Did you know that certain monkeys have an elaborate social hierarchy where the lowest ranking males become gay bottoms?This is based seen in golden snub-nosed monkeys where the dominant monkey mounts the lower ranking males who then adopt feminine behaviour such as showing their ass, cowering, and grooming. Some of these primates over time will even come from being penetrated with no penile stimulation whatsoever. As the monkeys get topped more and more their place in the hierarchy solidifies, their testosteron lowers, and their cortisol becomes higher as they are in a constant state of stress and neuroticism. They instinctually show their behinds more and their prostates become more sensitive. They are actually and unironically being biochemically groomed into staying the lowest ranking males. Never to fuck females ever againThis is not a fetishpost, this is a cry for help. I am by all means, in origin, a straight man. I keep seeing this phenomenon where autistic loser males start of straight but get memed into being gay or trans and the worst thing is that im part of this group without even remotely wanting it.
>>83479159The older I got the more I leaned into it. Whenever I talked to girls I would just mention I was gay or bi so they felt safe around me even if I had a crush on them.Once I got a good spurt of puberty and some masking skills, girls suddenly started being really interested in me. I perceive this as the best time of my life. I still couldnt seal the deal on any feminine women though, too much spaghetti and it almost felt like I didnt have the sexuality for it. Just for me to later jerk off to their pics or imagine myself with hot feminine chicks.The only girlfriend I acquired was a hairy tomboy, because she did all the initiating. I experience this as the happiest time of my life. I was a super good looking bishie guy with a hot gf, all my friends were jealous, even if I looked like a yaoi cartoon faggot. But somehow, the damage was already done. I would front myself as very feminine to her, and really enjoy it whenever she would pick up a male role. Sometimes when I was balls deep inside of her I had to think of her as a guy instead. I would otherwise NEVER jerk off to guys or find them attractive. This shit confused me so much that I did hook up with a femboy once and true honest to god, I disliked everything about the male body, the penis, the male soul. I stopped identifying as bi and just called myself straight. I was very open and curious about dick and I just didnt like it. It was no gay panic, I am not a repressed homosexual.
>>83479164But my ability to fuck women just dwindled and dwindled. For every woman that liked me, I just couldnt seal the deal. I just feel as if all my life I missed out on women because I didnt have it in me to be a bit brutish or mean. I can only be (too) kind and pleasing. I cant help but kinda worship and imitate them to get some kind of release from this.Nowadays I only date trans men/FtM. I tend to be their bitch. I am in love with all of their masculinity and I find it incredibly hot when they bully me. I cant remember the last time I was sexually interesting in a normal woman. I only got one shot of libido after one playfully bullied me but I got put off by her female body. This isnt me. I can still jerk off to women, I always jerk off to women. So why can I not for the life of me fuck them?I feel less and less capable every time my bf fucks me with his strap-on. I feel like im slowly losing my agency to some demon and I dont understand it.
>>83479174Anons will say I have always been gay. I dont think thats whats happening. My crushes on girls were real. All my life I standardly jack off to women and fucking them. I just have a fetish for the really masculine ones with male features. But males themselves? No. I have tried many times with a full open heart and every time it just wasnt for me. I sometimes feel like trans women are a safer outlet to express my attraction to women but im so extremely put off by any maleness they have. They are worst of both worlds, male and feminine. I cant fuck a man, I cant fuck a woman, only do complete role reversal with a ftm. What the fuck?I have rambled too much but I wonder if this can be reversed. Can I gain back my ability to fuck women if I get back on the social hierarchy with the full retard confidence that I am? I have seen many former-loser gymbros fake their way to some better place but theyre still held back by some invisible forces that make them spergy losers in real life convo with some ordinary male. To this day I daydream about how fighting a war in some shithole might fix me. If I just take up boxing or get some 100 yard stare trauma maybe I will stop giving a shit, man up, and be able to fuck a woman. These fantasies are never ending and I tell myself all day how women are sexually interested in me and how better I am than my male virgin friends, it is unhealthy and I cant even commit.Please /r9k/, I beg you. Is it over? Is it possible to man up and become normal again? Im getting old. I need to breed now I still can
This is a thoughtful post anon. Giving you a bump
>>83479159lol, that's all probably true.
good postprobably 90% of transexuals are undersocialized men doing exactly what you say
nah i've been calling myself bi since i was 17 and had girly interests at a young age too, i was getting bullied sure but i was already kind of a femmy fag anyway
>>83479164>>83479174>>83479178you got fucked over hard by constant bombardment of an oversexualized society. thank the kikes for your twisted mind
>>83479159>where the lowest ranking males become gay bottoms?We have a name for this.Prison gay. Only works if you're only viable and often desperate means of fending for yourself is being sexually subservient to other males. Often see this with druggies who'll suck dicks as a means to earn money.Being "Beta" wont turn you gay, just miserable, bitter self loathing as this entire board is proof of.OP doesnt have issues with his sexuality, he has issues with his identity and sense of self.
>>83479159This literally happened to me. I honestly don't believe in homosexuality/heterosexuality, I believe humans are all bisexual. Whenever LGBTQIA+ types rag on about animals practicing homosexual behaviour, in reality they're practicing bisexuality. As you say animals adapt to their best suited roles and people are the same. We are seeing a rapid increase of homosexuality/bisexuality in men and women, due to the dating market becoming far more competitive and men not meeting the standards of women (women also deeming men as unsafe, unworthy etc). I think preference is mostly solidified at childhood age for the majority of people, although with introspection and openness you can adapt. Look at the level of guys who post about wanting to fuck femboys for instance, they are attracted to the femininity of the males so it's like a pseudo heterosexual having the femme guy step in to replace the woman.
>>83479159>straightI sincerely believe you can lean hard straight, but everyone has gay tendencies or exceptions. Look at anime, look at traps, look at passing trannies, and how super straight men act about their favorite male celebrity. So when you're a loser, you have less options and feel like leaning towards gay now would be your easiest option to get laid. This is why there's an incel to gay fag pipeline.
>>83479159Whites are something else man. Holy shit. Being civilized is a little gay man. Going out shooting like a nigger is better than trooning
yeah this happened to me twice lmao1. first on highschool2. sencond on prisonso on highschool i wuz attractive , got blow in dark, eye came out of soskcet. no longer attractive, everyone gangup to beatmeup, gay alagations, masturbating over cp and gayporn. everyone hates me. accept role, start having sex with dominant incels.on prison i was the weakest one lol i took trombolone and trestrotrestone, guess what thats just enraged the naturally big gymguys there, their leader nagged me to give a blowjob, didit, then all the 8 person cell satisfied them with me.i drinked somuch cumt hat day lmao xddd
>>83480838>so on highschool i wuz attractive , got blow in dark, eye came out of soskcet. no longer attractive, everyone gangup to beatmeup, gay alagations, masturbating over cp and gayporn. everyone hates me. accept role, start having sex with dominant incels.I crie every tiem
>>83480847you will also cry. i might not hear it, but you will do it. and they will beat you up even harder for it.i bet my life ( ! ) she wont do well on prison.
THANK YOU at least Im not going crazy
