yeah. i look like that blops guy but fucked. there aren't really any options but the rope or to accept that it isn't for me.

>>83440668
Its really hard for me to not rope. I go through cycles where this shit doesnt bother me, but every now and then I am reminded of how hideous I am and what that means and it hits me like a truck.

I go to the gym, I eat healthy, I groom myself, I wear nice clothes, I went through uni and got a good high paying job, I drive my own car, have my own place, have a lot of money saved

And it all means nothing. I do all of this and put in this much work and effort, just for nothing to come from it because at the end of the day I am still an ugly dysgenic goblin. It feels so soul crushing. I hate the hopelessness of it all. My life still feels empty and meaningless and people still treat me like shit. Society lies, people really dont care about anything other than how you look. I do all of this just to look worse than a literal average person because of genetics. Looksmaxxing is a cope if you are truly ugly, I dont think even surgery could same me. I have zero redeeming qualities, everything about me disgustingly ugly.

>>83440768
that's really the problem, isn't it, how it undermines the meaning of the rest. yeah, i can do this and that and these other things, but ultimately it doesn't change anything and i'll still be the same repulsive person in the same awful and lonely place. i think i could accept the lack of romance, but not the sense of purposelessness. i'd like to turn to religion or some greater cause but i can't manage to believe in it. ultimately, it's all done for the love of other people, and that seems out of my reach.

>>83440828
I guess some of us were just destined to suffer. Thats why free will and religion is bullshit. What a load of shit this life is. I think Ill just blow my savings for a bit then kill myself, honestly. There is nothing left for me in this life besides slaving away to make other people richer. I have a 10 gauge shotgun, it will be nice and quick.

>>83440953
i'm supposed to tell you "don't" but i'm on the same track and i don't have any real arguments against it. i do wish guns were more available over here.