Sometimes I'm convinced that I must be severely mentally ill like schizo adjacent shit and then other times I'm convinced that I'm just lying to myself and making that all up just so I feel validated or unique or something and I fucking hate it and am disgusted with myself all the time
I was diagnosed schizo at the psych ward and felt like i was about to lose my mind, sometime i start doing weird shit like stalking people and just being normal the next day, i have no idea what is wrong with me i also feel like i am making it up but i am can't tell anymore what i am making up and what i am not