What are your plans for the week. I hope to recover mentally and do some laundry and go to some retarded appointments for life shit

>>82999977
o-ooohhh...
a-ahhhh....
e-etouuuuuu....
n-nyughhhhhh....
u-uguuuuu~~~~~~~~~~......

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>>83000013
taking some time for yourself i see. good for you. what are you recovering from? did something happen, anon?
>go to some retarded appointments for life shit
doctor's appointment i presume?
>What are your plans for the week.
i'm not sure if this was a question directed at me, or a quote, but i'll answer anyway.
i don't have any plans. waiting for my paycheck, and then there's gonna be my birthday in a week and a half. my parents are gonna give me money to buy cool things.
>>83000038
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>>82999977
I finally ended my bender after getting out of the hospital for paracetamol poisoning
I was worried id go back to it immediately after coming home but i messaged the source of my pain and begged him until i tricked myself into finding some sliver of hope that im now holding onto that hopefully he wont soon shatter
I still need to drink to sleep most nights but i dont think that counts as a continuation of the aforementioned since i think a bender is meant to be keeping yourself drunk the entire time you're conscious and im now trying to stop myself from doing that
I downloaded stardew valley on my phone and ive been trying to focus my attention on that now when the bad thoughts start coming
Nice digits btw and im sorry for the big dump right at the start of the thread, just need to scream someplace and these have apparently turned into the only place i can do it

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>>83000109
>taking some time for yourself i see. good for you. what are you recovering from? did something happen, anon?
Did meth
>go to some retarded appointments for life shit
>doctor's appointment i presume?
VA neetbux and school
Sounds good though what do you do for work

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i got my first girlfriend (inshallah)
we are going on a date friday

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>>83000785
hello anon. nice to see you in this thread. i was thinking it was gonna get buried.
>I finally ended my bender after getting out of the hospital for paracetamol poisoning
oh jesus. are you okay? well, that's a bit of a stupid question, isn't it... well, i hope you won't go back on a drinking spree. please try to stay away from alcohol if you can.
>coming home but i messaged the source of my pain and begged him until i tricked myself into finding some sliver of hope that im now holding onto that hopefully he wont soon shatter
i'm assuming you're talking about a certain someone. if you don't want me to pry, i'm not going to, but i'm awfully curious... would you like to tell me what happened between you two?
>I still need to drink to sleep most nights
we all cope in different ways, anon. just remember not to get too carried away. i've already met an anon with liver failure here. i understand the grief is strong. just remember, i'm here to share the anguish.
>I downloaded stardew valley on my phone and ive been trying to focus my attention on that now when the bad thoughts start coming
oh i remember this game. i had like 300 hours put into it on steam or something. it was really fun. a lot of stuff to do, a lot of content to explore. goodluck with your farm, anon.
>im sorry for the big dump right at the start of the thread
no worries, i'm glad to hear what you have to say. please stay safe and don't drink too much.
>>83000823
>Did meth
where'd you get that?? are you alright?
>VA neetbux and school
i see i see, makes sense. well it sounds pretty important. a single appointment won't hurt, right?
>what do you do for work
nothing interesting, i give out parcels. people order them from marketplaces and come pick them up here. i also box up packages so they get collected by couriers later. nothing interesting, i'm mostly by myself for most of the shift.
part one...

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>>83001246
>>83000833
>i got my first girlfriend (inshallah)
>we are going on a date friday
oh, really? that sounds amazing, anon! i'm happy to hear that. i wish both of you luck. have a fun date!

>>83001246
Sorry for the disappointment but i failed and ended up drinking to soothe my mind. Staying away has been especially difficult since this morning, ive been awake 5-6 hours and it feels like a full day i have no idea why time is going to slowly no matter what ive tried to do
The short of it is that i got dumped by my boyfriend for another person and blinded by grief i did something bad to try to hurt him back and im trying to repair the situation really desperately because i need him back in my life (unfortunately for both of our sakes) id go to any distance to be with him again
Ive never been good at dealing with being wronged in certain ways and i feel like if he lets me go like this i will at some point devolve into doing some psycho shit to get back at him for abandoning me assuming i dont die first which i would honestly find preferable to hurting him that way but it hasnt been working out for me so im feeling a little strangled unless he decides to come back somehow
I somehow feel like im not going to die from this despite my best efforts ill just come out really damaged and itll result in me bringing him down with me

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>>83001560
Sorry for the rapidly deteriorating formatting i am becoming a mess

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>>83001560
>Sorry for the disappointment but i failed and ended up drinking to soothe my mind.
it's okay. i drink almost every weekend, i'm not the one to judge.
>Staying away has been especially difficult since this morning, ive been awake 5-6 hours and it feels like a full day i have no idea why time is going to slowly no matter what ive tried to do
hmmm, well, if you're struggling to stay awake, why fight it? sleep will do you some good, i think. it's some time being unconscious, meaning, no time thinking about him.
>The short of it is that i got dumped by my boyfriend for another person and blinded by grief i did something bad to try to hurt him back and im trying to repair the situation really desperately because i need him back in my life
i see. that's a pretty difficult situation to be in. well, it's good that you're trying to make up for it, but tell me, are you certain it's the only way for you? chasing after him until he decides to take you back? i know right now it may seem that way, especially since you're drunk, but i want to hear your reasoning. it simply doesn't seem like the healthiest option for either of you. it hurts like hell, i bet it does, but the longer you chase, the longer it will hurt. you've already tried to distract yourself from those thoughts about him via playing vidya, why not try more? watch some jewtube slop, play some vidya, step outside to clear your mind. those are all temporary solutions, but if you combine them and try everything in your power to think about anything else, no matter how impossible it may seem, i think you have a chance at healing.
>Ive never been good at dealing with being wronged in certain ways
aren't we all... it never feels good to be wronged. and it's really saddening that he did this to you. remember though, no matter what you might be thinking, there's a solution to every problem. you can escape any predicament you find yourself in, unless you're dead. you can't escape death.
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>>83001792
>>83001560
i know this all seems like a normalfag propaganda, but i am merely giving you a friendly suggestion, from one anon to another.
tell me, do you have anyone to reach out to? sane family members? whatever friends you might have? they can be a huge help. spending time with them is yet another way to escape grim thoughts in your head. if not, well... you're always welcome here, at the very least. i'm always here whenever i feel like making another thread.
>Sorry for the rapidly deteriorating formatting i am becoming a mess
i understand. i apologize if my words seem a little too basic, i've never been good at consoling when it comes to breakups. just remember, if no one's got, anon's got you. please try to stay alive. and please don't chase after him. it will only burn you hollow.

>>83001792
>>83001834
I wish i was struggling to stay awake, time is just moving too slowly and im just too painfully aware of everything and it makes me want to disappear so badly
I dont have anyone to reach out to unfortunately, i actually told my brother and he was as supportive as you could guess considering im in a third world country telling someone i was in a queer relationship
>watch some jewtube slop, play some vidya, step outside to clear your mind
Ive tried as much of this as i could already as i had felt this was coming, unfortunately on top of everything happening to me im a sickly retard with an eating disorder i lose any weight that gets put on and being depressed already makes it difficult to eat anything most days
The hospital food was the first stuff i had eaten for the week and i collectively prob forced myself to eat as much as one regular meal when im doing "ok" normally over the day and a half i was there
I know im meant to give up by now and i would but i unfortunately know myself i will end up going after ruining his future if i let him just move on and be happy over something that made me intend on not being alive anymore after it was done to me
And dont worry its not like i expect to hear any words that can change me to my core at this point, i just need people to talk to sometimes to not go message him breaking down another time

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I just ate a bowl of fried rice and now I'm drinking a cup of coffee and having a ciggy.

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>>82999977
>how did you spend your weekend?
Chores, shitposting, more chores, edging to feet, some more chores because they are endless.

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>>82999977
nice digits
>how are you doing?
im okay just pretty damn tired
>anything interesting to share?
been to a really big con and it was fun, bought a miku and visited the city it was in. got some cool photos. sadly it was a bit suicidefuel too
>are you taking care of yourself?
eh... i should probably be eating more i guess...
>>83000785
i can only wish i can find someone that'll love me this much
anyhow i hope you'll be able to get over it some day anon. try your best to not fall into alcoholism as it can get really really bad.

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>>83002304
Probably a case of grass is always greener anon. I wish my feelings were pure love and not something that feels like it will slip into vengefulness if it goes unfulfilled

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>>83002211
>I dont have anyone to reach out to unfortunately, i actually told my brother and he was as supportive as you could guess considering im in a third world country telling someone i was in a queer relationship
shucks, i should've figured it wasn't as easy. i'm sorry to hear that, anon. i understand, it's hard to find acceptance if you live in a third world shithole. even harder to find it here, considering who this site is dominated by.
>Ive tried as much of this as i could already as i had felt this was coming, unfortunately on top of everything happening to me im a sickly retard with an eating disorder i lose any weight that gets put on and being depressed already makes it difficult to eat anything most days
an eating disorder as well... man, you're real unlucky. again, i'm really sorry to hear that. a doctor is what you need methinks. i'm not sure if you can find a qualified professional wherever you live. probably costs a fortune as well.
>the first stuff i had eaten for the week and i collectively prob forced myself to eat as much as one regular meal when im doing "ok" normally over the day and a half i was there
how are you still alive is my question... one portion a week? do you just sustain yourself on water and such?
>I know im meant to give up by now and i would but i unfortunately know myself
well, it ain't as easy as i make it out to be, i know. however, just trying is more than enough. mental wounds take a long time to heal on their own, and understanding that you need to let go is the first step to acceptance. i believe you still have a chance for rehabilitation. it's a poor mix you have there, anon. depression, grief, eating disorder... you're very strong for still being alive. if i was in your place, i would kill myself.
part one.

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>>83002220
hello anon. nice to see you here. hope you enjoyed your rice. can i have a ciggy as well?
>>83002246
hello anon.
>Chores, shitposting, more chores, edging to feet, some more chores because they are endless.
i see. what chores are you referring to? you seem to have a lot of stuff to do.
>>83002304
>im okay just pretty damn tired
what's up? had a long day?
>been to a really big con and it was fun, bought a miku and visited the city it was in.
woah, that's actually pretty amazing. i hope you had a lot of fun on the con. last time i've been on one, it was overstimulating. too many people in a really cramped space, my primitive autistic brain couldn't handle it. still, it was pretty cool. bought a miku plush, i assume? or some kind of merch?
>got some cool photos.
would you like to share? i'm intrigued.
>i should probably be eating more i guess...
aye, you should. take care of yourself, anon. god knows no one will take care of us. remember to eat enough, drink enough water and to get enough fresh air. staying inside all the time isn't good for the body and mind.

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>>83002561
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>>83002510
i suppose. im also very susceptible to feeling like yours, when i get attached to someone i tend to never let go and go crazy if things go south. im trying to work on in too, and talking from experience, i think there's a chance for people like us to have (somewhat) healthy relationships. it's just a matter of trial and error. even if that does hurt a lot...
>>83002635
>had a long day?
had a long 3 days. too many hours of train and too many hours around people, my brain is fried...
>it was overstimulating
it was for me too, but thankfully i was in a group and in it there was one of my friends so i managed to stay calm most of the time. sucked for the few times i felt awful
>miku plush
naw, i wish. i bought this figure in picrel though.
>would you like to share?
perhaps i'll post a few more in the next replies. or in one of my threads that i'll make in the future
>enough fresh air
eh, bit difficult in a city i fear. but yeah, i'll try my best. you take care of yourself too anon!

>>83002561
>you're very strong for still being alive. if i was in your place, i would kill myself.
Ive tried so not really i suppose..i would not be alive if things went the way i wanted but some part of my body doesnt want to give me that (or im just horrible at tryingthats far more likely)
>how are you still alive is my question... one portion a week? do you just sustain yourself on water and such?
Its pretty funny to say it out loud but i lost and gained about half my total body weight in the last ~16 months (lost around 10kg, regained a little less than that, now i lost another 10 im less than 48 total)
More than anything i guess that it bothers me how much of a bad person i feel i will let myself become instead of convincing myself to let go after being hurt
That might be the part that hurts me the most, i genuinely just feel ill get over it if i just ruin his life the way he did mine
>doctor is what you need methinks
This is the funniest part of everything, i dont get to have healthcare for free cus of neeting which makes me become an eventual drain on other people if i try to get some kind of help at the moment this makes me even more depressed because the money i had been saving up to move in with him has been pretty much drained by my hospital stay now
Realllyyy wish i had died so i wouldnt have to untangle the situation while under the hopeful premise that i can repair things with him and fix my life
>>83003024
>im also very susceptible to feeling like yours, when i get attached to someone i tend to never let go and go crazy if things go south. im trying to work on in too, and talking from experience, i think there's a chance for people like us to have (somewhat) healthy relationships
All ive done during the course of myrelationship was try to get better in regards to this and he repaid it by falling out of love with me I never wanted to be a clingy dependant gf my current self is product of months of sadness and abuse that i never wanted to expose him to

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>>83003024
>had a long 3 days. too many hours of train and too many hours around people, my brain is fried...
jesus christ. you really had a long few days eh... please rest when you can.
>it was for me too, but thankfully i was in a group and in it there was one of my friends so i managed to stay calm most of the time. sucked for the few times i felt awful
i had a few of my friends as well, but it was still pretty difficult. with them around, it was much easier, but still, i wish it wasn't so crowded. that's what happens when the only good con appears like once a year in my country. a bunch of people all cooped up like its a fuckin slaughterhouse.
>naw, i wish. i bought this figure in picrel though
oh my god... oh, wait. apologies, i was staring at the hu tao stand. the miku figure is still very cool, anon. congratulations on your purchase. probably costed a kidney though, as all things do on those cons...
>perhaps i'll post a few more in the next replies. or in one of my threads that i'll make in the future
looking forward to it! i wanna see what stuff you saw on the con. i'm happy that at least some people are out there having fun. i spent the whole day locked up in 4 walls, giving away parcels to people.
>eh, bit difficult in a city i fear. but yeah, i'll try my best. you take care of yourself too anon!
still, remember to take care of yourself. and thank you as well. i'm trying my best. you try too, alrighty?

>>83003138
give me a minute, nonny. internet in here fuckin sucks. i'll reply as soon as i get home. see you soon.

I was supposed to meet a girl from a dating app at a Halloween party on Saturday but she ghosted me and she was my in to the party so I couldn't go. Spent the weekend working on my indie game instead.

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>>83003138
>Ive tried so not really i suppose..
don't give up anon. there's always a chance at salvation. if you do go down, might as well go down fighting. if you kill yourself, the jews won. don't let the jews win. not again.
> (or im just horrible at tryingthats far more likely)
there's a significant likelihood of a suicide attempt not only failing, but also backfiring spectacularly. some are left wheelchair bound, some are turned into vegetables, and some are paralyzed from neck down. it's a fate far, far worse than death.
>i lost and gained about half my total body weight in the last ~16 months (lost around 10kg, regained a little less than that, now i lost another 10 im less than 48 total)
i... really don't understand how it works. human metabolism is really weird.
> i dont get to have healthcare for free cus of neeting
oh, neeting doesn't let you have free healthcare? i wasn't aware of that. even then, free healthcare is likely not gonna be of much help when it comes to eating disorders and depression. they usually hire the worst specialists the market has to offer so they don't have to spend too much money.
>i had been saving up to move in with him has been pretty much drained by my hospital stay now
well, did the hospital stay at least achieve anything? surely there's gotta be at least some improvements. it's a bit naive to assume that. a few nights at a hospital is not likely to achieve anything, but still.
>Realllyyy wish i had died so i wouldnt have to untangle the situation while under the hopeful premise that i can repair things with him and fix my life
remember, anon. don't let the jews win. they won too many times. there's always hope for the better. even if life seems like doom and gloom right now, i'm a strong believer that there's always good in every bad. eventually you'll reach your streak of good luck.
part one.

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part two
>>83003655
>>83003242
>I was supposed to meet a girl from a dating app at a Halloween party on Saturday but she ghosted me and she was my in to the party
ah shit, i'm really sorry to hear that. some foids are really unpredictable. what's the point of promising stuff if you're not gonna do anything?
>Spent the weekend working on my indie game instead.
an indie game? i'm all ears. what is it about? what's the premise? what's the gameplay like? tell me everything.

>>83003680
an indie game? i'm all ears. what is it about? what's the premise? what's the gameplay like? tell me everything.
It's basically balatro but scrabble instead of poker. Every turn you make words on the board and try to beat the round's score goal. Instead of jokers you buy classic books like Moby Dick and Sherlock Holmes that give you powers like extra scoring multipliers or extra money. If you want to try it I could post the demo here but idk if self-promo is allowed on r9k.

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>>83003138
>he repaid it by falling out of love
sorry that it had to go this way anon, perhaps from this experience you'll grow stronger and you're able to limit your affection better.
>>83003160
>i wish it wasn't so crowded
yeah, and where i went it was extra crowded considering how important that con was. queue lines to go into a stand were so damn long i basically only got in 2 or 3.
>probably costed a kidney
nope, it costed 35 euros actually. for the quality i think it's a good price. the stand i bought it from had quite a lot of figures, some were reaaally expensive
>what stuff you saw on the con
i didn't take a lot of pictures desu, but most of them are of cosplayers or random cool buildings. here's a functional power armor that had a camera inside of it

>>82999977
Hi. I downloaded factorio again yesterday and i've been thinking about it all day.
Weekend was okay. Slept in a lot as usual, then watched the baseball games with my friend at a city-hosted viewing party.
Games were really good even if we lost.

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>>83003806
>If you want to try it I could post the demo here
sure, if you're able to. i'm interested in trying it out.
>>83003994
>yeah, and where i went it was extra crowded considering how important that con was. queue lines to go into a stand were so damn long i basically only got in 2 or 3.
i remember a few stands on my original con. it wasn't... super interesting. although i saw a team fortress 2 stand, which is kinda cool. i also managed to make a photo with a soldier cosplayer
this was supposed to be an indie games con, but it was mostly fucking deltarune and undertale. bleh.
>nope, it costed 35 euros actually. for the quality i think it's a good price.
alright then, i'm glad you like it, anon!
>the stand i bought it from had quite a lot of figures, some were reaaally expensive
figures, almost everything on those cons is really expensive. get it? figures? aha. haha...
i'm sorry.
>here's a functional power armor that had a camera inside of it
looks pretty cool! it reminds me of my own con. i saw a guy in a springtrap suit walking around. he had sensors tracking his footsteps which emitted clanking sounds every time he took a step. and his eyes were also glowing. i wish i could find any pictures from that con. if i do, i'll make sure to show them to you next time. there was also collector from darkest dungeon and a bunch of other cool guys.
i also remember some young woman doing a purple guy cosplay. she looked very pretty. one of the first time in years when i actually looked at a foid and felt something.
>>83004117
hello anon.
>I downloaded factorio again yesterday and i've been thinking about it all day.
i have it in my library, i think i have like. 500 hours or so. i beat the game only once, and my factory was terribly inefficient. but it's a very fun game, i should replay it. if only bugs weren't such a nuisance.
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part two.
>>83004400
>>83004117
>Weekend was okay. Slept in a lot as usual, then watched the baseball games with my friend at a city-hosted viewing party.
Games were really good even if we lost.
sounds like you had quite a fun weekend. i'm glad to hear that. mine was. less than eventful. i did nothing all day except for playing vidya. and resting after long hours of shifts. darn work. i have work tomorrow as well.

>>83003655
I fell asleep sorry for going away
>there's a significant likelihood of a suicide attempt not only failing, but also backfiring spectacularly. some are left wheelchair bound, some are turned into vegetables, and some are paralyzed from neck down. it's a fate far, far worse than death.
This is why i ended up in the hospital apparently paracetamol is not something you should try to kill yourself with unless you want a prolonged and painful death
>oh, neeting doesn't let you have free healthcare? i wasn't aware of that. even then, free healthcare is likely not gonna be of much help when it comes to eating disorders and depression. they usually hire the worst specialists the market has to offer so they don't have to spend too much money.
Yea its so fucking discouraging to even think about how much of a money sink it would be to fix myself
>well, did the hospital stay at least achieve anything? surely there's gotta be at least some improvements. it's a bit naive to assume that. a few nights at a hospital is not likely to achieve anything, but still.
I ended up not dying i guess but other than that i feel worse unfortunately. They also said something was wrong with my stomach but i was too delirious to remember what it was so if i ever want to "fix" myself i have to go get that checked out too
>don't let the jews win.
If i could motivate myself enough with this i would be immortal...

Life is miserable as always. I made 24 pints of pickled eggs last week so at least there's that. Per pint: 7 eggs, 1tbsp extra spicy crab boil, 1tbsp crushed heaven facing chili flakes, and 5-6 drops of fermented Carolina reaper peppers macerated in vinegar hot sauce, boiling 5% acetic acid cider vinegar to fill leaving ~6mm headspace. I work 12 hour night shifts Friday/Saturday/Sunday every week so this weekend was extra gay with the daylight savings time. It's bad enough we are subjected to ugly fluorescent tube t8 lights or led street lamps and car headlights all the time, but then they randomly add an hour to the day as a double fuck you, just to make already sleep hygiene even filthier. Everything seems by design to be antihuman as possible. I live in America so I'm underpaid while also made to pay over half my income in taxes.
This sucks. I want to live on a farm. Free Palestine. Yes this is code. I hate bad things and wish there was at least something good about the current world. America is a far left shithole run by far left zionist communists.

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>>82999977
>hi robots
helo
>how did you spend your weekend?
panic and disappointment sorta. its okay now for the most part but i gotta do something big tomorrow too so no promises.
>>83004117
>factorio
amazing game. Stick to it and it will bring you a lot of joy. I only played to the end of the game once but i liked it a lot and i now have a snapshot of my game on the factorio site so i think its cool i guess.
>if only bugs weren't such a nuisance.
nuke them. The uranium in this game is unbalanced as shit so plop down some centrifuges and you got rockets for days.

Hello taoanon(?) also rare non-avatarfagging pictures O.O? .

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>>83004711
>paracetamol is not something you should try to kill yourself with unless you want a prolonged and painful death
i know my words can't really reverse the damage your surroundings have done to your brain. but please try not to do that again. you've seen what happened. it could have been much worse.
>Yea its so fucking discouraging to even think about how much of a money sink it would be to fix myself
yes, hospital bills are likely gonna be insane, i know. it takes a lot more than a simple ibuprofen pill to cure all mental aches. maybe self consciousness isn't such a great thing after all. look at bugs. they don't rot in bed all day. they don't wonder when it will end. they build stuff. they eat stuff. they lay eggs. a simple life.
>I ended up not dying i guess but other than that i feel worse unfortunately. They also said something was wrong with my stomach
i'm guessing stomach ulcers? that's a common ailment after taking too many meds.
>>83004718
hello anon.
>Per pint: 7 eggs, 1tbsp extra spicy crab boil, 1tbsp crushed heaven facing chili flakes, and 5-6 drops of fermented Carolina reaper peppers macerated in vinegar hot sauce, boiling 5% acetic acid cider vinegar to fill leaving ~6mm headspace.
jesus christ. is your stomach okay? do you shit lava?
>I work 12 hour night shifts Friday/Saturday/Sunday every week so this weekend was extra gay with the daylight savings time.
night shifts are really rough, anon. i'm sorry to hear that. how are you holding up?
part one.

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>>83004400
>a team fortress 2 stand
huh, you don't see that often. i saw a few dudes cosplay as spy from tf2 at the con, said hi to them
>mostly fucking deltarune and undertale
well it's one of the mainstream indie ones, it makes sense it's the very common to see stuff from it.
>i'm glad you like it, anon!
im even more surprised that my mom seems to like it more than me lole.
>get it? figures?
hm hm, yes. very funny anon, you could be a clown. wait, you're that already... anyway, i got a bottle of fanta at a stall because i was about to faint due to low sugar and i paid it 4,50 euros. in retrospect i think i would've preferred to faint
>springtrap suit
saw one too, a really well made one. a bunch of kids got scared! i think the most impressive ones i've seen were the ultramarines cosplays and other really big ones. sadly i couldnt get a really good picture
>some young woman doing a purple guy
partly a reason why this con was also suicidefuel was because of the amount of cute girls and couples going around in cosplays which reminded me i will most likely never do that and die alone.
>>83004761
hi anone. what's the big day tomorrow? found a job you like?

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>>83004877
>>83004718
>It's bad enough we are subjected to ugly fluorescent tube t8 lights or led street lamps and car headlights all the time, but then they randomly add an hour to the day as a double fuck you, just to make already sleep hygiene even filthier. Everything seems by design to be antihuman as possible.
aye, i know. i literally work on a fucking construction site. not literally. my office has no floors. it's fucking concrete. there's construction dust everywhere. my shoes are white. they used to be black. i cough constantly. inhumane conditions.
>I live in America so I'm underpaid while also made to pay over half my income in taxes.
my american friend. i've heard some pretty terrific news of your country from /pol/. some scary stuff is going on. stay safe, alright?
>I hate bad things and wish there was at least something good about the current world. America is a far left shithole run by far left zionist communists.
don't worry. jews don't have that much time left. no one except the right likes them. even the left stopped liking them due to the genocide. and i think they are starting to notice some things as well. maybe things will one day change for the better.
>>83004761
>helo
hello anon. is that neurosama?
>panic and disappointment sorta.
i'm sorry to hear that. tomorrow is a big day, you said. what's up?
>nuke them. The uranium in this game is unbalanced as shit so plop down some centrifuges and you got rockets for days.
yeah, i know. i'm mostly annoyed about the early game. i have to put up a wall of sentry guns to avoid getting my precious factory eaten. a minor inconvenience at best, but still, i feel a vessel in my brain nearly bursting every time i hear that fucking notification that something has been destroyed.

>>82999977
Made a post on soc for frens in my timezone but only got adds from people outside my timezone fml
I am doing alright, just drawing and reading and watching anime while I look for a job at home.

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>>83005015
>>83004888
>huh, you don't see that often. i saw a few dudes cosplay as spy from tf2 at the con, said hi to them
saw a bunch of... every merc, actually. a lot of scouts, a lot of pyros, a few demos(white demos lmao), some heavies, a single engineer who i had a funny interaction with, a bunch of medics, a sniper i think, with a complete replica of a sniper rifle from the game, and two spies of opposite teams. i wanted to take a pics with all of them but ended up only taking a picture with the soldier. i regret everything.
about engineer, i think i shouted "need a dispensah here", to which he replied "nope". i'm not. very original. and i also offered the engineer to "repair" springtrap with his wrench. after which he proceeded to lightly smack springtrap with a wrench.
>well it's one of the mainstream indie ones, it makes sense it's the very common to see stuff from it.
yeah, i know. i guess i should've expected that. still, i'm just not a huge fan. i also saw fucking tcoaal i think. insanity.
>im even more surprised that my mom seems to like it more than me lole.
it's nice when your parents show interest in things you like. my mother was also the same kinda. she really liked some of the things i bought, and tried to find out more about them. it was embarrassing, but it was endearing.
>very funny anon, you could be a clown.
alright look, i'm a local moral support, not a comic...
>4,50 euros
i think death might be preferable
>i think the most impressive ones i've seen were the ultramarines cosplays and other really big ones. sadly i couldnt get a really good picture
warhammer fans are very creative! they have all the time in the world to create some really impressive stuff.
>partly a reason why this con was also suicidefuel was because of the amount of cute girls and couples going around in cosplays
i understand, anon. don't give up, we'll all get our own cute cosplay girl. one day. certainly.

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>>83005048
hello anon.
>Made a post on soc for frens in my timezone but only got adds from people outside my timezone fml
hey, i mean, you still got some new frens. that's all that matters. besides, you can always try again to find someone closer.
>I am doing alright, just drawing and reading and watching anime while I look for a job at home.
i'm glad to hear you're doing okay. drawing, you say? what are you drawing?
any job in particular you're looking for?

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>>83004888
>what's the big day tomorrow?
i got the earliest appointment possible at the psych (without asking for it) and gotta wake up like 4-6 hours earlier than usual to be on time. Dunno if stuff like that is very good to discuss early in the morning and its a especially important and long session so who knows how it will turn out. At least they didn't postpone this one three times in under 10 minutes!
>found a job you like?
sorta, maybe. I hope my application for a short look behind the doors gets approved so i can know for sure. There is lots of conflicting info about the pay on the internet also..

>>83005015
>is that neurosama?
yeah although i usually post using some character from seraph of the end in here.
>tomorrow is a big day, you said
big day for a shut-in but not big in general. Just like i described in the above part.
> i feel a vessel in my brain nearly bursting every time i hear that fucking notification that something has been destroyed.
uuuh you'd hate the dlc then. I lost like 30% of my first ship to passive asteroid damage because i abandoned it in hostile orbit for 100h hours lel.

>>82999977
i've just been observing these threads as of late
i'm not too sure what goes on in here but it seems comfy, so if that's the case, keep on being comfy
we need more of that in this board

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>>83005133
>saw a bunch of... every merc
guess it makes sense it's more popular where you live... next time i go to a con i could cosplay scout considering how easy it is to do that
>tcoaal
i have no idea of what that is desu. i did spot a few people in fursuits at my con also.
>it was embarrassing, but it was endearing.
initially i thought she wouldnt like the miku since it was very moe looking compared to everything else i own but i guess my mom is secretly a migu fan too
>death might be preferable
facts
>they have all the time in the world to create some really impressive stuff
and apparently a ton of money too, their cosplays don't look cheap at all
>one day. certainly.
uh huh. yeah, maybe when they invent robot girls. or when vr becomes realistic enough that it looks like real life.
>>83005191
>gotta wake up like 4-6 hours earlier
ouch, i hate waking up early. last few days i had to wake up at 5 and 6 am, and only slept like 4 hours or so the night before... wasnt great.
>if stuff like that is very good to discuss early in the morning
probably not... how sleepy are you in the morning usually? i can't even remember i exist and have to do things until 30 minutes after i wake up
>didn't postpone this one three times
what a huge improvement!! anyhow, i hope your visit goes alright tomorrow anon
>sorta, maybe
niceu, im confident you'll be able to get the job! and well, no better way than ask directly to know how much you're getting pay. if they dont want to say it immediately, assume it's low.

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>>83005162
>hey, i mean, you still got some new frens. that's all that matters. besides, you can always try again to find someone closer.
I like your positive thinking but I'm annoyed they added me in the first place as I was explicit about only wanting to talk with people in my timezone. I've tried with folks outside of it and it was a pain in the butt.

Drew pic related, a witch from some kind of wild western setting

I'm looking for any job during the end of year break but it's rough out there. I don't have any real skills or experience outside of factory work and warehousing and I can't waste gas money volunteering (I live a bit out of town)

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>>83005191
>i got the earliest appointment possible at the psych (without asking for it) and gotta wake up like 4-6 hours earlier than usual to be on time. Dunno if stuff like that is very good to discuss early in the morning and its a especially important and long session so who knows how it will turn out. At least they didn't postpone this one three times in under 10 minutes!
goodluck on your appointment anon. for the future, remember to write down things that bother you that you wish to discuss with the doctor. it really helps.
>. I hope my application for a short look behind the doors gets approved so i can know for sure. There is lots of conflicting info about the pay on the internet also..
goodluck with your job if you manage to land it, anon!
>uuuh you'd hate the dlc then. I lost like 30% of my first ship to passive asteroid damage because i abandoned it in hostile orbit for 100h hours lel.
yeah i... i don't have the dlc. and i think it's for the better. i'd get a brain aneurysm.
>>83005225
hello anon. not much is going on here. we're just talking about stuff. if you wish, you could join us. would you like to tell me anything? maybe something mildly amusing happened last week?

>>83005292
also im veeery tired so i'll go to bed now, have a good rest of the thread anons

>>83004400
>sure, if you're able to. i'm interested in trying it out.
Here's the demo:
https://bigdogdamon.itch.io/jargon-beta-demo
I'd appreciate any feedback you have. I should have a Steam page for it in a few weeks, I just need to change some stuff in the UI first.

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>>83005292
>guess it makes sense it's more popular where you live... next time i go to a con i could cosplay scout considering how easy it is to do that
ima forcanature
>i have no idea of what that is desu.
eh, the coffin of andy and leyley. the game that normies are seething about. because muh incest.
>initially i thought she wouldnt like the miku since it was very moe looking compared to everything else i own but i guess my mom is secretly a migu fan too
mothers are very unpredictable at times, but i'm glad she supports your interests, it's very important i think
>uh huh. yeah, maybe when they invent robot girls. or when vr becomes realistic enough that it looks like real life.
don't be so negative, we're not doomed. we still have a shred of empathy left. at least towards the likes of our own. maybe it's not over yet. then again, robot girls are pretty cool desu...
>also im veeery tired so i'll go to bed now
have a good night anon! see you next time!
>>83005295
>I'm annoyed they added me in the first place as I was explicit about only wanting to talk with people in my timezone. I've tried with folks outside of it and it was a pain in the butt.
aye, soc folks are a different breed, you know how it is. camwhores and people desperate for any kind of communication.
>picrel
it's very pretty, i like the drawing you made. pretty witch lady...
>I'm looking for any job during the end of year break but it's rough out there.
i can imagine, anon. i wish you luck on your job searching journey. one could argue looking for it is a job in itself. fucking hell.

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>>83005323
>I'd appreciate any feedback you have. I should have a Steam page for it in a few weeks, I just need to change some stuff in the UI first.
it's very late where i live currently. i'll check it out tomorrow or at worst the day after tomorrow and leave a review on itchio.

>>83005299
thank you for the offer, but it seems like you're plenty busy already, anon
my presence is not needed here, but i wish you a great time anyway
stay hydrated, and posture check

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>>83005292
>how sleepy are you in the morning usually?
very. I couldn't keep my eyes open this morning for like 30 minutes and i was in bed still. After that i got sorta awake but was in bed still.
>i hope your visit goes alright tomorrow anon
thanks
>if they dont want to say it immediately, assume it's low.
Its sorta hardish to know for sure to be honest. The pay has a lot of bonuses sometimes so the high estimates seem realistic sometimes? And they also have a lack of young people so who knows. In the end I'll have a sorta useful license anyways so switching employers shouldn't be impossible if this one is no good.

>>83005299
>for the future, remember to write down things that bother you that you wish to discuss with the doctor
i can't really do that with the one tomorrow but this is good advice which i wish i followed last time, thanks I'll try to remember it.
>goodluck with your job if you manage to land it, anon!
Im not applying for a job just yet but for a internship but thanks in advance.
>i'd get a brain aneurysm.
felt so too a lot of the times. I spaghettied my way to the end of the game but damn does my snapshot look bad compared to others around my playtime.
They made rockets a lot cheaper but in return they gave you two actually interesting planets and one that feels like CBT. Ending is sort of anticlimactic too since the thing keeping you from achieving it is more of a soft lock and not a test of skill and effort. 10/10 would reccomend

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>>83005539
>lot cheaper but in return they
remove the but

really gotta catch some sleep, still read all replies when im awake. I wish everybody sweet dreams and a great tomorrow.

>>82999977
>how are you doing?
Depressed and suicidal
>anything interesting to share?
I'm 30 and I never had a income or a job in life
>are you taking care of yourself?
No
>how did you spend your weekend?
In misery and wanting to die, that's all

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>>83005423
>my presence is not needed here, but i wish you a great time anyway
stay hydrated, and posture check
well, alright then. you're always welcome to join if you ever feel like it. stay hydrated and take care of yourself.
>>83005539
>felt so too a lot of the times. I spaghettied my way to the end of the game but damn does my snapshot look bad compared to others around my playtime.
my factory is 95% of the time a result of someone leaving the pasta maker on for way too long.
based on your description, i'm... not thrilled. but maybe... maybe one day i'll check it out.
>really gotta catch some sleep, still read all replies when im awake. I wish everybody sweet dreams and a great tomorrow.
sleep well anon. see you next time.
>>83005674
>Depressed and suicidal
what's on your mind?
>I'm 30 and I never had a income or a job in life
its never too late to start. even some low maintenance jobs could bring some extra money. unless you're relying on neetbux.
>No
please take care of yourself. if you won't, no one will.
>In misery and wanting to die, that's all
surely you did more than just rotting in bed all weekend, right?

>>83004877
It's surprisingly difficult to make pickles spicy, you have to like 10x the amount just to reach noticeable threshold. Still tweaking, but so far it's going in the right direction. Sugar is good for preserving, but sweets are just not enjoyable.
I moved to the Midwest from deep south about 18 months ago. Despite everyone in the Midwest being fat as fuck they apparently hate food because stores just don't carry the most normal stuff you take for granted as a southerner. Like sausage or salt pork. Everyone's got some stupid sounding surname like Krautsteinschwartzscheizenarsefichen and you'd think Germans would like sausage but no. Can't even make fucking ham right, they don't smoke anything here. They make biscuits wrong. It's only a six hour drive away from home but culture shock is extreme. Even social rules are opposite. Normally giving a gift is something nice you do. You have to accept and not accepting is a deeply cutting insult to the gifter. It's a way of buying social capital, at most you can negotiate soft repayment through not-in-kind gift. The implication is it builds close ties, bonds, kinship. But in the Midwest gifts are bad. In the south you have to accept a gift no matter what. Midwest you have to refuse and you win by not accepting. Stupid and evil, I hate this culture. The unspoken rules make no sense.
Gemini says the deep south is highly structured, aristocratic, and high context society. But this description sounds weird. That's just normal life not fancy. It's not noble or grace, just not being a piece of shit. But people in the Midwest are fucking assholes. They speak directly without grace or subtlety, and repeat themselves. They stare, they lack manners and decency. There is nothing subtle in the Midwest and trailer trash meth heads are smarter than the peak of upper crust Midwest. It was offensive the first time they violated decorum. Doubling down and repeating it just makes them seem retarded. People actually live like this?

>>83005797
>what's on your mind?
I hate my life and I want to die
>its never too late to start. even some low maintenance jobs could bring some extra money. unless you're relying on neetbux.
It is too late for me as I already did give up on getting a job, and I can't get a job either
>please take care of yourself. if you won't, no one will.
My life has nothing to offer or show for
>surely you did more than just rotting in bed all weekend, right?
I take care of my house, my mom and my cats, but I still want to die regardless of all that

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>>83004877
If im not wrong the term for ulcers is a pretty short word in my language so i believe i would have remembered if it was that.
>hospital bills are likely gonna be insane
Its really rubbing salt in the wound at the worst possible time. I was looking at kinds of welfare help to try to deal with this but i dont qualify for any so if i want to keep this away from my family im going to want to find a job asap and i already felt like i was dying before actually trying to die

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>>83004400
>>83004423
>>83004761
Ya I'd only gotton so far on a pirate copy, so i decided to try to finish it on steam
I don't really play video games as much as I used to. Now that I work 9-5 on the computer, im less inclined to spend another 10 hrs/day gaming, instead i end up on instagram.
>>83004718
LED headlights and a 5pm sunset. Next 2 months are going to be rough...

Oh I forgot, I wore my halloween costume on saturday too

>>83005015
A man can dream. The way things are it's unsustainable. It's haram to say that the current is anything but better than any other point, and the Renaissance was the worst thing ever. But I envy the peasant.
I'm a nurse. That's supposed to be a meaningful job. I tell doctors what to do and how to do it and fix people, but I have no empathy any more. I used to think disease 'sickness were misfortune and you could help people. Now I see most people not only deserve it, they were asking for it. Hard not to notice most patients are fat. And rude. And unpleasant. Abolish social security, Medicare, Medicaid, snap. I don't even care if it eliminates my job. There is no dignity in nursing. For every good person I help I'm playing pretty princess with a thousand others.
>>83006037
It's really messed up and feels like a conspiracy. Most of the stuff they do has plausible deniability. But making light in dark, that's just evil. It's blatantly moral. They are evil perverts raping nature. In the city you can't even see the sky. And most people live in the big city/suburb. You don't truly realize how fucked we are until you go down a couple dirt roads and the entire landscape is aflame with beauty. Frogs chorusing, the entire landscape glows in moonlight, you can faintly make out the bands of the milky way. They ban asbestos and radium, they discourage smoking, and all sorts of negligibly harmful things, but lights oh fuck illuminate everything. Raye kids, hate the night, no rest for human man, fuck moths, insects, plants, pave everything. Pisses me off. I purposely try to leave and what do they do? Haha dumb fucking cuck found a dirt road? Alright boys, bring in asphalt and steam rollers! We're gonna pave this shit and destroy the land, environment and value of all land in a 10 mile radius.

>>83006315
I actually work in streetlight design, and Im aware at how people find LEDs much more harsh compared to HPS, but I was myself referring to car headlights.
The cities are probably always going to have light pollution, and it is indeed strange how people live their lives without ever seeing the night sky.
Also, afaik, nurses are adulterous psychos, but doing a very important job. Thanks for your service

>>82999977
>how are you doing?
Tolerable.
>anything interesting to share?
Nothing on my mind.
>are you taking care of yourself?
Im washing and brushing my teeth, but also letting my mental health spiral and cutting myself
>how did you spend your weekend?
I worked on model trains because its a fun hobby that keeps me occupied.

>>83007543
Very cool that you work a job I didn't even think about until realizing how bad things have gotten. Do you see any hope on the horizon or are we damned to this narrow spectrum flickery blue forever?
It was not funny at the time but as a kid I would often disable the light in our yard just by throwing rocks at it. Problem solved because it would be many many weeks before it would be get replaced. The church was the next nearest light source, far enough away it did not bother me. Next nearest neighbor was about a mile away as the crow flies, and that was not how they poured gravel for dirt roads. They never even knew vho did it until I got a pellet rifle. Back in ye oldenne timeths before harbor freight. Big ass tents like the fancy fireworks guys had. They'd circulate flyers for a couple of weeks before setting up in town. $19.99, looked surprisingly similar to a real gun, heavy wood furniture, big upgrade over the slingshot I enjoyed up until then. Now you probably have to show id and get butthole fingerprints taken but these guys just sold it to me.
Long story short my ass got tanned. But I was a cute little eco-terrorist as a teen. There was no one my age in church so I stalked the woods alot. Lots of digging, cutting, and building.
Loved this book as a kid, engineers are cool. Everything they say about nurses is true while also the truth is even worse somehow. I've done big city contracts and worked backwoods collapsing rural emergency rooms and seen places shuttered. Only very bad people go into nursing. Sometimes the baby nurses have a good heart but the bitchy battleaxes are a quick judge of character. Call it bullying, hazing, or "nurses eat their young", many leave the field <4 years of working, average nurse career length is 9yrs. This is heavily skewed by nurses with 30+yr careers. It's a special kind of hell. A few good ones here and there but the wtfs are pretty evenly split between coworkers and patients you see.

>>83008370
I'm new to the field and didn't really consider the industry before I got into it either. Power is a huge market and the majority of the business, but meanwhile all the streetlights are going to be replaced with LEDs because they are more efficient.
Glare, uplight, and backlight onto properties is something that we consider in the design.
I don't think city-wide light pollution will be eliminated, but I imagine and hope technology will advance to refine light coverage. This is really more critical for car head-lights. I rarely find streetlights throwing offensive glare, but every other new car is completely blinding, it's dangerous.

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>>83005797
>maybe one day i'll check it out.
its still a part of factorio so don't call it bad you know, its still way above the industry average. Its just that compared to the base game the dlc feels a little off. The pacing just feels a little off but you still have one nice new planet(vulcanus), a cancerous one(gleba), and two cool ones(fulgora&aquilo). Still factorio, the game of the decade.
>sleep well anon
definitely did. Im not sleepy like a corpse right now so your hex worked on me hehe.
>>83006037
>Ya I'd only gotton so far on a pirate copy, so i decided to try to finish it on steam
if its in any way motivating for you you get to upload a snapshop (not a save) of your map to the factorio site once you have beaten the game with the dlc. Its a lot cooler than traditional achievement imo and despite me talking a bit negatively about it, i still feel like the dlc is a nice and almost mandatory addition. Has the content to justify its price too.

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>>82999977
Hi anon. I spent a lot of time procrastinating and studying and trying to study while fighting procrastination. My brain doesn't work too efficiently, it's pretty tough out here.
Here's a cuddle shark for you.

>>83008665
I could never actually sit down and study. Kudos to you, last time I studied was AP history in high school and it was mostly cramming notes an hour before the test

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>>83008677
Frankly, I could barely study either before bombing my midterms and now I'm panicking because I'm basically hanging on by a thread to pass my classes at this point. I'm honestly really stressed out and worried. It doesn't come natural to me, I've failed a lot in the past.

>>83008688
I feel you. I flunked out of community college (no debts because I paid it all upfront). I wish you the best of luck honestly, and hopefully your efforts will pay off!

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>>83008732
Was I not just talking to you earlier on the other thread...? But thanks anon. Have you ever thought about giving it a second thought?

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>>83008800
*a second try, not thought. Ugh...

what... this thread is not archived? hold on everyone, give me a minute. i didn't anticipate such turn of events. apologies for sudden departure by the way, i had to get some sleep.

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>>83008996
How was the sleep?

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first of all, it's nice to see you robots getting along with each other. warms my ice encrusted heart just a little bit. and thank you all for keeping this thread alive. i wanted to talk to you all again today.
>It's surprisingly difficult to make pickles spicy
i figured as such, it's preserved in vinegar after all. if you can handle vinegar preserved food, you can more than likely handle stronger stuff.
>they apparently hate food because stores just don't carry the most normal stuff you take for granted as a southerner.
weird. i thought everyone liked food. i like food. you like food. americans in particular really like food. no offense, american anon. surely it's not as bad as you describe. there must be something edible there.
>It's only a six hour drive away from home but culture shock is extreme. Even social rules are opposite. Normally giving a gift is something nice you do. You have to accept and not accepting is a deeply cutting insult to the gifter.
america is full of variables, it seems. here in russia, our folks are kind of all the same. well, i can't really speak for everyone. but most of my fellow brethren is bitter and cold even towards each other.
>Gemini says the deep south is highly structured, aristocratic, and high context society.
gemini, as all ai searches, are heavily biased. do not trust it, or at least take what it says with a huge bag of salt. sometimes it feels like even news propaganda sites have more verifiable information than this fucker does.
>They speak directly without grace or subtlety, and repeat themselves. They stare, they lack manners and decency.
eh, i mean, that's culture shock for ya. some people are very insufferable. i guess midwest isn't so great after all...
part one.

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>>83008998
eh... 5 hours of sleep, barely. i wish i could sleep more. i'll have to sustain myself on caffeine and goyslop for the rest of the day.
>>83005891
>It is too late for me as I already did give up on getting a job, and I can't get a job either
why do you think it's too late? it's never too late to reconsider, you know...
>I take care of my house, my mom and my cats, but I still want to die regardless of all that
there, that's actually pretty cool. taking care of the house and your parent is a good thing. you did good. proud of you, anon. even if you feel like your life has nothing to offer, it's nice to take time out of your day to take care of your closest relatives and spend time with them.
>>83006315
>I'm a nurse. That's supposed to be a meaningful job.
it *is* a meaningful job. it just takes a toll on your mental health because of how many assholes you deal with. remember that, even if no one appreciates your work, i certainly do. i have a huge deal of respect for medical workers that take their job seriously. in our trying times, you guys keep people alive. even if some don't deserve it, you're doing god's work. thank you.
>>83005929
>If im not wrong the term for ulcers is a pretty short word in my language so i believe i would have remembered if it was that.
eh, i'm not a doctor. i just assumed that's ulcers. because taking too many meds can cause painful ulcers in the stomach lining. if it's worse than that, i'm really sorry, anon. maybe you could ask the doctors again.
>Its really rubbing salt in the wound at the worst possible time. I was looking at kinds of welfare help to try to deal with this but i dont qualify for any
it's really a long line of unfortunate events in your life, huh, anon... i really hope things will turn out for the better for you. you're always welcome in my thread.
part two.
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>>83009062
>>83005870
forgot to ping
oron.......

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part three.
>>83009099
>>83006037
>Ya I'd only gotton so far on a pirate copy, so i decided to try to finish it on steam
I don't really play video games as much as I used to. Now that I work 9-5 on the computer, im less inclined to spend another 10 hrs/day gaming, instead i end up on instagram.
i understand, it's bound to make a computer repulsive when you spend so much time at the screen doing what you don't want to do. jobs are just horrible like that.
>Oh I forgot, I wore my halloween costume on saturday too
that's a cool costume anon. i'm sorry, but who were you supposed to be?
>>83007543
>The cities are probably always going to have light pollution
ever since i was a kid, i had a dream of reaching for the stars, no matter how corny it sounds. it was made to be abundantly clear that i'll never be able to, but watching stars was a close second. if not taking high costs of the telescope, or requiring two braincells to rub together to operate it, light pollution also makes it impossible to see anything. so i'll have to go innawoods. it's really sad.
>>83006315
>They are evil perverts raping nature. In the city you can't even see the sky.
they've recently started trying out sky fucking advertisements. ads on the sky. ads. on. the. sky.
>>83007682
>Tolerable.
good to hear you're doing okay.
>Im washing and brushing my teeth, but also letting my mental health spiral and cutting myself
i'm sorry to hear that, anon. did you bandage the wounds at least?
>I worked on model trains because its a fun hobby that keeps me occupied.
that's a very nice hobby. do you have any trains to show?
>>83008649
>so don't call it bad you know, its still way above the industry average.
not calling it bad, just a bit unfun to play for me specifically. i hate random garbage destroying my stuff.
>definitely did. Im not sleepy like a corpse right now so your hex worked on me hehe.
aye, i'm something of a witch myself. glad to hear you're feeling better.

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part four.
>>83009179
>>83008665
>I spent a lot of time procrastinating and studying and trying to study while fighting procrastination. My brain doesn't work too efficiently, it's pretty tough out here.
Here's a cuddle shark for you.
hello anon. studying is pretty difficult, but getting yourself to do it is even more so. proud of you for trying. i hope you'll get to it soon enough though. thank you for the shark.
>>83008677
>Kudos to you, last time I studied was AP history in high school and it was mostly cramming notes an hour before the test
i dropped out of university due to how overwhelmingly difficult it was. well, it might not have been so if i didn't miss so many classes. i just couldn't find strength to wake up in the morning. made worse by the fact i don't live with my parents anymore, so threats of physical violence kinda don't work on me.

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OP, I think I haven't seen you around before, or maybe I just wasn't here when you started posting. Anyway I just wanted to say nice to meet you! You seem like a really nice person and I hope I'll see you around!!!

Hello I have spent the last 6 months daydreaming and thinking about learning Godot so i can make a porn game.
Should I actually do it? I have so much sexual energy that i just waste on gooning when i could be using it on making my dream h-game

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>>83009238
i'm just a humble robot trying to provide some moral support to other anons. besides, i'm also kind of starved for any communication, so i'm having a lot of fun talking to you all. thank you for the kind words, i think you're quite nice as well. i hope to see you around.

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>>83009282
hello anon.
>I have spent the last 6 months daydreaming and thinking about learning Godot so i can make a porn game.
Should I actually do it? I have so much sexual energy that i just waste on gooning when i could be using it on making my dream h-game
i mean, sure, if it's been stuck in your head for so long, i say you should go for it. might as well focus your sexual energy on something like a game, right?
what's the cause of that, though? any ideas as to what you made you so agitated?

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>>83008556
I just wish they would consider the impact of blue light. It should be called brown because nothing about led is white. They call it white but it's so harsh and ugly. I don't want to meme, but sodium vapor is so superior to whatever the fuck over 9,000 Kelvin lights without shields or reflectors in use now is. Generally I'm anarchist/libtard/conservative but labels don't matter. The problem would easily be fixed if laws mandated led light should not be detectable from a distance >1m from the source. This language is heavy handed, but necessary to address the reckless pollution caused. Everyone says cow fart bad, but I can't see farts. I also can't see the fucking sky.
Engineering must be a very difficult job. I was spoiled spending the majority of my career in Christian nonprofits. Moving to an irl for profit facility evoked such a strong sense of revulsion that it's really a challenge because I like the people here, but then they say some shit that pisses me off for all the reasons and they just think it's normal. At least at nonprofits they used appropriate language to reject my suggestions. Current place I give scathing criticism and they say lol money and attempt(successfully) to divert or change subject. They know it's bullshit too, but are experts in the art of being ostriches. I hated Healthcare for the right reasons. Only recently did I learn I could hate my job for the wrong reasons to. It's fucking insane how the care is blatantly changed and enforced based upon payer, and very few Americans pay for Healthcare because we're a socialist country. The most shafted are self/private pay.
>>83009062
>>83009099
It's truly wild. Understandable how an evil bad horrible person in Dixie could get fat, our food is actually good. But it makes no sense how Midwest yankee ass yankees get fat because their food is fucking garbage. Everything is sweet and even salt and butter is seen as bizarre and exotic. The frustration is immense when grocery store.

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>>83009308
>I also can't see the fucking sky.
i just wish to see the saturn in the night sky again... is it really that much to ask?
>But it makes no sense how Midwest yankee ass yankees get fat because their food is fucking garbage. Everything is sweet and even salt and butter is seen as bizarre and exotic. The frustration is immense when grocery store.
gluttony doesn't discriminate. they've been eating this food for as long as they can remember, so for them it's the norm. no wonder they get so fat.

>>83009291
Perhaps I've consumed so much porn that I now want to tailor my own hyperspecific scenario because obviously nothing made by other people can match my desire perfectly.
Not even talking anything crazy fetishistic. I just have ideas in my head that i think aught to exist as a porn game already but they dont.
Is that all just schizobabble?

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>>83009388
eh... i don't really think so. not schizobabble, no. i take my time when looking for something specific i'm interested in, and i imagine it gets more and more difficult to find something you want as your demands become higher.