Did your parents love you? It's only now in my thirties that I realize, mine never did and that's why I ended up this way.I've stopped speaking to them after this realization.
>>83278251They loved the idealized version of me but not me when i didn't manage to reach it
>>83278251They did, they just didn't know what they were doing, and now I am a mess.Why do you say your parents didn't love you, what did they do or say?
>>83278251Mom saw me drowning for more than a minute before deciding to save me.
>>83278264They never talked to me. They were never interested what I'm thinking or how I'm doing. They never showed any emotion to me other than anger.When I look at other people interacting with their children I'm blown away by how different it is. Our relationship feels more like a workplace relationship in comparison. Stiff and emotionally constipated.If I trooned out they wouldn't react, if started doing heroin they wouldn't react. If I roped they wouldn't react.They put food in my mouth and left it up to the school system and the TV to do the rest.Now as I point it out them, they just take it as "I'm trying to get under their skin", no amount of explaining or arguing will ever shatter their belief they have been examplary parents.This is what eventually got me to cut them off. It's one thing to make a mistake, it's a whole other thing to deny it because your ego too bloated. It pisses me off the lengths they will go denying the role they've played turning me into the dysfunctional fuckup which I am.When they're old and incapacitated I'm going to let them suffer like they've left me to suffer.
>>83278384Wow, I see what you mean, I'm so sorry.I think you made the right choice in not speaking to them anymore, if they're so removed from you that even the mention of this fact sends them into an immediate defensive reaction it's probably best to just not engage.
They still love me, but they didnt love each other for a long time and thats why im the way I am.
I'm not sure.They do give lots of signs of affection, and are not the worst around.However, both have physically and psychologically abused me.My deepest wish right now is to cut all contact with them forever. I feel no obligation to take care of them when they're old. Maybe I'm the unloving one, but I feel no sympathy for them. Maybe even hate.
>>83278251>I've stopped speaking to them after this realization.BasedI stopped talking to them in my mid 20sThey are beyond garbage>>83278264Bro you may realize they loved you less than you think as you grow up
>>83278251What made you realize?
