how were you robots at school? did you have any goal to get qualified to something huge educationally like med school?if so, how did you deal with mental problems while knowing that you have to study so hard to get into the university major you seek?
>>83460535>how were you robots at school I wanted to be president when I was a kid but on top of being one of the least popular guys in my school my grades would fluxuate I was a a b student and in advance English for 2 years before getting kicked out and was a c to f from then on barring a few years
>>83460535I'm happy I didn't go to med school because as an introvert everyone hates me. I've quit 3 jobs because of this. I can't imagine wasting years of college to get a job only to quit it.
>>83460535I drifted through school doing the bare minimum effortThen I went to university and did the sameNow I go to work and do the samelol
>>83460535>Got high grades throughout most of school without trying. Never did homework, barely even listened in class, never took notes, just doodled in my notebook and got A's, nothing was ever hard.>There was discussion about putting me up a year but the autism was already showing with all my social difficulties so they decided not to to keep me around kids my own age.>No goal, just wanted to be happy, at least until I got older, then I just wanted to be left alone. Got expelled twice, one for finally slamming a dude's head into a tree, one for bringing a knife to school (I'd been doing it for months before they found out)>Grades suffered in year 11/12 mainly because I was just so depressed I stopped giving a shit and just scribbled whatever to get out of the exam room as fast as I could.>Got into uni anyway.>Great grades first year of uni.>Dropped out of uni second year because I fucked up some social interaction through a misunderstanding, turned half my class against me, and couldn't bear to go back.>Couldn't cope with life, terrified of people after years of bullying, just withdrew, lived in crack houses, and did drugs to escape reality for a decade.>Now so desensitised to violence after all the bullying + all the crackhouse dealer drama that the only people who really get me were either brutally raped as children or discharged from the military.
>>83460535wanted to partake as little as humanly possible in anything that had anything to do with school.
I was bullied by students and teachers, and my dad would beat the shit out of me everyday
>>83460535>did extremely well academically in elementary and middle school, everybody praised my intelligence 24/7>had a few friends during that time>until 7th grade where my mind shat the bed and i blew up my group>social aspect only ever got worse from that point>enter an neverending loop of getting close to people and then nuking relationships, had the cops called on me over it once>high school, my motivation for schoolwork drops>also had an incident where i planned to attack my classmate with a knife because i thought everybody around me were demons (long story)>end up just running off campus instead and being followed by staff and a cop then a meeting a few days later>motivation to do well in school drops even harder and my repeated social failures leads me to hate showing up to school or being around others in general>eventually have attendance become so shit i needed to either drop out or transfer to an alternative school otherwise my parents get raped by truancy laws>transfer>work is so ridiculously easy that i'm pretty sure a 12 year old could pass>still do jackshit because i want to kill myself>somehow graduate>now i can't leave my home or have more than 2 conversations with someone in a row and hopes of college or any kind of future are basically dead>kek
>>83462526Also sometime after I transferred to that school a teacher was especially nice to me and my ASL interpreter (I was also born deaf KEKKK) who had been with me since I was 9 straight up told me that I should take it because 'life has taken a lot from you'
was really athletic and talented at art as well but i threw those things away to waste time having a hard cock over girls.the problem with girls back then is that i always and i mean always found a way to get really close to my crushes, it was fucking surreal and it lasted all the way into highschool.
>>83461769Can I ask what that social interaction was?
>>83460535I barely passed high schoolWent to 9 different schools, including 3 Christian private schools and to this day I believe they held me back academically, forcing me to be 'recycled' with other classes because the schools weren't compatible with each other. Flunked out of community college twice and ended up in trade school, where I barely passed the academic side of things. American schools need reforms
>>83461131>kicked outwhat happened anon?>>83461465i think you could improve your social skills while getting ready to get into a job, but idk if you're considering this>>83461638lol do you enjoy this tho?
>>83461769that's really some crazy things you went throughhow do you live now? i suppose you left crackhouses>>83462319what would you think about things like future job back then? not sure how things work in most parts of the world, is it easy to get a job? did you even want to get one actually?>>83462334i hope you're doing better now
>>83462771>>kicked outI was kicked from the class and put in the regular one next semester but I was expelled from school later
>>83462526>i thought everybody around me were demons (long story)spill THIS tea too anon>can't leave my home and have 2 conversations with someone in a rowthat really sucks, i hope it gets better>>83462544that's a nice teacher you had really>>83462547what happened in highschool>>83462637woah that's a lot, they really need reforms if that's the case a lot of timeswhat do you do ahout education right now?
>>83460535Hated school, hated most of my peers and just did the bare minimum to pass and mostly just played vidya. Didn't know what I wanted to be until last yr of HS when I realized I should do something with computers/electronics because I'm good with tech and hate people. But I never wanted a job and only have one now to build wealth and retire asap. Ended up an electrical engineer in an office, so, pretty good.Getting into college in my country is based on your marks in the final exams after HS (sort of like a GED/GCSE). Marks during HS don't mean shit. This is how I was able to take it easy during HS, then study hard for 3 weeks to get decent marks (~80%) in the finals and earn a spot in electrical engineering.
>>83462824>spill THIS tea too anonSure here you go. So that one was during my freshman year of high school but since I was in 6th grade I had these thoughts that there was something wrong with the existence of this world. The exact details changed over the years but the general theme was: this world was false in some way, I had been taken from the real world somehow, my memories were altered and people around me were untrustworthy. The version I had during that incident was that since the circumstances of me surviving my suicide attempt a few months prior was so strange it must've meant I actually died and my memories were altered so that I would think I survived when in reality I was in hell. A few people around me were dead humans like me who had been fooled as well but the majority were demons keeping up the illusion. I thought my classmate was one of those demons but honestly I think I just wanted to act out too since there's no way a world as planned as that would let me go after one stabbing. Then the rest goes like I described. Also I went off my antipsychotics a few days prior because I started getting paranoid kek. This general world conspiracy belief has come and gone over the years and right now I'm pretty sure there's a truth to it but I won't ramble too long unprompted. What I'll say is that 'escaping' is literally pointless so instead I'll just continue living the same regardless of whenever I'm a schizo or right>that really sucks, i hope it gets betterThank you>that's a nice teacher you had reallyThe teacher and interpreter are separate people but they both were great. That school was tiny so they could spoil every student and I'd get gifts like food and LEGO sets from staff. That format should be way more common honestly
>>83462840interesting, are exams difficult in your country?
>>83462953Yes, about 30-40% don't pass the finals and that was around 50% the year I passed. Uni exams are difficult as well and you can't just slack and expect to pass. I had a lot of trouble with math but did well at everything electronics-related so my marks shot up in later years as subjects became more focused on electronics. Even got scholarship money for the last 2 semesters as I was 3rd in my year overall after barely passing math in my first year. I have a high IQ but I lack motivation, which is why I'm either shit at something because I don't want to do it, or very good at it, because I like doing it. I know my IQ score is high because my parents got me tested thinking I'm dumb after failing math in college several times. I was simply not studying and playing vidya / drinking instead.
>>83460535enthusiasm for math was killed early on when i was told there is no such thing as negative numbers and got weeks of detention for arguing otherwisecoasted on c's after learning the hard way there's no point in trying or doing anything other than the bare minimumabsolutely garbage at any written task, enough that i was put in special needs for a few months before figuring out i was only mostly retardedthought about dropping out, decided not to based upon liestried to kill a few people and myself, was arrested after that but the two cops who did were cool and had a fun time with them, even got to drive the police car for a bitgoals fluctuated between loon living in the woods and quintuple phd emperor of earthvery unpopular, silver lining, always had a table to myselfflip flopped between subjects in hs, spent 80% of the day playing vidya and most nights too, still managed to scrape byi've also apparently been moderately depressed since i was 7
>>83460535I was near the top of the class because I gave a shit. Made me a shitton of enemies in middle and high school, but I got to escape our home town while they turned it from a "nice area" to an utter shithole.
I was a C and D student at best. Not because I was retarded but because I was lazy and thought I didn't need college. Now I'm regretting coasting through highschool and wish I tried harder, maybe I could've got an academic scholarship lelOh well. Community college exists for a reason. It's for idiots like me to have a "last chance" at education.
