.I have a lot to work on in regards to being a suitable lover, though. As I currently am, I barely feel human. I gotta be able to do chores and shit. Can't take care of someone if I can't even take care of myself and my surroundings. I want to be able to cook a meal for my wife and take care of her when she's sick and help out around the house. I suppose now's a good a time as any to practice those things, but I can't even get my homework done early enough to free up enough time and mental capacity to do housework. Barely taking care of myself as is. (All that stuff sounds kind of housewife-y... lol)
>>83007893>College? Yesyes.I tried college once (community college) and i sucked at it. Stopped going after i realized i wasnt cut out for it. No debts because I paid for everything upfront.>A lonely anon can dream, even if that's the case...Its good to dream. Healthy by some metric i assume>I have a lot to work on in regards to being a suitable loverI have plenty to work on before I can even consider getting into another relationship. One of these days though I hope that im well enough. I want to make whoever im with happy, i want to help them out with menial chores and take care of them. One of these days lol.
>>83007969>I tried college once (community college) and i sucked at it. Stopped going after i realized i wasnt cut out for it. Honestly, I feel the same. It's not that I'm not smart enough for it, but more that I can't maintain a good study schedule to save my life. There comes a point where you can't just coast by. I've had a lot of failures in the past before doing decently last year, but I'm falling back into bad procrastination habits now. I'm only studying because I'm terrified of the alternative. I have a fear of homework but it's not as scary as the though of failing now. (It wasn't the case before and I'd just fail classes.)>Healthy by some metric i assumeDreaming about love's gotta be more healthy than being depressed about it.>I have plenty to work on before I can even consider getting into another relationship.What kinds of relationships have you had in the past?Oftentimes I keep worrying about how I'm supposed to meet women and start dating them. I think it's because I keep hearing about people meeting people to date so easily and it makes me envious. I do occasionally realize that I probably wouldn't be a good partner even if I did find somebody. I feel like the people around me who are dating also have their lives a lot more put together.
>>83008078>Honestly, I feel the same. It's not that I'm not smart enough for it, but more that I can't maintain a good study schedule to save my life. I coasted through high school and graduated early. College bodyslammed me (aside from English, because English is a super easy class for me.) I never got a good study habit and i never stayed on top of homework. Im glad your able to do so.>Dreaming about love's gotta be more healthy than being depressed about it.I flip flop between the two.>What kinds of relationships have you had in the past?Mostly online. I tried to be there for them but usually I flaked on plans or I would get intimidated by conflict and i assumed that them staying with them would only hurt them, so I broke it off. I also was super horny and I ended one because I felt that my sexual habits were horribly toxic (asking them every other day to jerk off to them). I feel disgusted looking back and I realize that in the end, it probably was for the better that I stopped dating. I wish i had the guts to apologize to everyone.
>>83008112>I never got a good study habit and i never stayed on top of homework. Im glad your able to do so.I don't think having a study habit out of desperation is as good as just studying without worrying at all. The level of anxiety I have to endure while studying must be a little bit damaging to the brain. I wish I could do it carefree but maybe this culture of overworking yourself is inherently unhealthy anyway...>I tried to be there for them but usually I flaked on plans or I would get intimidated by conflict and i assumed that them staying with them would only hurt them, so I broke it off.Being avoidant sounds tough :( I hate conflict too. I think I need more conflict resolution practice, but I'll only get to practice those skills while being in a relationship...>I also was super horny and I ended one because I felt that my sexual habits were horribly toxic (asking them every other day to jerk off to them).Funny enough, I feel the opposite. I feel like I should've been more horny in my relationships. Well, for at least one of them. I'm pretty shy about lewd things.
>>83008336>I don't think having a study habit out of desperation is as good as just studying without worrying at all. The level of anxiety I have to endure while studying must be a little bit damaging to the brain. I wish I could do it carefree but maybe this culture of overworking yourself is inherently unhealthy anyway.Its better than nothing I suppose.>Being avoidant sounds tough :( I hate conflict too. I think I need more conflict resolution practice, but I'll only get to practice those skills while being in a relationship...I suppose so. I hope that your skills improve and you get better at it!>Funny enough, I feel the opposite. I feel like I should've been more horny in my relationships. Well, for at least one of them. I'm pretty shy about lewd things.I couldnt even imagine this haha. One of the last people I dated was incredibly horny and asked me to masturbate on call with them every other night. They had a lot of issues though, not their fault but it happens. Another to the list of people I should apologize to.
>>83008362>One of the last people I dated was incredibly horny and asked me to masturbate on call with them every other night.Wow, this person sounds pretty based. I've never done that before even though I really want to... the opportunity never arose, I suppose.>They had a lot of issues though, not their fault but it happens. It really sucks when both people have issues. Makes it that much harder for the relationship to survive.Why do you feel such a need to apologize, anon? It's not like I don't feel the same way, because I do, but any reasons motivating this thought?Hmmm, just having a think here, I'm sure you've had irl dating experience, anon, I haven't dated anyone in real life before, wonder what that feels like. I wonder if the feelings of love are more intense due to you being able to interact with them in real life.
>>83008604>Wow, this person sounds pretty based. I've never done that before even though I really want to... the opportunity never arose, I suppose.Its mixed.>Why do you feel such a need to apologize, anon? It's not like I don't feel the same way, because I do, but any reasons motivating this thought?I fucked up hard with so many people. I dont think they deserved how shitty I was, especially just lying about not breaking up as they cried while drunk before splitting it the next day. That was such a shitty move. >Hmmm, just having a think here, I'm sure you've had irl dating experience, anon, I haven't dated anyone in real life before, wonder what that feels like. I wonder if the feelings of love are more intense due to you being able to interact with them in real life.Mostly online. Last time I dated someone in real life was probably high school like 5 years ago. It felt much more close than most stuff online though. VRChat can only bridge the gap so far.
>>83008625>Its mixed.Please describe, this topic is quite fascinating to me. Why is it a mixed bag?>especially just lying about not breaking up as they cried while drunk before splitting it the next day.That is a painful experience to inflict, yeah... :(I hope you'll get to the point where you don't do that anymore. Why did you do it? Avoiding conflict?>VRChat can only bridge the gap so far.Ooh have you been meeting people on VRChat??? Fascinating, do tell me more stories. I've never dated anyone from VRChat but I'd love to try that! Cuddling in VR is really really nice, I just don't have anyone to do it with. Well maybe I could ask some ppl I know to play VRC with me, but I'm too scared to invite people to do things whether irl or online in video games...
>>83008648>Please describe, this topic is quite fascinating to me. Why is it a mixed bag?You can only jerk off for so long every night on call before it becomes numbing and exhausting. Fun when your into it, forced when you arent really.>I hope you'll get to the point where you don't do that anymore. Why did you do it? Avoiding conflict?Avoiding conflict, and I felt i was destroying them to an extent. I felt staying around would only break them further and I didnt want to hurt them anymore.>Ooh have you been meeting people on VRChat??? Fascinating, do tell me more stories.Its interesting and more fufilling to an extent. I found though in the end it felt incredibly terminally online to always be playing VRChat and cuddling. In the end I felt like an idiot every other time I got on, and more lonely since there were days where I couldnt really connect with anyone, friends or otherwise. I ended up quitting after a while. It also tends to fester a certain brand of the terminally online that became worrying to hang around.My advice is either to NOT play VRChat, or at the very least only do it with friends you know.
>>83008725>Fun when your into it, forced when you arent really.Hmmm, seems less like an issue of getting off on call and more an issue of mismatched libido, plus your partner being too demanding/not letting you take a break. I think the same dynamic happens with sex in real life, too. >and I felt i was destroying them to an extent. I felt staying around would only break them further and I didnt want to hurt them anymore.Isn't this one of those fallacious thoughts that anxious minds come up with? I also have a few avoidant tendencies, and I've thought things like that before. Maybe I've also done some avoidant things but possibly not to your extent. Regardless, those thoughts are self-fulfilling prophecies, and if there's even one thing you can do about it, it's to ignore those thoughts as much as possible and do the exact opposite. However, it takes a lot of time and attempts to work on it... I think I can empathize with how hard it is to not act on those thoughts and impulses. It almost feels like something else is controlling me when I have thoughts like that.>I found though in the end it felt incredibly terminally online to always be playing VRChat and cuddling. In the end I felt like an idiot every other time I got on, and more lonely since there were days where I couldnt really connect with anyone, friends or otherwise.I also feel incredibly lonely on VRChat sometimes. It's hard to talk to strangers, and often I don't want to bother anyone on my friends list especially if I don't know them that well. And yeah VRChat has a lot of terminally online mentally ill people who use it as their coping mechanism (or their place to enact their toxic desires). I don't think I'd quit VRChat. I really enjoy some of the communities and events there. Just like with real life, your experience depends on the people you surround yourself with, I think. Gosh, that reminds me of the VRChat group on this board, I'd hang out with them more often if I had the time.
>>83008792>Hmmm, seems less like an issue of getting off on call and more an issue of mismatched libido, plus your partner being too demanding/not letting you take a break. I think the same dynamic happens with sex in real life, too.The more I think about it, the more likely this is. I thought I could keep up I suppose...>Isn't this one of those fallacious thoughts that anxious minds come up with?The more ive thought about it over time, the more ive considered this to be the possibility. It most likely is but in the end itll be a while before i think i really know.>Gosh, that reminds me of the VRChat group on this board, I'd hang out with them more often if I had the time.This sounds interesting. Ive considered getting back onto VRChat to make friends but im terrified of human connection. Maybe one day...Id stay up all night and chat, but im starting to feel loopy. Thank you for spending the time to type out responses to my meniality. I wish you a good night and a good rest of your week!
>>83008813>I thought I could keep up I suppose...It's easier to keep up with e-sex than real life sex, I'm sure.>It most likely is but in the end itll be a while before i think i really know.Well, let me tell you, it's true. You'll have to convince yourself of it. But being able to convince yourself that your thoughts are just stupid anxious thoughts is one of the most important skills to combat those thoughts. Literally, one of the strategies I learned over the years (not my original idea, to be clear) is to take the thought, and really clearly visualize it sitting in the middle of your mind. It's just a thought, and like with most thoughts, if you're able to not let it control you, it'll go away eventually like all the others. Just observe it and let it go away. This is an important mindfulness skill and being able to do this makes your brain more powerful. I always get uncontrollable thoughts and feelings, and often I lose to them, but whenever I am able to really grab the thought and just hold it there for a while, I find myself calming down and thinking rationally. You can then think up of many examples to combat the thought. A quick example: if I'm thinking I'm a failure and I should kill myself, I like to look into the past and highlight all my achievements and improvements I've made to this point. I also dream about the future and think of a few things that I could definitely do to improve myself. Anyways, this is all just food for your thought. It takes years to learn these skills, especially if you're going at it without a therapist, like I am. I should get therapy.>Ive considered getting back onto VRChat to make friends but im terrified of human connection. Maybe one day...There are a lot of cool groups you can join. I think a couple months ago I watched a live jazz performance in VRChat and it was amazing! I want to try getting into the VR rave scene but I'm too shy to. I also love practicing speaking Japanese with people in VRChat.Good night!!
>>82999352>what sort of meds do u take? I take meds 2Aripripazole, xanax and loxapac and a zopiclone for sleep.
Class is over so I'm going to go home and get some rest. I could barely focus on anything. Still ruminating.>>83007277Thanks. This thread is basically my only support network. I'm not sure what I'd do without you guys.>>83007538That looks nice. I wish I had an oven to bake things in. >>83007815Love stories just make me upset. Really, anything that focuses on relationships makes me feel weird. But I'm glad you can get something out of them.
good morning eburynyan!>>83004784what would u like 2 do?>spoilerrather grim sight i imagine>>83004878how r u holdin up?better i hope>>83006456what's babymetal?How was it?>>83007160make sure 2 get sum sleep after ur classes!>>83007241cleaning keyboards sucks! Y must it b so hard?>>83007336what anime did u watch?>>83007516depwession probably>>83007577i'm gonna go 2 see that movie 2 on thursday with a freni am so excited! I am glad they decided 2 go w me!>>83007810man I rly gotta learn how 2 drive...>>83007815hey there, mio anonu just gotta force urselfthe begining is the hardest part. Once ur past that, it'll go smoothly like hot knife through butter
>>83008883wow that's a loti used 2 take xanax 2 but that just made me very sleepyi think i took aripripazole 2that one gave me seizures
Can't even call for genocide without being given a mandatory vacation. No fun allowed :'^(.>>82998626What happened to the old keyboard?>>82998775Hello, hello. What kind of job were you trying to get anyhow? Also just enjoying content is nice too, you don't need to post where ever you enjoy it.>>82998878Hope you're feeling better. If not, then laughter is of course the best medicine B^). https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_9WNkH3v_lo>>82998940It's the reality of things. Nothing lasts forever. Gotta enjoy what you have whilst you have it and all.
I need to stop bedrotting and take my meds -_->>83010025>what would u like 2 do?Personally I'd rather get neetbux all life but that's unlikely to happen so wagecucking it is I guess.>rather grim sight i imagineStill not as bad as anything scat related that's for sure. Seriously, what is wrong with them? I can understand some individuals but the entire nation?Also lmaoing at them calling non-browns cumskins and timmies. Never gets old.>>83010795>What kind of job were you trying to get anyhow?I'll probably just try to start with wagie tier stuff and then move onto something bigger. Or not, who knows.Also just enjoying content is nice too, you don't need to post where ever you enjoy it.Huh?
>>83010963I see, I see. Hopefully you can find something cushy. Hope your mom lets up on you too.>Huh?Weren't you also this post? >>82999056
>>83007577I really like the band so I can say I am a "big fan" of them. I wanted to go see them because well it was my birthday weekend so...I just did it. I had a great night and time at the show. It was just the drive back home that night. I am still trying to recover from it.>>83010025Japanese female band. I wanted to see them because it was my birthday weekend. So I went to see them in LA. It was one hell of a drive to and from back. But it was worth it. I am still tired.
>>83010991Yeah, 'twas me. Personally I prefer posting on /int/ cause /pol/ is a shithole and maintaining civil discussions is near impossible, at least /int/ has some decent anons.
Anxiety symptoms are through the roof and I cannot calm them down for the life of me. I wish my mind and body would stop torturing me for just a moment.>>83010795>laughter is of course the best medicineThank you, Animal Anon
>>83011136Yeah, /pol/ is also really heavily botted from what I remember too. Also if you enjoy that kind of horror, the Indian variety, look up "Codex Pajeet 3" on some place like odysee. It is also gross, but it's basically just a collection or horrible and gross shit from India.>>83011539Of course, more medicine too. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=134dOvUmXoU:)
>>83010795>What happened to the old keyboard?Something went wrong with the usb cableIt kept getting unrecognized>>83010963Is there anything u'd enjoy doing?>>83011121How was the concert? I imagine u enjoyed it>>83011539It will soon pass. U just gotta bide ur time until then
>>83012374I see, I see. Hopefully your new keyboard is working out/will work out. In the mean time, one last animal picture before I head to bed.
>>83011779Whenever I'm in a confined space I often think about Winnie the Pooh getting stuck in Rabbit's front door. Silly old bear.>>83012374>It will soon pass. U just gotta bide ur time until thenI've calmed down a little now. Which is good.
>>83010025>better i hopea bit, yeahi'm back to an "it is what it is" mood, had a wholesome dream but i'll only detail it when i get homebut long story short, i went on a train trip across the country with two sisters, a sweet and clingy blonde and a tsundere brunette, and i got a good amount of affection from the blonde, lolit made me depressed when i woke up, i wish i had someone who liked me that much irl>>83009289yeah... although mine extends to the whole board, this thread is also quite nice to mecan you do anything to distract yourself? play a game maybe?i've been wanting to play terraria or skyfactory 5 with other people so maybe we can set something up?
>>83007577It's an RPG of some kind. Still in development.
>>83011779I'd rather not, not enough eye bleach in my close proximity.>>83012374I think I would like being a language translator, like do commisions or something similiar.
My headphones' cable seems to have crapped out on me. Oh well. Luckily I've got some cheap IEMs for times like this. Hopefully the replacement cable won't take too long to get since China is literally next door.Time to do something I'll probably regret later. I'll be back soon.>>83012948>can you do anything to distract yourself? play a game maybe?I'm mostly just watching YouTube videos for now. I need to keep playing Mario 3D World since it's fun.
>>83013946>spoilerokay well that just sounds scary, eiki you better not be doing anything stupid!
>>83014636He's going wrenchmode
>>83014791dr. jekyll? mr. hyde? meet dr. eiki and mr. wrench
>>82998626What type of keyboard are you buying?
>>83013946>Mario 3D Worldironically enough i never played a mario game in my life, lolbut if you're having fun then that's fine, really>>83014848another piece of lore for the loremaster to write down
>>83012948mayhap u should go on a trip irl then!>>83013837would it b hard 2 become one?>>83013946>spoilerwut r u gonna do?>>83014887mechanical one
>>83001031>took it so easy that the thread diedi blame big pillow
I've been feeling this way for a whole week now but it did make me realize that imageboards are much more welcoming and understanding than any "wholesome" social media. What do you know, if you never see the world outside your echo chamber you never find out what kind of people inhabit it. Oh well, I'll just stay away from them. The fantasy world I made in my head will always be there for me anyway.>>83016131That would require getting a master's degree (I only have a bachelor's) and I still haven't found a university that I want to go to studying.Also, I saw picrel while lurking twitter just now and thought you might like this.
>>83016131>go on a trip irlit's not that easy, kaguyanoni only have so much free time nowadays, and in year one we get no vacation time>>83017595i figured the world out there was terrible but not that bad, loli get that there are a lot of weirdos in these imageboards but then again... figures we ended up here in the first place, huh?
>>83017682Personally I was on image boards way longer than I've been on socials. I still have some accounts from a couple years ago but they're just for lurking, I used to post but after experiencing how sensitive and unforgiving the mob can be I figured I'll just stop doing public and that's how I've been for a year now, feels much better and easier to talk here, really feels like I can open up. Plus all the social media websites are becoming shittier and shittier yearly, I'd rather go back to forums and homepages.
Also I just realized that I've been reading the thread in Whang's voice, maybe I watch too much of his videos heh.
Fell asleep and had a dream that Hater-chan tried to kill me using his ESP abilities to control a floating handgun.I feel very funky after the sleep itself and the position I fell asleep in.>>83014636I now realise that could have been taken a lot of ways, some very bad. Rest assured it's not that bad.>>83015430>i never played a mario game in my life,Give them a try. They're good.>>83017595You can chat with some very nice people on imageboards. I'm not sure why they get such a bad reputation when you can find much worse stuff on more "normal" websites.
>>83017760>I was on image boards way longer than I've been on socials.i wish i could say the same, but i did come to 4chan 3 years after closing down my fb account, so...i also dipped my feet at orkut and msn back in the day since those were popular here, lolbut yeah... i don't even lurk these media nowadays, i'm thinking maybe i should>I'd rather go back to forums and homepages.blast from the past, yeahforums are still a thing for some niche things i think>>83017971>They're good.so i've heard but i have trouble playing any franchise with a lot of history under its beltfinal fantasy, zelda, mario, etc. because i want to start from the start and they're very old
>>83018147>i want to start from the start and they're very oldThe old Mario games are fun and worth a play, especially if you stick to the 'mainline' games.
I had a dream last night of me and the girl im seeing the movie with on friday. We went to a museum together. Pretty cute.>>83007821thats sick, i really want to get into cooking.>>83010025>i'm gonna go 2 see that movie 2 on thursday with a fren i am so excited! I am glad they decided 2 go w me!same! the movie looks really good. She's also a really cool person, I hope it goes well between us.>man I rly gotta learn how 2 drive...anon... you still dont have your license??>>83011121I see clips of them sometimes, im not too familiar with them but they seem cool!>birthday weekendHAPPY BIRTHDAY ANON!!!!>>83013398thats sick>>83017780Whos Whang?
>>83017971Something something evil 4chan hackers, normies only know talltales about 4chan and think it's the same scary anonymous cult it was over 10 years ago. To me it never felt like a place I don't belong to, it was and still is a nice escape from other people's nonsense.>>83018147>forums are still a thing for some niche things i thinkI wish they were more common nowadays, if Geocities can be resurrected by enthusiasts so can be forums and forum culture.>>83018459>Whos Whang?A guy on youtube who covers internet stuff. Web 1.0, shock sites, r*ddit stories etc. He also looks like Steve Aoki.
I wish I could spend all my time sleeping
>>83017595>That would require getting a master's degree (I only have a bachelor's) and I still haven't found a university that I want to go to studying.y nit go to the same uni i went 2 last time?>Also, I saw picrel while lurking twitter just now and thought you might like this.ye, it's nise!>>83017682well u should get vacation time at some point!>>83017780what's his voice like?>spoiler y would hater chan do this? I though i was his only target...>same! the movie looks really good. She's also a really cool person, I hope it goes well between us.yeh it does and i hope it works out between u 2 as well!>anon... you still dont have your license??yeah...after 3 attempts i sorta gave up...>>83019002me 2sleeping is nise
You know, watching DF content has made me think back to making my own kind of game like that but in proper 3D rendering and with some nice multi-threading as far as design goes from the outset. Ideas keep piling up in my head B'^).>>83012833Pooh at least will get his honey at the end of the day. That silly little bear in the picture though is now regretting how much honey he's consumed. Adorable, but he needs a bath now. Keep on getting better too.>>83013837Yeah, I couldn't finish the Codex Pajeet 3. Mostly all of the literal shit stuff was too much for me. For Russian language translations stuff you could probably do some work for that online, but you'd need to build up some works first so people know what you're capable of. That'd be freelance though.>>83017780Do you read my posts in my voice or have you not heard it? I don't think you were around when I posted some vocaroo rants, thinking on it.>>83019002I wish I could sleep more, but being awake is when all of the fun stuff happens. Your dreams are almost always aimless when you're asleep. At least when you're awake you can daydream all you want :)>>83019620How'd the keyboard turn out?
>>83019848>You know, watching DF content has made me think back to making my own kind of game like that but in proper 3D rendering and with some nice multi-threading as far as design goes from the outset. Ideas keep piling up in my head B'^).what's DF?what sort of game would u like 2 make?>How'd the keyboard turn out?well it works. Hopefully it'll work 4 a long time
>>83019878Dwarf Fortress and it'd be a big simulation game for what DF has inspired me on. I kind of dislike how little direction the world generation in that game has and love the idea of making it more involved.>well it works. Hopefully it'll work 4 a long timeI've had my current keyboard for like 15 years now :) the enter key popped out and won't stay in and has been that way for like 14 years but it all still works.Do you like simulation type games beyond something like EU4 and other Paradox games?
>>83019890>Dwarf Fortress and it'd be a big simulation game for what DF has inspired me on. I kind of dislike how little direction the world generation in that game has and love the idea of making it more involved.oh I've heard of that gamewould play it if the steam version was up 2 date>Do you like simulation type games beyond something like EU4 and other Paradox games?yehi enjoy them a lot!what simulation games do u like?
>>83019897I think I'll play the Steam version regardless in the near future. It's understandable that it wouldn't be fully up to date since it requires lots of sprite work. Seems it's still getting updates on Steam though.As far as simulation games, this may seem weird but I'm more into the idea of designing them than I am playing them. There's a lot of interesting challenges that come with it all, especially for such a wide-scope simulation like DF. I do plan to play DF in the future though, when I'm free to dedicate like a month of my life to it B'^). I'd probably like city sim games too, but I've never played any.
>>83018544>it was and still is a nice escape from other people's nonsense.It's the only space where I've not felt completely out of place. I'd be sad to lose it.>>83019620>y would hater chan do this? I though i was his only target...He hates taking it easy that much.>>83019848>Adorable, but he needs a bath now.Oh bother...>Keep on getting better too.Thanks. I'm trying my best but I think it's a long road ahead. I'm very grateful to have you guys.
>>83020482I'm sure Pooh would love a nice bath, although I never watched the cartoon or read any of the books. He seems like he'd enjoy just being cozy in some warm water with bubbles. Happy to be here also :)
Against my better judgement I'm going to pay far too much money to see a shrink about this. I don't think I'm solving it on my own, especially with zero connections to anyone in the meatspace.>>83021564>although I never watched the cartoon or read any of the booksI remember it being very comfy. I might give the film a watch for nostalgia's sake.
>>83019918i do have the latest version downloaded but i never tried iti hear u can play as bejita if u mod it>>83020482he should take it easy!
>>82998626>how r u 2day, anon?I'm not taking it easy But my cat is
>>83022855I wish I was as pretty as your cat
>>83024034Yeah, compared to Belinha, mih mih is the one that takes the most easy of the twoAnd I'm not gonna lie: my life is fucked beyond belief, my life is miserable and I hate my lifeBut at least these two cats help me relax a little bitI know I'm not the only one, specially in this fucking board, but I have to fix my lifeI just can't keep being a neet without neetbux foreverSoon I will visit the psychiatrist because I have a appointment scheduledBut I still hate fucking life and I wish it was better
>>82998626I recently got myself a nice second monitor. Which is nice and helps with streams and music production (I can keep the mixer open on the second monitor all the time)I've been studying more lately, but between that and the stress of doing NNN (yes, I've got a problem) I've skyrocketed my cigarettes consumption. I don't know if it's worth though.Also, with November happening I need to lock in with music if I wanna hope to put out the yearly album I post on the 1st of the year. I have like 2/3 songs done but I'd need to focus and work on many others... plus I wanted to make some videos about my favorite songs of the year as well...
Like, I want to believe I'm still young and it's not over yet for meBut dude, I'm a fucking failure in every wayI got ghosted in countless interviews, ALL of themI'm 30 old and I haven't done nothing with my lifeEven my YouTube channel that I don't have access anymore never got monetized because it never got enough views and watch timeI wonder what the fuck I'm gonna do with my lifeIs 30 too young? I want to believe that's the caseI'm not only desperate for money, I'm desperate to fix my life for good
