I'm 36 and live in my car. Take a shower in the local gym once a week. Eat cup noodles that I heat with a gas burner.My net worth is pretty much zero. I'm also a virgin and have never dated.Before covid I was on my way to becoming a physicist, but lost funding and was forced to drop out just before graduating. I was close to becoming the elite of academia, but without a 100% complete degree I'm nothing. I don't live in a country that pays student welfare so there was nothing I could do.You know what I hate the most? The fact that I can't think freely anymore. Anxiety and extreme fear about my survival takes up all of my time. I wake up 3 times a night because of the fear. I think about money and survival 24/7. If someone just gave me a measly 1k a month, I could do something useful with my brain and not waste it on anxiety loops.
>>83280601Just get a job and then go back and finish school
It's interesting how you mentioned that the worst part is losing the ability to think freely.Not the lack of a house, a wife, sex, friends, or anything like that. Instead you want to think again.
>>83280619>"just get a job tomorrow">"literally just walk to some office and start working bro">"what could possibly stop you?"
That anxiety is gonna burn through you, and once it destroys you, you will see that your mind was torturing you the whole time and relax. There are 100s of ways for you to thrive, and you're the only standing in your way.Give up pride. Give up security. Give up despair. Give up fear. Trust only in God. You're alive, thats a miracle, thats bliss.
>>83280619>>83280649I'm 36. That number alone means it's over. One doesn't simply start from square one when they're middle-aged.Gimme a time machine. I want to be 20 again so bad. If I went back to school it would be fucking horrible seeing all the young people living their perfect lives.
>>83280649Man I'm so glad god gave me a car to live in. It's bliss being homeless and eating cup of noodles.
>>83280660Thats fear and pride talking. You said it yourself, you're at rock bottom. So who are you fooling? You're working hard, you're in the game. Don't conspire against yourself thinking it should be any other way.
>>83280660>I'm 36. That number alone means it's overMy dad went back to university again at that age
>>83280740Everyone I used to know (because I no longer have social circles) makes six figs, has a wife and kids, and are basically living lives so easy that they have time to do pointless stuff and invent imaginary non-issues.I envy that.Even if I gave up this meaningless pride and envy, nobody else would. Normies would still ridicule me, because they still believe that capitalism is the measure of a man.
>>83280761A 34 yo here. I just dropped out because i could no longer take studying at my age.I know a lot of people go BACK to school at this age. But I've been in school the whole time. Yup. I've been in and out of schools since I was 19. That's 15 years of nothing but college and university.>how the fuck didnt you graduateI do like 1-2 courses per year. School is so fucking soulcrushing that's all I could take without wanting to off myself.I'm now a NEET and it feels much better m8. Would never go back. I'll just start coping how degrees are meaningless so I dont have to regret my entire life.
>>83280779>But I've been in school the whole time. YupIt's pretty understandable when doing that, academic shit is pretty exhausting long term
>>83280827I stayed mostly because I was hoping to find a young virgin gf that way.But the older I got, the less realistic it became.I still have pipedreams about a 18-25yo tradwife but my mind can't take academia anymore.I'd rather live in my car like OP
>some people make 7 figures a year with little effort>some people live in a car and die before 40I've never understood free capitalismWhy not just share?
>>83281132We live in a society created by narcissists where we(they) need winners and losers....
>>83281183I honestly think about this all the time. Let's take Hollywood actors. Some of them make 20 million per movie.If I was that guy, I'd do one role and then never work a day in my life. But nope, actors keep doing movie after movie until they die.I've never seen an actor quit and retire early. Jim Carrey said he'd retire at 60 but there he is, doing Sonic movies.Why? Most of them probably don't even love acting that much.I think they just got hooked on the money and started collecting mansions and T-rex skulls. Money fucks your perspective on things. 1 million dollars and I'm set for life.
>>83281183>we(they) need winners and losers....It bothers me knowing that If I ever get a job, it's someone else's loss.Everything is a zero sum game even though some people try to debunk this theory.Every cent I make is a cent someone else lost.Fuck, if I want to be truly moral, I can't even get a girlfriend because it just means someone else has to be an incel.
>>83281203Money equals winning to them and that's all that matters to narcissists.>>83281216Very well said but we also have to exist somehow(and get some poon). And it don't even matter. If you have a gf she's probably some other guys gf at the same time
>>83281259>If you have a gf she's probably some other guys gf at the same timeThis. I know this sounds like an incel thing but women aren't really as loyal as men are. Sad but true
>>83281486Men aren't more loyal, we just have less offers to cheat. If you were getting hit on constantly and offered gifts and free meals/drinks from women you would probably cheat too.
>>83280601Yet you still have time to larp on an Israeli basketweaving forum. Curious.
>>83280601>My net worth is pretty much zero. I'm also a virgin and have never dated.same but 33
>>83281515Cheating equals winning which is narcissistic behavior
>>83281259Do you think they should just make money and then sit and goon on their computer like you? Most people get into acting because it's their passion, making movies seems fun. Why not do it even if you're rich?
>>83281622This is reddit pop psyche, not everything needs to be pathologized lmao.
>>83281763>>83281791I will let you win your arguments
