I just walked out on another job, this one I really liked and everyone was nice so I can't even pretend it was anything other than my own mind creating bullshit for me to be upset over. I spent an hour wandering the street, drinking and sobbing like some bitch. Now I'm at home completely wasted, fucking up this box of wine and feeling so fucking sorry for myself. Blaming my parents, blaming society, blaming God. I don't even know what to ask for advice on because it feels like everything is so fucked. It's like I'm depressed because nobody loves me but everyone keeps telling me nobody will love me until I've already fixed all my problems. Well if I could fix my own problems then why the fuck do I need anyone else for jesus fucking Christ
