Currently hunkering down for snow, supposed to get a really big storm tonight, but I still plan to go on a night walk again in a few hours like I did last night for Christmas day, smoking my pack of cigarettes. Just waiting for the New Year now, honestly. I always love this liminal time of the year, between Christmas and New Year's, the old transitioning into the new, when time feels a little distorted, like we're all waiting in limbo. How are you anons holding up in these final days of the holidays?
>>83491614love it2 weeks off after gruelling overtime weeks with no break since apriljust cooking and doing drugs at home like its meant to be
>>83491666Nice! Like you I'm taking 2 weeks off, haven't had this kind of break from work in 1.5 years. Also cooking, decided to make some tomato soup and grilled cheese, I ate my Christmas left-overs for lunch today. Gonna make some nice hot coffee too, and watch the snow fall, probably get high as fuck off of weed too. Comfy times. Going to watch a movie tonight, probably a mindfuck. Those movies suit me well during this time of the year.
Sounds comfy. But I fucking hate new year's. Just a yearly reminder we are closer to death. Also hate started at the beginning of the calendar again. Like climbing up a staircase for 365 days only to take an elevator down and start over again. I hate the feel.
>>83491614I love the cold and snow. I used to wander around after the snow I'd walk in and out of the forest and along the river. So cold with the wind chill my face would go numb and my lips would crack. -10 Fahrenheit maybe lower. Just walk around forever crunch crunch on the frozen snow ankle deep then calf deep sometimes more in the valleys but then under the canopy of trees almost none and I could look upwards and see the branches and needles caked in snow extending together and the sky peeking from between. River rushing sounding harsh in the cold but not so cold or slow to freeze. No one around for miles just me occasional squirrel and deer footprints left the night before of others a fox or raccoon, stray dogs too. Follow the river long enough frozen swamp land and to the sides more, frozen from stillness and lack of depth maybe some liquid underneath hibernating frogs and fish. I'm not there anymore but I miss it the same.
>>83491741Wow sounds rugged anon. Did you ever experience snow in the suburbs?
>>83491778Get some here but not much doesn't stay long melts on the pavement and the streets get cleared and salted. Constant melt and refreeze makes ice, harder to walk on. Don't like people either walking around outside is just eyes on me from a thousand windows can't enjoy the time alone and the cars come through with too much noise. Miss the forest.
>>83491807Forest sounds nice anon. But I still enjoy the suburbs, it's pretty! Everyone still has all their Christmas decorations out, and it's honestly quite peaceful outside. Round about midnight I'm gonna go on my night walk like I did last night. I'm sure, with the heavy snow fall, it'll even be more peaceful. Just the snow, Christmas lights, and the peaceful sounds of crunching snow and blowing wind. Tonight I plan on watching a melancholic movie. I enjoy doing that right around New Year's time. It helps me reflect.
>>83491832Suburbs are nice for easy living grocery store is 5 minutes drive not 40 the power never goes out the internet works during storms. Never got used to people never felt comfortable near them, makes it hard to feel alright. Night with the snow is nice the moon overhead reflecting white on white can see without lights. In the forest it's ethereal seeing the world lit up in the suburbs still nice but not as dreamy. Used to like to stand back to the wind the pressure and feeling like I would fall could close my eyes and enjoy it. Not much wind here. What movie will you see? This time of year I think the same melancholic films and dreary grey cloud days are the best for reflection culminate the year.
>>83491868>What movie will you see?Not sure yet. Currently split between streaming either a movie called Melancholia and another one that looks kinda interesting called Coherence. I want something a bit mindfucky, existential, melancholic, ya know? It's just always the mood I get in at this time of the year.
>>83491916Haven't seen Melancholia but want to. Saw Coherence it was good but not melancholic. If you want a third Let the Right One In the original gives a lot to think about somber and existential in its way but very different from Melancholia or Coherence
>>83491963Thanks for the suggestion anon! I'll probably decide in an hour, want to finish my dinner up and wait for the snow to start falling.
>>83491989Have fun enjoy what you watch hope the snow gets deep
>>83491666>2 weeks off after gruelling overtime weeks with no break since apriljeez wtf, why do you put up with that? do you at-least get pussy or something to make it worthwhile?
>>83492066Thanks anon! Happy New Year btw! >>83492068If you want to survive, you have to wage slave.
>>83492100Silly anon there's still 5 days until New Year but happy New Year to you too may the next year be excellent for you
>>83492100>he doesn't know about neetinganon you're choosing to make yourself miserable
>>83492068i owe about $100k on my house i wanna be debt free
>>83492251Neeting is literally the worst option. Money unlocks you from being lonely.
>>83492358it never ends though anon. even if you pay off your house early, you still have to pay property tax for the rest of your life. plus the retirement age is only going to keep rising so you'll probably die before you get your pension.
>>83492399>Money unlocks you from being lonely.Prostitution doesn't make you any less lonely anon. You can jerk off for free.
Snow is currently coming down. Going outside to smoke a cigarette. It's very pretty, anons.
>>83492664ok and?ill still need somewhere to live
>>83493031so do i, that's why i leech off my parents
>>83493360that sounds much worse than having a job and my own place
>>83493360What happens when they die?
>>83493533>having a job and my own placebut you need a good-paying job to do that. i struggle landing even minimum wage jobs because of my mild autism, i'm certainly not getting a job that pays a living wage.>>83493551>What happens when they die?then i live on the street i guess.
>>83493592Do you not have the ability to think about the future?
>>83493592that sounds terriblewhy are you in here trying to demoralize people with jobs and homes and futures?
>>83493973I'm not trying to demoralize, I'm just trying to counter the pull-yourself-up-by-the-bootstrap mentality that a lot of boomers and naive young men have. It's almost 2026 and people still unironically believe that they can climb their way up from janitor to CEO.
>>83493853But I already did think about my future. I have no marketable skills and no connections to land a job that pays a living wage. I have tried to gain marketable skills but have failed numerous times. I have reasonably concluded that I probably will not be able to obtain any, not ones that are immune to being replaced by offshoring and automation at least. The only jobs I can get are ones that don't pay enough for me to support myself; therefore the logical conclusion is that I should not work and continue to contribute to an unjust system. Worrying about whether my parents die is irrelevant since the outcome is the same regardless; if I can't make enough money to support myself working then I'm homeless either way.
