I am extremely lonely, touch-starved, etc. Half a year ago, I opened up with my issues to my female friend, and she shrugged it off by saying I only want sex.That really hurt me and now I don't feel comfortable opening up about my issues anymore, I only use ChatGPT and therapy, but they feel like a distraction and nothing helps.I'm not sure if I'm looking for advice or only venting, as in my current state I cannot imagine an actual, trusting connection with another human being.
>>83276026>i have a problem but i can't tell you what my problem is, i'm not sure why i tell you thisok
>>83276026>I just can't open up bro>complains to clankers, therapist and /r9k/being a whiny bitch is a nature you can't avoid
>>83276026i kinda hate you rn but my advice is to care less. yes, really. stop focusing on it. ok, we all overshare from time to time and sometimes we get fucked for it, fine. but stop talking to ai. stop venting to /r9k/ about loneliness and how you got hurt. stop focusing on it. this is one of those issues where the actual problem is the caring about the thing and not the thing itself, so while you might not be able to simply choose to feel differently about it, you can still refuse to actively engage with it
Is this a joke? Download a hookup app
>>83276026Can you post your example chat with the AI? I'm curious. Blackout personal data of course.
>>83276069what? what for?
>>83276069Bruh I tried dating apps already and after a year of no success, I just gave up. I had 3 matches in total and none would even reply.About "hookups", I don't feel comfortable about having sex with someone I don't trust and you need to have a certain level of attractiveness for that to happen. I am ugly and autistic, I can't even have a normal relationship, how would a hookup be possible?
>>83276080>I am touch-starvedYou are brain-retarded
>>83276090>I am touch starved>No don't touch me!Your female friend should have you euthanized
>>83276026people are mean unfortunately and don't really wanna understand others I'm not sure about taking to chatgpt, it sounds like a bad idea because it can't actually understand your problems and it might be okay when you're not looking for answes but it still collects yor information, if anything it's probably better to vent here because at least you're anonymous and I hope venting here helped you feel a little better >they feel like a distraction and nothing helps.they might be just distractions, idk what your specific issues are but it is possible that all you can really do is try coping
>>83276154>if anything it's probably better to vent here because at least you're anonymousokay but I am also here and abusing him for no reason desu
>>83276159okay but I am also here and being nice desuplus people being mean is kinda the standard on this website, so insults aren't surprising and don't work
>>83276091>>83276117that's some serious tunnel vision
>>83276058i don't see a solution in your poststop caring and then what? stare at the void? see people having the thing you want, everywhere you go, everywhere you look, and still somehow not care?
>>83276356yes nigga, if you stop wanting something, people having that thing won't be a problem for youif I am not overdramatic biych then you can be to
>>83276379there's a difference between not wanting and not caringasking to not want to experience some of the most significant things life has to offer sounds like you're talking out of your ass
>>83276444>some of the most significant things life has to offerpeople with ego this tiny tend to be unhappy, thank dog I am not such person
>>83276026>she shrugged it off by saying I only want sexOf course she did. That's how they all are. They are only capable of framing male problems as sex-related. They're entirely useless.I've never had a connection with another human being that was meaningful. It has always been usury and just trying to survive. Nobody can "afford" to care anymore, even literally. The negative emotions are the only things that define me anymore.People are selfish and incapable of making anything meaningful in a relationship. The only thing you can trust is how simple and petty people are. That is the only thing I've found I can rely on others for, petty small things that don't really add up to anything that changes me for the better. My own family was supposed to do that and they couldn't, and that is realistically the only people who can do that job. Too little, too late.
>>83276529more drivel
>>83276603There's either stubborn refusal to let it go or seeing no reason to not let it go.All about principles, I doubt neither of us can be convinced.
>>83276644The problem with trying to convey this nihilistic philosophy to other people is that they are still human.Once you figure out you can just take yourself apart willy-nilly you're not much different than a ship of theseus or a computer. A fleshy machine with wiring that can be easily-replaced in a culture that promotes individualism. It's the power of having absolute freedom and no direction to go. An unraveling spiral of the self, where all is consumed except the barest frayed threads of what you were remain, because you are still a machine with tangible wiring, and that wiring grounds you to this world.Try to convey that to anybody and you'll end up having your roots and wires dragged towards a psyche ward, because to them you are and may as well be broken.
>>83276026You just want sex
>>83276704>The problem with trying to convey this nihilistic philosophy to other people is that they are still human.yeah, these big words you've used were called "principles" by meor "useless philosophy" if I'm in worse mood, anyway you can say what you want and neither your scary scenarios are that scary to me, nor you can be convinced out of your romantic farts>Try to convey that to anybodyhahaha, damn, both of us are not going to understand each other
>>83276734It's three of us. I interjected because I understand more than the passionate person you were initially talking to and failing to convince. You do not comprehend what you are suggesting.
>>83276704let me ask you, how do you spend your days? do you have motivations? goals? how do you see your future? your death? do you have contentment in life?
>>83276748funniest thing is that it's four if not more of us because >>83276058 wasn't mine>You do not comprehend what you are suggesting.I don't know these things I don't know, but neither do I know why should they be important
>>83276794 (Me)>if not morejust as I typed this another anon joined in, fuck having a gf, IDs on every board is what I want in life
Moids who say shit like this do infact just want sex, and simply want to do the soft emotional sadboi routine to try and guilt women into settling for them. This is because most moids these days are trash and utterly refuse to make themselves worthy of being touched at all.
>>83276819This. You don't see OP hugging his mom or volunteering with elderly. He wants touch alright, from a cute girl on his peepee
>>83276783I kill time with work, video games, cooking, self-care and cleaning.I find I am incapable of loving people. So I just focus on surviving. There is nothing waiting either way. I crushed that part of me ages ago because it was causing depression, which in turned caused paralysis, which in turn would kill me in the long run. The mind succumbed, and so I rewired into something to prolong survival and decrease the misery and pain somewhat. That included deducing that most humans are in fact, animals that are controlled by rote behaviors taught at an early age by society, and so all behavior can be traced back into society's moulding like how we moulded dogs with their genes, humans moulded and programmed themselves, often resulting in failed civilizations, so the ones that survived are essentially the genes of humans, and will perpetuate itself by making humans do what it needs to survive as long as possible.While there is little difference between me and society, I found my desire for companionship to be one brought on by basic shame and was pushed upon me rather than it coming from myself, who had more contempt for people than anything. I had to deduce this in solitude for a good year before life reared its ugly head and forced me out into the real world again. Albeit most of the people weren't vile children anymore so the miseries of adulthood seemed to humble the people around me.None of this brings me satisfaction. The alternative is succumbing to the bloodlust and hate that I buried, and that also won't bring me any contentment. There is nothing in this world for me. The logical conclusion would be to kill myself, but there is nothing awaiting me there, either, and it will come eventually. So there's absolutely nothing to do but chew the fat until the end comes. I reminisce and look around to try and find something, even to keep my hands busy, and there's still nothing.Frankly, it's all boring. Death will be the most exciting thing to happen.
>>83276882(cont)Additionally there is no "going back" to being human. Things are objectively better than they were for survival purposes, but reverting to someone who cares about petty things like love and hate and all that, would just revert me into a depressive state again. I can't just reinstall "being a human" because it just would not work. Because I've spent well over a decade like this, my thoughts would inevitably double over and try to reprocess the memories again. Things I "should have" felt, things I haven't experienced well into my 30's so far. Constantly pining for a youth and freedom I never had nor will experience because just living is too damned expensive, no bread, no circus, may as well stop eating and just let it happen.And then *I* show up again through the hunger pangs and have to repair and reinforce things again. I have no reason to exist but the wiring compels me to persist. I am more machine than man, and it is terrible, but not as terrible as dying. Life is misery, but so is death, and death can be so much more miserable.
>>83276026SAME and a lot... i don't get people who get sad because they are lonelyI love being alone
>>83276058why do you hate op? what happened?
>>83278247age? the older you get the stronger it gets
>>83276026>to my female friendsee, that's your problem!
>>83278391oopss wrong thread.. meant for the freens threadthis thread is the exact opposite of what I had in mindbut I'm 20 and I think what you said is coming truebut I don't hate people btw... i'll never be bitter
theres only one option left, anon
