December 2024>wife complains of a headache after returning from her Christmas Vacation with her motherJanuary 2025>wife has been unable to sleep due to an increasingly serious headache, eventually wakes up screaming as a result of the pain, take her to the ER to discover a mass in her sinus cavity behind her eyeFebruary-March>series of appointments that result in an endoscopy into the sinus cavity, discover it's a tumor, the mass has completely overtaken the left side of her face and she is blind in her left eye, ceases workMarch-May>series of appointments to re-enter the sinus and gather as much of the tissue as possible, confirm it's a highly rare, highly aggressive form of cancer known as mucosal melanoma, cannot surgically remove it due to the size & impact against her brain May-July>series of appointments to prepare her for 3 types of treatment: radiation therapy, chemotherapy, and something known as "TIL" therapyJuly-October>wife undergoes radiation therapy, chemotherapy, and TIL therapy, enters an aggressive fight for her life that she nearly loses twice but breaks through the other end both timesOctober-now>wife has been on post-radiation post-chemo medication since Halloween, spends up to 20 hours each day sleeping, very limited movement and mobilityI don't know why I'm making this thread. I know most of you don't care. Last January I lost my mother and to see my wife positioned in such a similar way on our couch as my mother was on her death bed has just reduced my spirit immensely. I've told nearly no one about this, I get filled with such nerves talking about it. Everyone in my life is /aware/ that my wife has some form of rare cancer, but even manifesting my thoughts feels like I'm signaling to the Universe I'm aware of the outcome. I just want my wife to be healthy for Christmas. Please, God.
That's a crazy story, but no one asked, normie.
>>83467227>my wifeY THE FUUUCK R U HHEEEERRRREEEE
This is very sad anon, I hope she makes it.
>>83467227heyyy twin sorry ur life sucks rn but ur wife didnt die!!!!! so thats pretty great
>>83467260I know. She's on the couch asleep and I'm stuck in the house with my thoughts. I wrote them here.>>83467272I've been coming to this board post-revival (are people even aware /r9k/ was deleted?)/late 2011/2012 when I was in middle school. I basically lived on this board/anytime I came to a major life decision I'd make threads about it & harnessed the collective wisdom to make the right choice each time. I still come here pretty much daily. >>83467287Thank you.>>83467288I don't care how emotionally vulnerable this thread topic is, I will never allow safequarter for tripfags, begone bored attentionwhore.
>>83467227If you're not making this story up, I really hope that she gets better. Merry Christmas robot
I care. I hope they can save her. I'll pray for your wife along with you. Good luck anon.
>>83467314Merry Christmas.>>83467322Thank you.
mine got thyroid cancer. Paid insurance and had it removed all good.It was tough enough and thyroid is a nothing burger. I can imagine it OPstay strong for you both. Its your duty.
March 5>The cancer is furious but my wife is resilient>We have all the faith we'll get through this no matter what the end>Treatments are violent but she keeps on smiling>It's amazing finding joy in the little thingsApril 12>Her appetites improved and we thank God every day>But still it's hard sometimes to see her in that scarecrow frameJuly 9>There's a suffering when I look in her eyes>She's been through so much>We've all been through so much but what incredible resolve our waifu shows>only 37, standing face to face with death>She said it's easy to find people who have suffered worse than her>"Like Jesus, suffered worse than anyone," she told me last night, "when God abandoned him"Sept 20>We've been playing in bed lately and spirits are high>Although her blood counts aren'tOct 14>She feels tired all the timeNov 30>At the hospital again>Feels like home when we're hereDec 8>She's getting worseJan 19>Buried my wife today, my lovely wife>And while her death was ugly we must let it scare us from God>Abundant grace has restored her>A brand new body>Set her free from the torture>Finally rid of the cancer>Before the moment she left she briefly wrested from death>Suddenly opened her eyes said>I see everything, I see everythingsorry op good luck to you both
>>83467333That's the plan. I did allow myself to fall into a funk in November as she's entered this new period of post-chemotherapy recovery/mostly sleeping, but I've been feeling pretty unstuck today. It wasn't until I came back downstairs and the visual between her on the couch was 1:1 with the last time I saw my mother "alive" (asleep on life support) really put a damper on my mood so I came here to vent.Thank you for the kind words, I'm glad your wife pulled through.>>83467339My condolences. Thank you sincerely.
>>83467358>My condolencesit's a song i don't have a wife
>>83467227oh god... i can't even imagine how terrible that must bei'm so sorry anon, you're both so strong and brave to be holding on like that, i'll just say thati'll put all my hopes out for her and pray she'll stick with you through christmas and new year's eve as wellmake sure you make some great memories with her, make every single day count, if you haven't alreadypour all your love into this, love as intensely as you can, forget everything else, worry about those when they comestay safe, my dudei wish a merry christmas and happy new year to both of you
>>83467227damn brutal read, did she have other symptoms prior at all?
>>83467373 I'm an autistic manchild whose only music exposure is anime & video game OSTs so there was never any hope I'd catch it, still I'm listening now and it's the thought that counts
>>83467385Do you need a unique identity in every thread you're in?>>83467396No, which I find haunting. It was just the headache & pressure build up in the sinus cavity. It can happen to anyone at any time. We were 27, we just turned 28 this month.
>>83467415no, that's a reminder for myselfand it also acts as a deterrent against diving into this place too deeply, as tripfags are (often times rightfully) hated, so i won't get as much interactionbut really, i just wanted to reach out and wish you two well, that's allagain, pour your all into this, stay with her, near her, even if she's asleepcherish her company, my dear anonthe pain will hit you, don't let regret butt in too
>>83467453Imagine attention whoring in the thread of some poor guy whose wife has cancer. You are the lowest of the low.
>>83467453If it makes you feel better man.
imagine having such a small cock ur filtering for tripanons in ur dying wifes thread LOL kys cuck
>>83467396in my experience this sort of shit just comes out of nowhere. I went to the optometrist this June because I suddenly had trouble reading. She found I was blind in the bottom right quadrant of both eyes so I got sent to the ER. They found a tumor in my brain along with an egg-sized cyst. The neurosurgeon's theory was that that egg-sized cyst was causing pressure on one of my nerves that relays visual information for processing and that's where the blindness came from. I got surgery within two weeks to drain the cyst and do a biopsy on the tumor, and my reading was restored. I got a super bad depersonalization/derealization episode following the surgery that still lingers but has gotten better with time. I got the result of the biopsy in August and it's benign and I've seen no indication of things getting worse. I supposedly have had this tumor since I was 5 years old or so. I'm supposed to get surgery next year to get it removed because even if it's not life threatening, it is making me go blind because it secretes liquid. The tumor is in my language processing area and I'm kind of afraid that what I say is incomprehensible, because that's how it works when people develop aphasia. What they say makes sense to them but it's nonsensical babble to others. But realistically I just got through a semester in university with good grades so I think it's a mental thing, where I'm just afraid but I'm not getting any concrete evidence that I live in my own world now.>>83467415Turned 28 this month too. Cheers and best of luck to you both. I don't think I need to tell you, but please stick wit her through it all. I had it much milder and it was still the hardest and scariest thing I've experienced, and probably ever will. I hope God will help you through this the same way He helped me. I really, really want your wife to get better.
>>83467506I don't think anyone's filtering you? I just hate tripfags.>>83467516Thank you homie, and likewise. Your tale was quite the scare as well, glad it's benign and you're receiving treatment for it though.
>>83467415Wow you two are so young. It's so hard to be strong in the midst of a tragedy. I don't like to post too much about my life online, but cancer affected my family immensely. I really wish we had attended grief counseling. I attended group counseling weekend retreat for another tragic experience in my life and I found it helpful. Something to consider.
>>83467569I appreciate it. I have my own proclivities around being genuine/authentic so therapy has really not worked for me in the past, I view 4chan as my main outlet for this sort of thing and I've at most made three threads about this topic total including this one. I will strongly consider it.
>>83467465anon, you're the one making this about meplease don't, just ignore my trip>>83467481ayebut my message still stands, cherish her as best you can, won't you?give her a hug when she wakes up, tell her you love hersmall acts like these go a long way, as i'm sure you already knowstay safe, againi've put in a prayer for her good health
>>83467227fukken hell buddy, i had cancer tail end of last year and beginning of this year, testicular spread to the lymph nodes, just 4.5 months of pretty decent strong chemo. and people say wow so brave and attitude so good :DD. i saw the other people in the cancer ward when i was there 5 days a week 8 hrs a day getting that shit pumped into me. i ain't shit. had a 5 percent or so chance of dying. that ain't nothing. i understand a very little bit, but more than most, of what your wife's gone through and is going through. can't give you no practical advice. will give a petitionary prayer on both your behalfs. with whatever my well wishes are worth. if i may ask, has the remission been total? that is, chemo and radiation so effective the tumor(s) are eradicated? or is the road even longer?
>>83467652The addition of the tripfag renders any goodwill you mean to share with me moot. It just becomes posturing. I'm sorry if no one has ever told you this before but your words mean I nothing to me. I don't know if you're just some teenager or person in their early adulthood still figuring life out but you are a genuine embarrassment with a profound lack of self awareness. If you are lucky enough to have either one of your parents, call all that remain and apologize for how you turned out.>>834676574 and a half months of regular chemotherapy is nothing to sneeze at, I'm glad you came out the other end. Thank you for the prayer.
>>83467561GET REAL BITCH FOR UR WIFES SAKE LMFAO NOBODY GIVES A SHIT ABOUT UR EPIC I HATE TRIPANONS POSTURING I CANT TAKE UR THREAD SERIOUS CAUSE U HAVE THE MATURITY LEVEL OF A MIDDLE SCHOOLER USING GROK TO MAKEUP CANCER TERMS
>>83467227>My Wife's Cancershe took the shot didn't she
>>83467227I wouldn't wish that on anyone. Sorry fren. The universe can be so randomly brutal.
>>83467688similarly, any insults you want to throw at me are simply lost, so we got something in common at leastwhich is a shame really, if my trip means more to you than my attitude then what else can i say, loli'll leave you to your thread, my dudei wish the both of you all the best, sincerely, even if it's all pointless to youmerry (early) christmas
>>83467738No, she didn't>>83467753Thank you. Yeah it's certainly given me a lot to think about in regards to our time here/place in the Universe>>83467732I don't think you want namefagging and faceposting in the same thread as you're writing this kind of stuff, you should follow the steps outlined in the FAQ on how to delete posts. You'll thank me when you're older.
>>83467785I didn't read your post at all, I just want you to know that continuing to write here after being so thoroughly unwelcome is a reflection of yourself. Please go.
Sending my prayers anon. Stay strong
>>83467227Damn I'm so sorry to hear that op. I really do hope things get better.
>>83467227>I've told nearly no one about this, I get filled with such nerves talking about it. Everyone in my life is /aware/ that my wife has some form of rare cancer, but even manifesting my thoughts feels like I'm signaling to the Universe I'm aware of the outcome.Protip: Get a therapist, and then don't tell them anything. Keep your mouth shut, don't say a word, keep them in the dark. Saying nothing will keep the universe unchanged.So why do this? Just having the option of saying something to someone will feel better than not having the option. And if you change your mind and realize that you really do need someone to talk with, then they'll be there for you.Best of luck, Anon.
>>83467227This hurt to read. I've never had to experience real loss yet, the idea of watching someone I love suffer like that is maddening. My heart goes out to you anon, I hope your wife recovers.
>>83467227>picrelI used to follow that guy. His drawings were so funny and cute. Too bad he fell for the NFT scam.
>>83467804Thank you for the prayers.>>83467806Thank you.>>83467898What would we will the appointments with otherwise?>>83467934I appreciate your deep empathy, thank you.>>83467946He's still at it, he actually has an interesting process involving drawing only by hand on postcards.
>>83467688For fuck's sake, I hate tripfags too but what the hell is this? Someone offers you condolences on some tragic event you described (and really, we have no way of knowing if this is real or just some warped attention-whoring on your part) and the only thing you can think of is to roast them for being a tripfag? Seriously calls your credibility into question. Assuming your misery-lit is even true, what were you hoping to get by posting it here? If you're a regular user of this board you know exactly what responses you'll get.>Get off my board normie! The response from sad-sacks who think this board is exclusively for virgin butthurt dwellers such as themselves. Usually the first post in any thread where OP mentions problems involving an ex-girlfriend.>I hope your wife gets better and similar trite platitudes, written by people who either didn't read or couldn't comprehend that in the scenario you described your wife is in her final days. So there you go, you already got both those responses in the first few posts. Now log off and spend some time with your wife in her dying hours instead of getting into a pointless flamewar with strangers on the internet. Spend time with your parents or siblings, or your wife's family. Join a support group of people who are going through the same things you've had to go through. They're more likely to understand how you feel than a board full of shitposters.
>>83468007This is the only place I care to be really. I apologize if my autism rubbed you the wrong way, I appreciate the depth and sincerity of your message. I just find that the quiet, religious types in this place offer the most genuine prayers.
>>83467793>>83467793id post my dick too if I wasnt loyal to tight twenty yo NOT DYING cunt hahahahah
>>83467991>What would we will the appointments with otherwise?Your own life. Your own life doesn't stop moving forward with its own issues just because you're busy dealing with her issues. No matter how bad things are with her, you matter too.
does she shave? does she do anal? does she swallow cum and piss? how often do u fuck? do u still fuck her while she's sick and sleeping? how quick does she cum?
>>83467311>Gatekeeping and dabbing on the gay tripmonkey instead of feeding it like 99% of normalfags doYou're alright, OP. I wish you and your wife well in these times.
>>83467272This guy seems miserable enough that I will allow it. Women generally deserve worse than this, but I feel for him for having to deal with her derelict ass.>>83467227If I got brain cancer a year ago I would have just died alone on the floor with no treatment because I don't have somebody to just take care of me even if I become worthless spontaneously one day.
>>83467227this sounds like a nightmare. My condolences, anon - I don't know what I'd do if something like that happened to my wife.
>>83468007If you are pissed and hate life, you come on 4chan to hurl abuse at strangers and feel a little better. Tripfags are the most deserving victims at essentially all times, however, they don't care what kind of (you)s they get and best practice is to just ignore them entirely
>>83468132If I had a terminally ill wife I have zero doubt I would be on pic related mode
