Did anyone else not care about the future when they were children?In some ways I feel like I was born to be a NEET. I know my mental illness is probably why I didn't think about it, I was hardly ever able to cope with the present, much less care about the future. But it was so weird to see everyone else around me not only plan a future but also seem excited about it. Ever since I was a young teenager I dreaded growing up but everyone else seemed to ready and excited. I know that's probably because only the most confident people speak up but it still seemed like most people had some idea. All I wanted to do after high school was just relax, I hated school with all my heart, mind, and soul, and working a job is so similar to that and worse in a lot of ways. I can't imagine what it's like to actually want to go to college or get a job, I just did things because I had to. All I ever really wanted, and needed, was a break.
so for how much longer do you need to break you useless lazy piece of shit
yes, but not because i thought i was born to fail. i thought i was going to kill myself. my ideas of what i wanted to be just crashed on contact with other people and a great urge to leave it all took over.
>>83283543I didn't care about the future. I didn't dread it but was just apathetic towards it.
>>83283586Yeah I was planning my suicide since I was 11, that was definitely part of why I didn't give a shit at all
>>83283543>constantly told "THE END IS NEAR" by evangelical Xtians every fucking where>Y2K came...and went...>literally witnessed 9/11 one cold morning in the 7th Grade>parents never bothered to teach me how to be a functioning adult because they thought the military would do all the heavy lifting>So-called "Global War on Terror">constantly told China or Russia or North Korea or Afghanistan is going to kill us all>nothing happens>2008 Economic Downturn>2012 was supposed to be "The End" as well>etc etc eventually COVIDI never really thought/cared about the future because I was always told there wasn't going to be one. Now it's the end of 2025, and I'm on autopilot in my mid-30s.
>>83283633yeah. i was going to say it's a self-fulfilling prophecy, but i guess me being here posting makes that a bit laughable.
>>83283543people look forward to the future when they can easily imagine something good being there, and that they are capable of attaining it.when you go through high school feeling constant rejection and alienation from everyone the idea of continuing to study or work just seems pointless verging on self harm.
>>83284070THIS! THIS! THIS! You literally just put into words what I've been feeling since I was like 10 years old! I'm 29 now and all I see is just a grown up version of high school but with harsher consequences. I do not want to participate. I was bullied as a child, and I see normies as just grown up versions of those bullies.
>>83283543I relate to that a lot. My childhood fucking sucked and I always knew I would become a NEET. I stopped doing my schoolwork almost entirely in 6th grade, got expelled a few times for highly antisocial things, and finally dropped out in high school. From 6th grade onward I just dissociated at school waiting for the day to end, for the most part. I hated everyone there, my family didn't love me, and my parents sabotaged my health so bad I could barely function, which also ruined my appearance. I had no direction, no one in my family talked to me enough for me to even know basic things about them, my cognition was fucked up, I was ugly and obese, and the real world only ever gave me bad experiences. I've been a NEET for the last 14 years. I'm a khhv of course and I never even tried because who the fuck would have wanted an obese barely-conscious loser with absolutely nothing going for him and no future? There are so many things I've never tried. I never had a cellphone until my father forced one on me a few years ago, and I only use it to text him what groceries I want. I still don't know what jobs he has had, what his middle name is, his birthday, or really anything. Life got so much better when I became a NEET. I just wish I had NEETbux or food stamps or something
>>83284239>My childhood fucking sucked and I always knew I would become a NEET. I stopped doing my schoolwork almost entirely in 6th grade [...] From 6th grade onward I just dissociated at school waiting for the day to end, for the most part.Yeah, this is me. I didn't get expelled though I just got detentions for not doing work. I was forced to graduate high school despite desperately wanting to drop out.
>>83283543I was abused as a kid and it destroyed me mentally. even though i'm 33 I don't know the first thing about being an adult
>>83284376I read the the "christranny.jpg" as Christianity.
>>83283543>forced for years to go to a place where people either ignore or belittle you >do hours of pointless memorization homework that AI could automate 80% nowadays>ignored completely by opposite gender even in groups>family doesn't really talk to me, unless to yell>have no source of pleasure or joy other than chinese cartoons >move towns and school every ~3 yearsWhat would be the point of planning for a future if nobody cares about you, you can't plan for anything long term, and most of your days are spent doing busywork?
>>83284668>>do hours of pointless memorization homework that AI could automate 80% nowadaysStart using Anki--it will save you massive amount of time.
>>83283543There's nothing for me to look forward to in adult life. When you're a kid you're brand new to the world and everything is novel and exciting, you're full of potential. Tragically, that's exactly when they lock you in that prison they call "school" all fucking day. As an adult, you've seen it all; your only purpose now is to raise the next generation and maybe pass down some ideas you think are worthwhile. If you're like me then your entire adolescence was a constant string of failures and nothing you did seems to have mattered. I have no connection to my own generation, let alone the next. I'll probably never have kids of my own, and I have no ideas to pass down or students to teach. Once you've passed 30 dying is no longer a tragedy, you're life is already over anyway. Or maybe I'm just a schizoid, cause I feel absolutely nothing from praise and I have no desire to be accepted by other people. Doing the bare minimum to live comfortably by myself is all I ever aspired to.
