You evil, narcissistic witch. Ask your therapist about electroshock therapy because something in your brain has been severely broken. And the funniest part is that you think ur a completely healthy person who has got it all figured out! You sincerely believe that you are entitled to these imaginary set of ~boundaries~ (well, you call them boundaries, theyre not actually.), in which you expect people to accept and put up with your insane behavior. Im not going to be a broken record and list all of the horribly narcissistic and painful ways youve used me to your advantage, manipulated me, coerced me to be okay with more and more sociopathic tendencies of yours. I sincerely love you, and for the past 5 years its been a consistent cycle of being emotionally used and abused from you, pretending that it isnt true/im overreacting, giving you the benefit of the doubt, then eventually going through the painful process of accepting that YES, I have been horribly mistreated, and then, finally, having to shove all of these feelings down in an instant for a desperate attempt and exchange to keep you in my life. You evil fucking bitch. You evil, evil, evil, evil fucking bitch. It is times like this where I wonder what the point of continuing in this life if my future will be a cycle of emotional abuse from the only person I love, the person I shared my entire life with, the person I sincerely cannot live without. But living with you means pain, it means that at any moment I am disposable to you like a tamagotchi or some other completely irrelevant toy that you only acknowledge its existence when you feel like it. Being dead is a genuinely better alternative, I think. Unfortunately for you, Im too afraid of death. And the worst part is that I miss you so much, I love you so much, and I will always fucking forgive you for ANYTHING you could do to me.
You too have known loss! And that loss torments you still... You hope hatred... might someday replace the pain... but it never goes away... it makes a man hideous, inside and out... Wouldn't you agree?!! We both are demons, our humanity won't return. You, me, we have no place to run, nowhere to hide... and that's why I'll show you my demon! Follow me, Big Boss!!!
