You ARE going to improve your life this year, right r9k?
Actually no, I don't think I will.
Maybe I will maybe I won't
>>83498405This year I got into real junkie shit and yknow what, I like the ritual de lo habitual I got myself into, I fucking love it matter of fact, fuck of all you preaching niggas
>>83498405I have a 4yr streak going so far. It's always a roller-coaster, but I end the year slightly better than when I started.
I'm not sure, idk what to do. My life is pretty over and I have nothing to strive for since I will never have a gf.
Jelqmaxxing this year
>>83498405I started earlier. I'm already at it. 2026 I will fucking make it MARK MY WORDS
>>83498405What's to improve on? I've tried everything and have only ever lost out to genetically superior beings.
yes! im going to pay off all my debt
>>83498946lmao that prosthetic is pretty good but they fucked up the ballsack
>>83498405>pass my driving test>lose virginity to a fat bitchmy to do list
>>83498405Yep, just taking it one day at a time
>>83498405This year is ending in a couple of days, idk what I could do
>>83498405no, because whatever disorder i suffer from makes it impossible for me to get close with people, if the opportunity ever strikes (and it has) I just push them away by being avoidant. I'll continue doing that until I die alone. Any improvements I make in life will just be small steps that amount to no real actual change in my social life. At 35 there's no kidding myself. I'm not going to change, I'm not suddenly going to get real life friends, I'm not suddenly going to get my first girlfriend and be able to handle a relationship. It would never happen, I'm not built for it and honestly I only want it in the abstract, I want it under the terms that I am a different person than I am now. But I don't want it enough to put in that work and try and make myself vulnerable in any way, I am more comfortable being alone. I haven't been bothered by the fact that I'm a virgin ever, literally never. It only bothers me in the abstract sense that I failed, that some version of me could have made it but this one didn't so who cares, i don't think about it.
Yeah actually. My grind has been for a few weeks now, rather than wait for the new year.The story was weird.>3 years ago meet femanon online >Become best friends>Knew I wanted girlfriend so said she'd help me>Slowly manipulated me, gaslighting me into believing women liked femboys>Slowly became an emasculated little femboy bitch and had even less attention from women wtf >She slowly distanced herself after getting a girlfriend, telling me she was just making sure I never found anyone while she was single>Realise she wasn't my friend all along and just wanted me to be miserableSo I cut the shit, cut ties with her and discarded everything feminine and hit the weight lifting. I'm rediscovering my masculinity and I'm loving it.No this isn't some weird fantasy, I wish it was all made up.
>>83498405As long as my penis is 4 inches it doesnt matter what I do, i simply lose thats all
>>83501249damn. did she make you wear a chastity and send her pics of you riding a dildo?
>>83498405I have no clue, but I have the feeling my life is going to get either drastically better or drastically worse.
>>83498405Today is the year that I find a fembot to send lewd imagery to me while I complain about how she looks
>>83498886I miss weed so fucking much. I used to bake my own edibles. It's been almost 3 years. Moved back to my shithole east european cunt and dealer ghosted. I just wish someone would help me somehow.
>>83501297Chastity no, but she did blackmail me into a butt plug, and tried to get me to try a dildo but I said hell no how tf is that meant to help me find a girlfriend, and she changed subject.
>>83498405I am working on quitting alcohol and losing weight. I only had three drinks yesterday and haven't had a single one today.I think I've only had about 1000 calories so far today and I'm gonna try to swim a quarter mile tomorrow. once I'm in shape and lose my fat pad (need to lose about 20-30lbs) I am going to try clamping my penis to improve girth (my girth is below average) so I can be better in bed (I'm already pretty experienced I just hate being a pencil dick)
>>83498405Self-improvement is for people who haven't been completely fucked over my reality or are too blind to see it. Unfortunately, it's completely over for me. My fate is no longer in my hands
>>83501270I think if you cut your dick in half and sew in a bit of pig dick and then sew it back together it can get bigger that's how the leg lengthening works isn't it?
>>83501371Lmfao this has to be trolling
>>83498405> started online business> starting exercising every 2nd day> starting eating right> starting to take control of my mindclose to 100k at the end of the yearlost like 50lbstill have a long way to go but its possibleaccepted that every day is a struggleaccepted that stress is part of lifeaccepted that everyone is out to get meaccepted that my feelings dont matterall of a sudden people treat me with mad respect and im just startinghappy holidays
>>83501327>did blackmail me into a butt plugdid you actually buy one then lmao
>>83501523She sent one to my house, ordered online under my name and address the bitch.
>>83498405Improve for what you faggot? The only thing I'm going to improve this year is the amount of dopamine I can tear out from each day. I'm hedonism maxxing, for myself and myself only.I'm not even going to explain why, everything that could be and has to be said on the topic was already said.
>>83501667bro tahts hot i wish i was you fr
>>83501745It really isn't. She turned out to have BPD and after effectively destroying my self esteem and manhood, she threw me away like a toy once she was bored of me.Now I have a ton of work ahead of me to fix my life and the damage she caused. She was abusive asf.
>>83501761well it sucks for you to fix it but i like that kinda thing. where did you find her?
>>83501789I was inviting random people to Vs on a game on Xbox live.Believe me you don't want to be discarded like a toy. That's your goon brain talking. Wish I'd never met her.
>>83501807damn thats crazy bro i would've thought you found her on 4chan since its more of a femcel fetish. anyway, the problem with girls like that are they have zero sexual attraction to turning men feminine. maybe she did it for fun idk then gave up. sorry to hear though but im sure you can overcome it. it could've been way worse. like making you wear chastity or some shit and shrinking your dick (that happens)
>>83501839Was just a random add online, pure chance. She's the most mentally unwell girl I have ever met, and it was a lesson well learned.I won't waste energy on hating her, she's not worth it.I have no idea why she got close to me, ruined me then threw me away. I trusted her and got played. It's on me for being naive. I'm fixing things, it'll be a hard road ahead but I'll get there. I have my limits, even she wasn't tricking me into some dick cage crap, some fetishes should stay fantasy.
>>83501211>I want it under the terms that I am a different person than I am now.so true>But I don't want it enough to put in that work and tryyou can't change yourself that drastically, you'd need a brain transplant from some chad who drove his corvette into a tree
>>83501249>gaslighting me into believing women liked femboyshow is it you fell for this part? just close the discord window.
>>83501919Like I said, she manipulated me over time. Got me dependent and trusting on her alone and everything she said. It was just us all day every day. It was a slow burn of manipulation and as someone who never got that kind of attention before, I fell for it.
>>83501935I'd obviously rather be anyone else than what I am but I think I can find some small consolation in knowing I'm so far gone and undesirable it would never ever work on me. Not that I'll ever get to have a gf but it's actually more likely I'd be the one to break up with her first because I'd just never buy that it's actually happening.
>>83501964I understand how you feel, but you should give yourself more credit. You've got an immunity I didn't have, and I'm paying for it now.We were only friends (or so I thought any ways), us not dating was a bullet dodged. She wanted to destroy who I am just so she could feel better about herself.
>>83498405This year? That is not enough time. Just a few days left? I wasted the whole year. Darn. Anyway, I am on track on to working on my cardio more and getting down to running a mile in about 5 minutes. Learning two languages and I applied for the JET program. I hope they accept me and I can improve myself more. I am not a fan in where I am in life. I am stuck in a small town and a job that i no longer care for. I want something that will challenge me and make me proud of the work i am doing. I will figure it out eventually. Thanks anon.
>>83502148Looks like Kyoto fushimi inari I've been there. Go at 5am there's no people
>>83498405Yes, my New Year's Resolution is to be openly antisemitic
Vietnam a meaningless evil war that made everyone hate us for no good reason and ruined the usa before I was born.
>>83502162Yeah I enjoyed it a lot. It was a fun workout and talking and seeing all the neat people. I was surprised at how good that vanilla cone was near the top. Looking forward to moving there if my plan comes to fruition,
>>83498405got a gf who seem to actually like me for just me and i can finally get my license back after 4 years in the coming months. might very well.at 28 its high time i start taking care of my health. i've sort of been clowning on guys who work out like some weeks 4 times and some weeks 1 time doing casual runs or whatever but over time all the guys i knew who went to the gym seriously have a long list of injuries or got kids and let themselves go, guys who never went to the gym, kinda like me, are getting knee injuries, hernias, diabetes and back pain left right and center. i really got to get on that shit because the only reasonable fit and healthy dudes i know who i can actually talk to without it just being listening to all their fucking health problem like we're 60 year old grandmas are the dudes who lifted and exercised casually. i enjoy hiking more and more, might get more into skiing too during the winter. when i finally get my license back and a car i can go to more forgiving trails instead of wandering around the marshlands behind my apartment.that said every time i said shit like this it turned out to be my worst year ever so we'll see.>>83501700godspeed anon. basically what i did these last couple of years. if you're getting into drugs then speed and cocaine is a wild fucking ride.
>>83502246japanese ice cream is pretty tasty. Hopefully your plan works out. I miss that place. I walked like 10 miles a day lost so much weight. I was there for six months.
>>83502037>You've got an immunity I didn't haveI wish I didn't. I wish I could believe anyone would ever want to be with me but there's just no evidence of this so it must not be true.
>>83502451>got a gf>probably morbidly obesewhat the hell man
No, it's over. I'm just gonna game. Gonna try to get 100 hours in each steam game I have.
>>83502586Also my bad I was in the theater watching avatar. Six months? Damn ok. I was there for three weeks. What all were you there for? It was just a much needed vacation for me.
>>83498405I've been trying to improov for years now and life only gets worse. 2025 is actually the worst year I've had in a long time. I'm planning on going back to school in 2026 but I'll be fucking 35 by then, it doesn't even feel like there's a point anymore. I'm pretty sure I fucked up my life permanently, I think I'm going to have to KYS myself eventually and these are my last few years left alive.
