A heartache as vast as the moon,Cold light in the night, a silver tune.It pulls at my chest, a silent tide,A quiet sorrow I cannot hide.Bigger than stars, it swells and grows,A cratered ache where the darkness flows.And like the moon, so far, so bright,It hangs in my soul, through endless night.
relatively, the moon is a very small celestial body. so, your heartache isn't that bad! it's only bigger than the stars because it's so close to you, it's so recent. but the stars way out there are way, way, way bigger and way, way, way brighter. in the distance is the real light you'll find some day, and the moon is just a refraction of light you're no longer actually seeing. do your best!
>>83493914but... My "light" was right there in my hands and I was in her hands. She was genuinely a decent woman, my age(30) still extremely feminine and respectful to everyone. Dressed modestly but was still incredibly hot, extremely intelligent with a lot of hardworking impressive accomplishments. Most importantly, she saved me when I was at my lowest. In the end I made her run away with my obsessive BPD symptoms of fear of abandonment. If I can have someone like her for a short period of time and lose her to my own faults...then I might as well give up.. right?Literally crying right now
>>83494026That you loved at all is reason to keep going. You suffer, but you live a meaningful life.
>>83494053I suffer at my own doing, what is meaningful about that?
>>83494198You suffer for love. I think that's very noble.
>>83493885the moon is evil
