Like not in a "I was born without a limb" way, I've been depressed practically my whole life, I was formally diagnosed when I was 7 or 8. I feel like I didn't even get a chance to live a normal life, I didn't get to experience the happiness of childhood and the joy of becoming a teenager. I wasted away in my room, plagued by depression, and anxiety. I'm turning 19 soon and its like what's the point, I don't have anything to live for.I'm just so tired, fuck I wouldn't even feel this bad if I at least had a chance, yk, maybe hold out till I was like 15 or something before I got depressed and at least got to enjoy part of my youth. It's like my life was over before it even got to start.Was there anything I could even fucking do to prevent this from happening? probably not, I was 7 what did the world want me to do. jesus I feel like I won the mental health lottery here.I'm so fucking tired of everything man
Same, I was born in a family with a history of depression and schizophrenia and go diagnosed schizo so i guess i was doomed
>>83285983my family doesn't even have a history of mental illness, maybe autism which ive got but depression is all on 7 year old me
>>83285927It's karma.Genes are karma too.Some people have such a bad karma from their past life that they can't be happy. They can only take it as a purification.
>>83286014what the fuck did I do to get cursed from birth to never be happy?Like actually what horrible thing did I do in my past life that had 10 year old me looking for pills in my cupboards to try and die, 13 year old me learning to tie a noose, and 16 year old me slitting my wrists?
>>83286045Maybe you were Hitler...
>>83286064does reincarnation take place as soon as your previous life died? if so I can't be hitler, unless he died in 2007
>>83286083You are so lucky man, i was born in 99 and i was in your situation for the longest time i wanted to kill myself, but with time as you do things you kind of just move past the problem. My first recommendation is lose weight, fix your diet, second, get some exercise, this does not mean some crazy routine, just do some push ups, squats, etc, make sure you exercise all the muscles in your body at least a bit everyday, and finally do mewing. In 1,5 years i went from being an obese cow to looking like chad unironically. Please listen to me bro, you don't have to live like this but its a long road
>>83286114I'd listen but I'm not fat, I'm a bit underweight actually, but I keep relatively fit, and I don't look half bad, sometimes a girl will say hi to me so I'm obviously not ugly. it makes me feel like I shouldn't be depressed, I have all this stuff going for me but I still feel this way
>>83285927I wasn't formally diagnosed with depression until 18, but I've felt the same my whole life. I'm planning on killing myself when my parents die, I'm not spending another 60-70 years with my brain being so fucked.
>>83286399same probably, I don't want to keep dealing with this shit
>>83286114You're not clinically depressed then, retard. I'm 30 and I've been dealing with this shit my whole life. I tried exercise, St John's Wort, vitamin D megadoses, iodine, plenty of sunlight, a good sleep schedule, and Wellbutrin. I will never subject myself to SSRI's, but I've tried everything else under the sun. It doesn't go away and it never will.
>>83286440literally, it always pisses me off when family or friends that know I'm clinically depressed say "just go exercise" "it'll go away" like mom, you where there for my diagnoses, you know it doesn't go away, you know it's not some simple fix you can do
>>83286448That really is the worst part, they have no idea how fucking monumentally difficult it is just to motivate yourself to do basic things like hygiene and think you can just will it away.
>>83286473Read the myth of sissyphus from Albert Camu
>>83286473its actually demotivating hearing them tell me to just will it away, or get some sun cause that'll make me happier and instantly cured, cause it makes me think that I'm a special case where all these people can will away their depression by getting some sun or doing some exercise and I'm cursed to be stuck in my bed without any way for me to feel better.fuck I'm not even on meds man, my mum said she would rather do a natural approach and heal me that way and she hasn't done shit for 11 years. Every day I wonder if I'd be better off now if she just got me on some anti-depressants then
>>83286513>anti-depressantsanti-depressants will make you obese and leave you with a non-functional cock.
>>83286518dang really, my only hope at a semi-normal life will actually fuck me up even more. Am I just supposed to deal with this shit unmedicated for the rest of my life?
>>83286513Nah trust me, for the really bad cases antidepressants don't do shit. Like I said, I tried Wellbutrin and it didn't do anything. That's about the only antidepressant that doesn't have really bad side effects, and even then I overdosed on accident one time and had a grand mal seizure. I'm back on it since I'm hoping with me being older my brain chemistry has changed, but I'm not holding out hope. The last thing to try is electroconvulsant therapy but I doubt even if I had insurance it would be covered.
>>83286540Just overcome it with sheer power of will like a man and stop being a pussy, you have a job to do and the people around you need you, get your shit together
>>83286567Decent bait anon, you might get some rage if you weren't trying to go after depressed anons.
>>83286579You are just selfish, you would rather prioritize you feeling sad over the needs of othersyour happiness is not required, you think your mom isn't sad about the state of her son? and she still gets shit done
>>83286114>lose weight, fix your diet, second, get some exercisenot op, but this only works if you are fat and have good bone structure underneath. Mewing is also nothing but bro science and probably doesn't work. I am a fat pos, but i'm losing weight, but i don't even think i'll be happy when or if i look like chad because women have already shown themselves as evil and broken the illusion that they are anything but cattle to be whipped in line.
>>83286614Looking like chad feels good, i never even mentioned women, that just your brain playing tricks on you, also, mewing worked for me, i know its anecdotal but honestly, you don't stand to lose anything by trying and it worked for me
>>83286606who said I'm being selfish, I still go do shit, I go to my job every day, I work, I do everything I'm supposed to be doing, but I still feel horrible and empty every day.I always feel so tired, not a tired that sleeping can fix tho, just constant state of exhaustion
>>83286632If that's what makes you happy, good for you, i hope you enjoy it, but i personally am too far gone to think i will ever be happy. I just hate this shit clownworld jew daycare.
>>83286661>>83286643You know what, you people are exactly like the dudes stuck in plato's cave, i managed to escape and i am coming back to set you free and your response is to flip out, call me a liar and then return to staring at shadows on a wall.
>>83286673i'm not calling you a liar? I'm genuinely happy that what has worked for you has worked. It simply won't work for me. I have attempted those exact things, but results have either been subpar or even negative. If it really was as easy as just "leaving the cave" i wouldn't sit here typing this shit. I recognize and applaud you for your earnest attempt at aiding someone, but it's just not that simple.
>>83286673I'm not flipping out? good job on making it outta the cave but I've made it clear that all these "fixes" do not work, I have tried everything under the sun hoping to get out of this pit, be a bit more normal, and they do not work for me
>>83286083There was that one kid that was having nightmares about being a fighter pilot being shot out of the sky and dying where the claim is that he was remembering being a fighter pilot during WWII, recalling the number of his plane and it being traced back to a plane that actually was piloted by a soldier that was shot down out of the sky during battle.Soldier was killed during WWII, kid was born in the 90's or 2000's. So if that really was reincarnation and not bullshit or pure coincidence, then yes even you could be Hitler.
>>83285927Sometimes I wonder if it never could've gone any other way. Not to say I don't have any accountability for myself but so many crucial things went wrong in my life which were completely out of my control. I do my best with what I have but it feels like any life I'll lead will be depressing which isn't exactly motivating.
>>83285927I've been depressed since I was 10 and unironically buddhism (not the religious aspects, the philosophical / lifestyle aspects) fixed me when I was 21. I'd urge you to give it a sincere shot with as much effort as you can muster. If nothing else, hey, at least you tried and you're back where you started.
I was very depressed when I started uni in different city but I thought finding gf would fix me. 10 years later I'm still khhv on medication.The funny part is that girl actually found me pretty back then but I was too much of a autist to start talking to them. Finally I fell in love with this one girl and asked her out but she told me she has much to study so I took that as a no.I was emotionally hurt as a kid and that predestined me to a life without a girlfriend.>>83286114nothing works when you are afraid to love
>>83286014Karma doesnt exist at all, this past life bs is just a big cope a large group of people agee on, its just if you were born lukcy or not.
>>83285927I work a bit with kids at a wildlife sanctuary. My main job is helping maintain the trails and remove invasive plants but I lend a hand to the education staff (all women) if there's the need. It's shocking how, even in elementary school kids, established the male hierarchy is. The boys fall into three main groups>chadlingsUsually the most athletic and boldest boys. They can and do start or get in trouble but are not usually punished severely. >betabuxlingsThe most numerous boy type. They are below the Chadlings and cry to the staff when mistreated. The staff placate the betabuxlings and encourage them not to fight back. Betabuxlings look for validation regularly and will show clear frustration when they don't get it. >RobotlingAt the periphery of all this is the robotling. He's alone. Maybe he wants to be alone. Maybe he's afraid or uneasy around the others, and that may be for good reason. Everyone hates the robotling. The chadlings do, albeit without much effort, the girls say things like "ew", and the betabuxlings berate him to get validation from the girls. Even the staff hate him. He'll get punished far worse for infractions far less severe. There's almost always at least 1 robotling, but even if there's multiple, they rarely band together, instead keeping to themselves. For all this to be so definite at such an early age I can only conclude that these dynamics are set in stone from the start.
>>83287658I was a robotling... No matter what happened or how blatant, even to the point if some kid randomly started beating me, if I fought back the kids would all group together, blame me and the teachers would go along with it. They seemed to enjoy getting away with it and I eventually learned to stop standing up for myself, instead becoming a recluse.
shitty genes/looks + shitty childhood is what really fucks you overif you've been dealt only one of those you can still have a decent lifeif none of those you can have a great life
>>83285927A lot of it is environmental. You could be depressed for life but if you grew up with a healthy support system you'd be fine.>t. attempted suicide for the first time at 7 and never had any system
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