I know I still would have my family there for me. But the way my life is going I don't see myself forming a family or anything. I refuse investing my mental peace, time, and money into anyone other than me and my family. I don't have friends or a partner so ig for now I have my needs covered. I trully feel like I don't need anyone else. I genuinely do have enough love in my life currently that I really could not force myself to seek out for more. Sure having friends or a partner would be cool but I don't trully don't need anyone. I have myself and my family. And even then I don't need my family, the only person I'll ever need is myself.This is good for now. Not depending on anyone or needing anyone is great for my mental peace and mental growth. But will it be enough as I grow older? I'm 19 and ig as I grow up my needs will change. Currently now I'm uncapable of imagining myself investing my time, peace, energy and money on anyone but myself and those I genuinely care about.Will this mentality drive me to die alone? Is dying "alone" that bad of a thing? I feel like most people feel forced to get a partner and form a family because of social pressure, but I'm detached enough from society to not be faced by that. Is that a good thing? I don't need anyone other than myself to feel fulfilled. I am whole.
