I keep getting mad at my mom. She makes some small dumb mistake and it upsets me a little, but the anger keeps brewing in me for some reason and it gets larger and larger until I get super fucking pissed. Then Im really sad afterwards I regret it. I know God is testing me through this anger and one day when I will finally manage without letting it all out I will be rewarded. But until I can do it Im not ready.
>>83463850I also forgot to mention I need to screem like a fucking autist when I get pissed. I was so close to winning today. But then she made a fucking mistake and it all started again. I recognize this anger is a test but I cant do it.
I cant tell if you're planning to off your mother or notbut dontjust dont
>>83463861no trust me I dont. I am however scared I might attack her when Im angry. Im a retarded asshole. Im not a man unless I can stay cool. If I cant controly my own body, I cant control whats around me. And if I cant control the world, I am not a man. Im not even upset about failing the test and not getting rewarded anymore. This is 100% what I deserve. I do regret making my mom miserable yet again. Shes doing so much already and I only ever make it worse. Never better. I will put my head down, do what I should, and collect whatever fruits my garden will produce.
>>83463895you're a 20+ year old manchild sperging out on your mom, why are you writing like you're some 15th century english cunt about to go into battle?
>>83463942im 19 and Im retarded
