Like I feel genuine deep disgust at this whenever they open up, despite my adoration and love for them. With them I mean the women I've had the fortune of getting to know. And it always shatters my idealistic reality that I'll find a girl who's cute and pure and inexperienced like me. Like the fucking "loser" like me. Fucking hell. This shit is stressing me out. I might be too old for this idealistic wish. It's over. Maybe I should fully commit to becoming a crazy killer.
>>83271700>Like the fucking "loser" like me.You've been brainwashed into thinking being a whore is success.
>>83271895There's a reason I've put it into quotation marks. Recently I've met a pretty girl at a library believe it or not and we started hanging out more often. After a while she started talking about her past, which I appreciated. But then she started talking about her previous boyfriends. Ok, I guess not everyone is an untouched virgin like me haha. Then she started going into detail about the shit she did with them and I'm like woah back off. It's like my attraction suddenly snapped back and I immediately feel disgusted by the world again. Yes dramatic, but this is what goes on in my brain and heart. Maybe I should join a monastery.
Fuck this gay ass earth and fuck you stupid whores I don't want to become numb and settle for this shit I refuse to.I wish I could love and just love something like this but I can't and it hurts so much.
>>83271700i just say learn to accept itt. a virgin trying to get with women right nowI see sex, relationships and intimate encounters as just highstakes investing, you stake your capital of self worth and vulnerability for a chance at validation and feelings of ejaculating, being intimate and worthwhile for someone to fuck. The less of these things you need the more successful of an "investor" you will be.I'm probably just coping but genuinely this is my belief
>>83271916>It's like my attraction suddenly snapped back and I immediately feel disgusted by the world again.You won't have kids and this disgust will be evolutionary filtered from humanity.
>>83271916>like woah back offI had this experience for the first time when I was a young teenager. A girl told me in detail about her experiences giving oral sex for the first time and it was very offputting (especially as a young autist who had not developed socially enough to handle that information).>>83272145Silly anon. No normal person (not just the robots here) appreciates being told the sexual escapades of another person (possibly save for some women's circles, which seem overly open about it).
