what's keeping you from suicide
>>83451362i don't want to hurt my mommy or my friends, other than that not much
It doesn't solve anything for me but causes pain for many others. What's the point in dying soon. Even if I suffer it is something.I will die regardless. It is not my life to throw away even if it is suffering. For the things I have done, I must atone.
>>83451362money, mostly. and the thought that i'll one day have something to spend it on
My dependents. I am going to be a little screwed when my mother dies and my nieces forget me...
>>83451362I hate so many types of people that I stay alive in hope I can make things worse for them
>>83451362I don't want to have anything in common with a tranny.
>>83451362i can't get drunk if i'm dead
>>83451362The hope that one day, all the people in the world are niggers.
>>83451362>what's keeping you from suicidethe fear of what comes after it
>>83451362the same thing keeping me away from many other things, its always going to be time.time the great destroyer, it will deliver death to my mailbox at one point.
there's still so much i want to do, see, experience, feel.. i don't want to go on without having fulfilled everything i wanna..
I need my food and water and some cigarettes but then it's fine.Honestly, it's fine, just keep the nicotine rolling and the heat rolling. I like my stomach full once in a while too. Suicidal is more of a thing for the people that go through sexual abuse with no justice afterward. Now when you start asking me to live without heat and cigs and do shit where I have to do max abuse sex work then I start to have a problem, okay?
>>83451473This, an eternal void is what I would like but there is something else I'm so fcked
>>83451498>eternal voidone of the things i'm most afraid of is non existence funny enough
>>83451455god i love tsugu
I want to see how One Piece finishes
nothing, just tried to last night with a fuck ton of propanolol and hydroxizine but I woke up. Might try again once I got the energy.
>>83451507I understand after some mementos mori I'm no longer afraid of death but after life is just a s*it for me, I don't want to see people down here asking why that happened and that kind of stuff
>>83451362that the entire united states and basically the world is a confirmed pedophile redditor wannabe nazi cult of literal absolute buckbroken beta faggots losers that never accomplished anything nor were ever loved or even liked despite their immense wealth and power and are destroying the entire fucking planet just because they cant handle that i want to be the little girl and every single day is them fucking raging at my literal existenceI have won morally, scientifically, spiritually, culturally, and am a bastion of freedom and self-expression that these pathetic niggerfaggots will never be as they sit playing path of exile staring into the fucking void unable to grasp the failure of their pathetic existence weeping for the attention of women theyve failed to turn the hearts of.I on the other hand will soon have a husband and we will shower each other with love and compassion that these wretches will never know.
>>83451362Lazinesssssss
>>83451362I have a few good more years of neetdom ahead of me. I'll continue living with my parents and do nothing all day.
nothing at this pointI already accepted my destiny
I'm not suicidal
>>83451362I want to at least try to fix myself and see if I'll be able to live up to my dreams, even though I'm not able to right now. I need to get healthier and more active. Also, because I don't want to miss out on listening to new music, and stuff like that. Even though I do think about it because I feel helpless sometimes and like I'll never get better
>>83451362About $30k to my name that bleeds every time the market goes into the red. In October, I had 1.5 years of savings. Now it's a little less than a year. If I can't find a job/make income then 2026 will be my last year alive.>>83451571>>83451692Also these.
>>83451964You can make an income doing any job. Are you not applying to Fast Food and stuff? A job is a job. If it's hard to find one in your field then it's okay to take one outside of it for a while. The market is retarded right now, doesn't make you a lesser person to work at Taco Bell
>>83451997>Are you not applying to Fast Food and stuff?Funny. Now even fast food places will ask for years of experience in addition to the fact that if you have a good resume, they will deny you knowing you'll fuck off.
>>83452011No they won't they're some of the only places still looking to hire.
>>83451362my mom.after that the jews will finally get my blood and explore my wrinkled brain.so maybe 20 years or so left.
>>83452018Wish I could say otherwise but I've seen HELP WANTED signs for basic wagie jobs, filled out a resume then and there, and nothing has happened. >"Oh yeah! We'll make sure to give you a call!">*Gets ghosted*I've had this shit happen so many times now in 2025 it's unreal. It was never this bad before.
>>83452033Maybe they think you'll leave as soon as you can, which I mean yeah that's the point. My friend was in this situation. He applied for like 2 full years before he got a job. At least you have savings. So it gives you some time. Have you tried applying to places where you need to move? Do you at least have family or friends you can lean on until you get a job?
>>83451362I enjoy my job and have fantasies/dreams of things I could accomplish once I've saved enough money to quit it
>>83452068>Have you tried applying to places where you need to move?Debated it a few times. I live in a state that already has cheap rent prices so anywhere else is only going up. Though I was the next, smaller city over was hiring. It'd be a a decent price cut.>Do you at least have family or friends you can lean on until you get a job?I'm on /r9k/ in a thread about not wanting to KMS. No. I'll even say that I should've done what I originally planned and ought to have cut them off when I graduated high school.>Something something but doc, I AM Pagliacci!
>>83452140I wish the next*
>>83452140What about jobs that are not fast food and outside your field? Next city over might not be so bad. I did that for myself. The commute is annoying, wasting an hour of my day total, but the money offsets this. If I really needed I could find someplace closer probably.
>>83451362another month and a half unless my health gets better somehow
>>83452153>What about jobs that are not fast food and outside your field?I have no idea what I'd even do at this point. I'm more or less burnt out and if I have to go through a mandatory 3 round interview again to not only get denied but ghosted I might crash-out on whoever I am talking to. I understand that's a bit of overexaggerating but this shit breaks you down and I have no idea of what I actually am anymore. I am also hungover AF from several days of binge drinking so not exactly optimistic. Ironically, I am more content KMS while sober than drunk/high.
>>83452208It seems like the best thing to do is just keep applying. I can't really think of anything else. When I'm in situations like this, I like to remind myself junkies somehow find enough to fund their habits. You've made it through every other bad situation you've been in so far.
>>83451571>Malding over random men playing a game >While cope posting on /r9k/ about getting another man to fuck themThis troon is cooked
