Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportChristmas, just two weeks away hello ho ho>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
hellooHere's a bunch of helpful links> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
Afternoon /cat/. What's up?>>83361970>>How are you doing today?Pretty good. Most of my cold is gone now, and I woke up at a good time.>>Any plans for today?Doing my 2nd last exam, this one's on motors.>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?November of last year.>>Why did you hurt yourself?Frustration with my lack of direction.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?One of my profs messed up the homework grading software so it's overriding my perfect marks with zeroes. If they don't fix it before Saturday I'll lose a shit ton of marks over something out of my control entirely.
>>83362074hello ur first btw \o/as always heheright now I'm still working on that project :/best of luck to u with those marks hopefully they notice it's not your fault
>>83362295>right now I'm still working on that project :/Any reason to if you're dropping out anyway? I guess not failing would matter if you change your mind and do another semester.>best of luck to u with those marksThanks. Most likely they won't notice in time, but I should pass that course anyway since I did well on the exam.>as always heheOnly place I post nowadays. Deactivated everything else to lock in on college.
>>83361970hi catbro! (^-^) how's are you doing?>Christmas, just two weeks awaytime's just running by. still got to get some presents. :0>>83362074hey anon!>Most of my cold is gone now, and I woke up at a good time.great to hear that! :D >Doing my 2nd last examhope it goes well. good luck.>so it's overriding my perfect marks with zeroes.well, i'm sure they'll be able to fix that even after the fact. if not that sounds like a case for a lawyer.
Hallo yuanon what up >>83362574>i'm sure they'll be able to fix thatI just spoke to my prof and person and it was intentional. Only prof that gives you a zero for late homework submissions, cunt behavior honestly. The homework is multiple choice questions that get marked by the software, no input on his part beyond submitting the questions. Piss off.>hope it goes wellLeft my journal with all my notes at home and only noticed now that I've sat down. I'll get some studying in anyway with the course resources but it'll be barebones.>lawyerI'm not American
>>83356857>I dont think I will post here today because its too late alreadythat's ok. hope you slept well.>lately I was feeling worse and worse about anything in particular or in general?>and thinking about giving cutting second chancewhy do you think it'll work better the second time?
>>83362708>what upnot much. sitting in front of my pc, listening to some stream. not much else to do. i think i'll head to my local nerd store tomorrow and pic up one of the manga they're ordering for me. i'll ask them if they have fire punch in stock. if not, i'll order the 1st volume.>it was intentional.i see. that's pretty scummy, especially if they were marked as passed before. can they just change it after the fact?>Left my journal with all my notes at home and only noticed now that I've sat down.ah, that sucks. :/>I'll get some studying in anyway with the course resources but it'll be barebones.it's better than nothing, i suppose.>I'm not Americanstill gotta look out for yourself when faced with educational despotism.
>>83361970how do I get a fucked up twink bottom bf like this?
>>83362460>Any reason to if you're dropping out anywayjust so I can pretend I'm doing something a little longer >Most likely they won't notice in timeyou should write them an email so that they can't say no one told them>place I post nowadaprobably a good decision >Deactivated everything else to lock in on college.you sound very dedicated >>83362574eyoo>how's are you doing?doing stupid project but I decided to stop for today wbu? tired?>time's just running by.yep :o>still got to get some presentshope they don't get sold out
>>83362574oh I was wondering what should I get myself for christmas
>>83363162>doing stupid project but I decided to stop for todaybut you made some progress. good job! :>>wbu? tired?yeah. just gonna watch some streams and vids tonight. glad it's close to the weekend now.>hope they don't get sold outi think i'll just get some books. the usual stuff of you don't know what to get. hope they don't run out of those :0>>83363178tough question. is there something you really want right now? maybe something for your bike?
>>83363162>just so I can pretend I'm doing something a little longerdon't get it desu>write them an emailAlready talked in person, it was intentional.>dedicatedHardly, I would've failed if I didn't ace all my exams.>>83362918>i'll ask them if they have fire punch in stock. if not, i'll order the 1st volumeSwag asf hope you like it.>can they just change it after the fact?Nope it's overGoing into my exam in 10 minutes
>>83363340>Swag asf hope you like it.hope so, too. most series i liked have ended, the one i'm currently buying has kinda lost me and the ones i'm looking forward to will be released here sometime next year. could use somethibg good for a change >Nope it's overi see. well, as long as you still pass, whatever.>Going into my exam in 10 minutesrooting for you! (*^*)9
>>83363402>could use somethibg good for a changeIt's kino. Kino face.>long as you still passExam should push me over but I'm still not happy about it, widens the margin for failure.>rooting for you! Aced it.
>>83363283>you made some progress. good job! :>thank you :>hopefully I'll be able to present it becouseee I'm quite a few days past the deadline and I think I'll present it on monday>gonna watch some streams and vids tonighthave fun I'm watching old stream of guys playing mario party> glad it's close to the weekend now.hope you get to rest a little >hope they don't run out of those :0I think you're pretty safe on this one>maybe something for your bike?honestly I don't think I need anything for the bikemaybe I'll just get a knoif, I thought about buying a opinelbut maybe I'll find some other gadget >>83363340>don't get it desuit's a little complicated but I don't wanna explain it >it was intentional.huh why?>failed if I didn't ace all my exams.but you aced them!
wassup fuckers, i didn't do too much today except paint.
>>83364093>It's kino. Kino face.alright, alright. i'll take your word for it.>Exam should push me over but I'm still not happy about it, widens the margin for failuresure. no reason to be. it was a shit move by your prof.>Aced it.as i knew you would. good job! :D>>83364153>hopefully I'll be able to present it becouseee I'm quite a few days past the deadlinei'm sure you can do it! fingers crossed! >have funthanks. watching a reaction stream to the game awards now. we'll see how fun that'll be.>I'm watching old stream of guys playing mario partyare those fun?>hope you get to rest a littlei think i already agreed to meet for some board game night with some friends a while back. nearly forgot... ^^'>I think you're pretty safe on this oneyeah, but maybe it'll be just the bad ones that are left D:>maybe I'll just get a knoif, I thought about buying a opinel but maybe I'll find some other gadgethm. maybe something like a leatherman?>>83364344hi chev! :]>wassup fuckersnot much. just chilling and watching some streams.>i didn't do too much today except paintgood job, buddy. keep at it!
I'll go sleepbeen a tiring day>>83364344eyaowadya paintn?>>83364401>sure you can do it! fingers crossedI'll try>we'll see how fun that'll be.hopefully they announce hl3 :3>are those fun?I'd say so>for some board game night with soat least it's mostly sitting and talking maybe you coud eat smthn too>it'll be just the bad ones that are left D:DD; >something like a leatherman?hm good idea maybe
>>83364575sleep tight!>I'll trythat's all anyone can expect. :>>hopefully they announce hl3 :3as far as i know gabe, for an announcement of hl3 he'll just waddle out of his home, tell somebody he meets on the street and waddle back inside.>I'd say sonice>least it's mostly sitting and talkingmaybe you coud eat smthn toosure, but those boardgames can get really complicated.>hm good idea maybesometimes i get those. :] do tell what you decide on.
>>83364401>it was a shit move by your profShoulda handed it on time to start anyway tbdesu>good jobThanks. I'm completely bombing this next exam guaranteed l, but I'm not stressing. I did all the homework for the course and fluked out aces on the other 2 tests for this ccourse. Then I'm finally free from college...>>83364344Hallo che>>83364153>but I don't wanna explain itFair enough>huh why?He didn't want students submitting homework late so he automated marks of zero>but you aced them!Wouldn't have had to if I worked right to begin with...
>>83365016>Shoulda handed it on time to start anyway tbdesumaybe, but that doesn't mean we can't talk shit. ;D>I'm completely bombing this next exam guaranteedhow much time do you have to study? maybe you could get to an kindaish ok mark?>I'm not stressing.always good when you aren't stressed going into an exam. >I did all the homework for the course and fluked out aces on the other 2 tests for this ccoursewell, you put in the work. it's not entirely flukes, so don't sell yourself short.>Then I'm finally free from college...yay! (^-^)
Hey everyone!Longtime lurker here. It honestly makes me feel so happy knowing people cope with the same negative emotions I do and are so positive and wholesome with each other.Thanks to the warnings on these threads, I never ended up cutting myself so I'm very grateful.Still, the ideations and such persist. I'm not sure if I plan on become a consistent contributor.>> 83361970> How are you doing today?I'm alright now. I had a meeting with my "life coach" today. They're expensive af but their work is useful at least.> Any plans for today?I want to get another unit of my course done. This one course is really annoying and I don't want to do it.> When was the last time you hurt yourself?Today...> Why did you hurt yourself?My mom vented to me and that re-opened some of my insecurities... I know she loves me but I know it would be better for her if I was gone.> Is there anything bothering you right now?Same stuff with my mom. Situation's complicated but she's just very against my meds.P.S. It seems everyone has a character/persona they've chosen? To be honest, I don't really get it but I'll use this excuse to share my oshi: TM Opera O from Umamusume. I'll save the yap on how I love her for another time. Maybe "openon" would make sense? Open to suggestions on that one!
>>83365209hello anon!>Longtime lurker here.lurkers? in our thread? :0 just kidding. ^^ how long have you been with us?>It honestly makes me feel so happy knowing people cope with the same negative emotions I do and are so positive and wholesome with each other.thank you for your kind words. that means a lot.>I never ended up cutting myself so I'm very grateful. Still, the ideations and such persist.glad to hear that you were able to avoid it til now. try to stay strong, ok? you can always come and talk to us about whatever. maybe it'll distract yourself.>I'm not sure if I plan on become a consistent contributor.that's completely up to you. you can stop by every thread or once in a blue moon and you're just as welcome.>I had a meeting with my "life coach" today. They're expensive af but their work is useful at least.they better be if they're expensive. :< what does life coach do, though?>I want to get another unit of my course done. This one course is really annoying and I don't want to do it.i think a lot of people here can relate. what's so bad about it?>Today...dang. what did you do?>My mom vented to me and that re-opened some of my insecurities...maybe she could get someone else she could vent to? i'm sure she got her own frustrations and issues to deal and that's ok, but maybe you aren't the right person to dump it on. >I know she loves me but I know it would be better for her if I was gone.that's a thought that a lot of us had at some point. i'm just glad you've made your way here so i can get to know you. at least that made me staying up to watch the game awards worth it.>Situation's complicated but she's just very against my meds.why is she against them?>It seems everyone has a character/persona they've chosen?it's easier to identify certain anons by names or the pics they post, so they don't always have to identify themself again when they post again. that's about it.
>>83365209>I'll use this excuse to share my oshi: TM Opera O from Umamusume. I'll save the yap on how I love her for another time.should save that one for officeanon. he's a fan of the game as well. ;D>"openon" would make sense? Open to suggestions on that one!only thing that comes to mind is the longer version of "operanon", but "openon" works just as good.
gonna head to bed now. good night
Have a bump on me. I'll post a bit later.
Sleep tight, anons
graduated from /cut/ to /drugfeel/
hey everyone good morning hope you all have a nice friday
>>83367203hope they're good folk. >>83367500good morning! was up a little late yesterday... ^^' you have a nice day, too!
>>83367862hey>was up a little latehow much (or little) did you sleep?>you have a nice day, too!thank it'll probably be, I'll stop working on the project I think and I'll just chill today
Good morning! I just noticed my first post had the wrong formatting ;-;>>83365442Thanks for replying to all of my random stuff, yuanon! >lurkers?Yes! When I was in a really bad mental state, a couple years ago (2? years ago), I discovered this thread. At first, I was looking for someplace really toxic so I was really surprised to read that it was just a couple of anons going about their life, trying to live. It was honestly a huge motivator for me.>that's completely up to you. you can stop by every thread or once in a blue moon and you're just as welcome.<3 thank you! I think I'll probably stay here for a little while. Honestly, though, doesn't it feel a little sad knowing that your relationship with everyone on these threads are so limited? I suppose that's the beauty of it. Still, wouldn't it be quite sad if some anon just dissappeared. All I can do is have faith that they're okay? Maybe my zoomer is showing here but that's so unfortunate.>they better be if they're expensive. :< what does life coach do, though?Basically, therapists can't tell you how to solve your problems, only talk about your feelings. I think that's against some code of conduct. A life coach is usually someone with a ton of life-experience that will actually help you solve your problems, offering practical advice. They do teach you their methodologies of thought too so you could implement it yourself.If you want to be cynical about it, I'm basically paying for a father figure lmao.>i think a lot of people here can relate. what's so bad about it?Honestly, I'm so petty. It's just the teacher's accent is really thick so it's unintelligible. It's an online course so I could learn the content someplace else ig. I'll make it through though. thanks for asking!
>>83368865hello hello anoncute uma!hope your day today is going wellalso watch out for "life coaches"If it's helping you that's okay but I'm very very wary of those sorts of folk
>dang. what did you do?I blame higurashi for this but scratching my neck/choking is my usual. I didn't go to the point of bleeding thankfully.Honestly, the day after, I feel so embarrassed/ashamed about it. "Compared to everyone else, this is nothing. Should that even count as a relapse?". Tangentially related but that's a shame snowball, as my life coach and I call it. I find brining attention to it and recognizing it as one helps for surface level stuff.For deeper rooted negative judgements, more work needs to be done. I can share what I do if other anons find it interesting.I've been keeping a journal lately and I wrote about the experience a bit in my journal yesterday.Pencil and paper as your form of journal is just unbeatable (at least for me). Tried programming my own digital journalling system mutliple times.Would highly recommend it to any other anons.>maybe she could get someone else she could vent to?you're very emotionally cogniscent, yuanon! Without going too much into it, she's had a rough life, typical single mother situation pretty much.I honestly think she needs a therapist/life coach way more than I do but she won't spend that money on herself.I've been thinking that's a tangible life goal to work towards: "Earn enough money to send my mom to therapy". >medsShe used to trust me so much but me taking these meds, without her knowing, was a huge breach of trust.I admit it was wrong but taking these meds helps me become who I want to be.I'm so much more productive, which snowballs into me believing in myself more, which snowballs into being happier in general.I can feel the tension this Christmas as we dance around this topic lol.>name"operanon" makes so much more sense lol. good suggestion.>game awardsHow was the game awards? Any announcments that got you excited for?I saw the clips of Geoff Keighley saying "Uma *MA*sume" lol but that's about it.>>83367500Hope you have a relaxing day, cat! Anything you plan on doing?
>>83368975>cute uma!thanks, cat! I have a weakness for the flambouyant, princely, flirtatious types >///<. Tamaki from Ouran was my first love. >also watch out for "life coaches"I appreciate your concern, cat. I was really hesitant when my mom suggested it but this particular guy seems to be working out for me. Honestly, a lot of his teaching and stuff has been fairly inoffensive, like "Let's plan a morning routine, build accountability" or "Let's discuss how to talk with your mom about the meds" and stuff like that. The only red flag I noticed is that he is religious and I'm not (nothing against religion; I just didn't grow up in a religious household). He overcame self hate by becoming religious and believing that something greater had unconditional love for him, which snowballed into believing that he is worthy of love, which helped him overcome his stuff. I honestly find that idea very charming. However, it's not something I believe in so we're trying different approaches. Currently, I'm trying to solve the problem by creating an algorithm to run through when I notice I'm ruminating. Gosh, I'm such a nerd lol.Do y'all ruminate on self hate? or have you overcome this through other means? If so, I'd be happy to hear it.
just a wittle bummp
I went on a little walk to the store it doesn't get as foggy outside as it did like two weeks ago, too bad I like the way everything looked >>83368977>Hope you have a relaxing day, cat! Anything you plan on doing?thank you my only plans for today are write an email to a professor and finish silent hill 2wbu?>>83369146>Tamaki from Ourannever seen that show but I know the silly horsegirl game >fairly inoffensivethat's good, but just don't believe in whatever he says uncritically though you seem pretty smart so that shouldn't be a problem :>>creating an algorithmhow does it look like? if you feel like explaining >ruminate on self hate? orI don't think somy head is pretty empty most of the time, or maybe I do and just not notice
hi /cut/ frens. Im hoping to start posting here now and then instead of lurking.>>83361970>How are you doing today?a little anxious. hasnt really gone away ever since I moved back into a stressful place.>Any plans for today?hoping to go to the park. feel the chill on my skin, and stuff like that. it usually helps>When was the last time you hurt yourself?its been a few years, but I tend to worry that Im getting closer to a relapse as of late.>Why did you hurt yourself?probably as a way to process my bullshit emotions. Ive gotten better at actually processing them instead of doing that, but see prev answer.>Is there anything bothering you right now?I feel a bit on the lonely side as of late and I think thats adding to some of my anxiety.>>83369146>Do y'all ruminate on self hate?my rumination is a pretty prominent (albeit fluctuating) part of my brain :( I cant imagine being without it, though I tend to try and fill my brain with other stuff. like my interests.
Trying to get used to my ne schedule and workload. Things are chaotic, but I'm here. Hope everyone is okay. Will see if there was any old posts I should reply to in a minute.>>83367862hope you're having a good day yuanon>>83365209hi new anon. I see you like Umamusume too>>83369146>Do y'all ruminate on self hate? or have you overcome this through other means? I try to overcome by improving, but obsess over things too much and constantly find myself unable to appreciate things I do change.>>83369796hey cat, how's it going?> too bad I like the way everything lookedi too enjoy the fog. Don't get much this time of year >>83370268hiya other new anon>back into a stressful place.what's so stressful?>hoping to go to the parkhope it does you some good. Way too cold for it here already, othewise I could use some air myself
>>83370268hello :3nice to meet you anon >hasnt really gone away ever since I moved backoh mansounds bad :<why did you have to move back?>hoping to go to the park.o nice is it dark outside now wherever you live?>feel a bit on the lonelyat least you can talk with us ^^ I know it doesn't help too much but at least it's something >>83370387HeyaI'm well, playing silent hillready for the weakened?
>>83370512>playing silent hillhave fun! I feel like playing a game. May budget sometime, but I'm also playing games at the mall so maybe i don't need to>ready for the weakened?my day isn't over. Still a bit to survive. But taking some breaks so I don't crack
>>83370881>have fun!I finished it :D>May budget sometimeyou could downloading one for free>Still a bit to surviveD:btw food review!today I opened those canned sardines I bought a while agoI put the can in hot water to heat them up and I ate them, my rating 5/10I like the on their own though they was a bit too many on them there I think about 12 and I'd rather eat just 8
>>83371441>I finished itnice! You got the dog ending right?> downloading one for freeaha by budget, I mean budget the thing I have the least of right now, which is to say my time :< I have to schedule everything I do with how busy I am>canned sardines these are one of those things many people find gross, but few times I had them they were good. >about 12 and I'd rather eat just 8that is a bit too much for something like that too I feel. Man, I haven't had any seafood in a while, but planning on cooking a stew with a lot of it tomorrow
Hello everyone.I hope you are all doing well, and that you will be well :3I, personally, want to say that I am fine and well.>>83371441It depends on the variety and preparation, /cat/, but I think they are much more palatable at room temperature if straight out of the can.Also, did you play Silent Hill 1 or 2?
>>83361970>How are you doing today?A little tired. I finally got sleep last night after pulling an all-nighter with my dog the other night.Just been playing god of war today. >Any plans for today?My bother's friends are having me tag along for the fnaf movie. I'm trying to think of a way to just half watch this one. >Is there anything bothering you right now?Still waiting on word back on my test last week. Idk what's gonna happen, how many they're accepting, or if i'm gonna get accused of cheating because I changed an answer at the last minute.>>83370512hi cat, how's your day?>>83370387hi office anon>Things are chaoticAs usual with school work balances. > Hope everyone is okay.I hope you're ok>>83370268hi fren>hasnt really gone away ever since I moved back into a stressful place.that sucks, why'd you have to move back.>feel the chill on my skin, and stuff like that. it usually helpsyeah, air and temp changes are good to make you just feel something.>Ive gotten better at actually processing them instead of doing that,Well, don't count yourself out just yet. you can make it.>I feel a bit on the lonely side as of late and I think thats adding to some of my anxiety.I think a lot of that is going around as of late. Personally, I've just accepted that I'm going to have to make the best of all the socialization I get.
>>83371683>You got the dog ending right?dog ending??>have to schedule everything I do with how busy I amow :< >many people find grossI've heard so but I like fish :3>planning on cooking a stew with a lot of it tomorrowenjoy!what are you going to put in it?>>83371982>hope you are all doing well, and that you will be well :3thank you!!>that I am fine and wellthat's great!what did u do today?>palatable at room temperature if straight out of the can.interesting the last few I ate were room temperature and I liked the warmed up ones more>did you play Silent Hill 1 or 2?silent hill 2 :]>>83372081Hey>finally got sleepthat's good, hope you're well rested then>all-nighter with my dog the other night.why?>trying to think of a way to just half watch this one.Iia the theater in like a mall?maybe during it you should just go grab a meal>Still waiting on word back on my testhope it goes well>cat, how's your day?just a nice chill day :3finished silent hill and ate sardines
>>83368865>how much (or little) did you sleep?got up around 11:00 am. not too bad, i think. ^^>I'll stop working on the projectok. :< >l just chill todaywhat did you do?>>83368865>I just noticed my first post had the wrong formatting ;-;no worries. happens to everyone>2? years agowow. that's a long time. :0 thanks for sticking with us.>just a couple of anons going about their life, trying to live. It was honestly a huge motivator for me.that's us. :> catbro put in a lot of work to foster this kind of atmosphere and it really paid of. glad to hear it helped you in a way.>doesn't it feel a little sad knowing that your relationship with everyone on these threads are so limited?it does. more than just little, honestly. but it makes you cherish the connections that last as well as the ones that only lasted a while. i'm just happy i met the people that i did here.>Maybe my zoomer is showing here but that's so unfortunate.nah. i'm feeling the same and that's why i try to stay connected via discord, but you just spread yourself too thin when you do that with everyone you meet. i had to learn it the hard way.>that will actually help you solve your problems, offering practical advice.sounds more useful than a therapist, but i'm more of a solution-oriented person. and some people don't need advice, they just need someone to vent, so i guess both has it's merit.>I'm basically paying for a father figure lmao.there's worse stuff you can waste money on and if it helps you it's decinitely worth it. there's a lack of rolemodels for positive masculinity, if you'll excuse that tired lingo.>It's just the teacher's accent is really thick so it's unintelligible.if you can't inderstand them, that's a serious issue. maybe let someone know it's a problem with that course. do you think some automatically generated subtitles would help?>It's an online course so I could learn the content someplace else ig. I'll make it through though.best of luck. o7
>>83372793ellu>around 11:00 am. not too bad, i think. ^^yep not too bad ^^>ok. :<:D>what did you do?went on a walk, finished silent hill and ate sardines :3wbu?
kinda random but do you guys have any cool like 80-90s videos about winter related stuff you could share?I just remembered about this one and it's so comfy and I'd like to watch more stuff sorta like this to get into the winter mood https://vimeo.com/81033392?fl=pl&fe=sh
>>83368977>I blame higurashi for thisis that an anime?>scratching my neck/choking is my usual. I didn't go to the point of bleeding thankfully.good to know you can control yourself to that regard. still, try to stay safe. especially with the choking.>I feel so embarrassed/ashamed about it.it's ok. we all do stuff we regret when everything gets too much to handle.>that's a shame snowballguess uncle iroh is my life coach.https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=89rKnkNDKdM&pp=ygUxcHJpZGUgaXMgbm90IHRoZSBvcHBvc2l0ZSBvZiBzaGFtZSBidXQgaXRzIHNvdXJjZQ%3D%3D>I can share what I do if other anons find it interesting.please do. it's always good to learn how others are dealing with what life throws at them>Pencil and paper as your form of journal is just unbeatable (at least for me).it seems also better for learning. the act of writing is a very useful tool and doing it digitally just doesn't have the same effect for some reason. at least typing doesn't.>I honestly think she needs a therapist/life coach way more than I do but she won't spend that money on herself.that's what i thought, too. ^^ typical parent behavior. good luck convincing her.>"Earn enough money to send my mom to therapy".you're a good person.>I admit it was wrong but taking these meds helps me become who I want to be.hm, ok. how long do you think you will you take them?>I can feel the tension this Christmas as we dance around this topic lol.the holiday of venting your grievances... just don't let it get out of hand. ^^'
>>83368977>How was the game awards? Any announcments that got you excited for?just the usual shill event and not really. divinity from larian was one of the most gruesome things i've seen in a trailer, though. i'll keep eyes on total war: warhammer 40k, but i didn't like any tw games since medieval 2 and i already forgot all the rest. and i finally get what all the other people see when another dark western fantasy souls-like is announced. for the life of me i can't stand all those chinese mythology action games. they all look the same! >:[>I saw the clips of Geoff Keighley saying "Uma *MA*sume" lol but that's about it.i had it muted whenever something that wasn't a trailer was on screen. i can't handle that weapons-grade cringe.>>83369146>Tamaki from Ouran was my first love.good taste.>>83369146>Do y'all ruminate on self hate? or have you overcome this through other means? it's the only thing i can use as an agent to fuel my desire to change and get better. it's always there. sometimes quiet and muffled, sometimes loud and clear. i just try to live with it somehow.>>83370268>Im hoping to start posting here now and then instead of lurking.welcome to the thread, anon!>>83370387hey officeanon!>Trying to get used to my ne schedule and workload. Things are chaotic, but I'm here.hope it works out. at least you can come to this oasis of chill and recharge, even if it's just for a short amount of time.>hope you're having a good daythanks and same to you. i'm a bit slow today. things are slowly chipping away at me and i'm having trouble staying focussed right now. how's your day going?>>83371441>5/10my favorite recipe is to cut them up and mix them with finely minced onions, parsley and some homemade mayo. eat with (preferably) dried out bread.>>83371982thanks, fren. glad to hear you're doing well. :>
>>83372081hey cynic!>all-nighter with my dog like cat asked, what's going on?> because I changed an answer at the last minute.hope they don't give you a hard time. Know that's kind of a pain to deal with>As usual I have a lot more work on my plate with changes and people leaving. So far so good, but already a slower time of year with holidays so hoping it's not worse come new year>>83372791>dog ending??https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k8zZUYV_yl4Never played the game just remember seeing this years back>I've heard so but I like fishi think at least here a lot of people don't like fish in general. My family is Catholic so I was more exposed to it than a lot of Americans because the friday meat thing>what are you going to put in it?I'm making cioppino so... cod, scallops, shrimp, mussels, clams, and crab.. Which is a lot, but supposed to be. >>83372793hi again yuanon!how's it going?>>83372962man I want to go to Alaska watching a little bit of that. Bet even the cities aren't much different from the 80s
>>83372081>>83372081hey cynic! what's up? :D>after pulling an all-nighter with my dog the other night.what happened? D:>I'm trying to think of a way to just half watch this one.as far as movies goes i think they're rather inoffensive. not great, but not infuriatingly bad. i don't have any connection to the games, though. worst movie i dragged my friends to was abraham lincoln: vampire hunter. how can you fuck up a such a simple premise?>Still waiting on word back on my test last week. they sure like taking their time, don't they?>>83372875hi catbro! nearly made it through the thread.>yep not too bad ^^thought so, too. sadly it takes me way longer than usual to mentally process work after coming home. i just sit there and suddenly it's the middle of the night>went on a walk, finished silent hill and ate sardines :3 wbu?went to my nerd-store to pick up a manga, went to work after that, came home, ate, prepared some dough for potato focaccia i want to eat with the porchetta i prepared a few days ago and now i'm just listening to some stream while posting. that's about it.>>83372962>80-90s videos about winter related stuff you could sharehave to think about that. i'll do so while listening to this.https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=E8gmARGvPlI&list=RDE8gmARGvPlI&start_radio=1&pp=ygUTbGFzdCBjaHJpc3RtYXMgd2hhbaAHAQ%3D%3D>>83373160>how's it going?going alright. just takes me way longer to calm down after work. hard to focus on even just posting, but i finally caught up with the thread. what about you?
>>83373127> even if it's just for a short amount of time.way things are i need chances to catch a break sometimes. Under too much pressure right now> i'm a bit slow today. things are slowly chipping away at merelatable. Hope it's not too much getting to you. Try to hold out, have your break coming soon>how's your day going?just very very tiring. Had some good moments at least. Ready for the weekend too>>83373244>hard to focus on even just posting,same. I partially reply to stuff sometimes, then never click to post. Usually what happens when I drop from threads.
>>83373425>i need chances to catch a break sometimes.gotta take em whenever any opportunity shows itself.>Under too much pressure right nowany fun stuff planned on the weekend you can focus on? i'll make my porchetta abd some focaccia tomorrow. really looking forward to it. (^-^)>Hope it's not too much getting to you. Try to hold out, have your break coming soon.true. just one more week of this madness. how long do you still have to hang in there?>Had some good moments at leastnice. wanna talk about those?>Ready for the weekend toosame. glad today is already over for me>I partially reply to stuff sometimes, then never click to post. Usually what happens when I drop from threads.exactly what happens to me. just get distracted by something. i'm just lucky that i usually don't accidentally delete my entire post when that happens.
I'll go to sleepgoodnight friends ^w^
>>83373670good night, sleep tight and see you tomorrow! (~.~)
Hello friends. Not much to report on my end besides stuff I should keep to myself but I hope you're all doing well.I've mostly been able to prevent myself from having a breakdown by writing a lot of stuff. Today I'll mail a package to my family. It'll probably arrive late.I'll confuse myself if I try to give everyone a (You), so just pretend I did.
>>83373916hi dinon! (^-^)>Not much to report on my end besides stuff I should keep to myselfif you think you should, that's ok. hope it's nothing too bad, though>I hope you're all doing well.hope you do, too. :>i'm ok, but i'll head to bed soon. it's getting late again>I've mostly been able to prevent myself from having a breakdown by writing a lot of stuff.sounds like a good tool to deal with things. i should take notes. literally.>Today I'll mail a package to my family. It'll probably arrive late.maybe. postal services are complete chaos this time of the year, i can tell you that. definitely choose a tracked option if you can. one time some woman send a package to canada in november. should have arrived for christmas, but it took 4 months.>(You):Dheading to bed now. good night!
>>83372791> why?He was super anxious and having constipation issues and wouldn't sleep. > Iia the theater in like a mall?Yeah, we're in the back so I'm just going scroll here.> finished silent hill and ate sardinesHow was it? Was it spooky>>83373160> what's going onI talked about it above> hoping it's not worse come new yearI'm sure you'll have some breathing room since the holidays aren't bad.>>83373244Hi yu>vampire hunter. how can you fuck up a such a simple premise?Never seen it. Does he not kill vampires?> far as movies goes i think they're rather inoffensive. not great, but not infuriatingly badYeah it isn't that bad desu. This is about as good a fnaf movie could've been. The dialog is hilarious dull and contrived tho.> they sure like taking their time, don't theyYeah, hopefully I hear back tomorrow.
hey everyone, a lot of things happened none of them were good
>>83361970heya o/>How are you doing today?not too good. its alr 3:50AM here and i havent slept for 3 days now>Any plans for today?not really. probs gonna do some things for school n then rot in bed>When was the last time you hurt yourself?few hours ago qwq>Why did you hurt yourself?isolation got worse to a point where i started drinking almost every night to calm myself down. dunno what else to do. im just overwhelmed.>Is there anything bothering you right now?the loneliness. havent had anyone to talk to for a while now, still missing my ex cuz she was the only one that cared about how i felt (stupid cunt cheated after my ass got too emotional)
>>83374633hi chev>a lot of things happened none of them were gooddo you wanna talk about it?>>83374741hi anon> its alr 3:50AM here yeah I'm staying up late too. I normally just try to be as productive as possible when doing that and let insomnia make art.>i havent slept for 3 days nowI've done this before. It was rough. I smelled bad. I spent a lot of it driving. My advice is lay down as soon as you can and it doesn't matter if you can't sleep. wait it out until you do.>few hours ago qwqHow deep is it? If it's significant, you'll want to patch it up before getting sleep.>dunno what else to do. im just overwhelmed.that's okay. >havent had anyone to talk to for a while now, still missing my ex cuz she was the only one that cared about how i feltI don't think that'll be the case forever. There's someone in the world who would talk to you. And they don't have to be a gf.>>83374167>>83373670goodnight guys>>83373916hi dis>I'll confuse myself if I try to give everyone a (You), so just pretend I did.thanks for the (You)
>>83374167>hope it's nothing too bad, thoughJust some more stuff about my ojou-sama.>i'm ok, but i'll head to bed soon.Have a good snooze!>sounds like a good tool to deal with thingsIt is. I've started writing about all sorts of things now, not just my thoughts and feelings.>maybe. postal services are complete chaos this time of the yearI think it's 1-2 weeks delivery time with the option I went with. I have a lot of faith that it'll get out the country by the end of the day but it's up to other postal services after that and I don't have much faith Royal Mail to get it to them...>>83374633Hopefully tomorrow will fare better.>>83374741Sounds like you're going through hell. I hope you can get some sleep if nothing else.Try to take care of yourself, anon.>>83374992Hello cynic. Have another on me.
>>83361970Barring completely bombing my still unmarked finals unexpectedly, I just graduated. Feels good. Night.
>>83376319>graduatedgood job!!
>>83373657>weekend you can focus on? little stuff. But should be fun>make my porchettai am makikg cioppino later tonight. I don't usually do seafood, but looking forward to this> how long do you still have to hang in there?no end in sight. Both good and bad in a way i suppose>wanna talk about those?playing with the dog always raises my mood a bit. Also friend of mine isn't mad at me after all also good>>83373916hey discanon!>writing a lot of stuff.i need to journal again. Really helps with organizing thoughts especially>It'll probably arrive late.better late than never. It's time of year and you're so far, it's understandable i'd say>>83374397>super anxiouspoor dog, hope he's better now>holidays aren't bad.i hope so. We don't really get a break completely and still have deliverables going into new years, so i'm just hoping>>83374633hey chev, you doing okay?>>83374741bit late now, but sorry to hear. Always welcome to chat here. Isolation is a shitty feeling and it isn't much, but lots of us get it a bit>>83376319congratz togatanon (yes I know the name of that character now and have started reading finally)second time trying to post, internet please work
ello everyone happy caturday
>>83377280happy caturday! Have anything planned?I finished my workout, going to do a little work, maybe work on some drawing, and see what the day has in store for me after that.
>>83377831hello I don't have any plans just chilling >my workout, going to do a little workbest of luck!>some drawingoaa what are you drawing?
>>83374397>Never seen it. Does he not kill vampires?maybe he does, but i don't know anymore. it's boring and goes nowhere. complete waste of time.>This is about as good a fnaf movie could've been. The dialog is hilarious dull and contrived tho.not a series that's known for the riveting writing, i suppose. people played it when they were kids and now hollywood tries to milk their nostalgia. if the resulting movie isn't complete crap, that's a win these days.>>83374633hey chev. really sorry about that. :<>>83374741hey anon!>started drinking almost every night to calm myself down.that's a very dangerous way to deal with that and will make your problems even worse. be careful.>dunno what else to do. im just overwhelmed.hm. i usually listen to asmr or calm rp vids on youtube or twitch. calms you down and fills your head with something that isn't your own thoughts. not ideal either, but i feel like it's not as bad as the other options>she was the only one that cared about how i felt (stupid cunt cheated after my ass got too emotional)sorrx that happened to you. as sad as it is, as a man never believe anyone irl when they say it's ok to show emotions. not at home. not at work. that's why we need places like this.damn. need to charge my phone. see you guys later.
Hey, everyone. I've unfortunately gotten sick so I missed checking in yesterday. Luckily, just the common cold so I'll get over it eventually.Lots of messages to catch up on!>>83370387Hey officeanon! Yep. I love the silly horsegirls.>I try to overcome by improvingYou said it perfectly.I worry this could be the wrong approach though since, personally, I think I'll always be dissatisfied with myself.Not sure what an alternative approach would be though. Trying to figure that out.>>83370268Hello, fellow new anon!>lonely side as of lateYep. That'll do it to you. Hope your walk in the park was nice. Connecting with nature like that is really therapuetic for me.>my rumination is a pretty prominentThat hits really close to home, especially about being unable to imagine life without it.Still trying to work on this myself, so I can't really offer concrete advice atp but I feel you.>>83376319>just graduatedCongrats anon! Hope you enjoy your moment of reprieve.>>83372793>that's usGreat work, y'all!>try to stay connected via discordYeah. That's something I've noticed during my attempts at keeping in touch too.I've heard people have made friends online/even met their SO online before but I don't really understand how that works.Usually, the main problem is that people are either too busy or not busy enough lol. I find that I have a better time staying in touch with ppl who I've vc'd with.>sounds more useful than a therapistyeah. You said it perfectly. they both have their merit but I think most people would rather a life coach over a therapist. >if you can't inderstand themAfter thinking on it, I'll probably end up just reading the slides than watching the lectures.Thank you!
>>83377280ello cat>>83377244>hope he's better nowhe is. He's back to following around for food and trying to see my brother's cats.> We don't really get a break completely and still have deliverables going into new yearshopefully it comes down once returns are done then.>>83378839>it's boring and goes nowhere. complete waste of time.that's probably the worst crime a movie can make. >not a series that's known for the riveting writingThe way I veiw this is like a made for tv disney movie. I stopped expecting human conversation 5 minutes in. The joke at the end "why do we have to do this in the rain" ligit made me laugh because it was the most human dialog in the whole movie. > people played it when they were kids and now hollywood tries to milk their nostalgia. The theather was filled with childern. all invested in the lore. So I think this was the movie they wanted. And you know what, that's probably a good thing.
>>83373013>is that an anime?Anime/VN. It's really good but insanely gorey. There's a lot of scenes where characters claw their neck. I was exaggerating a bit by making it seem like it's the only cause.>guess uncle iroh is my life coachDidn't actually grow up with ATLA unfortunately but I've heard Uncle Iroh is the goat. That's some poetry.>you're a good person.<3. Thanks yuanon. I'm trying my best.>always good to learn how others are dealing with what life throws at themSure! So, this is more of a fix for the habit of rumination than solving self-hate:The most difficult part is the prep work beforehand - I wrote a list of every negative judgement I have about myself such as "I am ugly", "I am stupid" etc - I came up with only around 15 during my first week, a much smaller number than I expected.- Then, I forgive myself for the thought, literally write: "I forgive myself for thinking I am X".- Then, I write a response: "The truth is Y". For example, "the truth is I look pretty good. When I style my hair and wear clothes I like, I feel really confident about my sense of style!" - Key here is that it can't be a direct negation like "I am NOT ugly". It needs to be a unqiue statement. - Way easier said than done ofc, especially when it's a belief you've held for a really long time.During moments of spiralling, I go through this process:- Forgive myself for having the thought (in my head)- If it's a negative judgement I've had already: - Reference the list and repeat the pre-determined response - At this point, I usually stop spiralling. Recognizing the spiral and having a counter is enough 99% of the time. - If I continue, I make a note that this part needs improvement.- else: (very unlikely) - Write it down to process laterI'm still going through this process myself. It might be useful trying if you feel like you too have been in the self-hate rut for far too long.
>>83375680>Just some more stuff about my ojou-sama.i won't pry.>Have a good snooze!thank you, i did. didn't do much else today except cooking, though.>I've started writing about all sorts of things now, not just my thoughts and feelings.what have you been working on?>it's up to other postal services after that and I don't have much faith Royal Mail to get it to them...that's the most annoying part of international shipping by far. that's why i usually opt for something like ups. can't be a bit annoying to get it delivered to your door, but at least it doesn't have to change hands and they are good at handling customs. can be very pricey, though.>>83376319>I just graduated. Feels good.let's gooo! :D>>83377244>little stuff. But should be funhope it is. have a good time!>i am makikg cioppino later tonight.looks good. i wish i could handle seafood better, but i can't :[>looking forward to thisdo tell how it came out>no end in sight. Both good and bad in a way i supposefucking hell... :/ i guess. would be nice if it would calm down a bit, though.>playing with the dog always raises my mood a bit. Also friend of mine isn't mad at me after all also goodit's the little things we have to find strength in.>have started reading finallyordered my copy, but it won't arrive until after christmas. :<>>83377280happy caturday, buddy! what's up?>>83379185>I've unfortunately gotten sick so I missed checking in yesterday.get well soon!>I've heard people have made friends online/even met their SO online before but I don't really understand how that works.guess you just gotta be there and it maybe it'll happen, maybe it won't. though i can't say i really get it, either. i'm too oblivious to the cues, i think.>people are either too busy or not busy enough lolfor real
>>83379327I'm still going through this process myself. It might be useful trying if you feel like you too have been in the self-hate rut for far too long.If any anons try this exercise, let me know how it goes. I'll be happy to help out based on my understanding.Side note to any anons who also believe they're ugly. You're not. It sounds like a careless blanket statement but it's true.The only problem I've seen with people is that they might not know how to style themselves.Also, confidence is everything. If you feel more confident dressing in some niche style, then go for it. Confidence does make you look better.When I was at uni, the most charismatic dude dressed like he was a mustache twirling spy movie villain.>>83373127>divinitywow. I just saw the trailer. that's so insane lol.>chinese mythology action gamesI didn't even recognize that as a trend until you pointed it out. haha there are a lot of those.>good tastehehe. thank you. picrel>it's the only thing i can use as an agent to fuel my desire to change and get betterIt's probably one of the best motivators but a really unhealthy one that can also easily backfire. I'm sure you recognize that though.>fnaf movieI know it's just hollywood execs milking nostalgia but I did enjoy the first one, though maybe that was just the experience instead of the movie itself: I dressed hyper-formal for the showing and it was nice seeing kids and staff get a chuckle out of it.Haven't seen the second one yet though. Maybe I'll do something fun for that too.
>>83379185>I have a better time staying in touch with ppl who I've vc'd with.that's something i can only do with people i know personally. i have a really hard time getting over myself and start talking to people i met online. not sure why.>most people would rather a life coach over a therapist.at least it's of much more immediate use. maybe a combination would work best or at least would show what you need to focus on>I'll probably end up just reading the slides than watching the lectures.makes sense. best of luck with that!>>83379225>that's probably the worst crime a movie can makeyup. just a waste of time, money and good will. though the michael bay transformers movies a friend dragged us to were physically painful for me to sit through. that shit and the hobbit movies made me loath the whole cinema experience.>made for tv disney movieisn't that all disney movies these days?>it was the most human dialog in the whole movie.makes sense. characters hardly ever feel human these days, so when something like that comes along, it's an actual highlight>The theather was filled with childern.guess it's a horror ip for children, then? reminds me of stuff like goosebumps show back in the day.>And you know what, that's probably a good thing.sure, but we should demand quality entertainment especially when it is for kids. that's the stuff that stays with you.
>>83379327>It's really good but insanely gorey. There's a lot of scenes where characters claw their neck.ah, ok. probably not something i should engage with (^-^;)>I've heard Uncle Iroh is the goat. That's some poetry.yeah. i watched some of his scenes and they hit pretty hard, even after all this time. can recommend the series.>I'm trying my best.and that's what matters.>this is more of a fix for the habit of rumination than solving self-hateinteresting ideas. not sure if it's something for me, but never count something out before you try it, i suppose.>It might be useful trying if you feel like you too have been in the self-hate rut for far too long.i probably have been, but it's usually more about things that i let happen to myself a long time ago and it's more about that i let it happen than the current state of things. not that there's any way i could have acted differently. i didn't have the knowledge i have now back then. things are how they are and i can't see that change. i've mostly accepted that. it's just when i'm really stressed and worn out that these old thoughts come back. they usually go away when i had time to mentally recharge. still, thanks for mapping out the process. i'll think about it.>>83379557>that's so insane lolpretty much. really didn't expect that.>haha there are a lot of those.guess it's just time for that setting now. not my cup of tea, so i'll just sit those out.>a really unhealthy one that can also easily backfire. I'm sure you recognize that though.i do. i'm not dwelling on it or anything like that, but i do recognize that i want to change because i don't like how things are.>I did enjoy the first oneit's an ok movie.>Maybe I'll do something fun for that too.thank you for making the world a less dreary place
i NEED a bf who is exactly like this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f6YodKroC0w
>>83379185hello o/>gotten sickoh nooo hope you have some warm blankets and soup >Lots of messages to catch up on!oh btw you don't have to catch up if you don't feel like it ^^especially that it takes a while and maybe you're busy>>83379225Hello :]how's it goin?>>83379482HiyaI'm just chilling I had to visit someone today so that too a while back now I'm home and watching stuff on my phone :3wbu?
>>83361970Gonna face a harsh day next week, high SH risk laterAny recs and tips on how to not ending up SHing on EXTRA bad day?
Went out for lunch. Was dressed up a bit nicer than normal since also doing pictures in area which I think causes people to always stare at you in public since it's not that kind of place I live but felt okay about it today. Then end up playing more rhythm games. Jamming out to Miku and Teto in office attire as usual.>>83378472> I don't have any plansenjoy all the same>best of luck!went well but my arms are literally jello again> what are you drawing?i suck at drawing in the past, but want to draw anime girls again and fount it soothing. I have a drawing of Makima from csm I spent like 2 hours working on that's probably the best drawing I ever did just because I went slow and focused on the effort more than drawing in the past>>83379185hi operanon!>unfortunately gotten sickthat sucks. Sorry and hope you feel better soon. >love the silly horsegirls.i'm shocked I liked as much as I did. I discovered it from getting ads over and over before being like "maybe I'll try it" and then really hard into it. Definitely helped me through some really stressful work times> think I'll always be dissatisfied with myself.I struggle with this too. The thing it's easy to become a perfectionist. I sometimes feel every time I'm successful with something, it highlights my failures or imperfections more, and frustrates me. Objectively, I can see I did some incredible things, but still hard to be happy with how far you came. I think the key is doing that, maybe being happy you tried your best, but easier said than done>>83379225> following around for foodsounds all good than, glad to hear>hopefully it comes downhow this job market is, busy is better than not, but still reaches a point where shoveling work without increasing and actually decreasing headcount causes people to crack>>83379482hey yuanon, how's your weekend starting off?>but i can'ti'm not usually crazy for it, but this looks good and having it as a special one off is nice
>>83379482>guess. would be nice if it would calm down a bitI'll survive either way. Things are bad, but they've never been great, and can always be worse. So it's been gradual changes even if it's a lot worse than same time last year>ordered my copynice. I can't wait to see just how badly Fujimoto is going to hurt me again with this one!>>83379883idk what show this is but lol generic and firm handshake >>83380151others might have better advice, but one thing I can think is try to avoid putting yourself in a position you can. Don't let yourself be able to get knife, razor, or anything. Do it now how ever you can if possible. Maybe positioning yourself around people so you can't slip away. Hard to say more without knowing details.
>>83379911>I had to visit someone today so that too a while back nowhope that someone appreciated it.>I'm home and watching stuff on my phone :3anything good? i'm just watching some streamers prepare a big wow-event they want to start soon and now i switched to some people talking about movies. sadly i couldn't think of anything like the winter-vid you shared. :<>wbu?not sure sure what to do tonight. not in gaming mood.>>83380151>Gonna face a harsh day next week, high SH risk latersorry, fren. want to share what it's about?>Any recs and tips on how to not ending up SHing on EXTRA bad day?do you have people you could stay with for that day?>>83380198>also doing pictures in area which I think causes people to always stare at you in publicdoes that still happen? you'd think people would be used to that by now. what are the pics for?>Jamming out to Miku and Teto in office attire as usual.hope you had a good time :>>how's your weekend starting off?not too bad. made something nice to eat and had a pretty chill day so far. what about you?>this looks good and having it as a special one off is niceas long as it's fresh, it should be. ^^ you got a recipe?>>83380312>Things are bad, but they've never been great, and can always be worsepic related>So it's been gradual changes even if it's a lot worse than same time last yeareasier to get used to it that way. sucks that you have to, though>I can't wait to see just how badly Fujimoto is going to hurt me again with this one!it's one of those, isn't it? let's see how much of it i can take.
>>83380761>does that still happen?Even people going for actual photoshoots(which this wasn't what this was) don't seem to dress up it seems since I see it a bunch. You wear a shirt with a color or real pants you're 10 times more upscale than majority of people. Not judging others by how they dress, but really trying to say is that I standout a bit. But I like it. People dress nice in bigger cities all the time I see. Maybe it's more show offy someplaces, but see no problem with doing it for fun>what are the pics for?gf just wants pics of us out doing stuff holiday time and was demanding about how I dressed lol>what about you?good start as well. Went out and had lunch, played games for a bit, and all. Workout was good this morning as well but my arms started hurting really bad while out (guess means it was a good workout)>you got a recipe?https://www.allrecipes.com/recipe/12816/cioppino/following this mostly, but I made the broth with chicken bone, shrimp shells, onion, carrots, celery, and garlic ahead of time>pic relatedand when you think it has reached rock bottom, a fun little surprise comes along to show you that you hadn't>it's one of those, isn't it?I can't say for certain, I'm not very far. I've just heard vaguely this can be painful and speaking from experience, I enjoy Chainsaw Man, but it's also quite mean and painful to the reader and traumatized me greatly. Plus Fujimoto is actually probably for real crazy (or trying very convincingly to seem so)
>>83380312>idk what show thisinside job
>>83381088>wear a shirt with a color or real pants you're 10 times more upscale than majority of peoplepretty much. though i see all kinds of people wearing different styles in my store and it's usually older folk who still care about that kind of dresscode the most.>I standout a bityou probably would even without dressing up, but i get you. you still have that tiny bit of glamour that most people already have given up on. makes you suspicious.>People dress nice in bigger cities all the time I see. Maybe it's more show offy someplaces, but see no problem with doing it for funto me it's a uniform like any other and usually connected to a way of thinking i thoroughly despise, so i just can't bring myself to wear something like that. that said, i don't think it'd suit me anyway and i wouldn't feel comfortable at all. guess i'm just overthinking it. as always.>gf just wants pics of us out doing stuff holiday time and was demanding about how I dressed lolah, i get it. as long as you have fun yourself it's fine, i suppose.>Went out and had lunch, played games for a bit, and all. Workout was good this morning as well but my arms started hurting really bad while out (guess means it was a good workout)sounds like a busy but nice day. haven't worked out in a while, but hopefully i'll get some in tomorrow. can't say i feel bad about it, though. usually i start to feel restless when i didn't for a while, but i guess having to haul around way more packages this time of the year makes up for that. ^^ but good to hear yours hit the spot >I made the broth with chicken bone, shrimp shells, onion, carrots, celery, and garlic ahead of timethat's the stuff that makes the difference. can't call the colored water they sell at the store stock or broth >:[>when you think it has reached rock bottom, a fun little surprise comes along to show you that you hadn'tyeah. that's when the ground gives>this can be painfuli'll try to get over myself, then.
>>83381088>quite mean and painful to the reader and traumatized me greatlyoh boy... i don't do well with mean spiritedness for mean spiritedness sake at all.>Fujimoto is actually probably for real crazyquite a few of those around. doesn't mean anything as long at it sells. just look at the made in abyss guy>>83381107>inside jobi liked that show. not sure why it got cancelled. it was fun enough. good luck finding a boyfriend like that, though.
>>83374992>do you wanna talk about it?not really much i can say, i fucked up big time ig.>>83375680>Hopefully tomorrow will fare better.we'll see, not really hoping on it.>>83377244>hey chev, you doing okay?not doing great rn, but stable. i guess that's a lot already, shouldn't be complaining about it.>>83378839>really sorry about thatit's fine, it's my fault
>>83380151hello anonsorry to hear that you're gonna have a bad day stay strong maybe when you deel bad get aome snacks or a pizza and watch a nice show I'm not sure what else to reccomend other than distracting yourself >>83380198Hello>Jamming out to Miku and Teto in office attire as usual.sounds nice ^^>but my arms are literally jello againD:you're going to have to buy a ton of new shirts soon>that's probably the best drawing I ever did justooo wanna share?>>83380761>anything good?the new silent hill 2>prepare a big wow-event theyare you excited about it?>sadly i couldn't think of anything like the winter-vid you shared. :<it's okay ^^>not sure sure what to do tonighhmm maybe movie time?
>>83379560>isn't that all disney movies these days?ha, I guess so.>guess it's a horror ip for children, then? reminds me of stuff like goosebumps show back in the day.yeah I guess that's the better comparison. Only goosebumps books followed a set of logic and plot construction. >sure, but we should demand quality entertainment especially when it is for kids. that's the stuff that stays with you.I'm not sure about this desu. On one hand, you're right. If we just let LLM AIs write stories for kids, then humans might actually get dumber. It's like a copy of a copy. At the same time, we got along fine without kids movies for a long time. Maybe it doesn't matter that much? Or maybe we've lost enough things from previous eras that the new cultural things are immportant. I think I'm just thinking outloud at this point.>>83379911>how's it goin?Just tired. Playing god of war again. I tried to sit down and draw or write or read, but I just got up and walked instead.>>83380198>I think causes people to always stare at you in public since it's not that kind of placeI think we're also just hyper aware of it since we know it's unusal. the two things just stack on top of each other.
>>83381601>good luck finding a boyfriend like that, though.it is definitely impossible for me :( thank you though
>>83381617>it's fine, it's my faultok. :< not feeling good that you got in a situation like that, though. sending you a hug.>>83381684>new silent hill 2what do you think about the remake?>are you excited about it?not really. it kinda just happened at the same time i started playing again and is so big that i won't really be able to avoid it, since pretty much everyone i watch takes part in it. it will even have it's own twitch category (sauercrowd), despite being a german only event.>it's okay ^^maybe i'll find something by pure luck>maybe movie time?bit late for that. and when i post i'll just always pause the movie and it'll take even longer. maybe tomorrow before i head over to my friends place for that board game night.
>>83381563> still care about that kind of dresscode the most.I can respect that, but also don't see the need to go to that extreme. I don't think it matters so much what you wear, just try not to look like you just rolled out of bed in whatever you're wearing. >makes you suspicious.How I feel anytime I see anyone walking around with suit and tie. Though I saw a guy walking around looking like Morpheus and that won it for me. >connected to a way of thinkingagreed. Those are usually the places they probably would judge you entirely based on brand you're wearing. Rather take the pajama pants folks more since with the others if you dress beneath your lesser, dress the same they're annoyed, and above them they're jealous. No winning move with some of those types.>i guess having to haul around way more packages this time of the year tab that as functional training i suppose!>they sell at the store I still use that a lot for daily cooking for convenience, but special weekend dishes have to do it right>>83381601>for mean spiritedness sakeAgain, I'm not in Fire Punch enough, but CSM it fits the plot, but because he likes creating very excessively cruel and ruthless villainsespecially ones that are attractive women that are a bit extreme in cruelty to compared to a lot of manga.> just look at the made in abyss guydon't know anything about him. My favorite thing Fujimoto did was pretend to be an 8 year old girl who was supposedly his sister(he doesn't have one) on twitter and kept spoiling his own manga and got in trouble for it. >>83381617>shouldn't be complaining about it.no one minds you complaining of course. But understand hesitancy to talk. Either way, glad you're even a little better if you are. you up to much today?
>>83381870>I guess so.it's odd. i think the last disney movies i watched were the princess and the frog and tangled and even back then i thought to myself that these movies lost something. well, technically the last disney movies i watched were the star wars movies, but you know what i mean.>goosebumps books followed a set of logic and plot constructionand they got really eerie moments sometimes. someone really needs to tell that they need to build up tension to earn the payoff of a release. and no, jumpscares don't count.>then humans might actually get dumber.there's lot of reasons why people get dumber. chemicals, inbreeding, being fed a constant stream of lies through news media. the list goes on, but i'd argue that not being challenged during your formative years also is one.>then humans might actually get dumber.i'm pretty sure we've been telling stories since we developed language. it's a crucial tool in our success as a species. the medium might have changed, but it's still one of the most important skills we have to pass on information.>I think I'm just thinking outloud at this point.and why shouldn't you?>>83381879>it is definitely impossible for me :(why do you think so? :<
>>83381870>Just tired.sorry to hear thatwhat tired you out today?>>83381894>what do you think about the remake?so far I like it>own twitch categoryowahopefully it's entertaining enough then>maybe i'll find something bybest of luck then>bit late for thatyeah hm I'm wondering what to reccomend u then
>>83381684>sounds nice was a good day overall. Kind of bloated from eating too much though. How was yours?> buy a ton of new shirts soonI hope not, already had to do that a few times D: At the point I gain slower just since been doing workout so many years now>wanna share?ah at some point. Might want to go over more, I'm debating. going for perfection>>83381870>we know it's unusalit's weird since I remember when I was a kid around this time of year people going for pictures and stuff like that and being dressed up going out. think things just different all around
>>83381933>I don't think it matters so much what you wear, just try not to look like you just rolled out of bed in whatever you're wearing.i think that look is mostly people who have given up already, are tired and way beyond pretending they aren't. would be nice if it was different, but people need to have purpose and a sense of community to start caring again.>How I feel anytime I see anyone walking around with suit and tie.pretty much. you just know they're up to something>Though I saw a guy walking around looking like Morpheus and that won it for me.as operanon said. just have to sell your style with confidence.>Those are usually the places they probably would judge you entirely based on brand you're wearingfair enough. i judge them for what they wear, too. :p>Rather take the pajama pants folks moreusually easier to hang out with, but i guess we shouldn't judge each other based on hour apparel so much. ^^>No winning move with some of those types.a strange game. the only winning move is not to play.>functional training i suppose!it is. some of the stuff is really insane. had a package about the size of a brick that weighed about 6kg. really didn't expect that and wrote in on the package to warn my coworkers. if you just try to grab something like that off the shelf while walking past, that could end badly. ^^'>I still use that a lot for daily cooking for convenience, but special weekend dishes have to do it rightsure. these days there a better brands around, but here they sell some really shitty ones (usually with some tv chef on the label to make it appear more trustworthy).>very excessively cruel and ruthless villainswhich is ok as long as they get what they deserve. we have enough pieces of shit get away irl. don't need that in my fiction as well.>a bit extreme in cruelty to compared to a lot of manga.guess we're going for a ride then.
>>83381933>My favorite thing Fujimoto did was pretend to be an 8 year old girl who was supposedly his sister(he doesn't have one) on twitter and kept spoiling his own manga and got in trouble for it.as he should, i suppose. ^^' guess his deadlines aren't tight enough if he's got enough time for stunts like that. might also just be pissed at his publisher for some reason. to this day i'm still convinced that hunter x hunter is just a decade long shitpost by togashi because the publisher rejected the story he really wanted to make.>>83382264>so far I like itguess you got two for the price of one, then. :> who are you watching?>hopefully it's entertaining enough thenit's a harcore challenge, so i'm sure there'll be some fun deaths. :>>I'm wondering what to reccomend u thenall good. i'm questing a bid while listening to some guys picking apart the new ryan johnson movie. it's a way to kill some time
i filled out the name this time. wow! instead of specifying in the body text. i had a group oral final exam today. nightmare fuel but at least it was friends. towards the beginning it became very clear that we had prepared a question incorrectly. dug my nails into the knuckles of my other hand. no blood no marks but there are still a few little red lines ~5 hours later. i looked at them in fear because i didn't know the answer and after the exam they both commented that my expression was genuinely unsettling. we got an A thoughbeit. also. my college does a silly matchmaker quiz thing and i decided to do it to microdose putting myself back out there. today i sent the girl i matched with an email asking if she wanted to get ice cream or something. my friends pointed out afterwards that this is a date and i was asking her out on a date. my dumb ass genuinely did not process that this is what a Date was. perhaps this fag is not as normal as he purports to be!
i cant stop biting myself because of games omfg why am i so fucking useless
>>83382307>was a good day overallI'm glad ^^>How was yours?I'm well and ate more fish :3but these were fried normaly>gain slowerthat's good I'd say>Might want to go over morethat's okay but just remember it should be fun to you >>83382501>who are you watching?juniper she's a vtuberI decided to watch her because she someone's plays games with wobo and charborg >i'm sure there'll be some fun deaths. :>hope they die a lot >:3>questing a bid while listening tohave a fun time ^^>>83382543hello o/>genuinely unsettling.that's sorta funnyit probably spooked them>today i sent the girl i matchedbest of luck anon>this is a dateI don't think it has to bejust meeting people doesn't have to be a date>>83382569don't bite urself anon
>>83382438> purpose and a sense of community fat chance finding either one of those here. Purpose is one thing hard on it's own, but community is very hard to find as well> just have to sell your style with confidence.if the dude came up to me and told me we were in the Matrix he'd 100% have me sold already>i judge them for what they wear, too.I'll try to mention my absurdly expensive jacket with comically large logo in front of you :< lol>the size of a brick that weighed about 6kg.reminds me the time I had that workbench that came in a box taller than me standing up and poor delivery guy was supposed to get to me alone. Ran out to help moment I noticed him struggling front of my house. There's crazy stuff people get delivered through regular services. >that could end badlyyeah D: Nice of you to be considerate about that> some tv chef on the labelclassic. Anything with a guy with chef hat on it is trustworthy>don't need that in my fiction as well.Meanwhile me over here rooting for the villains on too many occasions. >>83382501>decade long shitposti've become more convinced about certain manga writers getting fed up with publishers and stopped caring. Probably not that uncommon with how those places seem.>>83382543>my college does a silly matchmaker quiz what kind of college you go to? D: that's actually wild they have something like that. >that this is a date and i was asking her out on a date.what's date and not date is somewhat semantics and depends ultimately on intention I guess so no need to feel dumb. If everytime you ask a woman to do something then I'm guilty of dating a married woman before.>not as normal as he purports to be instantly recognize it's you, but at same is probably not the best way to identify yourself.. aha Most posters here don't think in terms of the rest of r9k
>>83382975i've started to ingest too much alcohol at this point, responses are getting meesed up>>83382592> ate more fish nice! I had fish in that soup I made. Cod mostly. I don't care much for the shellfish. >that's good I'd saybecomes a point you're really big enough too.. Keep going fast at this point would cross it fast
>>83382569if those games make you mad, stop playing them. i stopped playing mobas because of that and never looked back. it's just not worth it.>>83382592>juniper she's a vtuberwatching way more of those than i want to admit>I decided to watch her because she someone's plays games with wobo and charborgmakes sense. i also started watching streamers that collabed with people i was watching at thre time>hope they die a lot >:3in hardcore you only got one try and there's a lot of people who have never played the game before, so i think there'll be a lot of good ones initially. ^^>>83382975>fat chance finding either one of those here.shit's gone everywhere. everything crumbles while everyone tries to get by on their own.>he'd 100% have me sold alreadymight be because at this point the dystopia from the matrix doesn't sound as bad as the world we live in. great times.>my absurdly expensive jacket with comically large logo in front of you :< lolat least you got a logo for people recognize for your money. i just spend a lot of money on stuff from brands noone's ever heard of...>There's crazy stuff people get delivered through regular services.here it's supposed to be no more than 31,5 kg per package, but we sometimes got stuff that weighs way more than that. not sure how it gets through.>Nice of you to be considerate about thatwe try to be. it's the least we can do.>Anything with a guy with chef hat on it is trustworthyone of the guys here was put in jail for tax evasion. never liked the guy and it wasn't a surprise to me that the obviois asshole was, in fact, an asshole, but pleasantly surprised he got what he deserved.
>>83382975>rooting for the villains on too many occasions.always great when the writer can't come up with a convincing reason why the villain is wrong and has to be stopped or the heros are so unlikable or stupid that you just want them dead. worst example for that is legend of korra. every villain was justified. one actually got bestowed with nihilist-airbender-superpowers by the universe after all his friends got murked by the heroes, his girlfriend especially gruesome. she could explode things by looking at them, this is what happened:https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=VMO70D16dG4&pp=ygUda29ycmEgemFoZWVyIGdpcmxmcmllbmQgZGVhdGg%3Dso bad they could just imply what happened and had to cut away super quickly to keep their rating.>certain manga writers getting fed up with publishers and stopped caringyeah. black lagoon is being held hostage by the publishers. no wonder the authors get mad.bed time now. good night
Not cutting but does anyone else punch the "tough" bone parts of their face like their cheek bones when they're frustrated or mad? I've been trying to get better about it but it feels like I will lose it if I don't do it
>>83383928i dont want to stop because its so much fun with my friends but sometimes i just get super tilted. i think its because im very emotionally invested in it. i want to be top 10k by the end of next year which seems reasonable but its some pressure
Blocked from uploading media unfortunately so no more Opera O pics for now ;-;. Thanks for the get better wishes, everyone! After bedrotting all day, playing Uma Musume/watching Niconico I feel a bit better.>>83379560>that's something i can only do with people i know personallyI see. I guess I'm comfortable with it because my friends and I used to join random discord servers and just sit in VC, having conversation. It was a good time. You get to meet some great and not so great people.>>83379867>not sure if it's something for meI see. Sounds like you went through a lot, yuanon. So, you ruminate on regret a lot, getting caught up in the "if only"? If so, I get it. I'll save the cheesy lines like "life goes on" because I know it's not that simple.>thank you for making the world a less dreary placehaha. Thanks. A bit of whimsy and spontaniety makes life way more enjoyable.>>83380151Sorry to hear that, Anon. For me, I would cook my meals ahead of time/order food because being in a kitchen is dangerous when ideations are high.Regardless, ganbatte anon!>>83380198Thanks, officeanon! You have an impressive amount of padoru padoru images lol.>rhythm gamesOoh. What rhythm games do you play?>i'm shocked I liked as much as I didGlad to hear it helped you out. Seeing the way these horsegirls approach competition and life, it feels very inspiring. Have you watched the anime? Who are you favorite umas?>maybe being happy you tried your bestI'm not sure what the solution is either: comparison, the thief of joy, is always there. I'll think on this a bit more and let y'all know if I come across something interesting. Been reading a lot of self-help books. I think these are overhated desu. At least, they have morsels of good lines. Helps to go in with an open mind too ofc.
Hey gamers. I was somehow able to fix my sleep last night and go to bed/wake up at a normal time. Hopefully I can keep this up for a while.>>83376319>I just graduated.Good job!>>83377244>i need to journal again.No is as good a time to start, or think about it starting. You could probably get a diary before the year's out. >>83377280Hello /cat/>>83379185Everyone seems to have been getting sick recently. Get well soon!>>83379482>didn't do much else today except cooking, though.Lazy days are good, I think. Unless they bother your German sensibilities.>>83379482>that's why i usually opt for something like upsI'd trust UPS with my life but they're incredibly expensive, at least for the distances I'm using them for.
>>83384122About the self help books. My point is that I'll post if I come across any solutions that feel helpful.>>83382543>final examDamn. Sounds nerve-wracking but good job on making it through, especially with an A!>dateHave fun, anon! It sounds like you're looking for friendship over companionship there. Don't let what your friends said get in your head too much. Let us know how it goes.>>83384105I think it's worth to evaluate how you approach the game. Unless you're looking at it as an esport, I think setting elo goals is an easy way to get upset at yourself.For example, I had friends who were super into League but now just play the casual/for fun modes. They still keep up with the competitive scene but only as a spectator.>fujimotoyeah. That dude is genuinely crazy but we love him for it. There are so many great lines from him.>I also like domineering and irrational women. In college, there was a girl who was mean to me, and then one day at school my bicycle had fallen over. I was wondering what happened, when she said 'I knocked your bike over, ha ha ha!' I was so happy.He's just like me frfr! Opera O would never do something like that though.>rooting for villainsHonestly, rarely I consume media where I consider a character to be the villain.>>83383985That's unfortunate because I've heard ATLA had really good handling of its morally gray characters.
Have a pre-nap bump
Be along soon. Having my morning workout but hope everyone is doing well
good morning and pre-workout bump. see you soon.
>>83383928>shit's gone everywheremight still be around in more rural areas here. When going around on roadtrips always surprised by how nice and respectful people some places acted. Know for a fact these places wouldn't want people from other places to move into their communities (and probably be inconvenient in many ways too) so must settle for being here where everyone hates each other and crime is real bad>logo for people recognize for your money.i genuinely wanted to try it to see how it was for extreme cold and didn't disappoint, but getting reactions from people over a damn logo is absurd > not sure how it gets through.someone not checking the heavier stuff and just assuming it meets the cutoff perhaps? 31,5 kg is already quite heavy to the point if it comes close to that it seems like it would be annoying to deal with>can't come up with for me it's often the reader is mentally ill enough to feel sympathetic to the right type of asshole> legend of korra. every villain was justified.Yeah, I remember watching korra too. The main cast of heroes didn't at all feel like a cohesive group I think was one of the biggest issues in hindsight, which kinda made it hard to develop any of them. That and too many genuinely unlikable moments>after all his friends got murked by the heroesthey did zaheer dirty. Felt bad for him and they did my man Amon>>83384122>Blocked from uploading mediaoh no :< well glad you're doing a bit beter now at least>impressive amount of padoruthank you! I've been pulling them since November lol>What rhythm gamesI play the arcade kinds to be clear. Going back and forth between a few. Maimai, Taiko, and Music Diver. Man I just am there for like hours now, but it's too much fun. I think the staff are amused since I usually do look like I just came from an office half the time
>>83384122>feels very inspiring.genuinely do get a nice feeling from it. Shoot, I get way too into it. Now that I'm in the swing of doing well I can go quicker, but remember being on the edge of my seat starting off because I felt bad when they lost.>Have you watched the anime?I had started watching the first season (the one focused on Special Week), but hadn't finished since I got hooked watching Kaiji at the time and didn't go back to finish, but probably will soon.>Who are you favorite umas?that's tough since like all of them I've gotten to really. My initial favorite was Daiwa Scarlet, fond of her perfectionism. I like King Halo too because the whole disapproving mom wanting her to stop. And then Maruzensky because i too am out of touch with everyone around me>I'm not sure what the solution is eithedidn't think it was, but I think the hardest thing with getting help is what is meaningful and helpful for one person, isn't another. I'd say it's best to focus on trying to improve what you can, even if it doesn't help now, since it'll put you in a better position if something does flip at some point. >I think these are overhated i'd say it depends on book, but I agree and back to even one passage might be what someone specifically needs to read. What kind of things are bothering you if you don't? Don't mean to bring up negative thoughts if it's too much to share.>>83384190hey discanon! That's good and glad to hear! Guess there will be less overlap with our posting, but important thing is making things easier for you>probably get a diaryi still had space in my old one, so started writing things down the other day a little>>83384230>I also like domineering and irrational women>I was so happy.Makes a lot of sense>consider a character to be the villain.Any villain can become not a villain with the right level of mental gymnastics>>83386571morning yuanon! Have a good day. My workout was good, hope yours is too!
mornin everyone!!now that I finished mario and silent hill I don't know what to play next :/maybe I'll replay disillusion st
I ended up napping for 3 hours. I'm still pretty tired and feel like sleeping more, even though I probably shouldn't.I don't know if it's related but my mood has cratered and I feel horrendous again. Thinking about the same as always. Someone said I'll probably feel like this for a year, which isn't very reassuring.>>83386902>hey discanon! That's good and glad to hear!Hello! I may have celebrated too soon...>Guess there will be less overlap with our posting, but important thing is making things easier for youI'm not really sure what the benefit is since I work my own hours. I guess I get to see sunlight now and can bump the thread when you're all asleep.>i still had space in my old one, so started writing things down the other day a littleThat's good. I try to write one entry every day and I've somehow managed to do that for almost 4 years now.
Just played Hatsune Miku Project Diva for over an hour. I finally have lost it. Need to go clean snow>>83387308morning cat, have a good day>disillusion sthad to look this up.. very creepy looking>>83387324>celebrated too sooneasy come easy go I suppose> get to see sunlight nowthat's a huge benefit honestly since that shit has such a huge impact on mood. Even if you're not where you want to be with life, better off with than without it>almost 4 years nowimpressive you were so consistent. I have days I just wasn't in mood or literally couldn't find the time, but think now probably help me a bit more doing so
>>83387977Project Diva is fun. What's your favourite song to play?>Even if you're not where you want to be with life, better off with than without itThat's true. Unfortunately they seem to be building a new skyscraper across me, so my sunlight might be going away eventually...>impressive you were so consistent.I've forgotten to do it a few times, but it mostly comes down to it being part of my bedtime routine, I think.
>>83382543minor update on this: that girl never got back to me. there are reasonable possibilities here (who checks their email on the weekends) and unreasonable ones (she HATES me and i'm WEIRD) and i don't much care. what bothers me is that it is the cutest hallmarkiest romcommest weather imaginable out and if i had had a date i could have cooked. missed opportunities!>>83382975you're probably right lol. i'll figure something out. and this isn't like an official college thing it's just someone (idk who) sets it up every year and email blasts the school and admin never shuts them down. >>83384190seconding the journaling/diary idea. you can possibly find stuff on holiday sale now too. and yeah ups is a lot but they get it done.
hey everyone, i had to pick something up today but i didn't go, literally couldn't make myself do anything. I'll try again tomorrow.
I worked on the project a little bitand now it's chill time>>83387977> Miku Project Diva for over an:0I think that's how you achieve nirvana >very creepy lookingit it a little creepy that makes it relaxing too I'd sayFor some reason I always play it around december, I have memories of failing my math class feeling sad and going to play disillusion for a bit >>83389409hello ^^>couldn't make myself domaybe you should motivate yourself bo getting a snack of your way thereor maybe instead of going there you just just go stand up to take a drink and once you're up you could get dressed and once you're dressed yet might as well go get itTake it step by stepanyways, hope you manage to get to tomorrow friend And how was your day besides that?
>>83388691>Project Diva is fun. I literally downloaded and started playing first time today lol Wanted to see what games I could get into and already am>favourite song to play?still need to go through more, I liked Alien Alien and Ghost Rule of what I played so far. Got my ass kicked mega hard by Disappearance of Hatsune Miku as to be expected>building a new skyscraper across meI'm over here trying to figure out how many different types of animal prints have gone through my yard D: I like cities, especially over there, but definitely some downsides like that.> it being part of my bedtime routineprobably what I'd need to do in order to be consistent. If I build something into routine, it's perfect otherwise, never know>>83389178> i could have cookedyou like cooking? Can always do that for just yourself of course, but get it's better that way. Not sure cooking for her would happen after the first email either way xD>blasts the school and admin never shuts them down.this sounds like a scam man. Like those Koreans who would always try to get people from my college to join their cult. >>83389409hey chev! good luck tomorrow. No need to force yourself to do something you're not up to. Hope you find something to kill time with at least>>83389499>and now it's chill timeglad you're done with the crappy part of the day. Still need to do my work later>achieve nirvanaI'm gaining valuable life skills that will really improve my quality of life as well>memories of failing my math class feeling sad and going to play disillusion for a bitsounds like has memories tied to it. What type of game is it anyway? It had walking simulator listed as genre and I love a good walking simulator.
>>83390186>Still need to do my work later:c>gaining valuable life skills that will really improve my quality of life as wellwhile basking in the presence of miku!>sounds like has memories tied to it.yep but it makes me enjoy it more >walking simulatoris a way though it's strange you just walk around and talk to random characters to collect items and things happened and you gotta figure a lot of the stuff what to do there yourselfI think it might be too boring or confusing and repetitive for a lot of people
>>83390596>while basking in the presence of miku!no better way to be spending my time>is a way though it's strangethat's half the fun usually. Seems like something I'd be interested in trying some point. Will yet you know if I do.> might be too boring or confusingI played through the original Pathologic, this can't be worse than that!
>>83390722>no better way toexactly and btw haven you been playing any other things?>Seems like something I'd be interested in trying some pointit also has interesting music if that sounds interesting to you >this can't be worse than that!dunnoit's mostly just sut back and chill game though there's also a card game in there thats fairly cool actually I didn't want to bother playing it at first but it turned out to be very simple and pretty fun
>>83390861>haven you been playing any other things?other than umamusume on my phone, no. Rhythm games and gatcha rng hell.. I really am too weeb now D:>sounds interesting to youalways a plus> very simple and pretty fualways amazed when games have high quality mini games inside the game itself. Always get really into those after hesitating at first
going to sleep I have to wake up at 8am tomorrow ughhhhhhhh 7w7
>>83391202>really am too weeb now D:hehe as long as you like it ^^just don't lose your money >have high quality miniit is simple tho but it's something
>>83391204gn cat and goodluck! see you later
>>83384059>I've been trying to get better about it but it feels like I will lose it if I don't do ithm. strikes to the head are always bad. do you think it could be enough if you just punched or slapped something like a sandbag? it's something martial arts people do to condition their arms and fists. it hurts, but not too bad. they also punch small wooden blocks for a similar effect>>83384105makes sense, but when it ends with you wanting to hurt yourself, i doubt it's worth it. maybe try to play some cooperative games once in a while, too.>i want to be top 10k by the end of next year which seems reasonable but its some pressurei don't really get it, but i've never been a competetive player in the first place. anyways, good luck with it and tell us how it's going. nearly forgot to ask: what are you playing?>>83384122>It was a good time. You get to meet some great and not so great people.i guess one of my problems is that i need a very long time to warm up to people and start talking. way to long for most and i don't blame them. it's not that i'm too shy, i just have nothing to say or that i want to talk about. i guess something like this site suits me better because i can think about my replies a bit more. what kind of people did you meet, though? did you make friends that way?>Sounds like you went through a lotnot through half as much as most people here, but depression put me through the wringer and ininternalized a lot of bad thoughts and feelings about and towards me during that time. i try to accept them and to keep moving regardless.
>>83384122>you ruminate on regret a lot, getting caught up in the "if only"?i've got a more deterministic view of things. i don't believe that things could have happened differently, so i'm not mad that it did. doesn't change the fact that i'm left with a version of myself that never will be able to be the version i would have liked to become and that gets the better of me from time to time. i guess that's just a lot of words to say "if only", isn't it?>I'll save the cheesy lines like "life goes on" because I know it's not that simple.it's true, though.>A bit of whimsy and spontaniety makes life way more enjoyable.wish i could be like that sometimes, but i'm the exact opposite.>>83384190>Unless they bother your German sensibilities.i've given up on long ago on trying to be part of the larger society. i'm sure i have a lot of behaviors and habits that make it clear i'm from here, but i don't fit the stereotypes well. not that they hold up anymore anyway. i guess what i want to say is that i'm way to tired to not just take every lazy day i can get.>they're incredibly expensive, at least for the distances I'm using them for.agreed. if you don't order or send something that's expensive itself it's hard to justify the cost.>>83384230>I've heard ATLA had really good handling of its morally gray characters.atla is a good show, but it has it's flaws. especially the ending didn't sit right with people. still a good show worth watching.>>83386814>Know for a fact these places wouldn't want people from other places to move into their communities the only people complaining about gatekeeping are the people the gate was supposed to keep out.>so must settle for being here where everyone hates each other and crime is real badyou'd probably fit on really well with those places, though. maybe it's not something that'll happen in the near future, but don't rule out moving there entirely. it's hard work, but people appreciate you trying to fit in.
>>83390186oh i just mean cooked like "done well". some zoomerslop slang. i don't have my own kitchen here>>83391204good luck in the morning o7>>83392055>wish i could be like that sometimes, but i'm the exact opposite.felt, although it really can just be a little bit. just enough whimsy to keep you out of your room, yknow?
>>83386814>getting reactions from people over a damn logo is absurdit is, but what can you do? i've realized i really don't like apparel with logos, prints or anything like that on them. whenever i get stuff like that i wear it a few times and then just put it away.>31,5 kg is already quite heavy to the point if it comes close to that it seems like it would be annoying to deal withdimensions and weight distribution are way bigger factors than weight alone. that said, we were supposed to be receiving a table for pick up and the driver from our distribution center just told us he didn't accept it because he wouldn't have been able to haul it to our store on his own. guess the customer just had ti get it from there.>the reader is mentally ill enough to feel sympathetic to the right type of assholeor they just cherrypick the attributes of a character they like and conveniently forget about all the heinous shit they did. combine that with a hefty dose of "i can safe/fix them" for an even more unhinged fan.>The main cast of heroes didn't at all feel like a cohesive group I think was one of the biggest issues in hindsightyeah. everyone just got sidetracked into their own plotlines that didn't really pay off. can't even remember why they sticked together to begin with.>That and too many genuinely unlikable momentsagreed. like korra never being able to learn airbending on her own. just fucked up and bitched about it until the universe had enough and just unlocked it for her via completely unearned avatar state. exactly want i want to happen to the hero of my story. or the whole relationship drama that dragged on way too long to also just end nowhere. the longer the show went on, the more good will the crew loses.>they did zaheer dirty.and he's completely right! the universe gives you literal superpowers for detaching yourself from everything! why do you write that into your young adult action cartoon?
>>83389499>getting a snack of your way therei might if i can find something i wanna eat. been struggling with that lately.>And how was your day besides that?literally just slept all day. woke up with a cool idea for my chaos knight when i get it tho.>>83390186>Hope you find something to kill time with at leastnot really, just been brainstorming ideas for the miniatures i'm getting, finally found one that stuck tho.
>>83386814>they did my man Amon"but he's a fraud!!" - "doesn't refute anything he says about benders in the slightest..." - "yeah, but he got beat up by the end, so that means he's morally wrong and the people just forget about the grievances that made them follow him in an instant!"thanks, tv-show. seriously, if you don't want to actually bother to answer the questions you raise, why bring it up? the show took every wrong turn at every opportunity. you can't be that wrong by just choosing random outcomes. lok is an exceptional piece of media to study when it comes to catastrophically failing at every point when writing media.>My workout was good, hope yours is too!awesome. mine was a bit rough, but manageable. need a few more sessions to really get back into it.>>83387308hey, catbro! hope you sleep well.>>83392124>just enough whimsy to keep you out of your room, yknow?i think i do nerdy instead of whimsy for that. getting manga, hanging out with friends to play board and tabletop games. stuff like that. and i like to work out in the woods or go for a small hike or jog there. i just have a hard time pretending to care about things i don't care about at all.>>83392418hey dude!>i'm getting, finally found one that stuck tho.sounds promising. what did you come.up with?
Hey everynyan. I'm feeling way better. Wish I could've spent my weekend a bit better, probably would've continued this VN I was playing.I suppose it's good that I'm not going to get behind on my course work tho.>>83386814>rhythm gamesoh sick. Honestly haven't heard of any of those besides Taiko. The arcades where I'm at are unfortunately pretty barren but I remember, when I visited Japan, I was surprised at the variety of arcade games they had. Lots of unique stuff that weren't just a dumbed down version of just playing the instrument itself. >favorite umasI totally understand liking all of them. I remember trying to make a tier list of the umas with a friend but we couldn't fathom putting any of them below B tier. I also like King Halo because of her mommy issues (just like me frfr ;-;).I like a lot of the more (relatively) masc Umas like Vodka, Sirius Symboli, K.S. Miracle.>animeWell, let me know when you end up getting the chance to finish it! I remember when the anime came out back in 2018/17, I cringed at the scene of Torena checking out Spe's legs but I was glad to see that was mostly a one-time joke and the relationship is mostly portrayed as Father/Daughter.>kaijiDidn't end up checking out Kaiji. That's the gambling anime, right?>even if it doesn't help nowWell said, officeanon.>>83390596Not related at all, but I love this image cat. Where'd you get it from?>>83389178>could've cookedhaha. That's unfortunate. You should've taken yourself out on a date!
>>83392475i'm glad you're feeling better. and i did take myself out on a date actually! i went into town and it was snowing and i was whimsical as fuck. her loss i was super cute>>83392443nerdy can work! as long as it includes other people and isn't just funkomaxxing. but you seem to have a good handle on it
>>83386814>things are bothering youIt's no problem to share. I just worry about trauma dumping since I do that a lot and have made a lot of people uncomfortable but, I suppose if anyone is willing to listen, it'd be you guys!I deal a lot with self-hate. I used to be unable to go a day without sincerely wishing for something bad to happen to me. Since you seem to be a Vocaloid fan, I can explain it like so: I used to exclusively listen to Nashimoto Ui and Nekobolo lmao.In the past couple months, I've done some insane work on this though. It's a process of course and probably one I'll continue on for the rest of my life.I can talk a bit about my recent self improvement journey if it becomes relevant but it'd be naiive to think the words that affected me so deeply are the exact same words someone else needs to hear.Keeping a physical diary, I'd say, is the most generic great advice I could give to anyone.>>83391903I totally get it, yuanon. Small talk really sucks but I cope with it to see if these ppl share my sense of humor or not.The topics of convo were generally pretty weird. Sometimes, some dude would be screen-sharing his gameplay, making racist jokes or smthn. Good conversation starters were stuff like "how'd you choose your username/pfp?"I had a lot of good convos and people I could see myself talking to again but didn't for whatever reason. Some of them did friend me and I think I could've probably dm'd them to continue the relationship but I didn't feel like it.>whimsyWell, don't do anything that makes you uncomfortable ofc but it could be something simple like taking a different path when walking home. Seems like you already have the right idea though.>i try to accept themI see. Well, that's all we can do, right?>>83392055>i guess that's just a lot of words to say "if only", isn't it?lol. maybe but I do understand what you're saying. Is that version of yourself now unachievable? or do you think you could still reach it at some point?
>>83392597Yay! I'm happy to hear this anon. Sounds like it was a really fun time. Thanks for the well wishes too.
>>83392597>>83392655i'll head to bed now and reply tomorrow. way to tired now. (~.~) good night!
Morning (evening) everyone. I'm feeling pretty alright today.>>83390186>I liked Alien Alien and Ghost Rule of what I played so farI like Alien but I suck noodles at playing that if I'm remembering right. Doubleganger is my favourite to play, I think.>definitely some downsides like thatYeah. I wish I was wealthy enough to have a garden here...>>83391204Good luck. I've got a 7:30 start on Wednesday.>>83392055>i'm sure i have a lot of behaviors and habits that make it clear i'm from here, but i don't fit the stereotypes wellYou'd be surprised. I didn't realise how British I was until I moved.>if you don't order or send something that's expensive itself it's hard to justify the cost.I mailed something using the regular postal service here and that cost almost as much as the items. I don't want to think how much it would cost to ship with UPS. Although that's probably my fault for sending a 3.5kg package...
heloo hellorise and shine everyone
Will be along shortly. Another workout. I am feeling not feeling today at all right now. Way below freezing too
a guy online once offered to carve my name into his thigh, told him nokinda regret it now, woulda be neat
>>83392124>good luck in the morning o7thank youuy it went well>>83392418>might if i can find something i wanna eadid u?>cool idea for my chaos knight when i get it tho.what is it?>>83392443thank u>>83392475hello>I'm feeling way better.that's great to hear>love this image cat. Where'd you get it from?it's from a game called disillusion st!I like that game a lot >>83393379Eyo>>83395099best of luck and don't overdo your workout >>83395122that's a bad idea
>>83392124>cooked like "done well"ah i misread in this context. Also only ever head "I'm cooked". Either way, always next time>>83392055>you'd probably fit on really well with those placesdon't know about that. Thing is most people who live those types of places have been in that their whole life more rural areas. Best I hope for is being one of those people living in the nicer houses out of the way from everyone, but not really part of any community or neighborhood(kind everyone just sticks to themselves which isn't worst thing either).>>83392277>it isI will make an exception though, the Vans logo is fine since it just means you probably like skating.>logos, prints or anything like that on themyeah 9 times out of 10 I'd agree with this since most my clothes are very plain>dimensions and weight distribution are way bigger factors Oh I hear you on that. That one delivery I got was awkward to get a handle on too, which I feel can make even lighter stuff a pain>he didn't accept it someone lucked out on that one>conveniently forget about all the heinous shit they didFor me, I find extremely evil stuff actually adds to my appreciation of certain characters. Varies case by case, but think it often increases the appreciation of characteristics I like and often can handled interestingly, even if not "sympathetic".>why they sticked together to begin withI had to look up the cast since I couldn't remember anyone but Korra's name and I swear I forgot Asami was even a character and have no idea what anyone did after book 1 lol
>>83392443> grievances that made them follow him in an instant!"I was mad af about that part. Stop follow the only guy who cared about making a difference because it turned out he was a bender. I know it's a kids show but what the hell lol i feel like if they didn't need to have the plot resolved for antagonist each book, it would be a little better. It felt like they ran out of time with book 1 or something and just needed an excuse to wrap up right there or something>>83392418that's something at least. Hope you're having fun>>83392475hi operanon! glad to hear you're back on track>arcades where I'm at are unfortunately pretty barrenmost are here, but I lucked out and found one good one>I visited Japansurprisingly the one east asian country I haven't to D: must of been quite nice and would love to go there and check out everything including what it's like those there>couldn't fathom putting any of them below B tier.agreed. Impossibly hard. Even ones I didn't think I'd like, I end up liking well enough.>Vodkathe only one you mentioned I have an exposure too and I do like Vodka quite a bit, but part her whole thing with Scarlet I always enjoy>the chance to finish it!will do! Might catch up during holidays.>That's the gambling anime, right?yes indeed! I was quite shocked honestly at the tone, suspense, and overwhelming positive message underneath it all. One of the biggest surprises I got watching an anime recently>>83392655> worry about trauma dumping no worries here! What the thread is here for.>with self-hateI think a lot of us here do or have at very least at some point. Including hoping for bad things. I remember being like that basically from when I was 10 years old a long time ago, almost down to a few years back.
>>83392655>exact same words someone else needs to hear.You never know! And even they aren't, might help someone a little bit, and that's always good to. That said glad to hear you're making so much progress. What kind of things have been helping you most you feel? I agree, constantly improving is good. Even if you're never done, being better tomorrow than today is a good thing. And journaling is very underrated. Physical act of writing is therapeutic in and of itself I feel.>>83393379>I'm feeling pretty alright today.glad to hear! I'm dreading work and having to step outside in the cold for a bit, but otherwise good. Hope you're having a good day over there>Doubleganger will try this out sometime soon maybe. Feel like playing a little before work>enough to have a garden herei have the land for it, but always a pain with my schedule. I used to like doing it in high school, but so much effort when have work and what not>didn't realise how British I was until I moved.me getting excited getting American BBQ at some expats place in Vietnam>>83395470heyo cat, hope you're starting off your day well
With the way the world is going i've resorted to SH for the first time in a long time... alcohol use didnt help me this time, i lost basically all my money at the casino and now im living off $2 ramen till my next paycheck... ill likely have to ask my mom for money for rent, further solidifying that i am a drain on the small circle of people around me. i feel like if i cut deep enough to scar atleast it serves as a personal reminder to myself of these bad times... i no longer want to be a cog in the machine that perpetuates this evil world... and yet im too scared to commit to anything. Also, Pigeon.
work sucks. Current mood is this song from Project Divahttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w0xfJyMB1OkIf the Luka anon comes back and sees this, I see why you like her so much>>83396018Hi anon that I will refer to as CC, sorry to hear that things aren't going great. World is just bad place right now for most people feel. >drain on the small circle of people around mea lot of people are having to get help from people now. Just remember when times are good again> no longer want to be a cog in the machine that perpetuates this evil world.hard not to be when the world forces you to be one in order to survive sadly. > Pigeon.Underrated birds
>>83396368Ive held on for so long, been off these threads for so long... times used to be good, then time carried on... friends moved beyond me, work, families, new friends... i stayed in the same spot... if i died id be known as "that guy we hungout with when we were younger"...
>>83396476>times used to be good, then time carried onunfortunately how it is. Things don't say the same. That said, things don't necessarily need to stay bad either. Just times all around, but it won't last this way either. Just need to hold and try to figure out what's next>if i died id be known asthat's an uncomfortable thing to think about, but know what you mean since it gets to me sometimes as well. I'm sure you're family would care at the very least.
>>83395691>hope you're starting off your day wellyep over all it's been a pretty good day :Dwbu???>>83396018Hello>resorted to SH it happens sorry to hear shit hit the fanyou gotta get rid of your addictions man>Pigeonwet agg penguingn>>83396368>work sucks:ccool song
cool video for anybody whos bored :>https://youtu.be/30Uc-JxJzYI?si=ICDWt_I0HpgF5Wck
>>83397031>yep over all it's been a prettywhatcha up to?>wbu???I'm at home and dealing some annoyances, but not as bad of a day as I thought it would be when first posting. Honestly could be a lot worse still plenty of hours left in the day though!>cool songother fun thing about playing project diva is finding new songs and artists cuz I'm pretty new to this relatively speaking. Having a lot of fun and easy to play a few songs and walk away. >>83397324Man, I miss camcords and vhs tapes. I'm glad we have phone cameras that surpass these, but there's still a lot of charm to this and I like filming stuff nonsensically as a kid
>>83397809>whatcha up to?watched some videos and played a half life 2 mod ^^>dealing some annoyances,they never eenndd D:>Having a lot of fun and easy to play a few songs anice :>and does playing cost money?>miss camcords and vhs tapesyou have any memories with them?>lot of charm to thisI think it is a little better in some ways when doing stuff is less convenient and you did have everything in you pocket computer
>>83398306>played a half life 2 modwhat's the mod your playing now like?>never eenndd ehh getting used to this round of awfulness at least. That's always a nice feeling. >and does playing cost money?I paid to get it, but it's free to play after that obviously. Link is herehttps://store.steampowered.com/app/1761390/Hatsune_Miku_Project_DIVA_Mega_Mix/>you have any memories with them?I had a big bulky kind when I was veryyyy young and would run around with it. Even had the night mode which was cool> little better in some ways when doing stuff is less convenienthave to be a little more thoughtful I guess. More difficult to film anything. I still like having the little pocket computer, I suppose it's more mindset than anything. We have more ability to do things, but put less thought into them.
Ended up oversleeping and my schedule got thrown off ;-;Will set multiple alarms tomorrow.>>83395470>disillusion stOh cool. Never heard about it before but it looks sick. Will add it to the wishlist.>>83395667>one east asian country I haven'tI'd highly recommend it! Everyone was so kind. There's a lot of Japan hate nowadays because weebs are annoying. So, you've been to China and Korea too? :0 Those are next on my bucket list fs.>the only one you mentioned I have an exposure tooAh yea. The other Umas haven't hit global yet. Though, there is a Sirius Symboli SR guts card which is rate up rn.Oversimplifying but she is basically a flirt with a pretty face and good sense of morals/justice. >her whole thing with ScarletDo you mean Vodsca? The fact that the real life horses were shipped together too lmao. I'm a huge shipper myself (yuri, yaoi, everything) but I understand that's not for everyone so I'm testing the waters by just asking lol.>kaijiOh? I didn't realize it was that deep. Glad to hear you're enjoying it.
>>83395691>You never knowYeah. You're right. I have the words but don't know how to say it beautifully atp so I'll wait a lil bit before sharing them. >What kind of things have been helping you most you feel?Mostly diary writing and weekly reflections. It's been a helpful exercise since I basically analyze myself as an entity separate of myself if that makes sense? Like, without any ego. That's also an idea explored in the book I'm reading that all self hate is just ego. A bit cruel to say but an interesting idea.>>83396018Hi anon that I will also refer to as CC. Sorry to hear you're going through a tough time now. Reiterating what cat said, step 0 is tryna get rid of those addictions. Don't spend too much time beating yourself up tho.>>83397324Ooh. Thanks for sharing, cat. Will check this out later when I'm eating dinner.>>83396368Despite being knee deep into vocaloid, I still haven't checked this game out. I mostly got into it through watching edits as a kid. Any favorite songs?
wrote a whole reply and then it got eated >:c
>>83398849>mod your playing now like?new map labsit's spooky this time because halloween >getting used tobetter than nothing but still not great but stay patient christmas is soon>paid to get it, but it's freeoh I confused it with the mall thing lol>would run around with it. sounds fundo you still have the recordings?>Even had the night mode which was cooloutlast irl? :o>still like having the little pocket computer,same but I feel like making things more convenient is hurting them in some wayslike bikes, there is a bit of a push now with making bikes into what a guy I agree with calls "kitchen appliances", basically a black electronic box that beeps and does it's thing when put your finger on a touch screen and you don't know how it works and so if something's not right you can't repair or replace the broken part and often than manufacturer with prohibit repairing it >>83398867hallo>oversleepingat least you're well rested today ^^>set multiple alarmsbest of luck o7but don't forget to charge your phone before sleep>Never heard about itit's a pretty niche game but it's coolthough it's strange and confusing, it's on purpose but it might make you feel like you're running in circles Also it's tied to the agora road forum>heres another screen from the game<>Will add it to the wishlist.I hope you like it if you play it >>83398896>Thanks for sharingnp ^^if you ever have anything interesting you'd like to share feel free to post it it doesn't have to be sh related
hey everyone, still didn't manage to get out of bed to pick that shit up. i played some nfs with my friends but it didn't hit the same and i just left the lobby to be stuck with my thoughts. gaming just fucking sucks man. so does everything else tbf. waiting for that fucking knight to come in still. yuanon helped me to work out the headcanon a bit tho
>>83399284hey friend >didn't manage to get out of bed to pick that shit uphow long is that thing gonna wait for you?>gaming just fucking sucks manhm maybe you should play different games?>that fucking knightwhat that?>yuanon helped methat's nice ^^
>>83399515>how long is that thing gonna wait for you?they gave me about 2 weeks, tomorrow's another day.>hm maybe you should play different games?ran outta stuff i'm interested in desu. nothing media seems to entertain me anymore.>what that?miniature i ordered.
>>83361970>>How are you doing today?terribly as every day>>Any plans for today?rot >>When was the last time you hurt yourself?yesterday>>Why did you hurt yourself?to make the pain go away>>Is there anything bothering you right now?yesthanks for asking OP
>>83399835>tomorrow's another day.could you maybe get someone to get it for u?>nothing media seems to entertain me anymore.maybe you should try a totally random games without knowing anything about it and see if you like it>miniature i orderedooohdid you get an idea how to paint it like a day ago?>>83399920hay anonsorry to hear you're unwell ro you think it'll ever get better?>yesterdaymake sure to patch yourself up
>>83400446>ro you think it'll ever get better?I'm seeing a sliver of hope. Maybe I'll not do it today. Thanks.
>>83400518>seeing a sliver of hope.that's nice :>what is the thing that brings you hope?>Thanksno problem anon you deserve it
>>83400527>what is the thing that brings you hope?A girl might be interested in me.. I'm probably being baited. But for the moment it feels very good and soothing.
>>83398867>highly recommend it!always been one I wanted to go to. Will see what future holds. Not sure I'll travel abroad given all the economic fear going on now, but maybe one day>weebs are annoyingwhy I'm secretly a weeb. I'm very obvious online, but think most people who know me irl would never expect it lol>you've been to China and Korea too?yeah, though Korea I was focused mostly on Seoul only, but that is what most people mean they say they've been there suppose. Also been to Vietnam, Thailand, and a few countries in Europe. Know it's hard to tell but I'm from the US if you didn't see me say it yet.>Umas haven't hit global yetMe patiently waiting for Still in Love to release...> Sirius Symbolilooked up and do like her style. Will keep an eye when she comes. I'm having terrible pulls lately.>Vodscaaha I'm not usually super into shipping, but enjoying the relationship between them is probably closest I'm come to it. >>83398896>I'll wait a lil bit before sharing them.no worries no rush. Think for the most part everyone here is pretty good state, but can still find things that help even when times aren't bad>entity separate of myself if that makes sense?that makes sense yeah. I don't often go back to what I wrote when I do it, but at times it does make me question what I was thinking when I wrote it. Think that kind of introspection is easier out of the moment>an interesting idea.I can kind of see what direction that might take. Self hate usually comes from thinking you aren't living up to what you perceive you should be, which in a way depends up you expecting that you should be a certain way, even if it isn't the case. >Despite being knee deep into vocaloidit's funny because I am actually very new to vocaloid since trying out rhythm games at the arcade on a whim. Would have never done type of thing before but stopped caring what people think a bit.
>>83398896>>Any favorite songs?Need time to decide since I'm hearing a lot of new songs since new fan less I just say Alien because it's the catchiest one for me so far, but everything I hear is still so new.>>83399076Happened the other day and boy was bothered :<>>83399161>it's spooky this time because halloweenThat's not what time of year it is!>but stay patient christmas is soonat least I have one day off to look forward to!> I confused it with the mall thingah no. I'm too far from there. I only play on weekends when I'm passing through. That does cost a good bit. But I'll fill up a 20 dollar card every third time I go and last me 3 visits of playing different games>do you still have the recordings?probably on old vhs tapes at my parents house. Think one has me swearing like crazy and always felt nervous about finding how foul mouthed 9 year old me was.>outlast irl? :opretty much. I think I was running through a hotel hallway with that backrooms style wallpaper/lighting too in one!>"kitchen appliances"this is one thing I don't get either, making everything more hi tech even if it doesn't need to be. I like having phones, but we don't need everything to have some functions and what not. > not right you can't repaira big problem with all that nonsense. Same thing with what happened to cars too (though I suppose I can't fix regular cars either) but it got to the point otherwise reliable car became worse because of adding tech that wasn't needed.>>83399284hey chev>pick that shit up. sure you'll get it one of these days. Just hopefully don't have to force yourself last day>gaming just fucking sucks man.least as far as online games, I agree with you. Haven't found one of those I liked in years now>>83400536> probably being baited.never know if you don't give it a chance. Just try not to feel to negative about it going in. That itself can ruin chances if you go in expecting the worse, even if things would be good otherwise.
Friend who said 'just because im upset with you doesn't mean im going to abandon you' proceeded to then abandon me and block me on everything a week laterhahahahhahahahahaha fuck everything omg, i love ruining all relationships which are important to me bc of bpd
>>83392597>as long as it includes other people and isn't just funkomaxxingit usually does and i've never liked those things, so i guess i'm good.>you seem to have a good handle on itat least i hope so.>>83392655>I cope with it to see if these ppl share my sense of humor or not. hard to find people that do. >The topics of convo were generally pretty weird.guess it was just whatever came to mind?>I didn't feel like it.sometimes you just drift apart or just don't have the mental capacity to include another person in your life. it's sad, but it happens.>don't do anything that makes you uncomfortable ofceasier said than done. most things do. ^^'>it could be something simple like taking a different path when walking homei hardly ever have the energy for things like that. i just want to head home and be done with the day. doesn't help that i drive home and that it's usually quite late already when i do.>that's all we can do, right?at least i don't know if there is anything else.>Is that version of yourself now unachievable? or do you think you could still reach it at some point?i can only get closer to it, but i'll never reach it.>>83393379>I didn't realise how British I was until I moved.i suppose that's true. we get shaped by our environment after all. where did you move to?>Although that's probably my fault for sending a 3.5kg package...bigger issue than the weight is probably that the uk isn't part of the eu anymore. those packages tend to cost more than the ones send to eu-countries here as well.>>83395625>don't know about that.i think i know what you mean. i can't be bothered to take an interest in local affairs either.>the Vans logo is fine since it just means you probably like skating.as long if it's a quality item it doesn't really matter either way.
>>83400630Ghosted yet again. Well, it was worth the try. Thanks for replying to me and commenting on my BAKKA life, anon.
>>83361970>How are you doing today?I'm doing okay, had some big ups and downs today but overall am doing okay. What about you cat?>Any plans for today?It's currently quite late so I might simply go to sleep. I have therapy tomorrow.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?Hmmm.. I think it was a week ago, I'm trying my best to stay clean lately.>Why did you hurt yourself?The urges got too hard to ignore, but it'll all be okay soon.>Is there anything bothering you right now?Not really! Wanna talk about yourself for a bit tho?
>>83395625>was awkward to get a handle on too, which I feel can make even lighter stuff a painit really is. nothing get me angrier than something i can't get a good grip on. usually means that i'll be bumping into something as well while i try to get it where it's supposed to go. >someone lucked out on that onedidn't have to handle a heavy package, did have to deal with a pissed customer. there's no winning here.>extremely evil stuff actually adds to my appreciation of certain charactersi can see why, but i do have my limits.>even if not "sympathetic".not every good character has to be. erebus from warhammer 40k is one of the most hated characters in fiction and he's rightfully earned that place. he's one of the guys you love to hate.>I had to look up the cast since I couldn't remember anyone but Korra's name and I swear I forgot Asami was even a character and have no idea what anyone did after book 1i remember asami because her relationship with korra was a complete asspull just because i saw them shove it in doesn't make it less of one >:[. other than that... bolin and his brother (can't remember the name), tenzin and his family (names are gone as well). there's some very disjointed plotpoints i still remember, but overall it's just gone.>>83395667>I was mad af about that part.me too. they set up way better pay offs as well. like korra not actually being the avatar, but a bender that's able to control three elements and amon being aang.>i feel like if they didn't need to have the plot resolved for antagonist each book, it would be a little betteragreed. the villains just feel wasted in this show. each of them could have carried more than just one chapter easily.>just needed an excuse to wrap up right therethey did have to change studios between seasons, so maybe that had something to do with it. in the end, it doesn't matter. they ruined something that could have been great with their writing alone.
>>83399284hi chev! (^-^)>gaming just fucking sucks man. so does everything else tbfi know that feeling. maybe pick up a book for a change?>helped me to work out the headcanon a bit thoto the best of my abilities. don't know much about the knight-houses. ^^'>>83400862>proceeded to then abandon me and block me on everything a week laterthat's rough. sorry that happened to you. :< i know it's not much, but you're always welcome to come here and share your thoughts with us.>i love ruining all relationships which are important to me bc of bpddo you want to talk about what happened?>>83400999hey k! what's up?probably falling asleep soon. sorry in advance if i don't reply anymore.
>>83399161Yes! I will charge my phone and be ready for tomorrow. Trying to get an early rest tonight.>I hope you like it if you play itOoh. okay. I'll definitely pick it up when it's on sale. Funnily enough, when I went to check it on steam, it was already in my wishlist. Guess I saw it while scrolling around. >agora road forumNever heard of that but, from a cursory glance, it looks like a pretty well designed forum.>if you ever have anything interestingsure!>>83400570>secretly a weebYeah. I remember getting made fun of for being a weeb so much and now it's normal? Like, why did I have to go through all that?>travelOh ok. Sounds like you're very well-traveled at least, much more than the average American I've met.>Still in LoveStill in Love is so pretty... From the expected schedule, Still in Love will probably be out sometime in 2028.... Sirius Symboli should come out in early 2027.>shippingAh. Understandable. Side note: I really like Agnes Digital. She feels like a love letter to fans like me.>that kind of introspection is easier out of the momentYeah. fs.>what direction that might takeWoah. Again, very well put officeanon!>very new to vocaloidOh really? I wouldn't have thought so. I can send some recommendations when I get the chance.>stopped caring what people think a bitThat sounds good! I've been trying to do that myself, reclaiming parts of myself I used to find cringe/dislike and accepting it with love. Sounds ultra-cheesy like that but you get the point lol.
Unrelated but I'm going to make a note here so y'all can hold me accountable. Tomorrow I will wake up and go for a run! or maybe just a walk...>>83400862sorry to hear that anon. Don't have a solution but all I can do is offer my condolonces.>>83400938>hard to find people that do.Yeah. It's been a bit difficult but I find that it's not too bad. Usually, I throw around the names of a few youtubers who have similar sense of humor to me and see if they know them.>most things do:( why do you say that?>guess it was just whatever came to mind?pretty much. Didn't really have a direct goal in mind there. >i can only get closer to it, but i'll never reach it.makes me sad to hear this, yuanon, but I believe in you. saying a definite "never" feels a bit unrealistic but I believe that's how you feel. Goals can change and stuff too. Well, you seem mentally stable enough so I won't keep beating this dead horse unless you want to.
