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Have you ever been groped/sexually abused/assaulted? What was it like? How did it affect you?
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>>83456355
I was pressured into giving up my ass to this black guy. I can't say I was assaulted, I was of age and technically consented. I don't resent that dude or blame him, but the experience messed me up and I wish I'd had the balls to say no. Because now I can't even get hard unless I'm being taken advantage of by other men
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>>83456355
Yes. It was horrible. I'm a trans man so it feels very feminizing and humiliating.
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>>83456367
Good tboy
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>>83456355
Yes, it just lowered my opinion on women even more.
Same bitches who cry about anything related to men's sexuality have no problem with harassing and molesting you
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>>83456365
Extremely hot. How were you pressured into it though, also how old was he compared to you
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>>83456393
I don't know how old he was, probably early to mid 20s at most. Though it can be hard to tell with black men. I was 18, chubby white boy. It was extremely painful and humiliating, especially when he dropped me off at my grandma's house after he was done. I cried in the bathtub and told her I had the flu. I had to call out of work because I could barely walk. I miss that man every day
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>>83456393
>>83456417
I forgot to answer your other question lol It wasn't serious mind manipulation or anything like that. Just your typical "never take no for an answer" pushiness that black guys are prone to. I was raised by narcissists so I'm a total people pleaser and I was just afraid to say no. I'm still afraid to say no
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>>83456384
Trans men are the most raped demograpic that exists. What makes men rape like that?
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>>83456355
i groped a girls ass on the way out of a club last night while hanging out with some channers, didnt really plan it or care how she felt but i enjoyed it
as for myself ive only ever had men try touching my legs and i swat them away, rarely happens bc ive been told im intimidating lol
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>>83456431
>Women who read yaoi fantasize about rape so much that they make false rape backgrounds
Pooner, we know that you like yaoi fanfics and roleplaying gay sex with another women
Drop that shit
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>>83456467
Are you jelly that poons get raped more than you? It seems so.
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>>83456431
First of all I don't believe your statistic at all, second of all nobody cares about men or trannies. If you rape a woman, you'll only go to prison if you aren't murdered by her father first. If you rape a tranny, nothing happens because they have no fathers. And also they're so emotionally fucked up they'll either internalize the pain and blame themselves or they'll fall in love with you and beg for more
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>>83456474
0 > 0 isn't a logical statement. Go read more Black Butler pon
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>>83456482
Look for yourself, here are some sources:
https://publications.aap.org/pediatrics/article-abstract/143/6/e20182902/76816/School-Restroom-and-Locker-Room-Restrictions-and?redirectedFrom=fulltext

https://www.aihw.gov.au/family-domestic-and-sexual-violence/population-groups/lgbtiqa-people#findings

https://ustranssurvey.org/download-reports/

https://www.thetrevorproject.org/research-briefs/sexual-violence-and-suicide-risk-among-lgbtq-young-people/

https://williamsinstitute.law.ucla.edu/press/ncvs-trans-press-release/
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>>83456505
I'm a terf, nice try
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>>83456531
The amount of terfs that I've read making excuses for pooners has always made me suspicious
Alas, most of you were insufferable tranny enablers before having a peak trans moment as they say in the farms
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Very hot thread. Is it bad that I read these self inserting as the perpetrator? Makes me feel really good and powerful
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>>83456355
A girl I used to be friends with with grab, smack and squeeze my ass and chest. One time she also "accidentally" grabbed my vagina. It was weird. She also used to shove her fingers into my mouth anytime I laughed around here and it happened so often I was scared of laughing around here. Then at church camp we were playing in this pool and this guy was going around trying to dunk everyone in the water and he came up behind me, wrapped his arms around me and squeezed my boobs and tried to pull me under the water, but I got away from him because of how much I was flailing. It pissed me off both times, but I just avoided them and didn't do anything about it
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>>83456552
I'm soft on pooners cause they are cute and harmless. I would date a pathetic, and twinky poon man.
Does it really suprise you that terfs have more issues with men larping as women?
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>>83456600
>terfs have no consistent ideology and are just misandrists
You can just say that.
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>>83456620
Yes, I don't like males? I like female men.
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>>83456600
I was going to tell you what >>83456620 told you but he got first.
You would support all the tranny stuff if it was only pooners, you have no principles
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>>83456355
>Yes
>It was traumatic and fucked me up
>Apart from the trauma itself, she also got pregnant and dumped the kid on me, so it changed my life completely
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>>83456355
My wife was a 16yo virgin until she was raped. Her parents pretty much blew it off. She has a deep seeded cnc kink that we will occasionally act out on. She has yet to use the safe word. She's needs intense aftercare, but always feels better. After we started exploring her kinks, she's so much more sexually active. She also enjoys being touched while asleep
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>>83456355
as a little boy one time i was standing around minding my business and an old man came up and pulled my pants and underwear down and ran away
and when i was 3 my uncle took a picture of me half naked with my penis out, the photo still exists on an old phone
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>>83456760
thats cucky, youre engaging in her fetish born out of her rapist, you will never be him
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>>83456637
>You would support all the tranny stuff if it was only pooners, you have no principles
Poonies ain't creepy or danger to women. What is there to not support? I would think that little girls should be given option to get on t at 10 years old so that they can be more cis passing. I have seen few youngshit poons and they are pretty to me.
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>>83456808
This isn't really the place to be moralfagging but this whole "I'll never be her first" mentality is so retarded. Nobody is anybody's first choice. Everyone wishes they could have someone else. That's why every popular song in the world is about sex and heartbreak.
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>>83457082
They're lying to you, they want to impose their lies to everyone through coercion, they want to mutilate children, they want to promote the mutilation of children to children, they want to censor anyone who doesn't vocally support them, they predate on naive fujos with no real idea of men...
What's not to hate? My friends sister tried to kill herself because of it
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>tfw no broken goods scrambled brains fembot gf
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>>83457135
at least dont engage in the kink another man gave her lol
>man fucks hoe
>bitch orgasms
>acquires fetish from it
>now wants her bf to fuck her in the same way while imagining shes getting raped by the first guy
ultra cucked
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>>83456808
If you say so. I've roughed her up way more than her rapist ever had. She's had bruise and rope marks. She had to wear turtle necks and leggings for about a week and a half. Ill tell you, that feeling of not having to hold back outweighs any negatives
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I was sexually assaulted by a girl a couple of weeks ago.
I have a stalker. A few months back she saw that I used Snufkin as my picture on WhatsApp in the PhD student group chat I'm in, which broke her brain and she started obsessing over me and buying me small gifts. I thought she was just autistic or something and I hadn't made any friends here so I went to the mall with her once when she asked. Then she touched my hair without asking and that really spooked me because I'm a 27 year old virgin. After that I stopped interacting with her.
Two weeks ago I had to proctor an exam with her, and midway through she just approached me and rubbed my lower back. This scared the shit out of me and I can still feel it. About 10 minutes later she snuck up behind me and playfully put my hoodie's hood up. Then she tried to hang out with me after but I ran off.
I've been on edge every time I go to the campus in case she's there.
She keeps inviting me to places but I always refuse because there's a very high chance I'll be raped if I'm alone with her.
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>>83457287
>If you say so. I've roughed her up way more than her rapist ever had.
you only do that because he did it first
she would never want you to do that if she was never raped, in other words she wants you to emulate him, you will be a shadow of his existence

see >>83457203
your woman will always belong to the man who took her soul
he choker her and pounded her virgin body, took her first time and left a permanent mark
https://incels.wiki/w/Just_be_first
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Once I went to a strip club, all by myself.
I was chatting up one of the workers, very cute girl around 22 - 26. Of course, she was just doing her job but she was on my lap and was very intense. At one point she kissed me and said "I don't know what is happening to me, I never kiss customers", which was likely a huge lie.
Still, drunk as fuck, I paid for a private show. Which of course is always kinda supervised and is just lap dances and shit.
So yeah, I was sitting there, drunk and weak. And she pulled out my cock and sat on it.

I am not even sure that counts as being assaulted as I have a good 50% or more blame. Some people might think I'm in denial, idk.
I got tested for std some weeks later and it seems I'm safe.
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>>83457143
I find them sexy and cute. Female men :D
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>>83456355
Sort of. It messed me up for life.
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>>83457389
Chasers have no cure
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i technically raped my ex but she seemed fine with it afterwards
she probably doesn't even think about it
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>>83457597
Expand on how it happened, technically can mean a lot of things
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>>83457613
i'm bad at greentexts but here you go
>be me
>fucking with gf
>she has had enough
>tells me so
>keep going regardless
>she starts truggling and trying to kick me off
>gets me out a few times but i reinsert
>overpower her until she submits
>fuck her until i cum in her
>she is quiet and a bit teary eyed
>cuddle to make her feel better
>she seems perfectly normal later in the evening
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>>83457688
This never happened (originally)
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>>83457711
ok, you can think that if you want
i posted about it when it happened as well
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>>83457688
>truggling
i hate phoneposting, it makes me sound retarded
>>83457711
also we broke up three months later
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>>83457851
Probably had something to do with it and she probably disliked it
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>>83457864
It's more likely he didn't continue raping her and that gave her the ick.
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>>83457894
no, we broke up because she moved abroad and tried to convince me to come with her
>>83457894
she had asked me to rape her before but i didn't think i'd be able to
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>>83456355
no, literally nothing. i must be really fucking unappealing cuz thats basically unheard of for women. once i got followed by some brown guy but that was it
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>>83457939
>no, literally nothing
Could always change that hit me up baby
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>>83457318
just let her rape you bro
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i've had 2 girls in my life tell me they wanted to rape me, but neither actually did. shame desu. they were both mixed black girls btw, funny connection there.
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>>83456355
i dont remember jackshit at all but the first time i got drunk this girl who was 20+ years olden than me took my v card
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>>83458607
But I don't want to raped by her
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>>83458940
then consider raping her yourself
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>>83456355
A girl in one of my classes used to follow me around and grope my dick and chest and I always pushed her away but now I'm an incel so I guess I get what I deserve
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Post more rape stories please.
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>>83456355
My caretaker molested the ever-loving fuck out of me and made a profit off of it before I was old enough to know what was going on. During my teens a guy basically threatened me into giving him dome. Now I hump pillows and usually have anxiety attacks whenever I'm close to cumming.
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>>83459505
How does you life work now is romance off the table or do you still function there?
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>>83459525
After everything that's happened I really don't see myself being compatible with a romantic relationship. I've been cursed with an absurdly high libido but I don't think that's a good enough reason to seek out a partner, especially not when I come with a mountain of freak baggage, quirks and kinks. Maybe if I was still a malleable kid, but as an adult I really don't see it realistically happening.
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>>83459657
Some peeps are fine with it man. What kind of baggage and shit you got? There's all sorts out there, no reason you can't find your person. If it makes you feel better, I've been pretty close to some very messed up girls and I never once thought they were a hassle to deal with. If you're a guy it might be harder to find someone but it's not impossible.
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>>83456355
i had to pick up my pen from the floor in highschool, and reaching down i brushed this gay kids thigh, so under the table he straight up grabbed my dick and made eye contact and fucking licked his lips
didnt end up doing anything with him but i did discover i could get hard to twinks
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>>83457203
Literally anything and everything will be cucked to morons like yourself on the internet. No one cares what sexless losers like yourself have to say about there sex lives lol
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>>83459780
more like low iqs like you dont realize the cuckoldry youre part of, and only real analysis overthinkers like me truly see things for what they are
now fuck off cucky
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>>83459824
>Durr ur low IQ because you don't subscribe to incredibly retarded worldview that I do!!!

Hmmm no, I will continue having sex with women not caring whether I'm their first or the most perfect person ever because I'm not a neurotic ugly freak like you lol!
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>>83459950
lol your gf is masturbating thinking of her rapist hahahahahhahahahahaha
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>>83459958
Don't care hahahahahahahaha
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>>83459981
then stop responding as if youre assblasted about being a cucky
either stop caring or keep seething
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>>83459995
You obviously care a lot about this, I'm shattering your cringe blackpill incel framework in real time and you're SEETHING.

Have sex, now.
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>>83457323
You're drifting way off path in life if that wiki is your source.

I was isolated and depressed for years, but then I discovered a local bar and dancing courses and suddenly had pretty positive experiences with women every week within like 2 months lol. Couldn't quite believe it and it took years for my self-esteem to catch up, but it's really about the environment you're in.

And women (or people in general) rarely remember old relationships fondly. Mostly "my teenage relationship was bad, he pushed me into sex way too much", "I got married to an 18 yo at 14 and left my family over it" etc
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>>83460019
LOL youre not shattering shit retard, your gf literally told you she wants another man and youre just coping
>but muh i dont care that she fucked another man!! i fuck her better even though shes still fantasizing about her first guy
>Have sex, now.
rather stay a virgin than be a cuck like you jfl
>>83460024
blackpill is the truth.
>bro just start dancing theory
cope.
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>>83456355
i have not but i did assault a girl once
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>>83459681
>What kind of baggage and shit you got?
Frequent rape nightmares, monthly psychosis episodes, social inexperience. Sometimes I struggle to eat for days at a time. Other times my arms or legs will spontaneously just spaz out or buckle and go limp, which has given me a handful of times where I've been hurt or broke something while washing the dishes. I don't trust other guys and have trouble communicating with women without feeling uncomfortable. Body hair gives me a creepy crawly feeling, so I have to stay shaved constantly or I end up feeling like an unmedicated schizoid with spiders under his skin. It doesn't help that most of my kinks are either deranged noncon ageplay stuff or 'yell at me until I start to cry and piss myself' faggotry.
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>>83460063
>Erm you're literally coping and you have to see things my way!!

No hahaha... I don't I'm sorry but.... I just don't! You'll always be a virgin because you're fat, ugly and neurotic. Not because of any noble choice lmfao.
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>>83460073
>unmedicated schizoid
You mean schizo. Not the same thing. Can't you do anything right you pathetic faggot?
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>>83460106
lol look how much youre seething
im not fat or ugly and i have had girls interested in me but i rejected them all
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>>83460073
Most of that's pretty normal given your past other than going limp like that, I mean that's still not unexpected but it seems more rare of a thing. Has anything helped you at all? The girls I've known mostly got more stable by being in supportive relationships, but if their partners left or seemed to withdraw they'd get pretty bad so I don't know how good of a solution that is. Do you feel bad after doing those kinks? I don't know how gay or femdom stuff works so I don't know how easy it is to find someone into that stuff, but I don't think it's deranged.
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Yes. It's an awkward memory and makes me want to stay away from anyone.
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>>83460137
Erm no YOU'RE seething and mad, your mind is broken and soul belongs to me. Stay mad virgin.

Also you are fat, you are ugly. Look at you trying to justify yourself to me you little freak, actually embarrassing
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>>83456355
I was 15 he was 30 and sold me weed and we worked together. yes I was mega retarded and definetly have some blame in this situation but we ended up alone and he started making moves. I kind of just went with it at first because it was flattering getting attention. but then things escalated fast and he started getting aggressive acting like an animal and laid on top of me and forced it up my butt. it felt awful like imagine a butthole cramp x10. what made it worse was he was joking that i didnt wipe well enough and there was poop on my butt so that was mortifying. I couldnt go to the bathroom normally after that for a while. other than that it lives in my head as an embarassing memory but i wouldnt say im traumatized by it now
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>>83460160
youre so mindbroken after that comment
i noticed you disappeared after this >>83457323
did you go to jerk off to cuck porn or something lol jeez you really are a sissy gay boy
why are you so mad because i said that your gf fantasizes about another man? its true
she has a cnc kink, because she was raped, thus she masturbated to the cnc kink while imagining getting raped, in other words she was masturbating to the guy who fucked her
what do you want me to say?
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>>83460139
>Has anything helped you at all?
Exercise has helped a little, but for the most part I've just learned to live with all of it. Some of it's gotten better over time, other stuff has just calcified.
>if their partners left or seemed to withdraw they'd get pretty bad
That's definitely a timebomb I'd rather not strap to myself. It doesn't seem like a good idea to become dependent like that when my brain is basically a scrambled egg already.
>Do you feel bad after doing those kinks?
I'm self-aware enough to realize that a few of them are a special kind of fucked up, but post-nut horror isn't really an issue if that's what you mean.
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>>83460268
>Exercise has helped a little
I have a different set of issues, but exercise helps me too. I've found diet to be pretty important as well, cutting out sugar and junk food helps.
>That's definitely a timebomb I'd rather not strap to myself
Yeah it seems dangerous but when it works it works really well. The dependency seems like it should be terrifying though.
>post-nut horror isn't really an issue if that's what you mean
I meant your mental state, like experiencing some of that stuff again could trigger your trauma response or something.
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>>83460296
Speaking of exercise I should've headed out ten minutes ago.
>I've found diet to be pretty important as well
You are what you eat, trite as it sounds. Eating healthy and exercising doesn't fix your problems, but unless you choke to death on an olive or get shot during a jog in the Bronx, it's gonna do some noticeable good.
>I meant your mental state
Not too much. Growing up has helped me to compartmentalize and not take unimportant things too seriously. I've had a few times where physical stuff has incited reactions though.
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>>83460427
Go exercise dude, wasting away on r9k definitely is not helpful.
>compartmentalize
That's what I do too but sometimes it leaks out and I disassociate for weeks. It's frustrating how I can go from pretty ok to completely nonfunctional at the drop of a hat. It does seem to be trending in the right direction, but damn. Hope you get where you want to be anon.
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>>83456355
I've been groped many times.
I have been stalked twice.
A man tried to rape me once.

I was chilling in my room with a guy I had been seeing for a week. I was tired from a day of school and work and just wanted to make out and do some foreplay before bed. He didn't like my refusal and choked me by pinning me to the bed by the neck while trying to tear my panties off. I managed to escape and ran into a broom closet in the dorm hallways and braced myself against the door as he tried to kick it in.

I thought I was going to die sitting in that dark closet as he kept raining blows on it, but after a while he gave up and left. Someone came to the door and told me he was gone, but I didn't want to come out until the cops were there.

The school expelled him because apparently this was the second time this had happened with him. The cops didn't even file a report.
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>>83460268
I wish I could do something to help...
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>>83460073
>yell at me until I start to cry and piss myself
O lawd I'm trying to change, why do you tempt me so?

Most of your symptoms seem pretty normal for severe, untreated PTSD. The key to change is finding what makes you feel safe or comfortable, which can be challenging, and using that to teach your nervous system to come out of fight or flight mode. EMDR might be helpful, but I'd probably recommend CBD over any of the meds they'll want to put you on. The biggest and most important thing you need though, is a genuine friend who can relate to your experiences and who you can discuss them with without judgement. Ideally in person, screens are not healthy. OFC that's hard as hell to find.

>Sometimes I struggle to eat for days at a time.
This one's called alexithymia, and it's probably affecting you more than you realise. Try setting alarms and eating 3 small meals a day, you may be surprised at how much it helps. Even if you're technically getting all the nutrition you need, infrequent meals can cause a lot of stress, and eating actually has a lot of psychological benefits, like acting as a natural painkiller.

>Other times my arms or legs will spontaneously just spaz out or buckle and go limp, which has given me a handful of times where I've been hurt or broke something while washing the dishes.
I still don't know what this one is called, but it will get better as you do. Progress will be slow. Been two years and it still happens to me every now and again, weirdly, also when I'm washing the dishes. Nowadays it mainly happens when there's something else going on that putting me under a lot of stress though.

>Frequent rape nightmares
Will also fade away as you make progress.

>most of my kinks
This also isn't helping. This is both a self-soothing strategy, and a coping mechanism by your subconscious, but realistically what it's doing is constantly re-exposing you to your trauma and keeping it fresh.
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the girl from my previous work touched my private parts. Multiple times. I'm autistic and I thought she's just friendly with me. I suppose she liked me.
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yah sexually assaulted by roommate kinda my fault for wearing undies and a top only but i didnt think anyone liked trannies like that, made it so i hated having skin exposed and only wore long sleeves for a while but i got used to it and realized no one would actually rape a tranny anyway so meh that was my major fear desu
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>>83456355
Got raped when I was 16, F

it sucked, I wasn't screaming or anything but I did also cum, which was probably the worst part, I don't think it affected me much
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>>83456355
fat bitch at a party who I was ignoring the whole time drugged my drink and dragged me to a bathroom. was fucking horrible, was able to eventually push her off me and left the party

now I'm immediately disgusted and repulsed by any fat bitches. I've moved on with it so it doesn't affect me anymore but I just fucking hate them so much. I sometimes want to just punch them in the head whenever they walk past me
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Plenty of times and I still dont really know how to feel about any of it
You kinda just become numb to it at a certain point I guess

Starting from probably 4 or 5 my dad would molest me constantly whenever we were home alone together
Mostly framed as "naked parties" and things like that at the start
Eventually I just leaned into it I guess and it progressed alot to the point where I would have my head in his pants when he was driving and I would usually be under his desk while he watched porn and etc etc
He basically just stopped that completely around when I turned 9 or 10
He was also a massive drug addict and would disappear from home for months or even years at a time only to show back up randomly and destroy things and abuse me and my mom and pets and our house

I was also molested by my uncle who would show me porn and touch me and have my touch him although that never progressed very far

And a teenage neighbor boy who lived by my grandmas house used to try and "trick" me into doing things to him when I was probably like 7 or 8 and he was around 17ish
Mostly things like saying a bee stung his penis and I had to suck the venom out or he would die
I knew what he was doing but I just kinda went along with it
Eventually that turned into him trading letting me play his gamecube or N64 or something like that original Xbox maybe in exchange for giving him blowjobs and stuff
Usually that just resulted in me doing that and him never letting me play but I would still come over just to watch him play this cool snowboarding game and see his snapping turtles
He was kind of the neighborhood bully though and occasionally he would kinda beat me up in front of the other kids in the culdesac and sometimes hed tie me up and do obvious stuff to me but also just mean stupid bully type stuff like making me eat leaves or grass or whatever while being tied up
Eventually my grandma realized I was getting bullied by all the kids and wouldnt let me go play with any of them anymore
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when I was 6 or 7 I had a friend from the before and after school group who was like 13, and he would sometimes show me his parts, and I would show him mine, and he also would touch me until I came, eventually he actually taught me how to do it, I started to love him but then he cut me off and stopped communicating, saying he should have never done anything like that

when I was 13 I basically got raped by a senior but it wasn't traumatic
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>>83462509
Its hard to really explain "what it was like" because there was just so much endless horrible stuff going on in my life as a child but I guess it was nice feeling wanted or seen as valuable or something along those lines
I was also introduced to 4chan at a very young age and came to see myself in the "shota" sort of role as fucked as that is
Maybe it was just cope or maybe its just exposure to whatever stuff having "corrupted" my way of thinking I dont know

As a adult I can obviously recognize that was all wrong and horrible and bad stuff that should never happen to anyone but in the moment its hard to explain how it felt emotionally and whatever else
Very mixed

As far as how it has affected me that is also very hard to explain
I went through a long period of exploiting myself online until I was probably 19 once everything in real life slowed down
And I guess the types of relationships I seek out and the type of people I interact with and ways I interact with them even just in friendships is strongly tainted by those experiences
Also obviously I guess my "preferences" I have thought over in the past and realized they mostly align with "re experiencing" the things I went through in many ways

I am trying to grow from the person I was and the person I am and put all of this past behind me

I am shipping out for the military soon and from there I will write a new chapter to my life
So different it will be a new book even maybe

I have no idea what I will ever do for having a real adult relationship or how to find a partner
I cannot help but frame my current grown adult self against my most "desired" times as a child and young teen and feel hopeless for ever finding love

But I know deep down that the people who did those things to me did not "love" me and never were going to stay with me or anything like that

I mostly just compartmentalize all of this away

Thats about as best as I can explain it all Im not a psychiatrist
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>>83456355
A moid i used to be friends with shoved his fingers and stuff in me
Honestly wasnt as bad as everyone says, i was sad for a day or two but then got over it pretty quick. Sometimes i get worried there is a recording of it out there (he did it on a videocall) and i feel embarrassed about being unable to fight him off of me (even though i am a girl he was exceptionally weak for a male). But yea nothing crazy.
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>>83456355
i was raped but im not fucking telling you about it i dont want stinky men rubbing themselves to my trauma fuck u
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>>83456355
I was raped and I'll tell you everything about it, I want stinky men rubbing themselves to my trauma, I love you
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>mom abandoned us when I was 6, dad started molesting me, this didn't stop until I was 11 and was varying levels of violent
>groomed by a teacher when I was 13, he convinced me that he loved me and we would be together when I was old enough
>he got arrested for having sex with another girl in the same class as me
>honorable mention: dated once and broke up because he got off on purposely triggering rape flashbacks with certain smells, and then having sex while I was dissociating
tfw your only value as a romantic partner is to men who want to cum hearing about how you were abused
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Had a sexual relationship with my high school teacher, nobody found out, technically molestation cause I couldn't consent

bonus because I was class president like that girl from chainsaw man, school captain too
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>>83456355
Starting with the boring stuff first: my mom slapped my ass a few times as a kid and laughed about it. Also my sister who is 16 years older than me was weird about oversharing
Moving on
This doesn't count I don't think but I got unrestricted internet access from a very young age and would always be online to escape from my life. I had already been exposed to weird sex stuff before the age of 12 but then I came across a story about some guy being raped to death by a horse and another guy cummed in his corpse and it did things to my mind. I ended up falling down a rabbithole and was talking to honest to god zoophiles who fucked their dogs. Meanwhile my classmates were weirded out by me oversharing about necrophilia/zoophilia and stuff like the science of what happens if someone dies. I never did anything irl unless you count the phase I had at 14 where I would kill frogs and get off to skinning them and setting them on fire but those people permanently changed me and now I don't think I'm going to ever lose my virginity because it would get weird far too fast. I don't even want relationships of any kind including friendships desu but that's for unrelated reasons
This got somewhat offtopic and I'm going to regret oversharing so bad soon
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>>83456355
>Man sits in front of me on the train, spreads legs and starts caressing his boner
>Middle aged woman on crowded bus pushes her ass against my crotch much more than necessary
Can't say I was really affected. These are the cases where white male privilege is a thing. My gf got much MUCH worse on public transportation. Had a dude cum on her clothes, another stick a hand in her panties and grope her. These are just the worst ones. People nearby didn't do shit.
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>>83456355
Who hasn't at least one point in their lives honestly.
Preyed on by adults online, people at school, one of the guys in my friend group loved to grope me, I hate him more for how annoying and pretentious he is. You know that one guy that tries too hard to be edgy and cool and the life of the party? Thats him, never brushed his teeth either.
I'm male by the way.
Why, just fucking why?
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>>83462782
Maybe try moving out of NYC or whatever hellhole full of mentally ill people you live at?
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>>83456365
>now I can't even get hard unless I'm being taken advantage of by other men
>Now
Babe you were always going to turn out like that as a typical bottom
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>>83460444
Nice trips.
>>83461849
Thank You.
>>83462214
>alexithymia
Didn't know there was a name for it. Thanks for the advice, I'll keep it in mind.
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>>83463181
Heh, my first experience happened in northern Italy where I live. The second in Prevessin, near Geneva.
My gf's bad experiences mostly happened on her commute between the smallish mountain town she's from and the closest big-ish city we have here.
Public transportation is fucked, period. We just stopped using it (by not living in a big city shithole and this being able to exclusively go around by car).



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