I'm not ready for a relationship irl. I just don't know what it would be like to not be alone. I would probably act childish and cringe, because my social skills are underdeveloped. I want a relationship. I want a gf. I want to work to make her happy. But I truly just don't know what it's like to be that close to anyone, or spend time with someone in person. Growing up as an only child, I really just spent most of my time alone in my room. It's an aspect of life I know absolutely nothing about. And it's probably why I get extremely nervous and uncomfortable whenever I'm around other people. Ugh, I have no idea how to solve this. I have to "grow up" and get my shit together, which is fine. But if I manage to somehow do it, and remain alone, then I will just kill myself. As there is no point. I feel so alone. Like I'm at the bottom of an ocean of darkness, crushed by the pressure of the water, unable to move or even see anything around me. If I could just close my eyes and die... if only I could.
>>83462152What is your age OhPee?
>>8346218024. Why do you ask? Origioioi
>>83462195lol yeah i thought so. It's always people around your age making these types of posts. It's normal. Many of us are 10+ years older than you and in way worse shape. You still have a ton of time to solve your problems you think you have. No sense to talking that "ima kill myself" bullshit. Jesus fuck what I'd give to be your age again. I'm 32 and I fully understand what you mean by not knowing how to act and how you might be cringe in a relationship but in reality everyone is cringe, especially at your age. Girls don't stop being stupid and cringe just because they've had a few boyfriends. I still talk to girls much older than you and they act exactly the same they always have. I wouldn't worry about it.
>>83462152I kinda feel you desu. For a while a gf was off the table because of family issues, but as I am suddenly at a point where I could have a gf the thought is kinda terrifying. I have no idea how to be in a relationship, and the thought of ever getting really close with someone, especially a woman is especially scary. I've grown so used to being alone that I don't really know how to be any other way.
>>83462251You say I have time. But you were once in my position and still ended up the way you are. Time by itself doesn't matter. Waiting doesn't do anything. And if you're saying that it can get "much worse" then killing myself by then will still be my desire.
that is life without the purpose religion brings hopelessly insecure and in despair
>>83462152i thougjt i could make myself ready but i was wrong, now i feel horrible, i cant break up with her bc i told her i love her and i want to marry her and she gave me her virginity and she will kill herself if i break up with her and its my fault
