a person's heart is always isolated, nobody can understand it. nobody can make people understand it. that's why everyone yearns for empathy and love, they seek it, again and again, but they never grow closer as a result.6.6 billion inhabitants walk this world alone. everyone walking the skyway on their own path. they can't reach for each other, they're too far apart. you can only communicate. although the communication is weak, and difficult to understand, the communication between the living, however weak, still goes through.
>>83291017don't squeeze me I'll fart
>>83291031you should get that looked at. could be an underlying issue.
>>83291255>lying under >_<
>>83291282stopstopstopstopstop!!! don't make things sound weird like that!!
>>83291308Sorry I perhaps am touch starved
>>83291378ahhhhh yeah me too.. i am everythingz starved. hngry hngry look at me skin and bones. i hope the person u like gives you a hug some day.
>>83291391don't you know that nobody likes me? jeezdrink healthy smoothies
>>83291017I miss my exgf who was into Kaiji.
>>83291432i don't know that!! i don't really know a lot of things. i only know what i know...nowan likes me either but there are people i like. and hugs from them would be a great treat. aren't there people you like, anon?>drink healthy smoothieswe're drinkin alright!!!>>83291449someone post the tonegawa demotivational
>>83291460yes there are people I like, even love, but I do not think they understand how I love them. Or how much...
>>83291481well, we're all anonymous here. why not speak your heart? i'll offer you ears.
>>83291492Lol, no we're not. What can I say? I want to hold them and breathe in their scent.
>>83291522how aren't we? there's nothing in my name field, there's nothing in yours. >What can I say? I want to hold them and breathe in their scent.is their scent something familiar or nostalgic to you? scents.. scents are nice, nyo?
>>83291017We all share the same heart anon, but few people realize it. It's not something you can accept without a long spiritual journey.
>>83291573It's not anonymous for the mods or feds, it's only the illusion of anonymity.Yes, it might be weird but I want to hold someone and bury my nose into their neck and never forget how they smell. But that isn't going to happen !
>>83291651i think that would be really endearing if i had like, a pet mod/fed who catalogued me. i wanna be that important to somewan! but the thing about illusions, is plausibility. you could be someone i know! but that's rude for me to assume. if i assume, then i make an ass of u n me. so you aren't somewan i know.>Yes, it might be weird but I want to hold someone and bury my nose into their neck and never forget how they smell. not weird at all. not a person on the planet who doesn't think this to be endearing, i would wager.>But that isn't going to happen !why not nya? what barriers keep you from the person you love, from expressing how much you love them, making them understand that you love them?
ah, where are my manners. responses are mandatory.>>83291644i think everyone has their own heart, soul, spirit, or whichever cute metaphorical concept you want to use. we all share a lot of struggles, but deep deep deep down inside is something unique only to us, and that's what makes sharing it with someone so special. when you're vulnerable to someone, when you open your heart like that, what you're saying is, "i'm giving you a piece of me."
>>83291731They don't like me like that they have said so themselves so I didn't even try, regardless, it doesn't matter because they like other people and not me
>>83291749i'm sorry anon.. unreciprocated love is a really harsh feeling, isn't it? what is it that draws you to this person and makes you want their scent so much? do you know who or what it is they seem to like in other people?
>>83291807I don't just want their scent, anon. I wanted a little of their blood too :( just a drop in a locket to keep around my neck and to keep warm with my fingertips but that won't work either now
>>83291744>deep deep deep down inside is something unique only to usI think this is wishful thinking. We are each temporary semistable patterns in a much larger unity.
>>83291827que romantique! gestures like that i think aren't appreciated by many enough.. i can understand your greed. scents are only one sense, after all.>that won't work either nowdid something happen to schism you from your person? i wish to hear more, that i can live vicariously, if you don't mind.>>83291849if there was anything close to a hivemind then i don't think much of us would be so lonely and broken hearted.. do you ever feel that close to somewan?
>>83291885You can't ask me details like that because I have to start key shifting my responses'@! 698 +3@4 ?3Besides that's not why it... Wouldn't work. It's not an issue of connection but the former state of the blood that has now, changed. There is specific reason why I would do that and only for specific people with a specific trait, and it would only work if someone holds this trait.I only knew one person before who I wanted to do this with, it's a very special ritual that I've been holding out for someone very special, and they are very few and far between - someone who fits an extremely specific niche criteria.
>>83291885>do you ever feel that close to somewan?I feel that close to everything. Unity and separation are equal and opposite illusions.Tis true without lying, certain and most true.That which is below is like that which is aboveAnd that which is above is like that which is belowTo do the miracles of one only thingAnd as all things have been and aroseFrom one by the mediation of one:So all things have their birthFrom this one thing by adaptation.
>>83291944july 9 i used a replacement cipher like that... it never got decoded, i think. here's my poem from that day, though a lot of it is actually quoted from elsewhere.. so it's not "my poem" per se.by bitter paths comes wisdom,in wake of shattered dreams.heavy thoughts on broad shoulders,it enters unbidden,and takes seat by your hearth.what is it in someone that makes them so unique that deems them worthy of such a ritual, in your eyes? how did the blood change?>>83291951i don't feel that close to anything, really. the closer i try to pull myself, the further away i am pushed. tablets, tabulas, tabula rasa, jeez. i get called a schizo with apophenia but it really feels like the universe loves to rhyme. it's like seeing a car in GTA once, and now it's everywhere.
>>83292187Ciphers aren't easy to crack without a key. And once you have the key you can just feed GPT the lines and it will somewhat(?) accurately translate. (sometimes)I like your poem, art is just a replication of something else anyway. Did you understand what I said in my cipher?It's a connection thing... I say ritual because it does have roots in occultism but it's really just a simple show. Always having the person you love's blood with you, their life essence, that you can just hold when you want and it's always there?Then, if anything happens or things go bad, you can just break the locket open with a hammer and the seal is broken, wow so mysticalImpurities and introduction to foreign elements is what happened.
>>83292236i don't have the key, so i can't decipher it. it could be too many things, and assumptions... aren't good to make. gets me in trouble. can i have a hint?>Always having the person you love's blood with you, their life essence, that you can just hold when you want and it's always there?this is really cute. i like this kind of idea. but, well. i'm always open minded about these things.>Impurities and introduction to foreign elements is what happened.what made the blood pure vs impure? what elements were introduced, and can they be removed?
>>83292332>can i have a hint?qwertyuiop=1234567890asdfghjkl=@#$_&-+()zxcvbnm=*"':;!?-8, @!9! :D = hi anon :Di just want something sweet like that i really do. my heart aches for this warmth. idk why but just having a little bit of their lifeforce and them maybe having a little of mine in the same necklace or bracelet would be really cute and sweet.unfortunately not :/ once you are tainted there is no return.
>>83292380ah, so it's "can you hear me". i thought it was, "can you read me". i was close! you can now tell your full tale in our cryptographic language.>i just want something sweet like that i really do. my heart aches for this warmth. as in my opening post.. i think all of us really want that warmth. that closeness. that's why they call it heartache, nyo? >idk why but just having a little bit of their lifeforce and them maybe having a little of mine in the same necklace or bracelet would be really cute and sweet.i think it is sweet too, anon. did the person you crave know of your intents for these kind of actions?
>>83292417Indeed... But like I said, she doesn't even find me attractive so it doesn't matter anyway. It's probably for the best because the way I would treat her is not a lifestyle I could provide for since I'm broke.
gosh you are ever so cringe
>>83292491don't be mean.. i know i'm cringe you don't have to repeat it.. kaiji is a good rewatch let me post quotes in peace.>>83292485what sort of lifestyle would you wish to provide? did she say you're not attractive in their eyes, or was that just because you seem so different from who they do like?
>>83292491Name a single person who likes being around you, I'll wait.>>83292523Tbh if I was a rich I would treat her like royalty which might be retarded of me but whatever. I'd love to cook for her and have her eat more and a healthier diet, exercise more, go swimming and hiking together. But that, again, is obviously just a silly fantasy.
>>83292545i am sure that person has plenty of company they enjoy. it is apt to call me what i am, a spade is a spade. there's nothing admirable or likeable about doomposting into the void in absence of having any human connections anymore. this is my last resort, really. i just think it's pointless to kick dogs.>I'd love to cook for her and have her eat more and a healthier diet, exercise more, go swimming and hiking together. But that, again, is obviously just a silly fantasy.none of this requires any serious wealth! you can pamper people on dimes. expressions of care and love go far further than small trinkets, yeah? home cooked meals.. are the best. what would you like to make?
>>83292571>there's nothing admirable or likeable about doomposting into the void in absence of having any human connections anymore.It's not like there's anything else.It would require wealth to give them the life I think they deserve, and that isn't wealth I have. Outdoors stuff is free, yes, that's true. I would probably make lots of soups, breads, I like cooking chicken and such. I would probably try to make every meal well balanced and rounded with something from each food group...
sagebumping come backk
>>83292727>>83292588i smelled poorly and had to take a shower.what is it about this person which drives you towards them, a desire to delve into the occult? why do you feel there's a life they deserve which requires wealth beyond your means?
>>83292895stinky neet!! :3Honestly anon, they're just nice, and they're inarguably a better person than me. Frankly I think they deserve to be with rich gigachad supermodel ultimate who treats her like a queen, maybe it's silly but I think due to their archetype they just deserve it.
>>83292907i am very far from a neet.. not at all.>they're just nice, and they're inarguably a better person than me.what makes someone so better, so idealized? everyone can be nice, so why is it their nice? what is it in their archetype..? i don't get it..
>>83292953Oh, well that's good, I wish I wasn't.Honestly, I could be totally wrong about this person. I know some dark hings about them though and I still really like them, they've only ever been very kind to me. She looks like someone who just stepped out of a story book, that's the best way I can describe it.
>>83292976what stops you from finding work?>I know some dark hings about them though and I still really like themwhat kind of things? i thought you said blood was tainted, though?>that's the best way I can describe it.but surely there's more to why you likelike sumwanwan than just their looks n that they're nice, nyo?
>>83293006Well, nothing, really. Just haven't had good luck, but, in fact, I got a text today from a place I applied to work so I am hoping I get this silly job at least for the winter...Tainted is maybe harsh. Just not, pure. And that's okay, it's silly anyway to think that somebody can only love if they're "pure"... Another can of worms in which I have conflicting views on both sides... But logically I am not pure, and have not been for quite some time, wishing for purity like that is selfish. Just for the purpose of bonding, not necessarily, intercourse. I am being vague, sorry.She looks like a girl cut from a Victorian era painting of a young noble girl, it's not necessarily her looks, but all the theories of past lives and facial familiarity. I want to believe in those things even if they're silly, because rarely when I see someone who fits the mold for a certain archetype I just see... A long dead person who willingly chose to reincarnate their ancient blood. An old soul. Someone who has seen everything, done everything, and came back with wiped memories but still an air of certainty and knowing.
>>83293048best of luck with the job there, anon. you write a lot of very emotion-laden things about your person, i am sorry that your feelings could not reach them. i should be sleeping for work, but maybe i'll write instead
>>83293085Thanks, anon :)Well, it's my own fault anyway, really. Plus it's just silly. It would never work. You should sleep, is it late for you?
