i deserve the worst life has to offer me
>>83473193No you do not. And it's probably more painful of a realization to find (and internalize) that you're not. That all these "automatic answers" are lies told by you to yourself to justify constant escape from the crushing reality of lack of consistent meaning to be found in the world (at least in relation to you). Realizing this, then, is realizing you know you are painfully, powerfully alive and there's, logically, no option left other than living to the fullest of your capacity. It's to stop believing in silly statements like "i deserve the worst"
>>83473248copei didnt read any of this
>>83473263>copeyou're coping, i'm trying to help you. retard
>>83473274you're a normie liar just like the rest of themnormies always tell me "just be yourself" and then they dont like the "myself"
jfl could've actually had it all>rest is history
>>83473193I wish I could get the worst, I honestly think it'd be better for me long-term than the indifferent neutrality I experience. There's nothing pushing me either way, at least terrible shit happening to me would force me to adapt and improvise or finally hit rock bottom
>>83473298You only live once, and once you are killed, it's pointless attempt at damage control, but it's all said and done. Now every effort has one millionth the gain compared to back thenm
>>83473305another cope and a lie
>>83473305>you only live onceThank fuck
