I'm almost 30 and I'm going through the same mental loops that I was doing in high school. I have no way to move forward, I'm embarrassed by my own existence. I can't believe I gave up my dreams because a few people were mean to me. Just to rot away in my room alone.
i have nothing to add but i agree with everything you said and sorry about that
>>83462312You don't have to add anything it's just a shitty vent post. Appreciate the reply.
>>83462303What mental loops are they
>>83462339That I'm not a human being and I'm not worthy of happiness. Ever since I was a kid I'd imagine myself as this black sludge wearing human skin. Just a lot of dehumanizing thoughts, and when I feel like a person I convince myself it's too late to do anything meaningful.
>>83462303At least you didn't follow your dreams then have them ripped away by AI.
>>83462303I did the exact same OP. Squandered everything because I hated myself. Now I'm too old and missed out on too much to ever fix it, and I'm no longer young enough to be given the benefit of the doubt. I don't know why I bother going on.
The loops never end. 35 still the same. I genuinely cant picture a future lol my present right now should be my "future". maybe I'll change at 40 45 or 50.
>>83462303nigger i feel you
