Why cant I connect with humanity? I'm almost 40, I've never dated or had sex, or landed a job, or felt that I belong somewhere. I literally have no networks, connections or a group of my own. No peers.You have no idea how hard this has been.>just go out lolI've been in 12 different schools, have joined hobby groups too numerous to count. I always go talk to people and show interest in their lives. It just never leads anywhere. I think their interest isnt reciprocated and I get depressed. Or we just simply dont click.I often feel that I'm an alien or some kind of non-human being walking this Earth just observing, analyzing, and finding flaws in human society. For instance, I've noticed that there aren't enough jobs for everyone yet humans refuse to build a system where the people left out are adequately compensated. It would make sense, but the winners of the system insist that the system is fair, not realizing this is just survivorship bias talking.I always notice shit like this because I see life in 3rd person, I don't feel, I don't instinctively live or react, I just calculate.>anon you have autismBut why is it that I'm not shy and I can actually have discussions with people? I've hung out with autists and they're so out of touch and almost always LGBT.It's over. People give me advice but there's no fixing what's broken. Can you make me a 20-year-old college freshman again? If not, there's no helping me. I'd need two things to fix my life:1. Find out why I couldn't make bonds with people when I was young2. Travel back in time to try again.
>>83276600For me, I noticed that getting upset about it and trying to seek help just made it worse. I mean it's natural to be upset about this but there's not much that can be done. You can always take the solitaire approach and try to find value in things you control and you want to do. That's the best I got for now.
>>83276600Relatable, anon. I think you just haven't met the same type of autist as yourself, especially if you think they're almost always LGBT.Kind of hobbies are you into? I've a feeling we have a lot in common.>I often feel that I'm an alien or some kind of non-human being walking this Earth just observing, analyzing, and finding flaws in human society. For instance, I've noticed that there aren't enough jobs for everyone yet humans refuse to build a system where the people left out are adequately compensated. It would make sense, but the winners of the system insist that the system is fair, not realizing this is just survivorship bias talking.That's just called having a brain, anon.>I don't feel, I don't instinctively live or react, I just calculate.Yep, that's autism. I'm the same way. A combination of masking and hyposensitivity to emotions. Only thing that makes me 'live or react' is being in physical danger and going into that trance where you stop thinking and just fight on instinct.>But why is it that I'm not shy and I can actually have discussions with people?Could be a lot of reasons. Personally, I find most people difficult to have conversations with because they don't really actually think all that much or have that much to say. They say we autists are the ones that live on scripts, but take the average normalfag, strip away small talk about the weather, and what remains? They rely on it, depend on it, more than they know. Try to discuss a topic on anything but the most superficial, surface level with them, and suddenly they start repeating the words of others like a fucking squeak-and-say, like they've never put any deeper thought into anything. I think a lot of what passes for 'conversation' among many of them is just repetitive rituals, of no more substance than a bird instinctively repeating a mating display. You seem reasonably intelligent, and maybe you have access to more intelligent normalfags than I do.
