Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportChristmas almost here!hello>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
hellooHere's a bunch of helpful links> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7> first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
i feel like im either not ready or not deserving a relationships or friends, im too focused on myself and struggle to care for others, which makes me hate my narcissist ass even more than i usually doi don't want to hurt my beloved, but im not sure about anything anymore, including us, and it hurts a lot, cause i don't want to let go, im scarred, but i dont know if im a blessing or a curse for them anymore, everything is so numbi recently managed to do something very good and yet here i am, it was the first impulse to punish myself i felt in like two years or sohope you guys are doing better these days
>>83417556>push me towards moving on from her.Double edge blade in a way. Must feel pretty shitty I know, but if it's making you feel a little more distant, I hope it helps you in the end. You can still be concerned about her without letting her influence your life more than she should now> something awful happened tnothing you mentioned in the thread right? Don't like to prey into things people don't want to talk about, but I know I miss some days here.. Either way, hope you're doing all right and >upside is that LLMs just make stuff up This is even a major pain with what I do. Despite all the fear around it (which I think is somewhat justified even if not for the reason most assume), it's very very confident about things that are straight up wrong sometimes. Even assuming you know how to prompt it correctly, it makes horrible mistakes in area where there's little public free info out there on.>lot easier to get your head around now with the graphical releasemight push to my list of games for a very very rainy day. idk will see>>83417710good to see you bibbit but sorry things sound awful.I know I'm paranoid about more and more these days with how everything is even without any underlying trouble. Must be awful in your case. But just hang in there and try to keep with whatever they're giving you>>83422165hi anon>hate my narcissist ass even more than i usually dodo you feel you actually are a narcissist? Or just struggle dealing with others. I'm not very knowledgeable on this topic, but you sound you at least have some concern for others to a degree, it's just hard when you're struggling with things personally.
>>83421994>>How are you doing today?exhausted>>Any plans for today?Caught the cats and got them to the vet.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?I feel bad that I left a holiday party early last year without explination. I haven't seen some friends from that party since then and don't think I have another way to connact them. Maybe I could go to the same church again on the off chance they also go there.>>83422165hi bernka>feel like im either not ready or not deserving a relationships or friendsyeah I used to feel this wat, but I've come to realize that you can't become ready without practice.
Hello friends. I just slept a lot today and woke up not too long ago. Dreamed of her again. I think I'm going to have to do my trademark go to McDonald's at 3am trick again.>>83422376>if it's making you feel a little more distant, I hope it helps you in the endI suppose so. Until now she hadn't really lived up to the stereotype... God knows what'll happen when I receive that Christmas present from her.>You can still be concerned about her without letting her influence your life more than she should nowYeah, I think I'm at that point now. I've mostly accepted that all I can do is watch in horror now and occasionally send her an email telling her to stay safe.>Even assuming you know how to prompt it correctly, it makes horrible mistakes in area where there's little public free info out there on.That's just the nature of the beast. The fact that we tricked calculus into finding relationships between words and give the statistically likely output you want for a given input is incredibly impressive, but it's not magic.>might push to my list of games for a very very rainy day. idk will seeIt's good fun to mess around with but you should probably watch a few tutorial videos before you start otherwise you'll be completely lost.
>>83422445hey cynic, how's it going?>exhaustedyeah, ready for the weekend and slower week next week>don't think I have another way to connact them.not a lot you can do those instances, but it does kinda suck. No way to reach out online? otherwise other thing is worth a shot>>83422537>slept a lot todayextremely jealous. I'm at the point the little I lose each day is giving me a bad headache> McDonald's at 3amwould never do this in a million years here lol >she hadn't really lived up to the stereotypei don't think stererotypes for stuff like mental health really align perfectly but probably some basis in some reality.> occasionally send her an email telling her to stay safe.nothing wrong with that, as long as your head is in the right place with this all> tricked calculus into finding relationships between words and the exact problem is the vast majority of people using LLMs have no idea this is going on and don't understand. You don't need to get the underlying math or even all the concepts, but even understanding it is essentially picking the next number in a sequence under the hood helps deal with it much more and tamper your expectations and makes it easier to prompt correctly too> few tutorial videos find myself doing this more and more with games. Sometimes fun to learn as you go, but i'm so stretched on time sometimes now that i just to want to pick up and enjoy
Hey, everyone. Was really busy the past couple days so I couldn't check in.I have an appointment tomorrow I'm really nervous about but I'm trying to not get too caught up in my delusions. Don't really want to go into specifics rn but I'll let y'all know how it goes at some point next week or during the weekend probably.I want to play Uma to distract myself but I know I should be doing work and now I feel guilty.Ideations getting worse but I'll be fine... probably. Going to see some friends tomorrow so that should hopefully be better.>>83411867Still have that problem at the back of my mind. It feels a bit silly at this point but it stuck with me. For some reason, negative judgements from other people feel more real.>>83423150How are you doing, officeanon?>>83422445>exhaustedhope you get the chance to relax this weekend, cynic!>>83422537Hey discanon. I don't know the full story but I just want to let you know you're not responsible if anything bad happens. How did things go with your professor? Were you able to get that extension?>>83422165Hey, bern. Sorry to hear you're going through a tough time. >do something very goodThat's good. I hope you can recognize that.
>>83423360hey operanon!> really busy the past couple days so I couldn't check in.it's all good. I think a lot of regulars are very busy now. I'm trying to stop in more since I need to relax more than i have>I have an appointment tomorrowdon't need to share more than you're comfortable with. Hoping for the best for you though>I should be doing work and now I feel guilty.I was grinding careers in Umamusume on my phone at my desk at work today. Sometimes your brain just tells you enough it enough and needs a break>negative judgements from other people feel more real.I hear you. I have a lot of issues with my family. Always have and still do. Even knowing there's an issue and what it is doesn't make things easier sometimes>How are you doingready for the weekend, but still another day to go. Just tired. It's been a chaotic past few weeks and I'm ready to enjoy 2 weeks of slower pace. Still have work to do, but should hopefully be less stress
Hello everynyan ^^hope you're doing wellI'm still a bit busy so I'm not gonna be in the thread much today and also I have an exam tomorrow but I'm not worried My day's been okay and I spent it on mostly enjoying myself I had a nice night too, I had two dreams so that's pretty cool!unfortunately I don't remember much about the first one other than I was on a bussThe second one was a bit more interesting I was in my room with someone people, one guy gave me an apple and told me to take a bite of it, I did and it was the tastiest apple ever, suddenly, I noticed it started getting dark rapidly and I saw a thick fog starting to appear outside of my window I looked out of it and made out a couple of figures move very quickly in the fog and I knew I was in trouble I got some weapons and sat down quietly trying to not make any noise Then the person besides me moved something across the table which made a scraping sound and after a few seconds of deafening silence I heard three light knocks on my front door, and I woke upIt was a pretty cool dream, I think it was a combination of unrelated things I've been thinking about recently, which I guess all dreams are, though some people belive dreams have coded meanings I don't really buy that I also don't believe in the slightest in prophetic dreams and other similar coincidences anyways have another text kitty and a good day :3`/\__/\`(=^.^=)`('') ('')__/
>>83423150>extremely jealous.It'll probably bite me in the ass, but I've just been exhausted this last month. I'm not sure how enviable it is.>would never do this in a million years here lolVery little separates me from the beasts... I regret eating it.>i don't think stererotypes for stuff like mental health really align perfectly but probably some basis in some realityI that's most stereotypes, as uncomfortable as that makes some people. They don't emerge out of nowhere. That said, I think she probably leans into some of them...>nothing wrong with that, as long as your head is in the right place with this allIt's in a more right place than it was a few weeks ago, I think. There will be some hesitance if she ever reaches out again, but she still garners a lot of sympathy from me.>>83423360Hopefully your appointment goes fine. Best of luck.>I just want to let you know you're not responsible if anything bad happens.Thanks. I've been trying to tell myself that. I think she'll come out the other end okay (she usually does) but I don't know for sure. I always get worried in the time when I hear nothing after a big outburst.>How did things go with your professor? Were you able to get that extension?He didn't reply to my message so we haven't met yet. Even if he signs off on it, someone else will decide if I'll get one. I probably should have started the process as soon as things went south...>>83423663Best of luck with your exam!
hey everyone, just not feeling it right now.
>>83421994Why is this thread even a thing? Jesus loves all you brokenhearted folk and I pray for y'all, don't make your life worse with this self destructive behavior
>>83424111that's alright man. i hope it passes. >>83423663good luck with exams! i'm glad you enjoyed your day. that's a really interesting dream. probably for the best not to get too schizo about it and just take it as cool imagery like you were saying>>83423360friends will help. hopefully the appointment goes well too. if it's before the friends then they'll undo any fuckery that goes on there and if it's after you'll have a nice experience to think about during>>83423632>i think a lot of regulars are very busy nowword. finals season is crazy and holiday season is too for those not in school among us. 2 weeks off will be a damn good thing. me personally i've been okay. i'm bad at being single, and i'm starting to realize just how godawful the dating scene is at this college. really just rancid. i'll probably either be single for another year minimum or date a townie (not the worst thing in the world! i just have no idea how such a thing happens). c'est la vie. i only have one class of material left to deal with which is good! i have a latin exam sunday and three more pages to write for the same class before then. and then monday is The Long Train Ride Home. hopefully i'll be able to post through it. most students have gone home by now so campus is weird and empty. the jewish student group here stopped doing hanukkah together after last night, so i'm going to go light candles myself soon, which is the first time i've ever done a fully alone hanukkah. weird! but i've definitely been worse and we take those
>>83423663good luck with the exam!>>83423780> I'm not sure how enviable it is.I wasn't super serious, but i hear you. Past few months have been kind of rough. Not like what you're going through, but work just been a slog of issues and things making me stressed. Just want to sleep 12 hours straight one day and not have to think about work.>Very little separates me from the beastslol if it makes you feel better, I wouldn't pass on eating it. More so wouldn't go to my local McDonalds at weird hours. Even during normal hours it attracts people you don't want to come up to you> I think she probably leans into some of themespecially with mental health stuff, only so much people can do to not end up acting out a stereotype. Whole point is something people can't or have great difficulty to control>It's in a more right place than it was a few weeks agoI can tell. I know it's still on your mind, but your tone now about everything is much different than when you first came to the thread
>>83424111hey chev, something bothering you?>>83424115hi anon. For what it's worth, I didn't start this thread and don't the full history completely, but it doesn't actually encourage cutting, but is more of a support thing.>>83424162>holiday season is too for those not in school among us.end of year blitz for those of us in the workforce D:>godawful the dating scene is at this collegeI went to a college that was significantly more men than women and had a lot of commuters. Was pretty bad.
I've ran out of razorblades
Seasonal depression is kicking my ass and I fear I may have to go back to the psychward after christmas
>>83424844Hi anonyou not feeling great and feeling tempted to cut?>>83424903>Seasonal depression it got cold here very early this year so most people have been inside all the time since partway through November. Definitely feel winter being a long one, which is not fun.>go back to the psychwardnothing they've had you on or done has been helping? Sounded like a lot of the same bothering you still
>>83424111Sorry to hear that. I hope things pick up.>>83424115Despite the name, no one here actively encourages self-harm (or if they do it'll be in a less harmful way). Personally I've never done it, at least physically.>>83424163>Just want to sleep 12 hours straight one day and not have to think about work.With any luck you'll be able to do that over the weekend. Maybe take a melatonin?>More so wouldn't go to my local McDonalds at weird hours. Even during normal hours it attracts people you don't want to come up to youFair enough. It's definitely a step up here compared to where I used to live, where I'd feel on edge leaving the house at night.>only so much people can do to not end up acting out a stereotypeI mean, liking Kuromi and jirai-kei isn't part of the diagnosis...>your tone now about everything is much different than when you first came to the threadI'm glad to hear that, I think. I'd be curious to know in what way.>>83424903Try to hang in there, Bibbit. Christmas is a really stressful time for everyone, some more than others.
>>83425532>With any luckafraid I'd need more than luck. Issue isn't as much being ably to physically do that, just have work to do. Side project I'm working on. Going to my ass kicked if I don't finish some stuff quick> feel on edge leaving the house at night.i hear you on that. I live right by one of the worst cities in the US and I never really went out much after dark as a result since kinda always jumpy>isn't part of the diagnosisthought those were the first thing they look for! But if that's what you meant, yeah more coincidental. But I think the underlying thing that attracts people to certain things itself might be influenced by much of what's going on underneath.> know in what way.Tone before sounded much more like you needed her to come back and didn't want to think about it not happening. Know you still feel pretty shitty about it all, but think you sound at least more accepting of moving on even if you still probably need timei'm gonna go get some sleep. Take care everyone
>>83421994>How are you doing today?nothing>Any plans for today?no>When was the last time you hurt yourself?today>Why did you hurt yourself?was betrayed by a person that was close to >Is there anything bothering you right now?yea
>>83425658>just have work to do. Side project I'm working onI see. Well, hopefully you can get that wrapped up sooner than later.>I live right by one of the worst cities in the US and I never really went out much after dark as a result since kinda always jumpyFair enough. I didn't even live in that rough of an area and I was still pretty edgy.>I think the underlying thing that attracts people to certain things itself might be influenced by much of what's going on underneath.Perhaps. I suppose it's only like autistic people gravitating to stuff like Sonic.>you sound at least more accepting of moving on even if you still probably need timeI think there's probably been a shift, and I'd wager that's mostly on her not saying anything. She had a well-trained dog she could have kept on a leash with a little bit of effort...
>>83426069>was betrayed by a person that was close toWould you like to talk about it?
>>83426182well you know I did on another board and was only laughed atso maybe better not
>>83426229You're in good company here, I think
>>83426405Thanks, man. I'll stay for a long a time.
hi everyonebeen a while, again hope everyone is okay a quick bump before i sleepi have to study 4 chapters of physics tomorrow, kinda worriedfinal exam will be on saturdaythe thing is i feel so inactive and lethargic i feel like i might get tired quickly and thats not good for studying 4 chapters of physics lolother than that i've not been feeling good mentally lately
>>83426920i have been getting worried alot, overthinking is going crazy it hurts alot almost everyday its so painful seriously its causing physical pain
>>83424162>that's alright man. i hope it passes. thanks dude, we'll see. i woke up a bit earlier today, maybe that helps a bit.>>83424258>something bothering you?a lot and nothing at once, I'm not sure. Someone at the lgs bought me a christmas gift and for some reason that made me upset, It's a cool miniature tho. he bought me it cus i think i said i like that faction. i've just been really defeated regarding painting my miniatures, i just cannot seem to get it right. other than that the holidays just aren't the same this year. each year keeps getting worse and worse huh. i remember last year i was praying to be home cus i didn't know if i would be home in time for the holidays, now I wish I wasn't home.>>83425532>. I hope things pick up.thanks dude, hope you're doing well
bimpe eoeo ^^
>>83426069>>83426229Hi anon. I know I'm replying late, but always welcome to talk about it here. No one will make fun of you. Least no one who posts regularly in this thread.> betrayed by a person that was close toI've felt this before. Hell, I felt it pretty recently. It's an awful, awful feeling. Hope you're doing all right>>83426176>get that wrapped up sooner than later.I finished a little last night, to receive more when I woke up. I'm collaborating with someone who's currently probably in a time zone if not the same, than similar to yours now, so it causes a slight delay sometimes. >I was still pretty edgy.always a chance of stuff happening most places. Going out after dark was dangerous most of human history, so current concept of night life is sort of unnatural and have to force yourself into if not used to it.> gravitating to stuff like Sonic.nothing wrong with liking sonic though! I never had any weird sonic OC, but games I've played were fun. Guess most questionable fans go too far in weird directions.>mostly on her not saying anythingsometimes it's hard to move on until people give you a reason to. Either way, still progress I think>well-trained dogtry not to put yourself down so harshly. Not a good way to talk yourself even if you think there's truth to it.>>83426920hey rm! good luck with you final! Do what you have to do.>>83426976hmm try to focus on your exam for now. Feel that matters most. But can come talk to us all here when you have time after and want to talk about things. Sometimes time zones make it tricky I feel, but always here to talk
>>83427283>some reason that made me upset, It's a cool miniature tho.any idea why it made you upset then? I know some people just don't like receiving gifts even if they like what it is. Just curious.>cannot seem to get it rightmaybe you just need to take it slower? I'm the least artistically gifted person in the world, but have had some success drawing lately. That's a little different since can always erase and re-do, but just going very slow. Think it takes time to have anything like this turn out>now I wish I wasn't home.all the troubles you've had lately making it hard to be there? Understandable. I'd say best you can do is to try to make the most of it. Know you're not happy about things are going. I'd say try to spend time taking your mind off it. Why it's good not to let yourself feel burned out on your hobbies. You try playing any new games lately or anything either? Just anything you can do not to think
>>83421994>How are you doing today?terribly>Any plans for today?I'm going to try to do my homework. But might, instead, entropy-maxx in my bed again.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?yesterday>Why did you hurt yourself?Do not want say. Please do not ask. You'll waste your time. I appreciate it that you care, however. I know there's some decent people ITT. >Is there anything bothering you right now?yes
>>83428558hey anon. Sorry you're doing so rough. Won't pester you about what's going on if you don't want to talk, but hope things look up even if they don't seem so great right now.>going to try togood luck with the hw. If nothing else, should try to keep up with what responsibilities you have. Things get a lot worse if you let them spiral so wishing you luck there.
Went to bed at a stupid time and woke up at a stupid time. Such is life now.>>83426920Best of luck with your exam.>>83427283Hopefully the holidays don't end up being too rough for you.>>83428137>I finished a little last night, to receive more when I woke upThat sucks. Do you work the kind of job where it might ease up?>always a chance of stuff happening most placesWhere I live now is definitely the exception rather than the rule. I'm very grateful for that.>Guess most questionable fans go too far in weird directionsSometimes it's good though https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M8OqUzGqgA4>Either way, still progress I thinkSometimes the destination matters more than the journey, I guess.>Not a good way to talk yourself even if you think there's truth to itYou're not wrong, but I think it's probably the most apt analogy.>>83428558I won't pry, but I hope things pick up for you.
Much quieter with so many away, but things are starting to slow down during the day for me finally. Also tired of posting nothing but padoru.Gonng go work out soon>>83429205>Went to bed at a stupid time and woke up at a stupid time.a common occurrence for me as well>Do you work the kind of job where it might ease up?my main job yes, but side project no. In fact might get worse since partner is scaling up and expects more quickly since things are slower here>Where I live now is definitely the exceptioni hear you. I think a lot of places Asia are much better in this regard than most places in the west. I spent a good amount of time in Vietnam where there's basically no violent crime and it's such a weird thing to me sad to say.>Sometimes it's good though lol i'm not watching the whole thing, but man I'm glad people still post this kind of stuff online. Maybe it's I don't go looking for it as much, but just the volume of weird animation you'd find on old youtube doesn't feel like in the past.>the most apt analogy.just try not to be too hard on yourself again is all I mean
just a bumpmaister
Hey everyone! My appointment went really well! I was being nervous for no reason, it seems. Doing a little better. Excited to see friends later.>>83424162Sorry to hear your dating scene is awful. Are you not used to being single? (I just realized that could be interpreted as an insult but that's not my intention lol)>alone hanukkahHuh. I remember when I was at uni the aesthetic of the last couple days was unparalelled. >if it's before the friends then they'll undo any fuckery that goes on there and if it's after you'll have a nice experience to think about duringI really like this way of thinking. Thanks, anon!>>83423780Hey, discanon! I appreciate the Uchi images. I really liked her.>always get worried in the time when I hear nothing after a big outburstCompletely understandable.>we haven't met yetOh okay. Fingers crossed everything goes well.
>>83429874Hello>but things are starting to slow downphew, finnaly christmas is basically almost pretty much here !!>>83430770Helloo>appointment went really well! that's great news, hopefully that experience will help you not get as stressed in the future ^^>Excited to see friends later.sounds fun what are you going to do together?
>>83430770hey operanon! Glad it went well and enjoy your time out with friends>>83431168>christmas is basically almost pretty much hereeven if it was pretty busy up till now, I know for sure next week will be fairly light.
>>83431930>will be fairly light.I sure hope soYou deserve to have some rest btw did you work out yet?how did that go?
>>83432503>You deserve to have some restI've played 10 hours of project Diva this week despite only getting into it on Sunday, so I think I've had some rest at least>how did that go?I did and pretty well. Unfortunately have some back pain bothering me past few days that's kinda had me feeling pretty crappy
hey y'all sorry for being gone so long. Christmas break is officially started very bittersweet
>>83429874>In fact might get worse since partner is scaling up and expects more quickly since things are slower hereHopefully it won't become too unmanageable then.>I spent a good amount of time in Vietnam where there's basically no violent crime and it's such a weird thing to me sad to say.It's very depressing learning that humans can just... not do violent crime. Make no mistake, there's lots of organised crime here, the just know to keep to themselves.>but man I'm glad people still post this kind of stuff onlineI've been happily giving him money for several years. Nothing makes me laugh quite as hard. He's earned every cent.>just try not to be too hard on yourself again is all I meanI try not to, but self-deprecation is a big part of the culture I grew up in.>>83430770Glad to hear it went well!>I appreciate the Uchi images. I really liked her.Me too. She's my favourite Watamote girl.>Completely understandable.She's since posted again (and much calmer this time) so I guess I can stop worrying about her for now.>Fingers crossed everything goes well.Thanks, I'm not /too/ worried but there's always the fear that it could go south.
>>83432824hey gator, good to see you! Really quiet here today. Yuanon I believe is on his holiday getaway and Cat should be back soon.>Christmas break is officiallhope you enjoy all the same! Anything you looking forward to with it this year?>>83432841>Hopefully it won't become too unmanageablethanks. Afraid it might already be, but I've reached the point my brain is kind mush and not thinking straight either way. So not going to accomplish much.>can just... not do violent crime.I know what you mean. Even in the US, I go to areas that are farther from where I live and am amazed how nice things can be in areas people aren't constantly worried about crime like where I am. Guess it's always sort of a thing, but it's completely out of control where I live.> lots of organised crime hereif it's choice between this and disorganized crime, that's no question which is better to have around>earned every cent.all good to support someone if you've followed that long and enjoy what they do. Never really had any content creators felt strongly about in that regard>big part of the culture I grew up in.makes sense then. Kinda hard to escape mannerisms you picked up growing up.
>>83432982>hey gator, good to see youyou too :)>Yuanon I believe is on his holiday getaway and Cat should be back soon.that's good I hope there getting a well deserved break>Anything you looking forward to with it this year?not really, but i never do desu. what about you?
>>83433362>well deserved breakI'm sure they are. Does make it a little bit slower here, so trying to step up responding anyone who comes in during the lull time>not really, but i never doit's okay. I didn't used to like the breaks much either years back. If nothing else, you can look forward to the break ending!>what about you?just slower pace with work. I have christmas day off, but things will be very slow in general till new year. I've had a lot more responsibiliy and workload past months, so really just looking forward to having a little break
>>83433553>trying to step up responding anyone who comes in during the lull timethat's very nice of you then, always is needed to have someone to talk to>didn't used to like the breaks much either years backyeah. annoying thing is im glad i get a break from school work just not school >have christmas day offthat's good at least, but I'd hope everyone gets Christmas off >lot more responsibiliy and workload past months, so really just looking forward to having a little breakthat really sucks then and is definitely nice when things are a bit slower
>>83432982>Afraid it might already beWell, best of luck with whatever happens. >Guess it's always sort of a thing, but it's completely out of control where I live.That's a shame. Are you able to move to a nicer area any time soon? >that's no question which is better to have aroundFor sure. It's an open secret that the police here is corrupt, but I guess that matters less when you can walk around at night without getting stabbed. >Never really had any content creators felt strongly about in that regardIt's just him and someone else I've shilled here before for me. I like to think I have a pretty high bar for that. I'm always astonished when people throw hundreds of dollars at streamers.>Kinda hard to escape mannerisms you picked up growing upI'm realising that more now that I've moved
Have a bump before I take a nap
hey good morning guys. weird night, went to a party, met a girl and had sex with her. it didn't feel right tho. maybe i'm just a retard.
>>83435990You don't have to brag about it, anon
>>83436016wasn't my intention, sorry
>>83436029Sorry, I'm just insecure because I'm almost a wizard.
just a bemp :R
>>83433808>break from school work just not schoolI get what you mean. It's hard if you don't have a home life you're looking forward to going to. It hit really hard for me in college especially over summer. Just try to stay busy with what you can during your break now>hope everyone gets Christmas offI'd say a good chunk of things are closed. Corporate jobs especially. Some people are working some jobs, but usually essential stuff that really can't shut down>nice when things are a bit slowerfor sure. I was starting to burn out. I've recently become addicted to rhythm games and me playing anything hours a day is usually a sign my brain is shutting down lol>>83434634>Are you able to move to a nicer area any time soon?probably not. I've lived here my whole life and have a house, so any change would be a big deal. It's not bad in the suburban area I live, just more and more stuff spills outwards. Crime is bad a lot of US cities and honestly areas that it isn't, I wouldn't fit in well either way.>I guess that matters less when you can walk around at nightagreed. Better than being a place where police are corrupt and it's unsafe. Here the police are just very stretched thin and get a bad rep which makes it harder for them to even want to try to do their job when it's so thankless.>hundreds of dollars at streamers.maybe I'm just old, but I don't get the appeal of streamers. Sometimes if there's a game I want to see how to do something I'll look up and watch what someone does, but people just watch streamers for hours and do that.. It's just odd to me>I'm realising that moreI grew up in a comically strict Catholic family so I've got my own>>83435786thanks for keeping it alive and hope you're having a good start to the weekend.
Going to go weight training routine. Back is killing me this morning some reason. Not sure I hurt something or not. Hope everyone is having a good weekend even if it's just lurkers know thread isn't the same right now, but hopefully back to normal soon enough>>83435990hey chev. Don't think there's anything wrong with you. If nothing, I'd say that's healthier than feeling good about it. Sex is a good thing, but cheapening is kinda shitty unless you shut your brain off. Not to say being a prude about is answer either, but serious enough not to do treat it too casually. >>83436060it's okay anon. Thinks everyone know it's kind of sensitive topic here. I try to be careful when I post stuff that might upset others, but I think sometimes you're having a bad day things just slip out.Take care and hope you don't feel too bad.
hello ebrybody!Hope you're having a good caturday I am doing okay and I went to get a haircut today also I'm sending you all greetings from yuanon who's on his holiday break in a cozy cabin>>83436472hey>is killing me this morning sothat's sucks maybe you should take a breather and let it restback pain is the worst
back again.working christmas... 1st mass shooting in country in 30 years got me feeling shitty (not sure why)... i dont know if i want to kms, i just simply dont want to do "this" anymore...
>>83437973hello there c:>shooting in country oh what happened? :<>dont know if i want to kms,it's probably better not to>dont want to do "this"could you explain a little more?
today's been good but i almost know soon I'll feel bad again but best to dwell on that and enjoy time while it's good. also yesterday i had final in med term (350 med term words) and got 1 wrong cause of a typo... still very mad myself for that.
>>83438902Hello it's nice to see ya :3how are you doing overall?>bad again but best to dwell on thaif it happens hopefully it doesn't last long >and got 1 wrong cause of a typo... still very mad myselfhey good job!and dw about that one mistake I it's not going to affect your grades anyway And it's not your fault, it's the way exams are conducted, they're stressful and it's easy to do something wrong even in you know what to do don't be mad at yourself, you probably are going to make mistakes accidentally many times in the future so it's best to learn to not care
>>83437112happy caturday and welcome back!>get a haircut todaynice, how did it turn out? I got one recently too> let it resti pushed through, but just need to be careful. Technically, nothing i work should put stress on it. It's just sometimes when working to exaustion it's easy to put weight on it by mistake>>83437973hey cc>working christmassorry to hear. Topic came up earlier. Know some people have to deal with it and sorry to hear>30 years got me feeling shittysorry to hear it. Honestly, it is pretty depressing. I'm in the US so we're just desensitized to people getting shot, but it's weird in much of the developed world>dont want to do "this" anymoreglad if you're not feeling suicidal. but I hear you. I haven't been for a long time but have had periods where I'm just tired. Not like that now, but few years back had that feeling too. Hope you get a break soon>>83438902hey gator!That's not a bad score at all! But I was like that a bit with school too in the past>>83439111nice trips
>>83439111>Hello it's nice to see ya :3you too ^^>how are you doing overall?im okay Christmas breaks a tad rough but ill manag :) how about you?>and dw about that one mistake I it's not going to affect your grades anywayi know, just 1 off really stings>it's the way exams are conductedtrue, having only 1 hour to do all 350 words your bond to make a mistake>>83439354>That's not a bad score at all! i know but getting all right would have felt better
>>83439354Heyaa>how did it turn out?okayI usually feel not too good after one but this time I'm alright >got one recently toodo you like it?>pushed through, but just need to be carefuokay, good night bad happened but yep you need to watch out How whas your day today?>>83439482>you too ^^:>>Christmas breaks a tad rough but ill manag :) maybe you could use that time to play som games or watch some movies?>how about you?pretty goodI got a haircut today and also recently I been working on a cozy map here's a pic of ittoday I mostly did audio for ithttps://voca.ro/1iEWspmyHPNw>1 hour to do all 350 wordswhaaat that's a lot!
>>83439889>could use that time to play som games or watch some movies?yea maybe i will, have been really getting inter old movies recently >haircut today and also recently I been working on a cozy map here's a pic of itOo nice i need a haircut myself lol. and the map looks so awesome, i love the Christmas comfy look>today I mostly did audio for itsounds nice and comfy >whaaat that's a lot!that's med term for you...
>>83439482> all right would have felt betterisn't that near perfect? Say that's better than all right. Unless I'm confused. A bit slow now.>>83439889> but this time I'm alrightprobably a good sign. Sometimes it takes a little getting used to if it's been a while.>do you like it?yeah. My hair gets really out of control after a month so getting it shortened to manageable always feels nice>ou need to watch outi will! Learned hard way too many times nothing hurts progress more than getting hurt>How whas your day today?okay overall. Played more rhythym games and got better at some i kinda sucked at before, got tacos, and had the nice workout. now just chilling at home.Whatcha up to?
>>83440333trips :o>have been really getting inter old movies recentlyooa what movies?>need a haircut myselfyou're hair's too long?>map looks so awesomethank you ^^I'll try to add more stuff to itdo you have any suggestions what to add?>sounds nice and comfyty >med term for you...D:>>83440471>Sometimes it takes a little getting used to if it's been a while.truethose sometimes it needs a little time to grow a bit longer for it to look better >My hair gets really out of control after a monthI think that's a pretty normal period of time between visitsthough recently I been waiting 3months>nothing hurts progress more than getting hurtexactly >rhythym games>now just chilling at home.sounds very nice ^^>Whatcha up to?I was working on the map I mad sound effects you can listen to them in the vocaroo above and now I'm watching a stream vod of guys playing the thing game, I like that it's snowy so it fits the season
>>83440471>isn't that near perfect? it's one question off perfect >Say that's better than all right.well i didn't get all right :/>Unless I'm confused. A bit slow now.it's confusing, i did do good better then alright, i just wanted to get all of them right >>83440635>ooa what movies?all quiet on the western front the 1930s version, the great escape.>you're hair's too long?kinda, hard to say>do you have any suggestions what to add?idk, maybe like uh candle or something
Hello can I get a method to feel more pain I'm sorry if this isn't the place to ask
>>83440635>needs a little time to grow a bit longer for it to look betteryeah, not every cut is perfect right away. and some people handle slightly longer hair better than others> been waiting 3monthsi go like one a month since it gets too long for me way too quickly>sounds very niceMy hands are actually sore from playing too much of these games lol Plus I was playing the drum one after an arm workout today and kinda felt like a mistake after>vocaroo abovevery nice! :> wind noise too adds a lot> the thing gamehad to look this up guess it kinda fits aha>>83440908I'm so stupid right now sorry lol I read it as "alright". I have to stop doing nothing but playing rhythm games. My brain is atrophied to the point all I can do is press buttons.Either way, great job!>>83441036I don't think anyone here is going to want to help with that anon, sorry.why would you want that anyway?
good evening, hope everyone's alright. I didn't do shit today except sleep
>>83441036hey anon if something's bothering you then I hope it gets better, sending hugs>more painI don't really know what you could do, I guess you could try conventional ways like hot sauces why do you want that?>>83441215>>83441215>some people handle slightly longer hair bettertrue it also depends on what you're used to>kinda felt like a mistake aftermore workout ^^>wind noise too adds a lotI'm wondering what other noises and objects I could add>guess it kinda fits ahayep sorta ^^honestly I feel like living in the arctic for a while would be fun
>>83441443clock yes I need to add a clock
>>83441419hey chev. not a bad way to spend the day. I kinda wish I could just do that one day>>83441443>what you're used toi know going from longer to short makes it really noticeably colder this time of year. But less time drying from shower, so balances out>what other noises and objects I could addI think noises you're probably good. Otherwise might become too busy from a sound standpoint>living in the arctic for a while would be funfor a day or two i'd think. Experience constant daytime (imagine you wouldn't want to be there when it's dark non-stop)>>83441777very lucky trips
first timee posting here be nice bross>>83421994>how ya doin todaydepression hitting me harder than usual, first time ive ever started cutting myself and i gotta say the air hitting the wounds is the part that hurts the most; as well as having to shower>plansbedrot and think about her all day, wait for her to text me first or even look at the tiktoks ive sent her>last time i hurt meselftoday, cut somee on both of me arms in little groupings, like tally marks except no diagonals>why hurt...everytime i cut myself im hoping that ill make it easier for myself when i slit my wrists so the pain will be something that im used to by the time i kill myself>bothering meive been pushed away by everyone ive talked to despite me just being myself around themmaybe i really am just that bad to be aroundonly thing keeping me from slitting my wrists any earlier is a game i like is getting an update, parents spent money on presemts that i dont want them to have "wastedthis has to be the worst captcha system in the history of ever
>>83442712o cool a kaiji poster! I watched Ultimate Survivor recently and was actually surprised how much I liked it. I saw people post Kaiji time to time on here, but really liked him as a character and meaning to start watching the second part once I get time after holidays>be nice brosseveryone here is pretty nice I'd say. Slower than usual in the thread, but good to have you here (though I have a weird sleep schedule and will probably vanish soon)> first time ive ever started cutting myself takes care to make sure those are cleaned up even if not bad. If it's deep enough to sting, deep enough probably to have problems if you don't>bedrot and think about her all daygirl you like? kinda hard to find motivation when in that kind situation>maybe i really am just that bad to be aroundunfortunately relatable. I feel the problem with being friends with people is most people are never there full self with anyone. But just show little parts of themselves and fake the rest in social settings. People already who are going through especially emotional things have a way harder time. I don't think you're bad because of it, no more so than anyone else.> game i like is getting an updatewhat game you talking about?>the worst captcha system it's quite odd and not sure why it changed
>>83442831>make sure those are cleaned upooh bros... ive just been covering them up... i didnt know i was supposed to like groom them gulp>most people are never their full selves with anyonei told her about my life and have been nothing but honest with her since i started talking to her, feel like shes returned that favor somewhat i just cant find a way to express gratitude for thati dont know if she'll always see me as a friend or if she even feels the same way as me, i dont feel a need to try to even confess because she has just stopped trying it feels likemaybe humans are just bad at talking things out, and thats finei dont hate her for it i just love being able to talk with her, even if it's awkward moments of silence on the phone i just want someone to be there with me and actually listen for once>what gamedont judge but its a roblox game called arcane odyssey.. dont have enough money for any good triple a games and just started yakuza 0, been meaning to pirate more games but just cant bring myself to start more games i wont finish lol>meaning to start watching the second part once I get time after holidaysif theres one thing i'm good at, it's atleast getting ppl to watch kaiji lolso far got 3 ppl i know to start watching, and they've all seemed to like it so fari love kaiji so much he's such a baby
Hey everyone. Hanging out with my friends was fun but I'm really exhausted now. Being away from methods to harm yourself really is the best way to not harm yourself.Unrelated but here's a cool anisong I heard recently. Haven't watched the anime but the song is pretty emotional. I enjoyed it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3jmFVJwMW-sBeen thinking of starting the book "How Not to Kill Yourself: A Portrait of the Suicidal Mind". Has anyone else read it?>hello ebrybody!Hey cat! Nice to see you back.>>83438902>got 1 wrong cause of a typoThat's still an awesome score! Though your frustration is understandable, don't get too caught up on it. >>83441036>more painI'm sorry that you want to experience more pain, Anon. I hope you find a better way of dealing with your pain.
After two weeks of silence I got another email from her, and now I don't really know what to do. I just feel awful for her. She split on herself, and her self-worth got fucking obliterated. I wouldn't wish this kind of mental anguish on anybody.Between action and inaction, both seem like bad options. Either I upset her by disrespecting her boundaries, or I stay silent and confirm that she's as unlovable as she says she is. ;_;>>83436419>I've lived here my whole life and have a house, so any change would be a big dealThat's fair enough. I guess in that case just pray it doesn't get any worse.>Better than being a place where police are corrupt and it's unsafeArmed robberies that turned into shootings used to happen somewhat often in the 80s but homicides are basically unheard of now. So I'm pretty grateful for that.Police are mostly concerned with sweeping up protests now.>I don't get the appeal of streamersThat's okay, I don't get it either. It just seems so low-effort.>I grew up in a comically strict Catholic family so I've got my ownEver watched Father Ted? You might enjoy that.>>83438902Impressive! I don't think I could do something like that.>>83441419You're in good company. It feels like all I've done this week is sleep.>>83442712Everyone here's pretty nice, I think.Sorry to hear you're going through the wringer.>>83443738Glad to hear you had fun today.
bunp :0
>>83442493not very eventful but not very painful either. i've just been in a very very bad space mentally the past couple of days. couldn't tell ya why tho,there's shit bothering me that normally shouldn't bother me. >>83443910>It feels like all I've done this week is sleep.pretty much same, life's just been fucking weird. It's either the weatheror something else. I'm a bit frustrated about it tho, I wanna have happyholidays too, but my internal feelings just make it kinda impossible to doanything except suffer for now. maybe i should just do more stuff instead things that make me unhappy n such.
Have another workout and will be along after that. Hope you all are having a great day
hello everyone:Dwishn you a good day
>>83421994Been a while, hallo /cat/.>>How are you doing today?Ehhhhhh. Enjoyed myself but unproductiveness eaves me feeling bitter, especially since I wrote out plans this morning to get something done.>>Any plans for today?Sleeping, which I should have done 6 hours ago.>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?November of last year.>>Why did you hurt yourself?Frustration with my lack of direction.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?Haven't been on top of anything since graduating, and I fear I'll fall into the same lethargy that plagued me prior to college. Also been missing gym, but I'll be back on track come Monday.I'll reply to some posts when I'm up. Lots of new posters seem to have came in the few weeks I've been inactive.
I literally gave myself a blister from playing rhythm games i realized. I need to chill>>83443011>ive just been covering them up... at very least, make sure to clean up. It's been a while since it's been relevant for me, but there's links near the top that cat always recommends everyone check out. Just don't want to get infected>i just cant find a way to express gratitude for thatsometimes you don't need to i think. It sounds strange, but a thanks for listening and dropping it is enough every once in a while>maybe humans are just bad at talking things outi'd say it's very situational. I think most people can't handle too serious all the time though. Some none of the time>dont judge but its a roblox gamenothing wrong with that. A bit before my time, but my brother and a few posters here play roblox games I think>money for any good triple a gamesthankfully good triple a is quite rare these days!> yakuza 0quite like the yakuza games. But for games I don't finish, these are a time sink. I beat 0 and kiwami, but kiwami 2 got bogged down in side content. Hell, 0 I spent way to much time on the cabaret club mini game>they've all seemed to like it so farwas quite surprised how much I enjoyed it. I think you sit down to watch an anime about gambling, you don't really expect what you get with Kaiji, or at least I didn't. Was very genuinely suspenseful and felt it's themes were interesting explored without feeling too overdone>>83443738>Being away from methods to harm yourselfagreed. Staying busy is best way to avoid anything you don't want to do>Haven't watched the anime but the song is pretty emotional.just listened, is pretty nice. Anime about a ghost girl apparently from a quick search lol
>>83443910>disrespecting her boundarieshmm this might be my opinion only and don't know her personally, but if she is telling you things about her self worth, it could be looking for validation as well. Even if not admitted. > it doesn't get any worse.at this point, sort of just hoping i can buy time till job market normalizes a little more and things feel more stable. I don't think I'll live where I do non-stop, would wait till I can move somewhere nicer but not super far away. Immediate surrounding area isn't terrible at the moment, so have time.> It just seems so low-effort.It only really makes sense from the context of that parasocial relationship thing. I guess a lot of people just live less and less meaningful lives, so they watch people who like things they like and put money into it. Very depressing it's this normalized.>Ever watched Father Ted?no but looked it up and highly amusing. They seem to have nailed the 3 different types of priests perfectly lol>>83444650>there's shit bothering me that normally anything you want to talk about or need to keep it to yourself? Take care either way>>83445466happy sunday cat! Hope you're having a good day as well>>83445549hey togatanon!>fear I'll fall into the same lethargy that plagued me prior to collegeyou did just get through school. No harm in relaxing a little bit. Especially since it's holiday season. Maybe just planning how to start new year would at least be something to prepare for> back on track come Monday.wish you luck with that! Little break isn't bad with that either
>>83445549ellohow's cry if fear? are you still playing it?>Haven't been on top of anythingwell then last few weeks before the graduation were tiring so it makes sense you'd want to rest a bit and recharge >>83445595heyo>myself a blisterself mutilation for miku D:>Hope you're having a good day as wellthanks just working on the map rn ^^
>>83446281>self mutilation for mikuthat doesn't sound like what Miku would want D:Though also to be fair, I've been doing Luka songs on the hardest difficulty. So I can't say it's been for Miku>thanks just working on the map rn nice! Have fun and do share progress.I'm probably going to go for a dog walk in a little bit. It's much warmer here than it has been for weeks
>>83444650>It's either the weather or something elseI think for me it's a (sleep) hormone thing. I've accidentally given myself jet lag by trying to fix when I wake up and go to bed and my body no long really knows what's going on.>maybe i should just do more stuff instead things that make me unhappy n suchI think that's probably a good idea. Anything in mind?>>83445466Hello /cat/. Hope you're doing okay too.>>83445661>if she is telling you things about her self worth, it could be looking for validation as well. Even if not admitted.I think she might be doing that, even if she doesn't realise it. Saying nobody should be in your life as a partner or friend just reads like a cry for help.>Immediate surrounding area isn't terrible at the moment, so have timeThat's good. Hopefully you can get a nice place at some point. I'd like to move somewhere slightly bigger once I get a pay bump (assuming someone here hires me once I'm done).>Very depressing it's this normalizedYeah. The commodification of loneliness is really upsetting to think about.I listen to a lot of podcasts to kill time but I wouldn't consider any of the hosts to be anything close to friends.>no but looked it up and highly amusingWould highly recommend watching it. It's one of my favourite shows. I feel like I can appreciate it more after spending 7 years at a Catholic school, at least a little. Probably nowhere near as much as someone raised Catholic or in Ireland.
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>>83446872>even if she doesn't realise it. Saying nobody should be in your life as a partner or friend just reads like a cry for help.Agree 100%. It's like the whole thing people who are about to kill themselves aren't telling people about the thoughts at that stage. Anytime some one is telling you things, at a minimum they want to be telling someone.>I'd like to move somewhere slightly bigger You're in a busy city by the sound of it, know that's always a bit pricier than being far away from things. Always a trade off between space and convenience when you're not rich. I have more space than I now what to do with now.>commodification of lonelinessit makes a lot of money though and that is the goal of business in general. Worst part is it makes things worse and worse for people with time as people get more miserable. > podcasts to kill time but I wouldn't consider any of the hosts to be anything close to friends.yeah, that's fine and normal. I have videos and podcasts I've followed for history and cooking. Clear line between watching something for the content itself, and watching because you're following the person in a way that blends some line.>Would highly recommend watching it.will give it go. Watched the first episode earlier was entertaining. Not watching anything else right now so>after spending 7 years at a Catholic schoolI had go to Catholic school too. All the way from kindergarten through to high school. It was all right most of the time, but high school messed me up a bit with no girls around being kind of problematic thing to get past when I finally went to college.>>83447760looking pretty comfy. Like the rug. Think I have a similar in my house
huge relapse in cutting because i was dumpedi knew my ex had done it toothe only thing keeping me from doing it was i knew how upsetting it would be and i didnt want to feel like i was hiding it, but now it doesnt mattermy ex used to cut in a very specific way and only did it once and I just did the same but it doesnt even matter because no one will see it, especially not themIve been clean from cutting for like 5 years now. i went out and bought a heavy duty utility blade and really went at it. maybe its more than what i was trying to emulate, i think i went deeper than my ex ever had. initially when i first saw the scars i ached and wanted to provide solace, but it was clearly a sore spot, and then i wanted to do this to feel closer... but now, its over, and ive done it, and its nothing.After cutting it didnt scratch an itch, i dont feel any better, i just now have these wounds that will be marks and I just feel empty.its kind of like sex in a way- i just feel empty now after giving into the impulse to do it. no gratification, it doesnt feel good, i just feel empty. i should just slit my wrists open with these kinves and quit it with the foreplay of selfinjury. this post is basically just hesitation marks.
guys I just learned about to mr boomit's a cat that goes boom :oevidence:https://youtube.com/shorts/ofsb0bSRJto?si=Gsvpz2lM3sGUJDfB>>83446750>doesn't sound like what Miku would want D:i guess but maybe she's evil now >Luka songssounds like you had fun ^^so if you're not going to play then what are you going to do> going to go for a dog walk in ahope it went welloh regarding dogs, wanna listen to me conplain and rant about dogs? >>83446872>Hope you're doing okay too.thnak you it's been pretty good ^^I'm thinking what to watch now maybe some christmas movie Also I say your day is not too great, sorry to hear that :< it must be double sad hering her say all that while you're there but she probably doesn't want you sending you a big hug fren>>83448296>pretty comfyyep and tomorrow I think I'll do the outside >Think I have a similar in my housewaow
used to cut then i realised why not direct my frustrations at people i dislike more than myself
>>83448847hi anon, sorry things are tough>huge relapse in cutting because i was dumpedsort of understandable. Tends to set people back. Maske sure you take care of yourself after it all> then i wanted to do this to feel closerso that was originally the reason you cut? I think it's hard to replicate or understand people's feelings just by doing what they do that way. >i dont feel any better,breakup ultimately just need time. It's not a pleasant answer, but also the only one that makes sense or works in the end>>83448861>it's a cat that goes boomlol I've heard cats make some very very weird noises before>maybe she's evil now:o we're all finished>what are you going to domake some food in a bit and maybe do some reading. A little work too, but kinda in holiday mode>rant about dogs?sure! I like this one but didn't care much for them in the past so can understand a lot of frutsration many have. >waowi got a lot of rugs from someone, who knew someone who had too many rugs and too much money>>83449088unironically probably a much healthier thing to do within reason.
>>83449088hope they deserve it>>83449383>heard cats make some very very weird noises before one might say they're silly >o we're all finishedmiku is love miku is life >some food in a bit and maybe do some reading.sounds nice ^^> A little work toogah D:>sure!there should be a license for dogs or animals in general too many people get them and don't take care of them properly My neighbors have two dogs and one if them is very nice and sweet and then the other just lunges and barks at everyone, just today I had the misfortune of walking right by my neighbors door right as he was walking out with the dog and luckily he noticed and managed to grab a hold of the dog, luckily for him because I would've shredded it to pieces The dog has been doing that since he was a puppy and it annoys me that my neighbors have not done anything to properly correct that behavior other than yelling at it sometimes Getting pets is too easy, same with kids, but that's a different thing...oh also certain breeds should be eradicated but it won't happen because people don't care about animals well being >got a lot of rugsyou could probably sell them for a lot of money
>>83449782>say they're sillyi went to see family for a bit and one of their cats from zooming all around the whole time and I forgot how amusing they can be in person> license for dogs or animals in general too many people get themI think decent screening on adoption is essential, not sure how a license would work out though or whether I like the idea. I don't know what it's like there vs here, but I think here to get one from a reputable center they do a lot of checks and that alone helps. Then there's puppy mills which I 100% believe should all be shut down. Doesn't stop someone who gets one how I did. But having the means to report issues too I think is a big one.> same with kidsnot much you can do about that one without making things a Brave New World-esque world>certain breeds should be eradicated I agree. I don't advocate for needlessly killing living animals, but ensuring there won't be more is fine and would be a good thing for some breeds. We have quite a lot of pit bulls here and the very existence of that breed is itself cruel no matter what anyone says>probably sell them for a lot of moneyNot sure how much, but good question since they do seem on the nicer side and when I say rich, I mean it. i use them because they're quite nice and feel special. Suppose if I ever get desperate can consider. Not like they're being worn out.
>>83421994>How are you doing today?I'm okay, had fun but kinda got a headache and some mixed feelings>Is there anything bothering you right now?Yeah there's some people bothering me a lot lately :phii everyone ^^
>>83450037>for a bit and one of their cats from zooming all around the whole time awww ^^>sure how a license would workI know :/it probably won't work people will just forge them or lie unfortunately if people were nice enough to do that they wouldn't be needed though it'd be better than nothing at the same time >do a lot of checks and that alone helpsI'm not sure it's common hereit's not even very frown upon to keep your dog on a chain permanently outside, I don't wanna get political but it was supposed to be made illegal this month but right wingers fought for it to not become illegal and so it didn't pass>having the means to report issuesyep it'd be great >without making things a Brave New World-esque worldI don't think it's possible it's just too easy to make kids desu >ensuring there won't be more is fineyep yepI fully agree >Not like they're being worn out.I'm pretty sure I heard somewhere people used to buy carpets as like an investment thing because they apparently keep their value really well >>83450565noo his big ol lamp is borken ;_;eyoo mewosterit's very lovely to see you!>headachethose are the worst :<you get them often don't you?>people bothering me a lot lately :pgrr what did they do?and where do they live? >:3
>>83450715>noo his big ol lamp is borken ;_;i played through the game recently, was heartbreaking>it's very lovely to see you!thankss :D you too!>you get them often don't you?kinda but im used to them, must be cause of my poor diet. i really need to start eating multivitamins again>grr what did they do?just bullies and family issues and events>and where do they live? >:3hmmmmmmmmm, in my basement (soon)lolhru cat?how's christmas season been going for you?
I'll be going to sleep soonI had to wake up early today ~w~>>83450772>was heartbreakingow ;~;I actually have never played the game but the little guy is cute >you too!^^ >used to themstill, wish you didn't have to get used ot them >cause of my poor dietit might be or or not enough water I forget to drink water some days and get reminded when I get a headache at the end of the day>bulliesI will kill them to death >in my basement (soon)very good >>>:3>how's christmas season been going for you?pretty good :DI decided to ignore all my responsibilities and just and relax I'm making a cozy map >>83447760and I'm chilling now I'm in bed watching a barony stream and I'm getting mega sleepy wbu? how's your evening? any big holiday plans?
>>83450833yeah the game is pretty cool, i recommend it.>it might be or or not enough waterprobably!!! i mostly live on diet coca cola desu>I forget to drink water some daysstay hydrated!!!!>I will kill them to deathaww thanks>I decided to ignore all my responsibilities and just and relaxsameeee, it feels nice to just relax and not have to have a worry in the back of your head 24/7, im on my christmas break>I'm making a cozy map >>83447760pretty! it's got that cozy feeling>watching a barony stream and I'm getting mega sleepyhoep ur enjoying it, and don't stay up too late, i think i'll head to bead soon aswell>wbu?my day was pretty good though, watched a few movies, ate pizza, played fortnite and roblox and kinda just chilled throughout the whole dayI don't have any big holiday plans, but i do have ambitions and goals im working on, i could tell you about them privately sometime ^^lately i've been really bothered by some recent family events though :/
>>83451000>don't stay up too lateno worries ^^>think i'll head to bead soon aswellhope you have a nice sleep fren>could tell you about them privately sometime oo I'm curious yep we should talk about it sometime>some recent family events though :/wanna say what happened? :<
>>83428137hi matehow are you? how was work going on lately?i think it's already holiday for you, no?anyways, hope you're doing well, and thanks for your kind words back then>>83444650hey chev, how you doing?i wanna apologize for not replying on discord, i don't want to use discord these days cuz of some problems but i also dont want people to think i'm just ghosting them>>83450833heya catmissed your presence xD, actually missed the whole threadso how have been things going lately? how many maps did you make? also i think you were working on a project for college, am i right?how did things go?i might sleep now, there has been a problem going on and it's totally brutal for mental health, whenever i remember it i feel like im stuck in my body and feel like i wanna get outit's kinda embarrassing to talk about even, but here's what i think of it; i think that the problems one faces because of his feelings towards someone can be way worse than the problems towards themself like self-hate/harmi don't mean to say that it's always true, but when someone gets emotionally attached to someone things become differentmaybe not everyone feels like this maybe i just offer alot to the people i love, as if i'd rather offering that person things instead of taking care of myself, i can't just go like "if that person causes me emotional problems then i should leave and simply forget about it" the last part is probably common between people who experienced being attached to someone, i think even alot of people in that thread and board, got attached to someone at some point and can understand what a toxic relationship means and how much it hurts, and how it feels to see your favorite person hanging with someone else and feeling like they don't care about youphew, i don't think i could've said these things to anyone else, i wanna say it to the one i'm attached to, i wanna talk about everything bothering me to him but things become so difficultcya everyone
>>83451075>wanna say what happened? :<i dont wanna mention who here but a family member diedeither way goodnight everyone!! sleep well!
>>83451122hello>missed your presence xD,now asleep yey so hello hello ^^but I'll reply to what you said Tom because my brain is not worknig>how many maps did you make?hm not many I don't think you missed any of themreally just working on the cozy one now>project for college, am i right?that one went well^^thnaks for asking >might sleep now,you have a lovely and restful sleep fren!
>>83451196ow sending condolences :cokay goin ro sleep now
>>83451196hey meowster, i don't know what exactly happened to you but i read some of it, i'm sorry for your loss and i hope bullies just get away. wish you all the best.>>83451216>but I'll reply to what you said Tom because my brain is not workingit's okay, have a good night!>>83451216>I don't think you missed any of themoh so you aren't making many these days, cuz it's been a long time since i saw the last onewhen did you start working on the cozy one tho?>that one went wellvery glad to hear that :D>thnaks for askingo7>you have a lovely and restful sleep frenthanks!! cya
whenever I am a part of a traumatic event, like people grieving a dead beloved one or someone being close to death (had this happen when someone almost drowned once) I will feel absolutely nothing but through the days afterwards I will feel a slow creeping feeling of dread, remember scenes of what happened and feel pretty bad about it.Anyone else like this?My mother called me a psycopath for this once and I don't think I can ever forgive her for that, maybe that is silly ha ha
>>83450715>it probably won't workproblem with licenses is you also need to have a process for issuing, and think it would deter people from adopting. Which is in fact important since it keeps shelters from being overwhelmed. One of these things you wish there was a better solution, but if there is it's hard to find> not even very frown upon to keep your dog on a chain permanently outside,that's terrible and really should be illegal. People are opposed to any regulation just because, but that really sounds like it can be used as abuse. Especially whether there does get quite cold.> too easy to make kidsharsh reality is most people aren't great parents, but having kids is kinda a human right. Problem then become whether people act how people should>>83450565hey meowster>>83450772>multivitamins againthey are good, but probably won't fix headaches alone. Make sure you're drinking enough water too. magnesium is the best vitamin you can probably add for those specifically, but it isn't really found in a daily multivitamin normally>>83451196and sorry to hear this and have my condolences for you and your family. Take it easy and wish you all the best
>>83451122hey rm! how are you?>how are you? how was work going on lately?work is okay. Slowing down a little. Take advantage to relax more and do something I want like playing games more and reading.> already holiday for you, no?Christmas on Thursday. I have work every other day, but it should be quiet.>"if that person causes me emotional problems then i should leave and simply forget about it"i hear you. I've had this issue before and suppose I still have it to a degree. I have a really hard time sticking up to someone I care about even when i know they are in the wrong. Even if they're doing things to deliberately hurt me. I don't think many understand it, but one of the people I felt did more for me than anyone else my entire life is like this, and no matter how many times other people tell me I'm only causing myself more pain by staying in her life, I can't help it.I'm sorry if you understand that feeling at all. It's miserable and wouldn't wish it on anyone, but you're not alone in that kind of experience, I think as you said, it's hard to talk about.
>>83451300Sorry your mother was so harsh, I don't think that sounds right at all. I think different people have different ways of processing stuff. I can't relate to your exact experience, but I've seen people with delayed reactions to grief or tragedy before. It isn't that unusual at all.
>>83451387Yeah. I have realized that. People can die next to me and I feel feel nothing, then as the days draw past I will feel very bad. remember what happened and feel grief about it. Yet turning towards your own son and call them callous because they did not show grief like others - what kind of mother does that.
>>83451512I think for some people the suddenness of those kinds of things can be shocking. It's very traumatizing and sounds like your brain just freezes before the gravity of things sink in>what kind of mother does that.i hear ya and am sorry. Don't know the full details of how things are between you, but from my own family experience, I can say sometimes family really don't have best interest in mind, they just want you to be a certain way and don't accept if they think you don't live up. How it was with mine, not saying case with you, but think it isn't a rare perspective unfortunately.
Hey sorry everyone for the late reply, i've been an emotional wreck ngl.I just don't know why I do the things I do anymore, even if they hurt me.Probably part of me thinks this is the best i'm gonna get, but it's not even fun.Most likely I just need to heal and actually do better for once in my life.>>83445661>anything you want to talk about or need to keep it to yourself?Idk, just feels redundant to even talk about rn, I just need to have an honestcoversation with myself sometime. I think that'd be healthiest. I can't keep going like this.>>83446872>I think for me it's a (sleep) hormone thing. yeah could be for me too, I just pissed off at life rn too. I should touch grass probably.>. Anything in mind?gonna focus more on music and mini painting lol, those actually make me happy and the people I do it with are also just chill dudes. it's better than destroying myself over doing things people expect me to like.>>83451122>how you doing?doing okay for now, gonna try to pick myself up tomorrow. >apologize for not replying on discordhey dude its okay. don't even worry about it.
>>83448296>Anytime some one is telling you things, at a minimum they want to be telling someone.Yeah. For better or worse I sent her an email. I kept it pretty vague so (hopefully) she can't twist it too negatively. I just don't want her to think she's undeserving of human connection, especially around Christmas.>Always a trade off between space and convenience when you're not richI could have moved to a bigger, cheaper place but my commute would have doubled to an hour. Considering how little I go in that might have been a good trade-off. I guess I'll consider it once my lease is up.>will give it goLet me know if you enjoy any of the other episodes. Now might be a good time to watch the Christmas special, actually.>high school messed me up a bit with no girls around being kind of problematic thing to get past when I finally went to collegeIf it's any consolation, girls went to mine and I'm still deathly afraid of women.>>83448861>I'm thinking what to watch now maybe some christmas movieI'll suggest Jingle All the Way. That's probably my favourite.>it must be double sad hering her say all thatThat's just how mental illness is sometimes, I suppose. There but for the grace of God go I.>sending you a big hug frenThanks, /cat/! That house you made earlier looked very cosy, by the way.>>83451122I was going to write something longer, but I'll just say I know what you mean.Have a good sleep!>>83451196I'm sorry to hear that. Wishing you well.>>83452198>I should touch grass probablyThat or get some ice cream. That always cheers me up.>gonna focus more on music and mini painting lolSounds good. I've never painted models with a brush before, just spray paint. How difficult is it?
I talked to my supervisor and he seemed pretty sympathetic, so I think I've got possible that extension, so that's one less thing to worry about.
>>83451369 >how are you?not the best to be honest, i just need to temporarily distract myself from the problem i mentioned>like playing games more and readingthat sounds comfy, how many days do you have to do these things btw?>it should be quieti hope so, guess not alot of people gonna annoy you before christmas? xD>sticking up to someone I care about>things to deliberately hurt mesorry to hear you still have this problem, i think you told me about it before, i can totally understand you and i think it's way worse in your case because you can't do it even if they hurt you on purpose,>causing myself more pain by staying in her life, I can't help it.personally i don't think i could stay silent if that happened to me so i can imagine how hard it is for you, mate.>I'm sorry if you understand this feeling>you're not alone in that kind of experience.thank you officeanon!>hard to talk aboutand that's almost the worst part about it.wish you all the best.>>83452198 >gonna try to pick myself up tomorrowgoodluck!>don't even worry about itthanks mate!!>>83452399 >I know what you meanhope things get better for you pal.>>83453634what's that about? i wasn't here lately so i dont really know wgat exactly happened
good day friends :3hope you're wellMaybe I'll go on a walk to get some sardines
justa bump
>>83451300>Anyone else like this?yeah, im not good at showing my emotions instantly, i end up crying alone at night instead>>83451322>hey meowsterhiiyaaa officeanon!!>>83451322>they are good, but probably won't fix headaches alone...supplements and stuff confuse me since there's so many of them, I'll try and drink more water, although i haven't drank pure water for a bit now desu>and sorry to hear thisthanks ^^>>83452399>I'm sorry to hear that. Wishing you well.thanks and you too>>83454705>good day friends :3hiiyaaa cat!! :D>Maybe I'll go on a walk to get some sardinessardines, ironic. hope ur day is cool either way cat
>>83456160ello ello ^^>hiiyaaa cat!! :Dwaddup?>sardines, ironicwhy?I like pish a lot ^^>day is cool either way catthank youit's been pretty nice and chill I worked on the map a little bit but not I'll just relax and watch some stuff of the internet
>>83456739>waddup?not much, about to sauna and shower, reading a webtoon thingy atm, what's up w you?>why?you = /cat/fish is rlly tasty though>now I'll just relax and watch some stuffalr well hope whatever u watch is entertaining then ^^
>>83456787>about to sauna and showerwoaa sauna :o>reading a webtoon thingy atm, wanna share?>what's up w you?watching a vid about old cs1.6 christmas maps >you = /cat/me :3>fish is rlly tasty thoughdo you like sardines? I've heard apparently a lot of people don't >whatever u watch is entertaining then ^^thanks, it is :>
>>83453865>hope things get better for you pal.Thanks. I'm definitely more functional than I was>>83453865>what's that about?Nothing new but I'm so behind on my work after everything that I could really use some breathing room.
>>83456859>woaa sauna :oyeah it feels amazing :3>wanna share?sure, it's called "Everything but your life">watching a vid about old cs1.6 christmas mapsthat sounds cool, i never played cs1.6 though so i wouldn't know>me :3you :3>do you like sardinesidk, never tried it
>>83456909>feels amazing :3in jealous :<I can only take a warm shower >called "Everything but your life"I'll check it out, ty>that sounds coolit is ^^>never played cs1.6basically every winter maps on the server would be changed to winter ones and people would make their own ones and share them >you :3owo>never tried itI tried those for the first time like two weeks ago, they were smoked sardines in oil and I liked them even though I'm a pretty picky eaterI don't eat all that much stuff I don't like carrots for example tho only raw ones
>>83453634I'm crossing my fingers and I wouldn't stop until you get that extension !>>83456899hello how are you today?
>>83457123Thank you /cat/! I'm alright today. Sleep is all messed up, though
>>83457618np ^^>I'm alright todayglad to hear that!do you have any plans for today?>Sleep is all messed upow :/did you manage to sorta fix it for a while not long ago?
>>83458011>do you have any plans for today?It's 5am now so I might head out and buy snacks from 7-Eleven. Or I might just stay in a play a bit more Persona 3.>did you manage to sorta fix it for a while not long ago?It felt like I did, but I took a nap earlier and ended up sleeping for 8 hours.
>>83458078>head out and buy snacks from 7-Elevennice :>you gonna get the big gulpthat's a sevenleven thing right?we don't have those over here>stay in a play a bit more Persona 3.that sounds nice tooI think I'll play persona 4 at some point I saw some gameplay if the beginning and I thought it looked cool >nap earlier and ended up sleeping for 8 hours.the sneaky nap got you D;
>>83458255>that's a sevenleven thing right?It is, but I think that's only at the American ones. I usually get some chocolate milk when I go in.>I think I'll play persona 4 at some pointYou should. It's probably my favourite one. The soundtrack is seared into my brain.>the sneaky nap got you D;My bed calls for me...
>>83458374>only at the American ones.good riddance, it probably sucks anyway > I usually get some chocolate milk when I go ino nice I haven't have a chilk in many many years >probably my favourite one.:omaybe when springs gets hereI wanna play something more winter christmass themed now though >bed calls for me...bed casts sleepy, it's very effective Man so it's like what 6am there now?will you have to work?
Much longer day than it should have been Monday before Christmas, but I am here and good. Hope everyone had a nice day. I'm downloading Danganronpa v3 since I still need to get to this>>83452198>been an emotional wreckit's okay. We all understand you're going through a lot. Wish there was more advice we could give but sometimes you have to get through it on your own best you. Isn't always something someone can say to help.>part of me thinks this is the best i'm gonna getno reason to believe that. Things are always changing in life and you still have plenty of time to work towards things being better>>83452399>For better or worse I sent her an email.I think it's kind of you to try to help. I don't know how satisfied you will be with the outcome of things, but I suppose if you really care about someone you aren't doing it because you hope it pays off in some other way, but because you're genuinely worried>commute would have doubled to an hour.Always a big part of the decision for people. Commuting sucks. I don't like to do it at all since it's just wasted time>good time to watch the Christmas special, actually.will look it up in a bit :>>deathly afraid of women.it's okay. Even having a girlfriend and actually interacting with them more after school, I still kinda am a bit even if i'm a bit better than before. I actually can come off as very intimidating so it's actually quite ironic to people who realize>>83453634great news! Glad it worked out! Just make sure to make the most of it
>>83453865>just need to temporarily distract myselfhope you get that. Sorry things have been so tough for you lately>how many days do you have to do these things btw?i'd say things will be generally slow till New Years. Probably won't have a normal time at work till the week of the 5th. >not alot of people gonna annoy you before christmas? some still are it seems, but here's hoping tomorrow none will> i think you told me about it beforeprobably did. And it's okay. I don't mean to vent, just want to say I understand some of your feelings. There's nothing wrong with caring about someone who might not deserve it by some people standards. I hope things aren't too hard for you, but it's impossible for people to change how they feel> i don't think i could stay silent if that happened to methen you at least are in a better place than me in that regard! which is good. Don't want anyone taking advantage of you being accepting>>83454705heya cat! busy day but i survived did you get your sardines???>>83456160> stuff confuse me since there's so many of themI know, right? Honestly, keeping it simple, a multi vitamin and a fish oil is what I would recommend as a good starter for most people. Magnesium is good if you have headaches, but you shouldn't take it same time as the multivitamin, since certain vitamins won't absorb as well if taken same time as others> drink more water,that should do you some good. It is one of the biggest small things you can do for your overall health that many people don't do enough
>>83458419>it probably sucks anywayI think it's just soda in a really big cup, but I might be wrong on that.> I haven't have a chilk in many many yearsYou should change that!>I wanna play something more winter christmass themed now thoughThe last bit of Golden takes place during winter, but you need to spend about 60 hours getting there, and sit through all the other seasons.>Man so it's like what 6am there now?>will you have to work?Thereabouts. I work my own hours, but I'll try to get some more done.>>83458423>I suppose if you really care about someone you aren't doing it because you hope it pays off in some other way, but because you're genuinely worriedI'd like a nice outcome but I'm not expecting one at this point. I just don't like seeing people like that.>I don't like to do it at all since it's just wasted timeI don't mind it too much since I usually just put a podcast on while I wait. It beats driving, I guess.>I actually can come off as very intimidating so it's actually quite ironic to people who realizeIt's usually the opposite. They immediately pick up on how nervous I am around them...
>>83421994>>How are you doing today?idk>>Any plans for today?I reviewed some paperwork. >>Is there anything bothering you right now?I donated plasma yesterday for money. I didn't get as much as I hoped, they want several donations to get the full $700, so I just got $80. I don't know if I'm going back over the next few weeks.>good stuffI got approached by a girl today. I got her number. I'm not sure what to do now, I'm trying to plan a date before I ask her.>>83423150hi office anon>No way to reach out online? nah, I don't have enough info, but I won't worry about it right now.>>83458423>I'm downloading Danganronpa v3 since I still need to get to thiscool, how is it?>>83454705hi cat>Maybe I'll go on a walkhow was the walk?
>>83458423hello>Much longer day than it should have beenD:>Danganronpa v3 sinceoaa why v3?>>83458482>did you get your sardines???sardines acquired! >:3>>83458592>think it's just soda in a really big cup, butI think it's a slushy thingie>should change that!hmm maybe but I'm not a big chocolate fan>spend about 60 hours gettingI didn't know it was such a long game :o>my own hours, but I'll try to get some more done.do you have to work over holidays too?>>83458741>>83458741eloo>idkow :< hopefully something nice happens >reviewed some paperwork.good job >just got $80. I don't know if I'm going back over the next few weeksthat's still a bunch of cash and you're a plasma factory >approached by a girl today. I got her number.wooot? :o>I'm not sure what to dodo you wanna get to know her>how was the walk?pretty okay though I wish it was foggier or maybe snowy
>>83457106>in jealous :< I can only take a warm showerawh well warm showers are nice too ^^ i sauna a lot and take a warm shower afterwards>I'll check it out, tyalr :P>and people would make their own ones and share themthat sounds fun :0>owo>w<>and I liked them even though I'm a pretty picky eaterhmmm, i might try them sometime then>I don't eat all that much stuffsame im a pretty picky eater>I don't like carrots for example tho only raw onesuhm me too, but wdym by only raw ones? are there unraw carrots?>>83458482>I know, right? Honestly, keeping it simple, a multi vitamin and...alr ill take a note of it :D>that should do you some good.i hope so, im kinda scared my health is deteroriating without my knowledge. Would you know how to get rid of eyebags?? I have pretty big ones that just wont go away, even when i sleep and drink well :/
>>83459495>sauna a lot and take a warm shower afterwardsooo what does that mean you have a sauna at home!!?>that sounds fun :0oh yea it was nice to see even people on the internet in the game you played preparing for christmass and celebrating >might try them sometime thenHope you find them, I actually had some trouble finding them because they stores near me don't have themoh btw the way I ate them is I put the can in hot water to warm them up though you can eat them room temperature too>pretty picky eaterI get upeople often are very judgement of it for some reason but are there any wierd foods you like? what's your favorite food?>me toowhen I was in kindergarten I tried to eat one to try and learn to like them and I puked lolI also don't like eggs, it's a similar story >only raw ones? are there unraw carrots?yep you put chopped carrots when making a soup and the carots sorta boil in the soup they get soupified and they taste different
>>83458592>I'd like a nice outcomeI'm hoping for the best too. Again, just need to control your expectations. I think being motivated to help is always a good mindset to have either way and think you're good there>beats drivingthat is the big difference. Using public transport between driving. Driving just sucks no matter how you look at it. Though I think if I had transport i'd probably miss my stop a lot if i didn't check constantly>immediately pick up on how nervous I amironically, i probably would had been a bit better off back then if i seemed nervous. I've been told in hindsight i just seemed angry and people seemed shocked when i told the truth to the few i have>>83458741hey cynic>I donated plasma yesterday for money.i had considered this when I was looking for extra cash a little while back, but ready just what you said. Hard to get that full amount, but they make it sound better when you just look briefly> trying to plan a datebest of luck> how is it?my internet has been on and off so just finished downloading and probably not getting to it tonight. Will see. Heard some say it's worst one but either way need to get to it and sure i'll get some enjoyment out of it
>>83459406>D:here's hoping tomorrow is slower>why v3?finished all the other ones while back. Played them pretty close together and think I burned out a little at the end despite liking all of them. So now onto the last>sardines acquired!nice! I had a chicken sandwich today that was quite good and some ice cream later on>>83459495> kinda scared my health is deteroriating without my knowledgehmm well if you're having headaches often, it is reason for concern. Deterioration doesn't happen super fast though. You'd probably know if things start getting worse little by little. Best to try to get on track before that>how to get rid of eyebags?? >even when i sleep and drink well consistency for eating and sleep is a big thing. Need to have an overall good schedule for body to heal. But for short term treatment, maybe cold compress for the swelling gently applied and use moisturizer for your overall skin health. Think those two should help a little.
>/cutters/Yeah but what about stranger danger?
Are there any clingy, friendless, high-IQ autistic anons in this thread?
>>83460516Yes, but you shouldn't groom us
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good morning yooo christmas time almost here :D
>>83458482>hope you get thatthanks mate>won't have a normal time at work i hope things be good >some still are it seemsguess it's almost impossible to avoid that, lol>I don't mean to vent, just want to say I understand some of your feelingsthanks mate, i get it don't worry>Don't want anyone taking advange of you being acceptingi hope things get better for you too, this probably hurts so much
>>83459590>what does that mean you have a sauna at home!!?mayyyyyybeeeeeeee :3>it was nice to see even people on the internet in the game you played preparing for christmasit does sound fun>Hope you find them, I actually had some trouble finding themoh alright, shouldn't be too much of a problem here>people often are very judgement of it for some reasonyeah i know, i get teased about it at school and by my friends a lot>but are there any weird foods you like?idk any outright weird food off the top of my head but i love having ketchup on food where you have it, like a lot of it. I hate sauces and stuff, also any and all foods that just have weird textures, i just cant eat them. i like my food pretty plain, like for meat, i like it almost burnt and maybe w just salt and thats it, no other foods or stuff.>what's your favorite food?it's a hard choice but i'd have to go with tacos :D>when I was in kindergarten I tried to eat one to try and learn to like them and I puked lollol, i also remember trying to learn to eat normal stuff. i know i used to eat a lot more variety in kindergarten than now. i do like raw carrots though, not cooked ones tho. puking isn't fun, although i personally haven't puked since i was like, 12.>I also don't like eggs, it's a similar storyoh? i mean eggs come in a lot of different forms and tastes, i only like fried eggs, and only if the yolk is gone or fried aswell, i think it tastes horrible otherwise.>they get soupified and they taste differentoh? it doesn't sound too tasty though xP>>83460182>it is reason for concern.D:>Best to try to get on track before thatalright, I'll do that then>consistency for eating and sleep is a big thing.idk if i can do that desu, but alr.>you need an overall good schedule for body to heal.alright!! ^^>cold compress for the swelling gently applied and use moisturizer for your overall skin health.okay, i have a skin care routine, somewhat>Think those two should help a little.thanks!!
>>83460182>hoping tomorrow is slowerI'm gonna hope with you >finished all the other ones while back.how are they like? what kind of games are they?I've never played them >chicken sandwich todaynice :D>some ice cream laterwoawhat kind?>>83463691>mayyyyyybeeeeeeee :3:oooI guess you live in finland after all>teased about it at school and by my friends a lotyeppeople shouldn't do that >love having ketchup on foodoh I'm different I actually don't like ketchup much >like for meat, i like it almost burnt and maybe w just salthaha me too ^^>have to go with tacos :Dmann I've never had those maybe I'll try to find a place that has them when holidays are over I'm just scared I won't like it and it'll be a waste of food>personally haven't puked since i was like, 12.I think me too though I guess I puked like a year ago in a dream that at first I thought was real, though I don't think that counts>mean eggs come in a lot of different formstrue, I don't mind omelettes for example I don't know other types of eggs >doesn't sound too tasty though xPI think I just made it sound bad hehe
>>83464224I guess you live in finland after allnuh uh sweden!! :3>people shouldn't do thati know, but they do>oh I'm different I actually don't like ketchup muchoh? okay :D>haha me too ^^cool!! :D>mann I've never had thoseWHAT, theyre AMAZING... im actually eating them for dinner today>maybe I'll try to find a place that has them when holidays are oversure!! tacos when eating out tend to be good aswell, i mostly only eat it at home though>I'm just scared I won't like it and it'll be a waste of foodmaybe, but no risk = no reward, the toppings and stuff matter a lot in tacos, i just have meat and crumbled up nacho chips though..>I guess I puked like a year ago in a dream that at first I thought was realyeah that doesn't count ^^ sounds like an uncomfortable dream though>I don't know other types of eggsyeah, food is complicated>I think I just made it sound bad heheno i can image it, just seems pretty meh.i do kinda like broccoli soup on the other handon another note, im in the mood to play minecraft
>>83462338happy christmas eve eve anon>>83463184hey cat!>>83463400>hope things be goodthank you! So far so good so think it's working>, this probably hurts so muchit does, but like what you said.. I think if you put up with someone, you accept some of the bad parts even if it isn't ideal. Better than cutting them off would feel>>83463691>D:nothing to be scared about! Just saying if you feel bad, it's a sign you should change things>idk if i can do that understand, but there really isn't an easy fix for health otherwise. No supplement or trick will fix bad fundamentals sadly :/ So try to do what you can>i have a skin care routine, somewhatthis goes very far since a lot of people have less than ideal routines>>83464224>gonna hope with youso far so good, thanks! How is yours going?>how are they like? what kind of games are they?story driven visual novels with some exploration involved. I heard people say they're like ace attorney a little bit, but edgier and more violent. Has some of the worst fans of any form of media in existence however. Also because of the very premise of the game, most of the characters you like always die by the end of each game which sort of the point, but always a bummer when it comes>what kind?it was chocolate and peanut butter with caramel and quite good
>>83464467>uh sweden!! :3gah!! D:sorry for mixing it up>but they dopeople like making fun of others>actually eating them for dinner todaysounds like it's a good day then >mostly only eat it at home thoughooh you buy those taco thingies and put stuff in them or do you make your own?>but no risk = no rewardtrue :<>sounds like an uncomfortable dream thoughit was fun I like strange dreams, in the dream I was in my bed and had a sleep paralysis so I couldn't move but then suddenly I appeared in my bathroom puking into my toilet and it would smelled soo bad, actually now that I think about it it was sorta like the guy in sh2, then I would wake up in my bed and the dream would loop until I woke up for real >broccoli soup on thenever had that one but I had spinach soup, I liked that one though apparently some people dislike spinach a lot, there's an interesting story why that is actually >mood to play minecraftsorry very nice!wanna show your house?>>83464575hello>far so good, thanks! yay>How is yours going?just chilling I'm not doing anything else today >you like always die by the end of each gameooh I like that >chocolate and peanut butter with caramelgood for you I personally only like fruit flavored ice cream pretty much
>>83465091fogrot my name :0
>>83464575>it's a sign you should change thingsi knoww ^^>:/ So try to do what you canalright!! >this goes very far since a lot of people have less than ideal routines:D idk if its enough though>>83465091>sorry for mixing it upit's alright!!>people like making fun of othersyeah, i think it's disgusting>sounds like it's a good day thenfairly, i keep getting these intrusive thoughts and feel like relapsing>ooh you buy those taco thingies and put stuff in them or do you make your own?hmm no, we buy the meat, seasoning, any toppings and chips or sauce we want, aswell as tortilla bread and put all that together ^^>and had a sleep paralysisI've never experienced it, how is it?>suddenly I appeared in my bathroom puking into my toiletouch TwT, i remember one time in middle school i had to go to the bathroom and for some reason i puked up a lot of blood?? never got it checked out>and the dream would loop until I woke up for realoh ive also had one of those dreams, a reoccuring one>wanna show your house?don't have one yet... >w>
>>83421994self harm is such a dogshit addiction bro, just buy weed or alcohol and ruin your life instead
>>83465344I can't for the life of me get drunk in a nice way, alcohol just tastes too terrible, if i wanna get drunk ill have to dilute vodka with like coke so its 90% cola and 10% vodka. And when I tried weed i was just coughing and crying since it was kinda difficult, didnt really feel anything either.I'm too scared to do any hard drugs and i know I'll regret it.
My sleep is all messed up again, this sucks. I guess I'll just bum around for a bit and go back to bed.>>83459406>I think it's a slushy thingieYou might be right. I don't think I've seen any slushies here.>I'm not a big chocolate fanBut it's good for you... kind of.>I didn't know it was such a long game :oAll the personas are really long to their detriment a lot of the time but it's worth putting the time in for 4>do you have to work over holidays too?I don't have to, but I probably should because I'm so behind. It's not like I have anything else to do.>>83460150>I think being motivated to help is always a good mindset to haveIt is, and I don't think enough people have it.>Though I think if I had transport i'd probably miss my stop a lot if i didn't check constantlySomehow this hasn't happened to me yet, but I did get on the train going the wrong way once.>i probably would had been a bit better off back then if i seemed nervousMaybe. I think shyness is pretty off-putting for a lot of people.>>83463691>all foods that just have weird textures, i just cant eat them. i like my food pretty plain>i know i used to eat a lot more variety in kindergarten than nowI'm like this as well. I get terrible anxiety any time I have to eat socially. Fortunately that happens very rarely now.I think it's an autism thing.
>>83465557>I think it's an autism thing.Maybe, but the last thing i need is an autism diagnosis, i just have an eating disorder on paper atm. My adhd diagnosis does me enough harm
>>83459406>do you wanna get to know herYes and I decided on inviting her to lunch this weekend. I do have a new problem though. I find out from her insta that she graduated from high school in 2024. Meaning there is at least an 8 year age gap between us. And she's was a high school athlete who knows the local police chief. I'm not sure what to do with that information. I don't know if I'm being paranoid, but I'm already trying to figure out if this some kind of trap. >though I wish it was foggier or maybe snowyon the up side, there's less ice early in the morning.>>83460150>my internet has been on and off so just finished downloading and probably not getting to it tonight.Okay, hopefully it doesn't stop you too much
>>83465312>it's alright!!okay :>>think it's disgustingyeah :< >these intrusive thoughts and feel like relapsingow don't relapse friend, maybe you should do something to distract yourself from those>aswell as tortilla bread and put all that together ^^mm I seethough I think I'll probably buy it form some food place, sounds easier >I've never experienced itoh I had it in my dream then not irl>how is it?but I did have one irl and it's wasn't anything scaryone early morning I opened my eyes, couldn't move and I think to myself "it's too early to wake up anyway" and fell back asleep nothing scary happened >puked up a lot of blood??that could mean really bad things glad nothing happened though >a reoccuring oneI used to have them very often especially as a kid >don't have one yet... >w>the housing crisis hit minecraft D:>>83465344no it's best to not have any addictions at allbesides, those are not better at all, I don't see a reason to rank bad habbits >>83465557hello cute pic >sleep is all messed up again, this sucksoh man :/>You might be rightlook what I found https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=h9jeLSHnObY&pp=2AEAkAIB>good for you... kind of.really?>personas are really long maybe I'll play it anyway I've played some long games in the past >should because I'm so behindcan relate hehe^^best of luck >>83465916heya>decided on inviting her to lunch this weekend.oo nice>graduated from highbut she it legally adult right? >figure out if this some kind of trap.she asked you out though I think you're too worried and you don't have to do anything besides eating a nice meal and talking for a bit anyway
>>83421994i hate being the annoying friend, but man, if you tell me "you can tell me everything, you can count on me, you can trust me" i say anything. they fuck out, call me retard, i told them before.anyways, i discovered that going for a run in forrest works, i dont cut that way. fuck this shit.
>>83467525i cant even wrtite anything, jsut lmao nah man i trully am slower in the head propably
>>83421994femanons, is there a way to wear a bikini or some sort of swimwear that isnt ugly and mormon looking in the summer without looking like a retarded mentalcel? im hot and have a good body but cant stop slitting and on my last family trip my mom pointed out my old scars (ive since relapsed) and i'm tired of looking insane
slepy time>>83467525hello>say anything.yeah it sounds like their fault, they underestimated you >discovered that going for a run in forrest worksthat's nice what's the weather where you at? here it's pretty cold for a run>>83467560don't worry ^^>>83467771you'll be hard pressed to find a femanon here All I can suggest is maybe putting some sort of towel over yourself when you're not in water or maybe wear swimming trunks?I guess it depends on where are your scars
>>83467828-2 c its not long usually, half hour is good enough.being scared of dark forrest all around u is the main thing.
how can i cut deeper? i tried cutting deep and i couldnt bear it. im a pussy.
>>83464575>I think if you put up with someone, you accept some of the bad parts even if it isn't ideal. Better than cutting them off would feeli don't know about thislike of course yeah it's bad to cut ties at all sometimes but i don't think the bad mood you get cuz of the bad parts is any good either,i think it's like saying "i do suffer because of your bad parts but i'll keep going cuz losing you can be worse"and this is indeed true sometimes but isn't it so difficult to just accept the bad parts?especially if the bad parts are hurting you directlymaybe this essay i wrote is a bit selfish, idk if i can call it "selfish" but it seems like i was talking about MY case, not yours.so in your case, i suppose it all makes sense, you not being able to show your loved one how hurt you are cuz of them makes you inclined to accept some of the bad parts. am i right?if so, personally, i'd rather start fixing things, especially the big things that hurt me so badly in the relationship, i can't just accept these things maybe i'm attached in a different wayor maybe at the end we're having the same problem to some degree, i too can be found doing nothing about some things that really kill my mood sometimes just because i'm a bit scared of trying to fix it, scared of the reaction of the other one in the relationship, yet i might face that fear if i couldn't endure the overthinkingmaybe you too would start sticking up to her if she did something you can't endure
>>83468237don't cut at all, you ain't gaining anythingit's not like you're fixing any problem with cutting, let alone cutting deep or notit just gives you scars and pain and reminds you of whatever bad thing happening in your life.
>>83468517i deserve pain and i want a scar to prove it but i cant cut deep enough
>>83468542why do you think you deserve pain?
>>83466620>oh man :/I'll survive. Eventually it sorts itself out, but I don't know when.>look what I foundI see, I see.>really?Cacao is really good for you.>maybe I'll play it anywayYou should! Don't be put off by the length.>best of luckThanks, you too.
just a benp c:
>>83466620>maybe you should do something to distract yourself from thoseyeah i have, i've just been playing games and sleeping all day lately. Today i also wanna just sleep all day>I'll probably buy it form some food place, sounds easieralright, lmk if you like it> "it's too early to wake up anyway" and fell back asleep, nothing scary happenedgood ending :D>that could mean really bad thingsO.o, i think im okay for the most part, only annoying thing about my body is i get nosebleeds a lot, and my braces ig>I used to have them very often especially as a kidSamee!>the housing crisis hit minecraft D::CMerry Christmas btw!!
Hii, I'm not an sh person but my ex gf was, I did and gave anything I had to make her feel better, if I couldn't reply in 10 minutes she would cut herself, after 8 months I finally fixed her and when she started to feel better and stop cutting herself, she started to replace me for any guy she knew even if they were retards that only wanted to fuck her, it's so sad that I have to leave her after everything I did for her that she can't even value.. and also 3 days before christmas, I hope nobody has to go through the same
>>83472189I'm so sorry you had to experience that anon :/ Nonetheless, I hope your christmas eve is going well and I wish you all the best.
merry christmasuu>>83468491Hello >wrote is a bit selfish,you can't really write something outside of your perspective so in a way everything is selfish but that's okay I think >>83470042Hey>Eventually it sorts itself out, but I don't know whenhopefully soon then >see, I see.hehe ^^>really good for you.I didn't know >Don't be put off by the length.okay :>>you too.thank you >>83471718>just been playing games and sleepinghope you're enjoying yourself at least but I feel it could get a bit boring >lmk if you like itokay o7>good ending :Dyep but I also don't believe in paranormal stuff so I'm not sorta inclined to freak myself out and make myself see scary shiz>get nosebleeds a lotugh>:Cthis is terrible!>Merry Christmasyou too>>83472189Helloshe sounds very mentally ill don't ever get back with her, okay>and also 3 daysugh so it's recenthope you manage to get through this okay if you want to talk with someone you can always come here So how are you going to spend this christmas?
>>83472223thank you so much, I've been reading for a bit and I'm sorry for what you have to go through too, I hope everything starts to get better, I wish you a beautiful christmas eve<3>>83472270>she sounds very mentally ill yeah she probably is, she goes to therapy and also got medicated for a short time some months ago but she doesn't have any diagnosis, I thought she was just autistic like me but it could be that she has bpd or something like that probably>don't ever get back with her, okayI learned after getting back with her 3 times and every time she did the same..>if you want to talk with someone you can always come here thank you cat, it's been a lot since I've been on 4chan and it's pretty uncommon to find a thread with such nice and cute ppl like you all<3>So how are you going to spend this christmas?probably alone at my room playing warframe while listening to music, like the whole year I was with this girl saying "oh we're gonna spend christmas and new year together it will be beautiful!" and all this happened n.nI wish you the best too and that you're doing okay with what you have to go through too<3
Missed posting the other day really. Family kinda being shitty past few days had me kinda down a bit, but it's expected and fine I guess.Playing danganronpa v3 and so far decent. Heard bad things about this one but so far so good>>83465091hey cat! whatcha up to? Christmas eve finally here>I'm not doing anything else todayhope you had a nice time doing nothing> I like thatonly frustrating when they die too early. Think only happens with 1 character I liked>only like fruit flavored ice cream pretty muchthat's normal I'd say. Americans I think shy away from fruity flavors, but my gf actually likes the fruit kind too (she loves cherry especially)>>83465312> idk if its enough thoughwhat is your routine like? I use cleanser morning and night, moisturizer in the morning after shower, sunscreen during the day, exfoliator every other day. Pretty inexpensive and minimal that goes a long way> puked up a lot of blood?for future reference, if blood is bright, it's probably something irritated like your throat as throwing up is quite rough on your body. If you ever see darker blood, get help ASAP. That's usually more serious as a sign if you ever see it>>83465557>putting the time in for 4ironically it's the persona game from 3 onward I got the least far into despite being the most celebrated one>don't think enough people have it.sadly not. At this point the bar for what I expect from other people gets lower and lower each day>going the wrong way onceme getting lost in the metro everytime I go to a real city>shyness is pretty off-puttingwhich unfortunately makes it harder and hard to break out of
>>83468491>maybe this essay i wrote is a bit selfishI don't think so at all. You were just explaining how you feel. That's okay and we all do that here. And writing things out can help you figure stuff out sometimes, which is ultimately what you have to do. Especially if you're being treated badly by someone. If getting things out helps, most of us are happy to listen.> like i was talking about MY case, not yours.that's the thing. No ones life experience is completely identical to someone else. There can be varying levels of similarities, but always differences. Yet when we here people explain things, we read things from our standpoint and think about our scenario, even when it's their situation. Which is normal if not just a bit confusing and the hard part of giving advice.> because i'm a bit scared of trying to fix itI think that is what I feel as well. I don't like being treated like shit. The problem is I feel like if I do try to fix things, I'll be the one cut off in the end and feel it's better to be upset someone treats you kind of bad, than goes completely. I think that gets exploited a bit.
>>83472270>but I feel it could get a bit boringyeah it does.. I don't have too many people to play with / hangout with but its wtv>yep but I also don't believe in paranormal stuffhmm me neither, but I'm not entirely against the though of a higher life form or something, but yeah i don't believe what the internet says about it>this is terrible!haha yeah, i plan to go to college in 2026 (if im lucky) so I'd have to move out>>83472374>and I'm sorry for what you have to go through toothank you anon ^^>I hope everything starts to get better, I wish you a beautiful christmas eve<3awhh, likewise!! <3 >getting back with her 3 times and every time she did the same..awh :/, it's good that she's gone now then, she seems like a bad influence>at my room playing warframe while listening to musichopefully it's cozy then ^^, and gl with warframe!Do you wanna talk about something else to not have to think abt it?>>83472385>Family kinda being shitty past few days had me kinda down a bit:[ hope everything alright and resolves itself>what is your routine like?i use some caffeine-serum on my eyebags? i dont exactly remember, also use some beef tallow moisturizer in the morning and before bed. Oh and sunscreen aswell :P>If you ever see darker bloodah it was dark blood i puked up, but i turned out fine, soooo :pTime to celebrate Christmas Eve, kinda wanna play minecraft l8r
BPD women are all abusers and I don't like you guys
>>83472189hi anon. Sorry you had to go through all that. Not right at all. Unfortunately, this is the problem with working so hard to help someone in that place, they often times aren't as appreciative as you'd hope they'd be.I don't mean to sound harsh, but try not to give so much for someone like that again. It's okay to want to help people, to seem them be well, but you deserve better than to be treated like an emotional crutch when someone like her is at her worstMerry Christmas anon. Know it's probably not the happiest, but wish the best for you>>83472469>hope everything alright and resolves itselfthank you. I have a troubled history with my family. One I still am not perfectly come to terms with, but am more honest about than any other point in the past>i use some seems like you're hitting all the major stuff, so all good other than water>ah it was well glad it worked out fine. But really good have been more serious, so try not to let it slide. Most things can get helped if early, but a lot of people get sick waiting for something they don't want to make time for to pass. Don't mean to scare you needlessly, but sometimes being scared is good if makes you do stuff>Time to celebrate Christmas Eveand merry christmas! Hope you have fun with minecraft if you play. Been some time since I touched it
>>83472469>awh :/, it's good that she's gone now then, she seems like a bad influenceweeell I still can't stop talking to her because I'm pretty emotionally dependent on her, but I'm slowly getting more distant..also sometimes I get these bad thought like 'maybe everything was better when she did sh' or 'maybe I should do it too' but I know that's not okay and I don't even have the guts to do that>hopefully it's cozy then ^^, and gl with warframe!thank you so much! this last month warframe became the only thing I have to escape, I have like 300 hours every two weeks.>Do you wanna talk about something else to not have to think abt it?of course! I like to talk about anything .w. also I've seen that you like Oneshot, I've bought it but haven't finished it yet ^^ it seems like you have pretty good taste>>83472640>try not to give so much for someone like that againI know I shouldn't but it's like when I fall in love I always go like that, giving everything from me to the other person but it's never that reciprocal..>Merry Christmas anon. Know it's probably not the happiest, but wish the best for youMerry Christmas for you too officeanon, I wish you have a nice one even with what you have to go through.
>>83472640>but am more honest about than any other point in the pastthat's good, and im sorry to hear that >seems like you're hitting all the major stuff, so all good other than waterah yeah, and sleep.. but im improving!!! :D>But really could have been more seriousah i know, I've had enough health stuff in my life for this lifetime. >Most things can get helped if earlymhm, i think most stuff is just about preventing them from forming in the first place by having good habits and being healthy :3>Hope you have fun with minecraft if you play.thanks!!! i will ^^>Been some time since I touched itIt's still pretty fun! Especially with mods, if you pick the right ones :P>>83472739>because I'm pretty emotionally dependent on her, but I'm slowly getting more distant..okay well, with time your heart will heal, okay? :]You can always talk about your worries here>'maybe I should do it too' but I know that's not okay and I don't even have the guts to do thatyeah never start doing it, it only brings bad things with it>I have like 300 hours every two weeks.woah O.o committed huh xD, that remind me, I should get into geometry dash again :P I've got like 1000 hours...>I like to talk about anything .w. also I've seen that you like OneshotYeah I played through it recently and it was AWESOME!! :D>I've bought it but haven't finished it yet ^^okay well you HAVE TO let me know how your playthrough goes :] >it seems like you have pretty good tasteawh thanks :3 I've been meaning to play it for a while, but that also remind me that i should finish omori soon TwTDo you play any other games than Warframe? If so, which ones? :D
>>83472851>okay well, with time your heart will heal, okay? :]>You can always talk about your worries hereThank you so much T^T I think lately I got pretty isolated and lonely this last month so it feels good and pretty comfy to talk with you two .w.>yeah never start doing it, it only brings bad things with ityeah that's true, I tried to do it when I was like 11yo but my mom found out when I was trying to do it so I failed, I probably never will do it because my blood pressure drops when I see blood, even when I see shtwt or the pics my ex sent me I start to feel dizzy qnq>woah O.o committed huh xD, that remind me, I should get into geometry dash again :P I've got like 1000 hours...yesss geometry dash is so good too! I used to play it a lot in the past, and I have right now 1452 hours on warframe :3>Yeah I played through it recently and it was AWESOME!! :DI'm glad you liked it that much! I heard great things about this game without getting any spoiled. I just downloaded it so I'll give it a run in a while>awh thanks :3 I've been meaning to play it for a while, but that also remind me that i should finish omori soon TwTOmori is amazing too! I love it :3>Do you play any other games than Warframe? If so, which ones? :DYesss I do, at least multiplayer games I play league, mc, isaac, bloons, cod zombies, vrchat, and for singleplayers I'm playing some nintendo games(mostly zelda series), dark souls, persona 3, metaphor, re4, shf, alice madness, some VNs, and some ps3 games .w.what are your favorite games and what do you play daily? also it seems like you like reading too or maybe you just like the character and it's okay, but if you do, what are you reading or what are some of your favorite readings?
>>83472189That sucks. I went through some heartbreak with a girl who sh'd (which is how I ended up here) a couple of months ago and I'm still reeling from it.Wishing you the best this Christmas.>>83472270>hopefully soon thenTo be fair I've been saying that for months and it hasn't happened yet...>>83472385>it's expected and fine I guess.My family gets incredibly stressed out at Christmas, especially my mother. It's a stressful time and I don't miss that part of it.>I got the least far into despite being the most celebrated oneIt's got a pretty slow start if I'm remembering right, but after that it more or less lets you go at your own pace.>At this point the bar for what I expect from other people gets lower and lower each dayI'm like that too. Sad state of the world...>which unfortunately makes it harder and hard to break out ofHumanity has a nasty habit of kicking people while they're down.
>>83473122>I got pretty isolated and lonely this last monthawh :C if you ever want someone to talk to or hangout with just lmk, and if you ever need to talk to someone urgently you can send me a msg on discord :P>so it feels good and pretty comfy to talk with you two .w.talking about your troubles and feelings are important ^^>I tried to do it when I was like 11yo but my mom found out when I was trying to do it so I failedThat's about when I got into it aswell, and my mom did catch me TwT. >because my blood pressure drops when I see bloodoh yeah you really shouldn't do it then, I personally can handle blood but, if i see gore and stuff I get really uneasy>yesss geometry dash is so good too!ikkkrrr :D i used to play it all day everyday, on my phone then moved to pc :3 It's been a while since I played though>and I have right now 1452 hours on warframe :3holy woah, that's a lot!! you must love the game then>I just downloaded it so I'll give it a run in a whilealr well goodluck!! and i will judge you depending on the ending you get.... >:3 .... jk>Omori is amazing too! I love it :3yeah, i love it ^^>at least multiplayer games I play league, mc, isaac, bloons, cod zombies, vrchat,out of those i playy, mc, bloons and vrchat(rarely). i LOVE mc :3>I'm playing some nintendo games (mostly zelda)REALLY?I LOVE ZELDA :D although i haven't been able to play any of the games in a while TwT>what are your favorite games and what do you play daily?my fav games are minecraft, roblox and basically any and all co op games that i can play w friends :Pas for singleplayer games rn im looking at either playing totk or the resident evil games, i just don't know where to start :/>also it seems like you like reading too..yeah!! i love reading webtoons and stuff like that ^^>what are you readingas of right now im just reading a webtoon called 'Everything But Your Life'and in actual books im about to start reading 'Ondskan'. It's a famous swedish book/movie.
>>83473145> I went through some heartbreak with a girl who sh'd (which is how I ended up here)well, it seems like we're in a similar position, I ended up coming to 4chan for the same reason, also I started to get a bit obsessed with ppl like zombiebeatz2000 because she looked a lot like my ex back then.>>83473342>you can send me a msg on discord :Pof course! add me on discord if you want, my discord is: hellouda>talking about your troubles and feelings are important ^^you're right.. this last month I've been so down that I started to stop talking with some people and got even more isolated.>That's about when I got into it aswell, and my mom did catch me TwT. ow I'm sorry to hear that :(( I'm sure it was an awful day sadly... I hope you're doing better though :c>if i see gore and stuff I get really uneasyyess it's a really weird feeling watching things like that .n. also yeah I had to go to therapy for like 3 months to have a blood extraction for a health test TwT>ikkkrrr :D i used to play it all day everyday, on my phone then moved to pc :3 It's been a while since I played thoughit's been literally the same for me!! but as my screen stopped working at 144hz and had to put it down to 90-100 I stopped playing, I was pretty bad at it anyway> i will judge you depending on the ending you get.... >:3noo don't do it OnO x3>out of those i playy, mc, bloons and vrchat(rarely). i LOVE mc :3used to love mc so much too in the past until 1.9 TwT>REALLY?>I LOVE ZELDA :DYESSS I love it so much too!!! I have a 3ds so I've been playing the 3ds games and now the ds ones, I'm currently on phantom hourglass, also I have to play TOTK too .w.>my fav games are minecraft, roblox and basically any and all co op games that i can play w friends :PI love roblox too!! also what co op do you play the most??also I don't know much about webtoon, you'll have to educate me a little bit about it TwT I used to read A LOT of manga though :3
>>83473573>of course! add me on discord if you wanadded :P>I started to stop talking with some people and got even more isolated.awh :C you need to be very cautious with feelings and not delay addressing them!!>I'm sure it was an awful day sadly...mhm.. TwT>I hope you're doing better though :cI am, for the most part? I'm not as depressed but my feelings are worse, idk if that makes sense though.I guess i was more sensitive before>yess it's a really weird feeling watching things like thatyeah... i just cant handle genuine evil or people getting hurtor well, i handle it but it makes me sad/uneasy nonetheless.>but as my screen stopped working at 144hzawhh :C>I was pretty bad at it anywayyou were probably good!! either way you gotta practice to get better.>noo don't do it OnO x3 >:3>used to love mc so much too in the past until 1.9 TwTyeah my fav version is actually 1.8.9, just because of the feeling and combat. But then again I was a kid when 1.9 came out, playing on the ps4.>YESSS I love it so much too!!! I have a 3ds so I've been playing the 3ds gamescool!! :0 I've been thinking about homebrewing my switch so I can play more freely and with mods, haven't gotten around to it though>also what co op do you play the most??not too long ago me and my friends all played 'Backrooms: Escape Together' which was pretty fun ^^>I love roblox too!!im just addicted to obbies lol>also I don't know much about webtoonoh it's a site/app where people make their own comics and such ^^ so you can read 'em there>I used to read A LOT of manga though :3oh? any faves?
Family are all sick looks no Christmas visit this year.>>83472739> I'm slowly getting more distantthat's a good sign. It takes a while to get over things, but that is the stage things start to feel a little easier. Just try to keep your life steady in the meantime>when I fall in love I always go like thatI understand anon. It's hard to control how we feel about other people and some of us just care too much about other people, which is easily exploited sadly. Just try the best you can to use this as a frame of reference in the future, but also know only so much you can do. Better than the opposite I suppose.> I wish you have a nice one Thanks! seems like it's going to be the most quiet one I've had in years, but beats working I suppose>>83472851>sorry to hear thatgrand scheme of things, I have a lot less problems going on than most people here, so I should be happy about that. I'm not beat up over my family anymore, more so just brings up unpleasant thoughts when I remember.>but im improvingthat's good. Why do you feel you have such a hard time getting enough sleep anyway?> had enough health stufsorry to hear that. >about preventing themAgreed. Taking care of your health through diet, exercise, all that stuff goes a long way. However, still pollution, chemical exposure, and just genetics as well. Why it's still important to screen and pay attention to things> Especially with mods,i remember years ago some mob mod pack that added a bunch of hard to kill mobs that made the game way more frustrating than needed to be lol should look up what it was.
once again merry christmas friends !I'm done with that celebrations now and I think I'll work on my map a little or take a little cat nap>>83473814hello>Family are all sick looks nodo you feel bad about it?
>>83473145> incredibly stressed out at Christmasa lot of people do. I know my mother is as well with everything. Of course, person giving me trouble was actually my dad who does literally nothing but bark orders at people usually. But I'm going to going to see them with everyone sick now anyway>I don't miss that part of it.I honestly am shocked I usually go. My dad is a bully through and through. Makes things miserable for everyone every year. Just glad I don't live with them anymore> more or less lets you go at your own pace.I think I got to the part with Kanji's dungeon and just fell off for some point then. I struggle with really really long games though. Especially when I was playing on consoles> nasty habit of kicking people while they're down.Why I don't judge anyone who makes even the most destructive life decisions too harshly. Easy to see how people get stuck in a bad spot when for so many it seems like everyone collectively roots against you the minute stumble the smallest bit.
>>83473842hiya cat! merry christmas>that celebrationswhatcha do?> I'll work on my map and have fun!>do you feel bad about it?Not a huge deal. My dad was really nasty over the phone recently. Actually left me so shocked and shook up I almost considered not going over. I guess it feels a little funny doing nothing on christmas now, but I'm still bothered more how they were acting before honestly.
>>83473684>I am, for the most part? I'm not as depressed but my feelings are worseOhh I understand how you feel about it, but I'm glad you're doing better :'3>i handle it but it makes me sad/uneasy nonethelessyup I feel uneasy too, idk how there's so much people that enjoys a lot looking at those things, maybe they're a bit morbid about it>you were probably good!! either way you gotta practice to get better.yup, everything gets better with practice, but my best achievements were like electrodynamix and a "hard demon" called Dragon Temple>my fav version is actually 1.8.9YESSS 1.8.9 and 1.7.10 are the goats>I've been thinking about homebrewing my switchI wish I get a switch in the future just to mod it and install a lot of homebrew, I would be so happy desu>which was pretty fun ^^I'm glad to hear that you had fun and a pretty good time playing, you deserve it :33>im just addicted to obbies loland I'm addicted to tycoons XD>it's a site/app where people make their own comics and such ^^I'll take a look to it then o.o>oh? any faves?Oyasumi Punpun, Reiraku, Berserk, Ashita no Joe, Aku no Hana, Chi no Wadachi and some more .w. I have a bookshelf with a lot of them>>83473814>Family are all sick looks no Christmas visit this year.hope your family gets better!>that's a good sign. It takes a while to get over things, but that is the stage things start to feel a little easier. Just try to keep your life steady in the meantimethanks, I just hope I don't get carried too much and end doing the same like before>Thanks! seems like it's going to be the most quiet one I've had in years, but beats working I supposewell, quiet is better than having family fights x3 anyway I hope you enjoy it and get a comfy one then
do yall cut with music or not?
>>83474293Sometimes at home, but then I already have music playing. If I'm at the school in the bathrooms I don't, unless I'm already listening through my headphones>>83473814>I'm not beat up over my family anymoreThat's good ^^>Why do you feel you have such a hard time getting enough sleep anyway?I procrastinate it a lot and ruin my schedule, other times when I have school i stay up since that feels like the only real free time I have.>sorry to hear that.it's alright, thanks>Why it's still important to screen and pay attention to thingsyeah ur right, I'm gonna try and improve my health :D>lol should look up what it wasyeah, im a bit curious. Now there's like, a bajillion gazillion mods tho>>83473842Hii cat! Hru? :D>or take a little cat napgood luck with the map!! or the nap!!>>83474046>but I'm glad you're doing better :'3thanks :]>idk how there's so much people that enjoys a lot looking at those thingsyeah... people like that just freak me out>Dragon TempleImpressive!!! I think I know it. My hardest was also a hard demon called Nine Circles. Kinda dropped the game whilst doing bloodbath though.>1.8.9 and 1.7.10 are the goats1.7.10?what's so special abt that version?>I wish I get a switch in the future just to mod it and install a lot of homebrew, I would be so happy desulol ikr!! just make sure you buy an older one then so it's easier :] I have an old one that you only need a computer to homebrew>I'm glad to hear that you had fun.. you deserve it :33thanks :D Yeah I love playing games w friends>and I'm addicted to tycoons XDlol, they're pretty satisfying to play>I'll take a look to it then o.oalr they're pretty good!! ^^>Oyasumi Punpun, Reiraku....only one i recognised was Berserk. But I'll check 'em out!! :3pic is literally me, height, age and weight wise atleast ^^
okay so for christmas i got, an aroma diffuser, a neon ring light, two super soft and nice towels, a bunch of shaving stuff including a super sharp straight razor, some clothes and a moon rgb light thingyalso yippie 200 replies :3
might be shit post but i havent cut in awhile, it genuinely is just too much work... i wonder if anyone else agrees or has similar feelings to it. i want to cut because i believe i deserve it & i want retarded attention but idk its all a looooop
>>83474736cutee cute -- i love aroma diffusers i just wanna collect all i find... do you put smellys in yours? or like essential oils for smell?
>>83474787i already got it with some smelling liquid stuff, and then i put these black sticks in it. It smells pretty strong though :3>>83474774yeah the afterwork and patching up is annoying, but I do it anyways
>>83474850ooooo ive never heard of the black sticks bleehh, might need to try them out...yeaah i get u
>>83474736nice to hear that anon. Merry Christmas
>>83474878merry christmasjajja ;3
>>83474878Merry Christmas!!! :D>>83474920Merry Christmasu
drinking port and failing at project diva on extreme will be my christmas eve this year>>83474046>hope your family gets better!thanks! I think they're going to move their christmas celebrations to this weekend, so not much lost. I live close by either way so not super inconvenient> end doing the same like beforeHonestly.. If you bounce back well enough, I don't think it's the worst thing either. Obviously, don't want to get hurt time and time again if it really upsets you, but I think being the kind of person who loves other people strongly is a good thing, just when it works out. Better than how most people treat relationships. Just don't like seeing people hurt.> having family fights the good thing about these is they usually don't involve me recent years. I'm amazed >>83474517>feels like the only real free time I haveunderstandable. I'd say just as long as you're not sleeping so little every night like that you're fine. Sleep debt is a thing, so as long as you make sure you get recovery nights>onna try and improve my healthbest of luck! Don't have to be super strict, just consistent >yeah, im a bit curious.Lycanites Mobs. Added a crap ton of mobs who just jacked you up on sight>>83474736glad you seem to be happy with what you got! I'm excited to give gifts I bought to everyone when i get the chance this weekend
>>83474007>whatcha do?ate lots of fish and mushroom soup>and have fundw I can't not have fun ^^>My dad was really nastysorry to hear thatso I'd say it's a good thing you can be left in peace today >>83474293usually yesit's usually so I can't hear other people making noises do you?>>83474517>Hru? :Dworked on my map a bit pic reland now I'm in bed chilling ^^wbu?>with the map!! or the nap!!I decided to map but now it's time to nap :33>>83474736woa I got a powebank which is handy >>83474774that's probably for the better anon, jot cutting that is>>83475246>will be my christmas eve this yearcomfy!
>>83475444>it's usually so I can't hear other people making noisesyea makes sense, i solved by doing it deep at night>do you?ty for asking, that does not happen often.yea it helps me to calm down
>>83475505>solved by doing it deep at nightyep I guess that'd work>helps me to calm downwhat kind of music do you listen to anon?wanna share?
>>83475549>what kind of music do you listen to anon?ye :Di like quite a few genres...KINO, usedcvnt, crystal castles, IVOXYGEN, McCafferty, TV_girl, Have a Nice Lifefor example, what about you?
>>83475673>like quite a few genres...oo cool I listen to some of those sometimes too>Have a Nice Lifethank you :3>what about you?lately I just been listening to soem incelcore
time for bed goodnight all
>>83476511goondnight
Christmassy bump
Hope everyone's having an good Christmas. Mine's been pretty mixed so far but I can't really complain. I have my health and I have a roof over my head.>>83473863>Of course, person giving me trouble was actually my dad who does literally nothing but bark orders at people usually.My dad causes trouble as well. Usually by starting dumb arguments with people.>Just glad I don't live with them anymoreAs am I. My mother's nice enough but I just cannot put up with the rants he goes on.>I struggle with really really long games thoughI can't blame you. The longer they go on, the more chances there are to drop it.>Easy to see how people get stuck in a bad spot when for so many it seems like everyone collectively roots against you the minute stumble the smallest bitI agree. I feel like most major religions make a point of not doing that, but people still do it.
Just here to save your thread and wish you a Merry christmas you emo bastards :D
>>83479478We're not emo, we're emoe.
>>83472270>so in a way everything is selfish but that's okay I thinki understand this, i wanted to say that i would feel bad for talking about myself if the topic wasn't about me but the topic was actually about both of us, so i think it's okaythanks cat btw>>83472434>If getting things out helps, most of us are happy to listen.thanks mate>Which is normal if not just a bit confusing and the hard part of giving advice.yep i think you're right, tho personally i would try not to talk about myself when my perspective doesn't really matter>and feel it's better to be upset someone treats you kind of bad, than goes completely. I think that gets exploited a bit.yup i think that's almost exactly the caseanyways, how are you?
I'll be honest, I deeply suspect my sister of posting here.Not much else to say.
merry christmas, everyone! :Dsorry for vanishing like i did. i don't really have an opportunity to post much right now. :< miss you all a lot and hope to talk again soon!
Hello guys!merry christmas *<:3>>83478633Hello>Mine's been pretty mixedI know it's easy to say but try to focus on staying cozy >>83479478thank you :DDhope you're having a good christmas >>83479509hey>so i think it's okayyep :>you got nothing to feel bad about >thanks cat btwyou are welcome ^^>>83479516like in this thread or on 4chan in general?>>83479821Helloo ^^don't worry about it just focus on having a good time
>>83479821hey yuanon!i've been wondering where have you gone, since i've been back i haven't seen you at allhow are you?>i don't really have an opportunity to post much right nowoh, i hope things be easy on you mate!>>83480102>you got nothing to feel bad aboutty palhru today?
>>83480303>ty palnp>hru today?good, I'm going to have a comfy day working on my map and watching videos on youtube maybe I'll ever watch a movie I thought about watching jaws though it's not very christmassy wbu??
>>83480468>goodglad to hear that!> I'm going to have a comfy day working on my map and watching videos on youtubethat indeed sounds comfy, which map btw? the same one you've been working on lately?>watching jawswoah i don't remember ever watching smthn like that unless if i randomly watched it on tv years ago, but i think i like the idea really>wbu??so bad, picrel is really relateddude im so done i wish problems could solve themselves, no one hears it eitheri dont have much plans, i'll go to a bookshop later and will talk to a friend at midnight
>>83475444you got christmas trips nice!>ate lots of fish and mushroom soupnice! Christmas eve we don't really do much usually. Christmas day is when everything would happen. Gift exchanging and dinner. We usually have a ham most years.>can't not have fun it's looking very cozy. I wish I could ne snowed in without having to worry about shoveling>good thing you can be left in peace todayit is a little sad all the same. I'll live but feels strange>comfyi think the alcohol was just enough I didn't feel sick but ended up helping me sleep. Playing any skill based game on hard with alcohol doesn't mix well though it seems lol>>83478633merry christmas discanon! Know you've had some ups and downs lately but wish you the best and hope you had a nice day if nothing else>Usually by starting dumb arguments with people.My dad is the stereotypical angry American boomer who has an issue with every young people do and sits reading the news to start rambling about whatever fits his worldview.>the more chances there are to drop it.it's a shame because I like the games, I think just my time availability can be spotty sometimes. Like I was playing Persona 5 Royal recently since seemed like I had time to give it ago, played a few times, then found it hard to make time. Once you've lost momentum, really hard to pick up where you left off. Can happen with any game, but JRPG's I feel like are hard to take a break from and come back to.>make a point of not doing that, but people still do it.good old pick and choose which parts you like, which you don't. I grew up seeing a lot of the "holier than thou" types without a shred of human compassion and honestly why a lot of people get jaded on religion in general. Fundamentally a human problem in general I suppose>>83479478merry christmas anon!>emo my emo days are long past, i don't even listen to the right music for it anymore>>83479505lol
>>83479509hey rm! Not sure they do Christmas where you live (I remember you mentioning your weekends are Friday and Saturday and most countries I know like that probably don't do Christmas) but hope you're having a good day!>my perspective doesn't really matterI don't think that's true at all! It's good to hear what other people think sometimes or their situation. That and like I said, you should feel like you can say whatever you want or need to here.>how are you?going to be enjoying my day off! Usually I visit family for Christmas, but they are sick. So been postponed>>83479516hi anon. Not sure that's likely on this thread specifically. People here are usually fairly kind to everyone. Despite the name actual cutting isn't really encouraged and the tone of the thread isn't really like the rest of r9k.>>83479821hey yuanon! Merry christmas and don't worry! Just enjoy your time away>>83480303yuanon goes away a little bit around christmas time past years, so if that would be why. Just answering since not sure he'll be back soon after that post.
>>83480548>which map btw? the same one you've been working on lately?oh this one :]>>83475444>>83447760>don't remember ever watching smthn like thado you want a link to a website where I watch movies?>so bad, picrel is really relatedD;you should try to sit down get a blanket and maybe watch a movie and just try to focus on it and nothing elsemaybe you should watch jaws or maybe muppets christmas carol if you want something christmassy>bookshop later and will talk to a friend at midnighthave fun and best of luck >>83480606ello >trips nice\o/>Christmas eve we don't really do much usually.and here's the other way around :]>usually have a ham most years.here people have different things but at my house we mostly get fish>wish I could ne snowed in without having to worry about shovelingdamnn youu HOA!! >:o ot whatever you have there>I'll live but feels strangeI just because you're not used to it >with alcohol doesn't mix well though it seems lolheh ^^ but did you at least have some fun or do you not remember
>>83480303>i've been wondering where have you gone, since i've been back i haven't seen you at alllast week before i left for my christmas vacation was very stressful so i just was in no mental state to post and then i just left for my holiday. i'll be back on the 4th of january, but not be posting much if anything until then.>how are you?i'm way better now. it's nice if you don't have anything to do and can just relax for a while. ^^ hope you're doing well.anyhow. here's a stupid little song we listened to yesterday. hope everyone has as much of a laugh as we had. ^^https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Ca5wXojemRM&pp=ygUdbG91IG1vbnRlIGRvbWluaWNrIHRoZSBkb25rZXk%3Dsee you guys later! (^-^)p.s.: i think i'm too stupid for those new captchas...
Merry Christmas all! I'm not gonna be on much today.>>83466620>but she it legally adult right? she is, it's just idk if that young of an adult would be too uncomfortable. I'm at least 7 years older.>I think you're too worriedI probably am. If it doesn't work out, I'll probably just do a new years party on my own and talk to people there.>>83481186merry christmas yu>i'll be back on the 4th of januarysee you then.>p.s.: i think i'm too stupid for those new captchas...Yeah, they're annoying. It's better then "only type the letters with a circle above them.">>83480606merry christmas Officeanon. I hope it's joyful and calm!
>>83480657yo officeanon!>Christmas where you livei finished my finals either way so i have a break lol> but hope you're having a good day!ty!>I don't think that's true at all!>you should feel like you can say whatever you want or need to here.thank you so much mate.i actually have a question for you, i'll write it in the last lines of my reply cuz it's directed to cat aswell>going to be enjoying my day off!finally a day off for you, it's been a while since the last one no?>but they are sick. So been postponedsadly D:>>83480696>oh this one :]wait is the second one inside the first one? lol i mean is it inside the house?>do you want a link to a website where I watch movies?oh thanks dw i can find :D>and just try to focus on it and nothing elseyou mean the movie or the things happening in my mind?>maybe you should watch jaws or maybei dont know, there are some long videos i watch but the thing is i wanna get rid of the problem not only distract myself temporarily from itsoo i have a question for you cat and officeanon and anyone in the thread can answer aswelldo you feel like your mind doesn't stop worrying? i seriously can't remember days where i could say "i have nothing to worry about", every time i get rid of a problem i find another one, and my mind simply destroys me with it, last 2 weeks i was worried cuz of exams, 4-5 days before finishing exams i found another problem that is still hurting mein the summer break i was almost carefree with nothing to worry about, but instead of that my mind decided to make me worry about things, i got attached to someone and some problems happened, huge problems actuallyso it's almost like there isn't a day i could call without worrying and overthinkingis this normal? is everyone like that?maybe if i didn't cancel my appointment with the psychiatrist i could've known what's the problem
>>83481186>so i just was in no mental state to post and then i just left for my holidayD:hope you're doing better now> i'll be back on the 4th of january, but not be posting much if anything until then.take your time mate!>i'm way better now. it's nice if you don't have anything to do and can just relax for a whileglad to hear you're better! and yeah true it's really nice, i finished my exams yesterday so i kinda understand what you mean>hope you're doing well.thanks yuanon!>p.s.: i think i'm too stupid for those new captchas...i was like you it felt so strange and difficult, but i got used to it>see you guys later!cya yuanon!
>>83481251Heya>not gonna be on much today.hope you're busy having fun >would be too uncomfortablemight be but you shouldn't worry about it yet maybe if things get more serious you should tell her about those concerns maybe >If it doesn't work out, I'll probably just do a new years party on my ownyep just don't expect too much and let things roll, see where it goes>>83481461>second one inside the first one?yep :D>thanks dw i can find :Doky so are you going to watch anything?>the movie or the things happenifocus the movie not the stuff in your head >wanna get rid of the problemis it something you can get rid of?do you wanna say what it is btw?I just thought you had like intrusive thoughts and overthink things that don't need to so then the best thing to do I think is to distract yourself so you don't think the day away >do you feel like your mind doesn't stop worrying?not me, sorry can't help, I have the other thing of jot thinking enough usually hehe ^^ my brain is just static > is everyone like that?I'm pretty sure most people aren't >maybe if i didn't cancel my appointment with the psychiatrist maybe though at that time you were very stressed so I get why you didn't go But it could be helpful to get an appointment in the future
hey everyone since it is Christmas thought I'd say hi, hope everyone has been well this holiday season. i had a great Christmas so far ^^
>>83482001>so are you going to watch anything?i don't think so, maybe some youtube videos but not a movie, so sleepy rn>not the stuff in your headoh okay i get it, it's kinda hard for me to do that, idk it feels like i can't trick my mind this way>is it something you can get rid of?i hope so>do you wanna say what it is btw?i talked about it few days ago but didn't tell alot, i said it was embarrassing so i just said few thingshere:>>83451122>I think is to distract yourselfyep, but i might just get sick of distracting myself at the end>sorry can't helpit's okay glad you're not suffering of this>I have the other thing of jot thinking enough usuallylol i think that's interesting, i wanna try having a brain like this>maybe though at that time you were very stressed>helpful to get an appointment in the futuremight get one really, who knowsthanks for your answers mate!
i dont have the energy to reply to posts atm..i just wanna wish you all a merry christmas :D
>>83479821Merry Christmas, yuanon. Hope you're doing well today.>>83480102>try to focus on staying cozyYeah. It got a little better. Although I'm a little disoriented after having a snooze.>>83480606>wish you the best and hope you had a nice day if nothing elseThank you, officeanon. You too!>sits reading the news to start rambling about whatever fits his worldviewSounds like mine. The internet really did a number on him.>JRPG's I feel like are hard to take a break from and come back toThat's how I feel as well. I feel bad for it too, especially if I enjoy them. Sometimes life just gets in the way.>I grew up seeing a lot of the "holier than thou" types without a shred of human compassion and honestly why a lot of people get jaded on religion in generalI don't understand how that happens in a religion whose core tenant is forgiveness. But as you say, that's probably the fault of humanity.>>83481251Have a good Christmas, cynic!>>83481461>do you feel like your mind doesn't stop worrying?In my current situation, yes. I feel like there's always something looming over me. But there have been times in my life where I was free of worry.>is this normal? is everyone like that?I think the human mind is prone to worry about stuff, although maybe not to the extent you're experiencing it. In caveman times if you didn't you'd get eaten by a jaguar or something.Oh, and have a good Christmas!>>83482353>>83482450And a merry Christmas to (You) too!
>>83482450merry merry christmas !!!>>83482644merry christmas !! :D
>>83480696> here's the other way aroundVery interesting, but heard some places are like that. Here some people don't even get off work for christmas eve (Me included)>house we mostly get fishI looked at a lot of food people eat at christmas time and fish actually comes up quite a lot surprisingly to me>ot whatever you have thereit's the state laws. Thankful every day I don't have an HOA>but did you at least have some fun ahaha yeah I did, though do kinda suck during that. Just playing more Danganronpa today>>83481251merry christmas cynic! Hope you have a good one>>83481461>way so i have a break lolalso worth celebrating as well! Lol> it's been a while since the last one no?I had off for American Thanksgiving end of November. Basically all December is a holiday to many people but just my work never really gets too slow>e your mind doesn't stop worrying?for the most part, this isn't unusual, it's just how much your worried hold you back. Life is full of one problem after another. Especially older you get. Back in school you worry about grades, then you worry about work and money, and then health. It's not unusual, but if you can't shut it off at all or it feels like you might be worrying too much (difficult to determine I know) that's when you enter the realm of it being an anxiety problem> psychiatrist i could've known what's the problemI think any kind of therapist could tell you if they thing you worry too much or if it's normal. Really hard to say. I think it sounds like you may lean on the side of being too anxious (like anxiety disorder or something maybe which is what I have) but worrying is 100% normal healthy or not>>83482353merry chrisrmas gator! hope you have a good one as well
>>83482450merry christmas meowster! Don't worry about replying, just have a good day and see you later!>>83482644>You too!it's going well. My family tentatively moved their celebrations to Sunday so hopefully no one is sick by then>The internet really did a number on him.Mine just doesn't think critically enough and is easily led to whatever they tell him to think. As American politics gets more divisive and polarized, he's gotten worse and worse as news here gets more comically lazy>Sometimes life just gets in the way.A lot of them it's also the save system come to think of it. Think that's what kills with the persona games. I don't get why some RPG's need to be so unforgiving with when they let you save. It's not like a Resident Evil game where it's part of the mechanics and excitement. Just a pain point>that's probably the fault of humanity.I know a lot of people have bad experiences connected to religion, but I'm for the most part pretty favorable, with the caveat any faith that gets any significant number of followers is going to have a lot of people who try to butcher it horribly
>>83482836merry christmas gator :DI've missed you>>83483344>merry christmas meowster! Don't worry about replying, just have a good day and see you later!Merry Christmas :]And I hope you have a good day too
workin on the map mainly did sounds also some other stuff like adding more snow and bushes https://voca.ro/1fxsg4d07sI4here the inside ambience
and heres the outside :Dhttps://voca.ro/18Kw37D3uEG2
>>83483289>merry chrisrmas gator! hope you have a good one as wellthank you so much and i did <3>>83483353>merry christmas gator :Dthank you meowster :)>I've missed youI've really missed you too <3>>83483804>>83483827that looks soo comfy, would love to sleep there rn lol
>>83482353Hello helloo :>>had a great Christmas so far ^^aww im so glad did ya get any cool gifts?>>83482388>maybe some youtube videos but not a movie, so sleepy rnhope you found something calming to sleep to>kinda hard for me toI know :<>i hope sobest of luck then>just said few things>here:hmm I see >glad you're not suffering of thisyeah >wanna try having a brain like thisheh wanna swapp brains? it's pretty chillbut I'm very forgetful >might get one really, who knowsyep I wonder what one'd say about you>thanks for your answers mate!no probs :3>>83482450it's okay, no worries and thank you!!>>83482644>It got a little betterphwe>little disoriented after having a snooze.it is what it is but I'd say you're pretty better off after that nap ^^ >>83483289>some people don't even get off work for christmas eve (Me included)I think here there were plans to make it a day off work but I think it's not the everyone >looked at a lot of food people eat at christmasand what do u eat?>it's the state lawshm oh yes I remember you telling me about this>ahaha yeah I did, though do kinda suckat least it helped you to spend the evening smiling :>>Danganronpa todayniceI just mapped>>83484222trips!!>looks soo comfythank you :>did you check the vocaroos?>would love to sleep therehehe same ^^I like to pull up the game and have it i the background to hear that sounds when I'm working on it
>>83484529>>83484529>aww im so glad did ya get any cool gifts?yea ^^ got a stuffed animal gorilla :)>did you check the vocaroos?yea ^^ i really loved the radio sound it sounds like a real one and just is calming to listen too, and the outside wind and noise really makes you wanna stay inside >pull up the game and have it i the background to hear that sounds when I'm working on itOoo genius perfect way to relax ^^
goodnight guya>>83484934>got a stuffed animal gorilla :)that's nice ^^si how many plushies do you have?
Happy holidays everyone, hope everyone is having a marry xmas, been on the thread for the past year, checking on it from time to time but never really said hi here for a while, looks like it has a lot of people on and i would love to meet yall! :) >>83421994>How are you doing today?Better than the past few days, and i'm grateful for that.>Any plans for today?Watch monster (the amine) and chill, got nothing going on.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?after almost a year of being clean i got back to cutting this week, last time being yesterday.>Why did you hurt yourself?A lot of things, i have recently moved to a new country away from my family, the isolation made a lot of bad thoughts that i fought so hard to get rid of come back, like i'm losing my mind again.>Is there anything bothering you right now?A lot of financial issues, can't basically afford food but i'll try to fix it. >>83484529hey there cat, how are ya? it's been a hot minute, how's uni treating you? >>83483289officeanon, how are you today? How's Christmas going for you?
