pain and suffering edition
>>83485230Merry Christmas and hopefully the chronic pain eases.
blood got all over my pants and bed. the pain is so bad it hurts to walk or stand or sit. my legs also feel like theres little bloodflow going to them as theyre all tingly and shit.i swear if i didnt want kids id carve my uterus out
>>83485237merry christmas anontoday its not the chronic pain, the chronic pain and migraines are way more bearable to this fortunately
>>83485230Bruh, at work my manager mentioned how she noticed that I had been talking to myself on the shift. I never knew how bad it was but I must look absolutely mental. I've been dreading heading back into work since because now I think everyone thinks I'm a mad man. I look proper mental while doing it too. I blame the extreme isolation and loneliness desu. Was never this bad when I was younger.Also, merry Christmas twin. Focus on the positives in life. I know just HOW bleak it can get but find those little nuggets of happiness and peace in your life to ease the pain.
>>83485259may as well own it now that youve done it anon, many of your coworkers likely dont care that much or havent noticed. youre gonna make it worse dwelling on it.merry christmas man.i try to
>>83485253Ah, the other kind of bad pain. Gotta find some stuff to distract yourself then, that works for me a lot.
>>83485289Yeah, only option. Have you got family or friends? Even a brother.
>>83485293i have tried and nothing has been working, because i still feel it, and its hard to distract yourself from pain like this
>>83485329Yeah, there's no good way to distract yourself enough. Exercise can help out though, assuming this is emotional pain you're talking about. Exercise helps a good deal with one's mood.
>>83485259I hear people talk to themselves all the time especially older women, I'm a drug fucked schizo but I know other druggos.
>>83485321i dont really have a need or drive to have friends. i dont have siblings, just my mum, but also i should mention loneliness isnt the type of pain i was referring to.tho technically i do have romantic loneliness>>83485335the type of pain im talking about is uh, not of the emotional sort. its of a physical kind. exercise would actually kill me at the point
>>83485360Ah, if it's inflammation then fasting periodically helps with that in my experience. I just assumed it was emotional, given it's Christmas and people are really ramping up the demoralizing.
>>83485373i think fasting would be a terrible idea for periods. what i need is 3 steak sandwiches to replenish myself.cant even give attention to stuff like that rn honestly. i was sad yesterday when it was actually christmas, cause i had a romantic dream, but other than that... yeah.how are you doing tho?
>>83485401>periodsOh, yeah I got nothing for that. I'm rather numb at the moment, don't really have any feelings in any direction. I have been having a growing desire to code and game dev again, but that's about it.
>>83485360Wow, you're a monster in my eyes in the aristotelian sense. Not wanting friends is as crazy to me as saying I don't want water. Is this genuine satisfaction or have you just found a really specially comfy spot in your suffering you can tolerate and learnt to call it happiness? I feel like that's the case for most people. Settling.>>83485336Yeah, I've noticed that too but I'm afraid about the frequency. In large part I'm mostly imagining more ideal living conditions in my mind.
>>83485411i imagined so lmao.thats for the best, really. also you should definitely get into it again.how good are you at coding? what sorta codes can you work with? what programs do you use?
>>83485431No feeling at all is better than negative feelings, that's for sure. I know I should, but I can't decide what I should really work on currently. I'm good enough with coding, I know C# and have done stuff with HLSL(used for shaders in games largely) before too. I used to use Unity a lot but after their faggot new CEO from EA came in and raped the price models, I just quit for a while. I think I'll work with Godot since it's close enough to Unity and it's also got a great license so I wouldn't even need to pay fees like I would with Unity if I actually made money off of any game(s) I made.
>>83485230merry christmas once again anon, here's hoping the pain fucks offwhat are you spending your christmas income on? i think i saw you talking about budgeting for figures but i'm curious as to what ones in particular you're buyingmight have to make a little collage of them unless you want to reply with multiple images
>>83485418wow, thats not very nice :(idk its probably something to do with being autistic, i have an incredibly low social drive with long recharge times. i realised i dont really enjoy having friends all that much among other things that i wont get in to.i wont say im happy by any means, but friends dont make me happy either, and i still feel alone with friends. if that makes ANY sense. im not good at explaining what goes on in my head >>83485459indeed. what sorta projects do you have to work on? yeah unity got fucked over hard and killed so many indie developers projects. EA are an evil greedy company :] tho thats just most big game companies.dont know much about c# tbdesu
>>83485492merry christmas again :] heres hoping... it wont tho. itll be a few more days.i didnt get any christmas money and my next paycheck is on the 2nd of january, ill be paying my preorders and likely getting some more books. ill post individual images cause im lazy to make a collage. theyre all OC lewd figs tho
>>83485511i may or may not get this one with my January order, not sure yet
>>83485514and then my beloved aimu
>>83485498Its ok. I'm a weirdo too. And I didn't mean to insult. But the philosopher aristotle said something to the effect that a man who can live alone is a beast. I don't think it was an insult but just a way of saying you aren't human like. But to get the the centre of things, do you think you'd be happy if you did find the right friends?
>>83485498Too many projects to count, but for game stuff I've got ideas involving more than a few genres. I've had ideas about making something like DF before but with 3D rendering and multithreading designed from the get-go so it'd run much better on modern hardware and be more intuitive to a lot of people today. Stuff like a 3D equivalent to Terraria(voxel world with boss fights, farming, and a good emphasis on mobility) and that would be waaaaay less work. Something like a singleplayer extraction shooter(Sulfur inspired me on that) with a lot of mechanics around growing relationships with NPCs and expanding your base to make the grind worth it. All too many.Also the CEO was only a former EA exec, not a current one. He was the kind of cartoonishly greedy to say something along the lines of "If you're not trying to milk your players of every cent you can then you're stupid." as well as throwing out the idea to charge players in some CoD-slop game from their company before for each death.>dont know much about c# tbdesuIt's like C++ in that it's a language derived from C, but it was made by Microsoft iirc. Same with HLSL, which is also from Microsoft and uses DirectX(so if you had to install shit for DirectX for a game then that's why). It's pretty nice, but I'm really familiar with it so that biases me.
>>83485511>it wont thoone can dreamand oh, i must be misremembering theni thought you mentioned getting $200, but maybe you were just talking about spending $200? i'm past tipsy at this point so my brain ain't all therewhat books? something more traditional or are you going for more ergodic literature?i think i remember asking you about why you collect these types of figures, and i believe your answer was something along the lines of finding them cuteis there something particular about these figures you find cute, or is 'erotic' and 'cute' relatively interchangable for you?
>>83485511>>83485514>>83485519having a look at all of them, second one reminds me of the early war german tank crew uniforms with the black leather and the bereti just hope that they've applied some sort of artificual highlights to the leather because i doubt it'll reflect like that in normal lightnot a fan of the bar connecting the halo to the last figure, but they are cutesomething about plasters are just appealingfirst two are cute but would love to see the right side ones posture matching the look on their face a little moreleft side seems to be a lot more into it, having fun, exicted
>>83485522i mean, saying someone isnt human-like can be pretty insulting. im sure you could understand how>But to get the the centre of things, do you think you'd be happy if you did find the right friends?i dont think my personal happiness could be derived from friends, even if they were the "right" kind. i would also, most likely, still become quite tired and drained from friends who are "perfect". its hard to explain, like i said>>83485545the 3d terraria-styled one sounds wayyyy less work than an extraction shooter. start small lmao. dont wanna jump too far, get swarmed, frustrated, and give up all over again. tho i like the extraction shooter idea.>He was the kind of cartoonishly greedy to say something along the lines of "If you're not trying to milk your players of every cent you can then you're stupid." as well as throwing out the idea to charge players in some CoD-slop game from their company before for each death.i cant imagine being so openly, comedically greedy. tho props to him for having 0 shame or humility regarding his views, i guess...>It's like C++ in that it's a language derived from C, but it was made by Microsoft iirci assumed itd be derived from c lmao, considering the name. but thats pretty interesting that its made by microsoft.how different is c# from c++ or c? do you think you could work with all 3 relatively easily?>>83485552oh yeah, i mentioned yesterday i made a facebook sale and made $200 ish. also, make sure to sober up before bed :]im gonna get some other, non ergodic stuff made by german and austrian writers (namely, robert musils the man without qualities and arno schmidts nobodaddies children), and some books by gilles deleuze (french philosopher who i took interest in because of his one ergodic work, and because he has a book called "capitalism and schizophrenia" and thats hilarious to me)id consider erotic and cute to be interchangable to me, yeah. erotic stuff is super cute :] its hard not to think theyre cute
>>83485598i can kinda see it lmao. pretty sure it does have a shiny finish/garnish on it to make it look like that in normal lights, wouldnt be hard to do it really.yeah the bar is annoying, but i still find her too cute otherwise. i love this artists designs so much.>first two are cute but would love to see the right side ones posture matching the look on their face a little moreits supposed to be like thar, kuromu is confident and rurumu is shy and cute :]
holy shit i cant even lie on my back in bed. my nice white bed sheets are totally ruined
>>83485660i havent had it this bad since i was like... 12. holy shit
i wanna take a credit card out for this so bad man
>>83485632You'd be surprised, since I'd have to put in a lot of work for all of the combat stuff plus design all of the different voxel bits. My ideas for that are also pretty darn ambitious, although the world generation stuff is actually something I'm really interested in playing around with. I miss messing with voxel code.>dont wanna jump too far, get swarmed, frustrated, and give up all over again.B^) that's the go-to for me with game dev stuff since it's just me, all alone. Making a game I'd be happy with releasing, especially to sell, is just far too much work for one guy alone. You'd also like the extraction shooter idea more if you knew that I intended for it to have a lot of waifus in it.It's definitely the case that the majority of CEOs are like him, he's just had more of his opinions slip out. The decisions so many companies make align all too well with him. C# and C++ are both object-oriented programming languages so I imagine swapping over to C++ would be easier than C. C is more low-level(assembly code would the lowest level code, it's what programing languages actually turn your code into and it's what the computer reads as a list of instructions) so I'd probably have quite a bit more to learn if I did get into C but that could be nice. GLSL and HLSL are also quite similar languages, GLSL being the alternative to HLSL and what OpenGL uses.If you ever want to just look at random shader code on your own time or see cool things written with code then shadertoy.com is a nice place to check out. The code is right there on the page for any shader and you can edit it and see how it changes things. Shadertoy uses webGL, which is pretty much GLSL. This one on the front page is pretty neat, but I imagine your phone or laptop might not handle it too well. https://www.shadertoy.com/view/ttycWW
>>83485632>make sure to sober up before bedah fuck that, the night is young and now christmas is over my obligations are over as far as i'm concerned>its hard not to think theyre cutethey are cute, but i'm used to people finding these types of figures more erotic than they do cute so the cuteness is often understateddon't get me wrong, i've come acorss many a guy who'll call these types of figures cute, but i'm pretty sure they're just using cute as a synonym for sexy most of the timeyou've mentioned a fair few authors there, and it's reminding me of how long it's been since i've read any sort of bookit's easy for me to get paralysed by choice these days, so i'll ask, what's one book you'd genuinely recommend i read? no promise i'll get around to it, but i'd like to break the cycle and do some readingat the moment i'm liking the idea of reading "capitalism and schizophrenia" just so i could have an excuse to say those words in that order every now and again> kuromu is confident and rurumu is shy and cute :]i can see it, but i have to look for itrurumu isn't really giving me shy vibes with this figure, more disinterested?any have you got any anti inflammatories for the pain? women i knew could take grams of analgesics and it did fuck all, but the NSAID's helped
>>83485715huh, maybe that wouldnt be a good thing to start with then lmao. way too ambitious for a first project.>that's the go-to for me with game dev stuff since it's just me, all alone. Making a game I'd be happy with releasing, especially to sell, is just far too much work for one guy alone. maybe you can assemble a team of people to join you. i wonder if 4chan game projects still happen or if thats a thing of the past.>You'd also like the extraction shooter idea more if you knew that I intended for it to have a lot of waifus in it.if there were nurse skins id buy a trillion copies>so I'd probably have quite a bit more to learn if I did get into C but that could be nicemaybe you should try learn it sometime if you get back into that stuff, tho how much use would learning it have?>but I imagine your phone or laptop might not handle it too wellmy phone definitely did not handle it well, ill try look at it on the laptop later IF IT WORKS>>83485730yeah but you'll regret it when you have a hangover in the morning, do your sober self a favour, s.m.h>i've come acorss many a guy who'll call these types of figures cute, but i'm pretty sure they're just using cute as a synonym for sexy most of the timeoh theyre totally using it as a synonym for sexy lmao, tho im sure they see the cuteness a bit too. sometimes. it is definitely understated.>what's one book you'd genuinely recommend i read? well id probably recommend my favourite book of all time, which is house of leaves by mark z. danielewski (something like that, his last name is confusing), but theres probably something better i could recommend you after reading some more. ill get back to you on that :]thats one of the reasons im reading capitalism and schizophrenia, its just so funny, and i want to be able to say the title sometimes lmao.1/2
>>83485730>rurumu isn't really giving me shy vibes with this figure, more disinterested?hmm, i can see that. she looks a lot more shy in the original art. its a budget figure set tho, thats my excuse for it>any have you got any anti inflammatories for the pain? women i knew could take grams of analgesics and it did fuck all, but the NSAID's helpedi dont, they dont help much for me anyways. i usually just tough it out
>>83485797>you'll regret it when you have a hangover in the morning, do your sober self a favouri'll do myself a favour by downing a pint of water and having something to eat, but for now, the night is youngalso i've noticed that a few days ago when i got proper drunk for the first time in a while the hangover the next day was awful, but the one after that not so much, then the same againthe human body is great when it comes to adaptation>sometimes. it is definitely understated.i don't think i'd have reached for as hopeful a word>ill get back to you on that :]if i don't remember tonight i'll likely be looking in the archive and picking out what you've just put forwards, house of leaves, wwe'll have to see>they dont help much for me anywaysyou mentioned being overweight in the previous posts, maybe higher doses will offer you some amount of reliefi'm not saying quadruple it and fucking overdose, don't go that far, but if you've got more body mass you'll often need higher doses of things like ibuprofen, naproxen, etc.my spine is fucked, multiple bulging discs, one herniated disc impinging on my nerves, it's fucking miserablespinal specialist of the team i'm under told me to increase the dose on all of my anti inflammatories as i'm overweight tootry the higher end of the recommended dose, if that doesn't work take one additioanl tablet on top of it kind of deal>its a budget figure set tho, thats my excuse for itah gotcha, would be nice to see a figure that better represents the arti've never paid much attention to these types of figures before but your constant posting of them has given me an excuse to pay a little more attnetion and it's a nice change of pace to be honest
>>83485891>i'll do myself a favour by downing a pint of water and having something to eatbefore i go to sleep that isi'm of the mindset that i'm not just paying for the flavour of alcoholic drinks, i'm paying for the alcoholand while i enjoy a sweet swedish cider or a nice rye whiskey, i'm paying out of the ass for these products because they contain alcoholso i want to feel the effects of itdoes that make sense?
>>83485797It would be fun though and that's largely why I did game dev, I didn't really have any hopes of making money from it. Some 4chan game projects happen, but I haven't heard of any recently. I doubt I'd be able to get people to want to work with me though. If anything I'd be better off spending money commissioning people for stuff.>if there were nurse skins id buy a trillion copiesWhat's up with your liking of nurses? I never got the appeal, but I'm far from normal in my tastes. I don't think C would have too much use in me learning it, outside of some entertainment from challenging myself or learning neat quirks about it though.>my phone definitely did not handle it well, ill try look at it on the laptop later IF IT WORKSBest of luck. Apparently the record button on shadertoy doesn't make a webm that 4chan can handle, but hopefully me using webmconverter will make it work now...
>>83485891well...thats good enough ig. also its not a good thing your body is adaptating that easily to hangovers. it should be torturing you for drinking :p>i'll likely be looking in the archive and picking out what you've just put forwards, house of leaves, wwe'll have to seehouse of leaves is really good and a pretty introductory book for ergodic literature, id say. its worth reading. you dont have to read it if it doesnt interest you, tho :]>i'm not saying quadruple it and fucking overdose, don't go that far, but if you've got more body mass you'll often need higher doses of things like ibuprofen, naproxen, etc.i used to take around 3 or 4 different ones, didnt work, those things just dont work. only higher end stuff like oxy helps with anything outside of migraines.how many discs bulging?i had 5 herniate in my lower spine a while back. and then sciatica. literally worst pain id ever experienced.spinal issues are awful, man. do you have other issues in your spine?>i've never paid much attention to these types of figures before but your constant posting of them has given me an excuse to pay a little more attnetion and it's a nice change of pace to be honestwell im glad my constant figure spam has done something nice for you, lmao.>so i want to feel the effects of it. does that make sense?of course it does, i understand completely.but im still gonna encourage you to treat your body better, i cant not>>83485916>I doubt I'd be able to get people to want to work with me though. If anything I'd be better off spending money commissioning people for stuff.im sure you could, you have some good ideas and thered definitely be people who want to help you make those ideas. commissioning would end up being a huge money sink, but its not the worst idea either.1/2 again
>>83485916>What's up with your liking of nurses? I never got the appeal, but I'm far from normal in my tastes.im not sure. i couldnt tell you, i wrote like 4 different ideas as to why but none of them really sit well with me. to chalk it down>latex>yanderes>menhera>needles are all other things i like and are things you see in nurses, but theres something about the nurse theme SPECIFICALLY that gets me. so that cant explain it.>I don't think C would have too much use in me learning it, outside of some entertainment from challenging myself or learning neat quirks about it though.it has entertainment uses, good enough :]oh yeah, btw, have you ever thought of doing your own commission work with your c# skills? maybe you could make money to fund your own project. and of course improve your skills.>but hopefully me using webmconverter will make it work now...looks like it worked, somewhat, the quality is pretty compressed. its cool, tho
>>83486028I'unno. Creatives can often be at ends with one another and without any kind of way to prove that my ideas are good, most people wouldn't be impressed if I had to guess. There are lots of people who can throw about ideas that sound good enough but they either can't implement them(and thus seek out others to do so) or their ideas melt upon further scrutiny.>>83486039I didn't figure that you liked needles or latex. That makes more sense then, although I would've guessed the caretaker aspect would've been the appeal and not the more dark associations.I don't know if people really do commissions for C# stuff, do they? I haven't heard of anyone doing commission work, but I have heard of people doing contract work for programming but the stories I heard weren't very nice. Plus there's a swarm of Jeets nowadays using AI to code their shit for them(that barely or doesn't work) that I'd have to stand apart from if I had to guess. Also yeah, the compressed quality for those shaders sucks. The actual stuff rendered looks much nicer. They also scale much better.Speaking of commissions and stuff, if you did actually get back and get good with your art then you could do much the same and then buy more of your lewd figures and posters.
after downloading a pic of every nurse figure on my wishlist i realise there isnt all that much really
>>83486028>i had 5 herniate in my lower spine a while back. and then sciatica. literally worst pain id ever experienced.>spinal issues are awful, man. do you have other issues in your spine?ah fuck, you understand then. i'm sorry.i was wondering what the worst pain you had experienced was when you mentioned the period pain being the second, suppose i got the answeri've got 2 minor buldges, one mild, one extruded disc impinging on the L5 nerve root, bi-laterial pars defect of the L5my sciatica isn't as bad as it used to be, but i almost wish it was as constant as it used to beit comes and goes and because of that i despise iti feel like i'm living in limbo, purgatory, constantly afraid of the pain coming back or getting worse againi'll start to feel more confident again, only to sleep wrong or bend in an odd way and find the pain coming backit started off the size of a tennis ball, then shrunk to a ping pong ball, and now it comes and goesbut i'm always afraid of that constant 'ball' of pain in my back returningeven though i'm off of the gabapentin and the nerve pain is rare these days, i still walk with a limp unless i'm consciously putting effort into walking normallyi fucking hate it, it is up there as one of the worst things i've experiencedhow's your back these days? i hope it's better>well im glad my constant figure spam has done something nice for you, lmao.lmao, glad you're glad>but im still gonna encourage you to treat your body better, i cant notfair, fair
>>83486142yeah i guess youd be right. if you had more of a very solid idea and plan for a game and maybe something to show, tho, you could probably find others willing to help. i think. maybe, possibly, hopefully.>I didn't figure that you liked needles or latexi think needles are horrifying actually, but i like the "aesthetic" of them, its hard to explain like the nurse thing. my crush was into needle stuff tho>although I would've guessed the caretaker aspect would've been the appeal and not the more dark associationsthe caretaker stuff is good too, i forget about that lmao >I don't know if people really do commissions for C# stuff, do they?no clue. i would assume they do, its code, so thered have to be some market for it? tho you could also try c++ if theres no one looking for c# coders.>that I'd have to stand apart from if I had to guessyoud stand apart from them by making actually functional code lmao.>if you did actually get back and get good with your art then you could do much the same and then buy more of your lewd figures and posters.god i should try do furry art, they make hundreds more than others. theres actually free furry porn art workshops at one of the cons i go to every year, i thought about doing it this year but didn't
>>83485230merry christmas again, you frustrating creaturehow was your christmas since you didn't drink yourself under the table?
>>83486183so youd understand how bad the period pain is since its second to sciatica. sciatica is fucking awful tho. and the way it comes and goes in your case is definitely incredibly annoying. but its better if its not constant, you need some reprieve. if you had it all the time youd probably go insane.your body is probably too used to walking with a limp since you did it so long, hopefully itll go away one day.>how's your back these days? i hope it's betteri havent had any sciatica pain in months, and since ive been exercising my back was doing pretty well. until the period started. itll probably be bad for a while afterwards, im expecting it to
>>83486260merry christmas again :]made a facebook sale, got a chicken sandwich and churros, id say it was good other than the pain.hows yours been?
hello fujo!! and merry christmas!! :Di'm sorry you're not doing too well.. i have a chronic illness of my own so i get the struggle :[ i wish i could help/give advice but i don't want to pry
>>83486247Yeah, that'd be nice. Although if I get to that point I might as well just release it early access and just pay people off of that B^). Creatives can be at ends and all and I do like my vision more than what others would want to contend for. I see. I still don't understand it, but to each their own. Good to know I wasn't too far off the mark with the caretaker idea either.Also I'm sure there's far too many people in either the C++ or C# camp. The last time I was talking with comp sci majors I was just hearing horror stories of jeets ruining the job market and since then AI has had a larger and larger impact on programming. Also if business owners cared so much about functional code over cheap prices then the Jeets wouldn't be around in the first place and there'd be less technical issues and hacks going on B^).>furry artOh god, I've heard about how some OCs they've auctioned off have some for tens of thousands of dollars before. The furry mind virus is only useful in that it serves as a vector to tax those afflicted, it seems. That and also for funny stories about how they'll gas hotels or horror stories about them throwing used diapers all over the place when they go to a convention in some town.
>>83486303merry christmas nepnep :Da its nothing like chronic pain or illness or anything, i just have my period lmao. a really really bad one. but ill be ok.how was your christmas?
>>83486281https://voca.ro/15Qkd2Zdszpz
>>83486327thats true, didnt think of that lmao. actually a really good idea to use if you do end up making a game.>Also I'm sure there's far too many people in either the C++ or C# camp.i mean coding is a super oversaturated market but youd probably get something, maybe... or maybe im too optimistic.>Also if business owners cared so much about functional code over cheap prices then the Jeets wouldn't be around in the first place and there'd be less technical issues and hacks going on B^).why the fuck do they continue to hire them then? theres plenty of compsci twinks they could hire for cheap instead of retarded ai-using jeets. if the jeets dont qualify, how do they even get hired? usually they want 10 million years experience and a stamped and signed letter from the lord himself to say that you're good enough to work for (them)>for funny stories about how they'll gas hotels or horror stories about them throwing used diapers all over the place when they go to a convention in some town.furry hotel parties are insane (ly disgusting). theyre sexual degenerates in a way most couldnt imagine. surprisingly nice people tho for the most part.also just wait til you hear about all the neo nazi furry groups
>>83486345i guess i can understand your reasoning for wanting it to be constant rather than the situation youre in now with your pain, but i cant agree with it personally.tho i hope eventually things get better for you anon, maybe there'll be a treatment you can try or something in the future.goodnight, and sleep well. hopefully you dont wake up too hungover :]and merry christmas to you as well
>>83486288aye that sounds like a good day indeedi haven't had churros in forever, or dulce de leche for that matterwonder if there's a stand near here that sells some... i'll have to ask my coworkers later>painperiod cramps, i seebig yikes, mom used to get them terribly too so... yeah, ouchhang in there aye?>hows yours been?it's been quite goodi had some of my leftover ham, some chocolate panettone as well, got to make relatives drool over it too lollater on i got to see rapsittie street kids with nep and her frens which was a big kek, i loved iti also got to see them draw stuff and guess what's what, it was funny as all hellit was fun, a lot more fun than any other christmas i had since i became an adulti just wish yours was just as fun, but hey there's always next year, right?
>>83486338FUJO I'M SORRY I'M VERY EEPY i almost forgot to reply!!!! thank you!!! hopefully you got a nice gift/food/company :pOH, i missed that completely. ough. buffoon moment.WELL nevertheless, i know the pain. godspeed soldier... shit sucks!!! my symptoms flare up during my period too so ougghh>how was your christmas?very good! i got a 2nd monitor which i've been getting used to (this is the fucking future....)the food also. goddamn. fucking A+......
>>83486409I just need to go through with something far and long enough to get there. Also, get enough eyes on it and people interested in it. It may actually be good if I did commissions for game dev stuff, if I got back into it enough to feel confident to offer my services and all. That could get me some nice contacts for potential future projects, that and also the market would probably throw me away since I haven't made a nice portfolio for people to peruse. Most of my projects were done to learn some system(s) and then just shelved as I went to another system or set of systems to learn or experiment with.>why the fuck do they continue to hire them then?Two reasons. One it isn't always dysfunctional and is instead just poorly optimized or clunky, meaning they get what they want and modern computing can carry whatever is being done without the average person noticing a difference for small-scale tests(when you show it off). Secondly if you bring these Jeets in you depress wages. You can use them like an economic cudgel against any developer who feels like they're worth more money.>"You want 200k a year? Buddy, I have 10 Indians who work for 40k a year each and kiss the ground I walk on. What makes you so special?"The systems that a lot of business would use to vet the quality of an employee are raped by Indians anyhow, they have so many fake diploma mills and shit over there and a culture that's fetid with scamming, corruption, etc.. Another thing is that they don't always hire the Jeets directly, they'll instead hire another company to make some software for them and that company itself is so cheap because they again employ Jeets or are Jeets.Oh, I've heard of the neo-nazi furries. I've also seen that eco-fascist faggot on this board who's just some narcissistic schizo who wants to rape guys. Mental illness and extreme political leanings are correlated. Their niceness is largely superficial though, you should see the drama shit they do.
Table for one please.Of course that is unoriginal. How about...A table and seat for one please?
>>83486481sorry sir, we only really have a big ass round table for like 10you may have a seat next to /an/on, he's that cool guy to your left
>>83486448>i'll have to ask my coworkers laterdo it :]there definitely has to be, somewhere around there. its a pretty common dessert.>hang in there aye?i will try my hardest>i had some of my leftover ham, some chocolate panettone as well, got to make relatives drool over it too loldoes a chocolate one still have raisins in it, or does it have chocolate?chocolate chip panettone... mmm...>later on i got to see rapsittie street kids with nep and her frens which was a big kek, i loved itwas that the christmas movie you mentioned? its good you enjoyed it :]>it was fun, a lot more fun than any other christmas i had since i became an adultcause you finally got to spend one with a cute girlfriend? :]>i just wish yours was just as fun, but hey there's always next year, right?idk mine was pretty good by my standards lmao>>83486458get some rest s.m.h, youve had a long (and fun by the sounds of it) christmas.>shit sucks!!! my symptoms flare up during my period too so ougghhoh thatd make it so much worse, thats not good at all...it does suck tho. i hate periods. i wish theyd stop forever.>very good! i got a 2nd monitor which i've been getting used to (this is the fucking future....)now you can do the brainrot thing of watching something while doing other things on the other monitor :]have fun with that lmaoalso if you fall asleep, i hope you sleep well!!
>>83486523>its a pretty common dessert.oh i'm sure there is, i just wonder if there's somewhere *close by* that sells them>does a chocolate one still have raisins in it, or does it have chocolate?this one has just chocolate, but there was the fruit one that had raisinsi'm a bigger fan of chocolate so i got this one instead, i may get the other kind once i'm with grandma though>was that the christmas movie you mentioned?it was, it's an extremely shitty one but it was really fucking fun watching it with others lmao>cause you finally got to spend one with a cute girlfriend? :]you read right through mebut more so because i have my peace and quiet, but still was in amazing company throughout it allseriously this woman is a blessing in my life, i want to put a ring on her asap and lock her down with me for life>idk mine was pretty good by my standards lmaoif it was good then that's all good i supposebut nothing says we can't aim higher, right? so here's wishing an even better one next year :>gotta think up some things to do/get next year to make it even better, you got any ideas?
