This might not be the best place to ask but im desperate for relief. From a pain in my soul / stomach that never goes away. I dont even have the strength to keep telling my story over and over. I wasnt a bad person, just a good man who got betrayed too many times. Im not lazy, my inheritence and my glory was stolen. I try not to have a victim complex but there nothing i can possibly do to make the world know that im not lying but that the monsters that took from me will never get caught. My only help is from God but hes mad at me because i just crashed the fuck out completely and blew up on Him for not doing anything, not helping me. Please somebody help me this pain is unbearable it turned me into a helpless sack of sadness i need help so bad but this pain will never go away && its extremely hurtful that God wont do anything to help me PLEASE HELP ME they attack me everyday if i had a gun or something i'd be gone what kind of sick fucked up life is this why would a God do this to someone please help me. At this point i just want to sell my soul to the devil & in return he gives me a painless death as soon as the contract is signed i dont even want anything from him just death.
>>83287817Have you considered doing some research on schizophrenia?
>>83287860why tho. do u not believe me? i am open to discussing if its mental illness of some sort, but nobody is open to discussing the possibility that im telling the truth :(
>>83287968for example: if people tell me its all in my head but the objective truth im speaking is indeed the truth, why doesnt anyone believe me the first time? is what i say too big to believe? because thats not my fault or responsibility to shrink myself just so you can believe what im saying. its very frustrating to be defaulted to "mental illness" whole time its objective truth.
>>83287817nevermind. dont post to this thread, it doesnt matter. no matter how many words i write or how many breakdowns i have or how many times i attempt suicide or how many times i repeat my pain, He still isnt going to come through at the end of the day. So im eternally stuck in this cycle with no hope of things getting better. thanks Papa :/
