The only woman who ever saw me as a human and showed real interest in the real me and shared my interests who was also smart and so pretty left me over 6 months ago it just seems impossible for me to move on. My shitty incel heart still yearn for her, I don't think there is anyone like her in this entire world who will ever be able to replace her. I lost nearly everything I had after she left me, I had $200k in crypto and now I am $40k in debt. I tried to make enough hoping she would take me back if I fulfill her biggest wish she had.I think it is over I traded 5 years for this money and now it is all gone and my heart is broken in a million small pieces. I think about death nearly every day, there is really not much left for me in this world. Oh god I just want a hug from her and her telling me everything is going to be okay, I know it is never going happen I was always destined to endlessly suffer from the start I was born.
