I overthink everything in my life. I wake up and do nothing all day. Weeks go by and I have nothing to show for it. Spend all my free time gooning. I have no motivation to do anything productive like go to the gym or do work even on hobbies I enjoy. Watching movies or anime feels like a chore. Never kissed or had sex, only had a situationship with one girl and I'm too stressed out to do that again. I am indifferent or hateful of life like 90% of the time but honestly if it were only 10% I still don't think I'd be worth it. Favorite part of my day is going to bed and sleeping in till noon on weekends.I refuse to self-improve out of spite because I am too prideful to put in effort and also it's hard and I lose drive. Even if some deus ex machine dropped a perfect girlfriend into my life I would be too scared to accept her. I think everyone deep down resents me and I agree they should. Only reason I don't want to is I want to see Christopher Nolan's Odyssey movie in 2026 and play this game Pentiment, and also my family would be sad.I don't think I'm ever gonna be happy in my life in any abiding way and if the opportunity to attain that comes near I will just push it away. I must sound like a massive faggot so please just tell me to kill myself.
>>83305621> I think everyone deep down resents me and I agree they shoulddon't do that
>>83305621If more white women left their bodies hairy like this they wouldn't have anywhere near the amount of simps begging them for sex like they do now. A large part of the white female appeal is this idea of them being these clean virgin maidens or sex goddesses with nice beautiful clean skin and pink holes you can use for sexual fun. This all goes out the window with girls like this in your pic kek.
>Watching movies or anime feels like a choreI love how you included this, as if you were put on this earth to watch movies and anime, and you're failing your divine mission to watch movies and anime.Anyway, if you want things to get better:>8h of sleep every night, don't stay up late>leave the house at least a few times a week, go on walks, go shopping whatever>do at least some exercise or something strenuous or walking>cut down on junk food and try to eat healthyThese things are necessary to not feel like shit as much. If you don't have them in your life, it's a huge uphill battle to not feel shit.
>>83305708NTA but>as if you were put on this earth to watch movies and anime, and you're failing your divine mission to watch movies and anime.Are you too retarded to understand OP can't even find enjoyment in his hobbies anymore?>8h of sleep every night, don't stay up lateDid this, nothing>leave the house at least a few times a week, go on walks, go shopping whateverDid this, nothing and it costs money>do at least some exercise or something strenuous or walkingDid this, can't maintain habit for shit>cut down on junk food and try to eat healthyDid this, whoopee.
>>83305678White women are the only ones who can let their body hair grow out and not be completely putrid. Even "white passing" swarths can't get away with it.
>>83305621Self medicate with a low dose of a light opiate like tramadol or buperenorphine, both are dirt cheap for threshold doses. Tramadol saved my life and isn't a drug you can take higher and higher doses of since it will give you a seizure so things don't get out of control. I was already very open minded about drug experimentation so it was only so long (about a year) before I was trying stronger drugs but if you're not a druggie it's the perfect anti depressant.I was litterally planning my suicide beforehand so this is something I only reccomend to people at that stage due to the addictive nature of the drugs and the need to keep a constant supply.
>>83305621>Spend all my free time gooningthat's your problem. you've fried your brain's dopamine receptorsdetox from porn, drugs, alcohol, vidya, and imageboards. exercise and eat right. that's how you fix this.
>>83305752>Are you too retarded to understand OP can't even find enjoyment in his hobbies anymore?I know but I still find it hilarious that not enjoying stupid brainless hobbies is somehow a big deal. Most of the world doesn't watch movies and anime.>Did this, whoopee.I didn't say it was all you needed to do, I just said they're pretty much prerequisites and that it's an uphill battle.Anyway no one's gonna give you a medal for suffering. It's your life to fix, and if you don't, you better hope the smug self-pity will be consolation enough.
>>83305764Body hair on a female is always disgusting don't be retarded. The only reason they aren't as putired as the other girls is because white females are the top females in terms of looks. Still that doesn't mean your average man wants a hairy white female or worse one with a shitted uncleaned ass. Only particularly cringe worthy losers are into this shit.
>>83305621stop gooning and pick up some hobby that you can grind
>>83305708>I wasn't put on this earth for anything. Except maybe to fulfill the desires of my narcissist sycophant parents for me to marry and reproduce. Love is a joke, and even if it isn't, it will never find me, and even if it does, I have already resolved to push it away.>I don't even want to not feel like shit anymore. I just want to not feel anything. Also I'm too much of a lazy nigger to commit to any of those suggestions. I've tried. I don't wanna try anymore. None of that makes any sense to do unless you already have a desire to live.>oh, just do it and the purpose will come after!No it won't. As soon as the feeling of purpose comes I am too smart and will just think myself out of it. If I was a fucking bantu in the middle of the wilderness and every moment counted for something I'd probably be less depressed. Any challenge that I artificially create for myself in my own life isn't going to mean anything when I could just not bother and there is no adverse affects. Men are pretty much unneeded in society and in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter if I live or die. I could try taking a politician or a classroom full of students with me, and thereby have an effect on history, but even that won't matter in the end of all things. To do that would be to fight for meaning. I'm too deflated to care to do that.
>>83305621are you a caffeine user?
>>83305802Dopamine detox is a meme, isn't it? Genuine question.
>>83305791I'm not talking to some doctor to prescribe me drugs. If you need drugs to make your life worth living you shouldn't be alive. Not attacking you, anon. But say I mope to a doctor and then take these drugs then what? I have no motivation for anything else and I would feel like a faggot for using drugs as a crutch instead of improving my life and be a liability to everyone for needing medicine so I don't crash out and kill myself. So yay I stay alive and for what? If there was a drug that killed your ego so I stop being such a self-absorbed person that might help; I hear LSD does that but I don't know where to get that (kek and I don't know if I'd even be motivated enough to go through the effort!)
>>83305883>>oh, just do it and the purpose will come after!Did I say that?>too smartNigga you watch Nolan movies, get a grip.
>>83305927no. (do I sound like one or are you suggesting I become one?)
>>83305955>no you didn't but I am just anticipating that as a retort (mainly because it's the sort of retort I would offer).>I know Nolan is an overrated meme director, I just like the cinematography and sounds effects and also I like ancient/classical myth. I feel like I HAVE to watch it.
The best thing anyone can do is delete all of it from all hard drives. Pack away your vidya machines too. Go outside, touch grass. You won't, though. You'll just be gooning in your 30s, 40s, 50s if you can make it that far.
>>83305764You know that Africans dont grow nearly as much body hair right? Im an african woman and I only shave my legs and arms for fun (and to exfoliate). I barely grow any hair, there is no evolutionary need for much body hair because of the warm climate. That's the case with almost all Africans. We can let our body hair grow, because we barely have any.
>>83306312Read your post and make a vocaroo, bro
>>83305942Dealer not doctor, unless your doctors a dealer. Actually more like dnm vendor. Anyway this advice isn't for people looking to find a reason to live through work, it's a cheat code for the desperate to feel a sense of peace and a massive boost in confidence and enthusism for effort. I went from a noctunal agoraphobic NEET on the brink of suicide having tried everything conventional for help to getting a job, becoming very sociable, filled with confidence and enjoying life. Like flicking a light switch or finding a missing puzzle piece. I had to make peace with knowing I would be an addict but knowing the drug was considered the least addictive opiate painkiller, it being $1 a day habit and very accessible was justifable enough for me.It's good you don't want to be dependant on a pharmaceutical, you see a future for yourself atainable through working on yourself. Excercise works, a 'runners high' from physical excertion feels like a drug. LSD can be a very useful tool, have you tried psychedelics before?
>>83306312the last black girl I had sex with had a "happy trail" of hair going to her belly button
>>83306415African americans are mixed with white. Thats why. Mainland Africans dont grow much bodyhair. I barely have any armpithair too. Just some lone strands that i shave from time to time.>>83306321No?
>>83306403I don't know anything about finding or interacting with a dealer
>>83305621Stop watching porn>>83305678Coombrain comment. Every single one of your ancestors had pubic hair. You only expect perfectly shaven now because it's the norm in all the hundred of porn hours you've consumed.
>>83305708Good advice but of course OP will not listen. You can't help people who don't want to help themselves.
>>83305936No, it's not. It's about attention and your reward system. People like OP are addicted to screens, porn, junk food, etc. because those all provide hyperstimuli. Your brain craves more of those things because in appearance, they will never compare to anything that exists in the real world. However, if you stop consuming those things for a long enough time, your reward system will reset and you will start to find joy in simple things like watching a sunset. You'll notice this if you ever go on vacation and disconnect from the internet. The grass looks greener, food tastes better, everything is more enjoyable.>>83305942You should avoid drugs at all costs. They will not improve your life. Most psychiatric drugs are not even significantly more effective than placebo and come with all kinds of disturbing side effects.
>>83306688me either, the deep webs have thriving drug markets... or so I'm told so it can't be that difficult to find and use said markets.
