>have no money to get real therapist so just talk to free online "therapists" who are basically strangers >tfw none of them understand my obscure, complex, philosophically and politically inclined problems>none of them understand my deep fear of death>none of them understand that i literally can't stop thinking about how horrific death is or how much i fear my friends and family dying>none of them understand the fact that i can't shake this concept of an eternal hell>none of them understand the horror of fearing you'll have to live through the ultimate nightmare, the worst experience possible after you die, regardless of what kind of life you lived>none of them understand why i despise myself for adopting nihilism as my primary philosophical outlook and how much it has ruined my mental health>none of them will ever be able to discover a brilliant new metaphysical model that will debunk my horrid universal concept and break me free from this nightmarish prison >tfw afraid not even a real therapist could help me with thisWhatever you do anons, don't fucking read anything relating to nihilism, or existentialism, or absurdism. Don't read any fucking Nietzsche or Sartre or Camus or Stirner, unless you want your life to be a living hell until the day you die, and then some. I'm not trying to be edgy here, I genuinely don't wish this feeling upon anyone else. What I listed above are just a few of the symptomsmy entire life is a nightmare where i despise living just as much as i despise the concept of dying, where i fear heaven just as much as i fear hell, and even non-existence. somebody please debunk all of nihilism right now please i'm begging you my sanity is crumbling
>>83450479just become an atheist anonsounds like it will fix ya right up XDDDDD
>>83450479You sound like a 14 year old my man. >Ugh >Like >They can't understand my sophisticated nihilism >I stand on the shoulders of giants intellectually >This depression is a rare type that only genius intellectuals such as myself can ever truly understand
>>83450479I've read all those.Have you tried just forgetting about it?
>using "existentialism" to seem fashionably deep and moodysartre spoke about this
[Anon], I'm so sorry you're feeling this way! I see you're struggling with [>have no money to get real therapist so just talk to free online "therapists" who are basically strangers>tfw none of them understand my obscure, complex, philosophically and politically inclined problems>none of them understand my deep fear of death>none of them understand that i literally can't stop thinking about how horrific death is or how much i fear my friends and family dying>none of them understand the fact that i can't shake this concept of an eternal hell>none of them understand the horror of fearing you'll have to live through the ultimate nightmare, the worst experience possible after you die, regardless of what kind of life you lived>none of them understand why i despise myself for adopting nihilism as my primary philosophical outlook and how much it has ruined my mental health>none of them will ever be able to discover a brilliant new metaphysical model that will debunk my horrid universal concept and break me free from this nightmarish prison>tfw afraid not even a real therapist could help me with this].You're not crazy, and you're not alone in feeling this way. What you're describing is valid.
>>83450479Have yoh considered going to heaven?
>>83450479I forgot to mention this also has a nameits calledReligious Trauma Syndromeif you wana google it n wat notI have encountered from the rapture scares
>>83450587I think all of those philosophers would take a very dim view of OP.
>>83450479nihil admirari, anon. keep the premeditatio malorum going and nihil admirari.
>>83450479The dream of reason creates monsters.
if you are less of a pussy and grow up a bit you can just turn this into positive nihilism. nothing matters so make meaning where you can and shape your life as you wish. personally i prefer to make every interaction as positive and mutually beneficial as possible simply because now is all we get. this works better irl, obviously. besides, you get over this or you kill yourself.
>>83452129there a reason you are going full schizo, anon?
>>83450479That pizza looks amazing. I haven't eaten yet and I'm so hungry I'm shaking rn
>>83452034>>83452051>>83452059>>83452066>>83452091>>83452096>>83452231Who are you talking to? I'm confused. Not OP btw
>>83450479>Don't read any fucking Nietzsche or Sartre or Camus or Stirner, unless you want your life to be a living hell until the day you die, and then some.Wilde fixes it, despite being homosexual. How about you tell us what you believe that's so unique and specific?>>83452259Newfag. Hopefully this thread survives. This is just what happens when the global rule for posting ponies gets transgressed.
>>83450479you deserve it nigger
>>83450479check out dr k, healthygamergg on jewtube. the pajeet has some valid points on these kinds of things. unlike jordan peterson he actually makes sense and speak coherently most of his videos lmao.
>>83450479I used to be like this. Look into Advaita Vedanta. It's my absolute conviction after years of autistically obsessing over the same problems that its the truth. I haven't even made a post on this board in years but your post really spoke to me. Yes, your friends and family will die but you will encounter them again in different forms. There is a hell but its not eternal and you need some seriously bad karma to end up there. Maybe you will reject what I am saying but if there's the slim possibility you come to the same position I came to, this is worth sharing. Godspeed.
And now you get to lie in it
>>83452259when did you start posting on 4chan? be honest
>>83453027>social media influencer>social media influencer>social media influencerI'm worried about my fellow zoomers. Is this what the mental health has come to?
>>83450479Therapist here, didn't read all that shit you posted but I diagnosed you with severe mental retardation, no cure, sorry
>>83452034What's worth noting is that despite being able to tell that someone has posted carefuly crafted bait specifically to trigger you, you're dumb enough to swallow it anyway, despite pointing it out
>>83450479Why do you think therapy or being understood would change anything at all? I'll vent sometimes about being suicidal but that's about it, it changes nothing and it's extremely underwhelming
>Nietzschestopped reading there you are a brainlet
>>83450479watch trainspotting and form a new opinion on absurdism and nihilism that benefits you
>>83450568you cut out the suicide hotline
>>83450568IS THAT FUCKING CHATGPT!?
>>83450479get $20 GPT subscriptionthere is your therapist
>>83450479>you should be fucking horses instead, because that's NORMAL!YOU'LL BE DROWNED IN THE FUCKING THAMES BRITISH SCUMhttps://derpibooru.org/270029Also worth noting that OP copied and pasted the entire OP text from this old-ass /r9k/ thread from 2015.https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/23194807>>83455275I would really hate to picture the kind of life you live
Your weak bones would get fucking broken
By a hammer that smashes and crushes them
It will cause them to break down
It really dissolves the bodily structure
You sink into the cold dead ground
You would become food for maggots to feast on
That's what you would end up as
It would be quite the twist of fate
Considering how you kept trying to build yourself up
>>83450479Anon please read The Darkness That Comes Before and the subsequent booksIt'll change your life, also there's wizards and shit in it but basically the background lore is>Wizards prove beyond a doubt that Hell is real and Damnnation is a measurable concept>Unfortunately they also learn that Magic is a Sin and upon death they are all Damned to the same Hell they've discovered>Thus they begin a plan to escape Hell, by any means necessary
You kept claiming yourself to be this legendary hero
That other people in this world would want to be like
And that's obviously what you're aiming towards
To convince people to see you as a better man than your target
You're hoping to become some epic social climber
That everybody would want to revere and idolize
But at the end of it all
You would never amount to jack shit
This is the true reality
That you are going to have to face up to
Your massive ego deluded you from ever seeing it
So it would come to you the hard way
It's a hard fall that you'll suffer from
You would crack and break very easily
Despite wanting to make yourself this bad ass motherfucker
You never even came close to reaching that
And just by going on this little crusade of yours
You have put yourself in the lowest of the low
Where do you even get the gall
>>83450479You need to go on youtube and watch Hyperborean Knowledge, but the tl;dw is that you reincarnate when you die, unless you choose not to.Christian bullshit is bullshit.
>>8345047999% of 'therapists' are not gonna understand all that either, anon. Therapists are not Carl Jung, they're women and normies, and neither think all that hard about anything. The average therapist's day consists of telling successful, functional people that their single minor problem is a single minor problem, not in unravelling people like you.Every therapist I have spoken to, even the good ones, have confirmed that treating most of their patients is utterly braindead and it's generally the same handful of problems over and over.>My husband doesn't listen to me.>My wife nags me the second I get home from my daily 13 hour shift with complaints that I never entertain her and now I need to work weekends too so I can pay for her to see a therapist.>I literally can't stop cheating on my partners>Every relationship I'm in turns into hell but I don't want to hear that maybe I'm the problem.
o convince yourself that you are any higher
Especially since this is what you are resorting to
If you ever died in a car crash tomorrow
>>83450479You come off as a pretentious pseud, anon.
I wouldn't shed a single tear about it
You are digging your own grave
>>83461387>that you reincarnate when you die, unless you choose not to.Victim fuckin Blaming, no way in hell i would have chosen this existence. my selfish parents wanted to have a baby and got me, a failure, and now they're stuck with me living off of them until they die or kick me out into the street.I would have never chosen to be on this planet, and when I die I won't choose another round. And i sure as shit wont have a child and cause someone else to suffer through this.I opt out.I'm offended by the bullshit concept that I'd willingly sign up to subject myself to this crap existence Ive suffered
It will be for the rest of time
It is where you would decay
You get eaten by scavengers
Like maggots and other insects
They feast on the flesh
To the point that they get to the bones
thats' a crazy aftermath holy fuck>next time dont open that pdf
They really eat at you like that
Resembling you in a sense
In that you had no care about who you're going after
Quite frankly, I don't care about you either
Everyone dies. Millions of people died before you. Better find a way to cope because it's happening to you whether you like it or not. Everyone dies alone too.
>>83450479Male depression is nearly always a result of learned helplessness. But health providers treat it like female depression and try to make men feel loved instead of powerful. We need to increase our power and agency above all things.You need to increase your locus of control. Even if ~everything is out of your control (shit parents, shit living environment, never mind politics that no regular person has control over), there are things still WITHIN your control. For example, you can control your body (e.g. by exercising and eating right) and you can control your learning.Get the following two books from libgen.rs: "Learned Optimism" and "The Liberated Mind" and start from there. Also find God - therapy only tells you how (if that) but not why.
What even makes up your existence
>>83450479Anon I have been there and I actually starred down the abyss and seen the light.I have wrestled down nihilism and been victorious.I can tell you all the answers you seek.If what you say is the truth then it is your lucky day, because I am genuinely beyond all the other people qualified to answer this genuinely.But you may not like the answer, because it may seem too strange. The thing is that the solution is obviously only in Christ.Without him both nihilism is true in this world, and eternal hell awaits you once you die.And if you do not love Christ with all your heart and all your soul then you are lost.But of course you can not make yourself love something which you do not love.Only God can make you love him.This is what it means to be born again, that God causes you to love and seek God.Right now you are without love, because you only seek to escape this existence for yourself and for your own sake.And if you look at yourself there is no hope and there never will be any hope.The way you are saved is by looking outside of yourself.If you see the distant light at the horizon And you desire it, and for it you get up and seek it; abandoning all things that are behind, that is the way that leads to salvation.
>>83450479I (147 IQ tested) actually, unironically, genuinely know what happens after death (atheist btw) that I discovered on my own. I wont tell you unless you start sucking my cock now and say please
That you think this is the way to go
And you call yourself a hero just based on this shit alone
>>83450479>>none of them understand my deep fear of deathI have this one. That's why I'm into cryonics, if it's a moonshot.Psychologists are just tards, often it's women, so they for sure will not understand you.
Which has to be really pathetic
You are a fag. Fear of what? You basically die everynight when you go to sleep. You stop existing. You don't think, don't talk. Time moves foward without you. People are having babies, getting into accidents, partying, dancing, screaming all of that happens when you sleep. How is "what happens after we die" any different?Death is scary, but what's scary about not existing?How about all the years you disn't exist? When you were never born? Or in your mother's womb?
>>83450479Listen dude. If you read existialism and you are left with life is inherently devoid of meaning... thats a misinterpretation of their points. Life is absurd yes. Its also asinine. But as>>83452058 says...Because life has no meaning, the meaning is what we choose. My human relationships and my ability to get along with others is where i obtain my value.If you are dead serious about not ever seeing a therapist (you absolutely should btw and making enough money or getting a better job should be your top priority to afford one) you would benefit from a perspective change. You should do a pretty substantial amount of mushrooms or acid in some nature. You would also benefit from water fasting for 4 days or traveling. You need something to smack you upside the head with the real beauty of being alive. I was where you were anon. I just got lucky with finding a therapist. Listen to some terrance mckenna.
Like of all the shit that you do in your life
>>83450479i have read those guys and dont really have those feelings at all desu i think you just have brain damage
>>83450479What sites?dec25 25
>>83450479Ah yes, anon people have figured this out thousands of years ago, it's called "orthodox christianity", if you follow the rules and be a good boy then you won't go to hell. Despair being disguised as realism/truth is a mental illness.
You think is what will carve out your path to glory
