I don't really feel much about anything anymore. I'm not happy, yet i'm not really sad either. I don't really want to do anything, yet i don't really wanna do nothing. It all just feels so pointless. Thought about buying vidya today, but knew i would have to spend money, although money isn't really a problem, i just kinda didn't want to anyways. There's really nothing i want to play, watch, listen to, read or do. I've been to both rome, paris, wien and london and don't really wanna travel anywhere.Everything feels like both a waste of time and pointless. Like i'm wasting time by not doing something productive, but not seeing the point in doing something productive. I'm 20 and supposed to have this fire that makes me want to explore the world and do everything, yet i just feel like a burned out 50 year old waiting for retirement. I'm not actively suicidal, I don't want to die, but i don't really want to live either. I just feel like a broken npc with no code the programmers forgot to delete.
>>83441454i know right>There's really nothing i want to playexpedition 33 looks great, silent hill 2 remake was perfect (for me)
>>83441454I very much relate except i still like watching movies, shows, and yt from time to time, and listen to music all the time. I have no motivation or really desire for anything. I traveled and it felt underwhelming. I don't even feel like spending money on anything, just save up all my neetbux for later. I wish to experience something that'd be really unique and make me very happy at least for a moment. Like a peak in my life. Maybe go somewhere...i don't know. I'm 19.
>>83441694I know there are probably a lot of great games, i just don't want to play any of them. Was really hyped for EU5 until it actually came an i just said "nah, not interested" and done that with everything. Started a playthrough of mario galaxy 2 on dolphin yesterday, it's alright, but it just feels like more entertainment instead of an 'experience' for lack of better words.>>83441718>I wish to experience something that'd be really unique and make me very happy at least for a moment. Like a peak in my life.I just feel like i at least was born on the peak of western, and thus more or less human, civilization and will only experience the downturn. I just don't see how anything will get better, from either side. We're transitioning into techno-capital neo-feudalism at breakneck speeds and i just don't see how anything will become better. I don't think i'll ever even have peak, but not even a crash either; just a steady decline. There won't be any nuclear war, climate catastrophes, virus pandemic or anything else catastrophic and sudden, just a slow rot, just slowly withering away into nothing.
>>83441841I don't think a lot about the world ending and i don't really worry about it. One thing that's always been haunting me is some type of feeling of impending doom/death and since i was like 14 i had the feeling i won't be alive next year. Can't beat this feeling no matter what. I thought i would never live to 18, now i'm gonna be 20 in 2026. It always stopped me from having dreams or plans longer into the future. I don't recall ever having "a thing i wanna do when i grow up" or a job i wanna work. Just existing, trying to entertain myself day by day. I often think about how i was truly "alive" only for maybe...3-5? years, because before that i was just a little kid that didn't see and understand anything. Now is the same but at least i'm not a complete retard and i'm somewhat growing as a person. That's a good feeling and i'm excited to see who i will be in a couple years. What will change, what will i learn, how will i think. Maybe this helps me with the feeling of soon death a bit.
>>83441454>I'm 20>I've been to both rome, paris, wien and londoncry harder you spoiled child, do a flip
>>83442037You're the one crying, jealous POS. Commit suicide.
>>83442037>>83442056>I've been to both rome, paris, wien and londonBut did you enjoy it?
>>83442116Rome>Vienna>Paris>London
>>83442056>>83442127that is not me, i'm op and idk whoever this is. Either way i'd say Vienna>Paris>Rome>London and then Athens as i just now remembered i visited it with my class the last year of high school. I wouldn't really call myself spoiled as both my parents are poor as shit, it's just that i have a great mom that scraped by enough money to visit these places, we were always at the worst cheapest hotels, but i still found it fun. I actually do kinda wanna visit Moscow, Saint petersburg and Volgograd. Am also europoor which also explains why it's much cheaper for us to travel here than it would be if i was american.>>83442013I don't really think about the world ending, not in the apocalyptic way though. More so in that i don't see the point in building a villa or mansion when it's gonna sit in the middle off a swamp filled with 3rd worlders and criminals. I know i'll be hear until my death and the world will far outlive me, but i know also that i don't think the graph will go upwards to say it that way.
>>83442207>I don't really think about the world ending, not in the apocalyptic way though. More so in that i don't see the point in building a villa or mansion when it's gonna sit in the middle off a swamp filled with 3rd worlders and criminals. I know i'll be hear until my death and the world will far outlive me, but i know also that i don't think the graph will go upwards to say it that way.Yeah, i get you. I live in a very rural place, i don't really like it, but i prefer it to a big city. I have no intent on moving out, really, but i would like to live alone in a family house. I daydream about it, feels nice. I would put my pc in a living room where there's sunlight and a lot of space.
>>83442292>i don't really like it, but i prefer it to [insert whatever]Story of my life.Also>i would like to live alone in a family houseseems to be a dying reality for most men, let alone incels.
>>83442332>seems to be a dying reality for most men, let alone incels.I'm praying for inheritance
You've got find a calling. Get a hobby, some way to get out there and make friends, people to care about and them to care about you. I know this because I was like you too. Making friends and doing something that calls to you is the answer to the feeling of pointlessness.
>>83442408I know i sound passive aggressive when i say this, but i've heard that before and tried, i just don't wanna do anything.I tried making friends in uni, but since it's a turbonormie uni nobody wanted to be friends and i'm just seen as a sperg loner; and i don't really want to be their friends anyway for that matter.I think finding meaning in family is definitively something that could maybe do something, but starting a family, let alone just getting a girlfriend, is fucking impossible. I'm norwegian, one of the most turbonormied, hypergamous countries i know of in addition to that the women here are all turbosluts for chad. So either i just have to wait to be a plebbit settlecuck or geomax and i'm just not gonna take anyone non-white.
>>83442508>plebbit settlecuckWhat does that mean?
>>83442532Getting in a relationship with a late 20's slut that's looking for an atm to leech off of since chad doesn't want her anymore.
>>83442546Sounds like a nightmare. I would never.
