I don't want to celebrate christmas with my family tomorrow. I don't want to see anyone. Last time I skipped on a family holiday however, it made my mother cry. I am just bitter.
>>83468129I'm tired of it all. We just had Thanksgiving why do we need Christmas so soon and New Year's not long after? It's too much. Too many people. Too much talking. What ever happened to a quiet evening alone? If I could live in a dark hole and never seen anyone ever again I would. I do not want to participate in anything.
>>83468129Same I don't want to see them I just feel I have to go but I don't want to. I have ignored my family for months by now, I just hate life, everything just fucks me over. Being an incel in your late 20s just destroys all joy of being alive and the fact that the only girl who ever loved me dumped me brutaly. Trying to be with women romantically is just something extremely painful.
I have to spend christmas with them, my mother might not have much life left, I'm trying to spend as much as possible with her before she passes away.
I got you covered, faggot.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZYE7UJSA7k0
I forgot it was ChristmasAnother Christmas season wasted award
>>83468233>33>dubsI have a grandmother who is in her 80s. We don't know how much more time we have with her. I feel obliged to go. I myself am just bitter and angry at the world and don't want to be around people like this.>>83468146>Trying to be with women romantically is just something extremely painful.Yeah.... That might partially explain my bitterness. Most women I feel like aren't worth the effort much anymore. It's not like I'm not willing to try. But with how many times I've been hit with the "I'd rather be friends" line just makes me feel as though all the effort really wasn't worth it. The more effort I put in the less respect I feel as though I am given. Combine that with the fact that women generally have 4-5 dudes hitting them up at all hours, it really makes me wonder why should I bother? I put in effort, a woman wouldn't care. If I don't put in effort, then I have no right to complain. When a woman shows interest in me I get reflexively defensive. Every time I've been shown interest it is usually for some other agenda and not for me.
This is the first christmas I'm going to spend properly alone. Every year of my life I either spent it with parents, grandparents or friends. It's a strange feeling, anticipating something that will never arrive.
