Is boredom anyone elses worst enemy? My autism, depression, schizophrenia etc are all secondary sufferings to boredom, if any of that is even real anyway. I am constantly looking for things to relieve me, or waiting for something interesting to happen(never does) but it almost always ends with me walking circuits inside of my apartment or at work, ruminating, I probably walk at least 10 miles per day just inside my room, playing the same playlist of music dozens or hundreds of times.>Nobody to speak to, no friends or even family, my only notifications are threadwatch and my cell provider reminding me im almost out of data>Have read basically every wikipedia article that is at least adjacently related to my interests, each page is full of purple links galore>100%ed my library>Finding new music that I like is rare, usually takes several months for me to find at least 1 new track I like, but when I do it feels like a fine delicacy>Hiking feels underwhelming, my $2000 telescope sits unused, my scuba gear is drier than ever, none of it feels rewarding anymore>The internet fucking sucks currentlyBoredom to me is the alpha sorrow. The weeping and the gnashing of teeth. I've never been as close to suicide as I have when I'm soul-deep in boredom. Declaring war upon myself, living my days in terminal seethery and tearing myself apart because I don't know how to cope. The phrase "bored to tears" describes me well, not because of the hyperbolic original meaning but rather because I will actually break out into tears from boredom. It's sad and pathetic. Actually, even worse, it's fucking boring. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
>>83276615Bro Jewtube has infinite shit to keep me entertained
>>83276615if you're unable to be bored and enjoy your own presence then you're a beta cuck. it's a global problem, you're not special in any meaningful way. t. beta cuck
>>83276615schizophrenia feeds my boredomi can't bring myself to do anything, it takes a painful amount effort to do the things i'm supposed to enjoy, but i also feel bored all the time
Oh i've been feeling bored to the point of wanting to die. It's a real thing, boredom-inspired suicides happen. Schopenhauer wrote about it. Anyway, I've recently started working on creative projects. It keeps me going. Time flies when you're busy doing something intriguing
