>If you just need someone to listen>Talk to>I'm here, I've got you. Let it all out. Frustrations, what's on your mind, drop your thoughts, no filter.
idk, im just really unsure lately
I'm on the cusp of middle age and I'm burned out. Problem is I've done nothing with my life so why the hell am I so exhausted. I'm tired of feeling nothing but apathy. I want to do more, be more for my family. But I feel so weak. I am far from having a hard life, yet I feel as though the slightest inconvenience breaks me. There's a hole in my soul and rather than fix it; I fill it with absolute junk. But the more I think the worse I feel.
>>83500127Would you like to say what you're unsure about? It's okay if that's all you want to let out too...Sometimes it's best to just get the words out
Yes. I'm tired of that Mike guy talking on random threads that have nothing to do with him. I have tried posting vent threads talking about my problems, and I can't get this Mike tripfag to stop talking about himself on them. It's quite annoying if you ask me. It would be really nice if he just minded his own business. This happens on letter threads, too.
>>83500211Indulging in distractions that are available around you as satiations from reaching what fulfills you.I know that feeling and I know how much it feels like system shock, frozen, and every thought forward feels like trudging through waist high mud. Thinking about the future where you are complete feels overwhelming because all your mind focuses on is the lack of it and the steps in between added up. To self soothe it's common to self-sabotage your own route forward so that you won't have choices but to be in a place you don't want to be.
>>83500226This post is the response. >>83498936>>83498953
>>83499191Me too fuck that Mike nigga
Part of strength is the ability to identify and ignore childish narc negative same fag behavior.
>>83500255Not reading that nonsense. Get a grip. I'm just a person trying to use this "anonymous" board, just like any other anon. Good thing is you're using a trip, so you can be easily filtered.>>83500277That's your problem. You refuse to accept you're annoying, so all you can do is think everyone has a conspiracy against you. Sucks to be you, I guess. I'm also happy I ruined your thread.
Negative narc posting such as that is only reflective of what a shitty person they are. Do not allow toxic people such as that to affect your day. Carry on because the wind does not affect intent. Unfortunately this site has negative people like that who will attempt to ruin things Good to recognize that they carry empty words. The thread in my heart carries on This thread carries onPlease ignore any and all negative posts such as that. Carry on
>>83498983>>83498842Two more threads ruined by this retard. This person is also using this website as a dating app, so if you ever see the discord tag "FromSunToMoon" being posted on here, it's him.
>>83500446 I am Making a post in a thread the same as any other Anon making a post in a threadJust because you have an issue does not mean that others should as well.Keep your negativity to yourself
>>83500468>Keep your negativity to yourselfI think I'll follow your advice here>I am Making a post in a thread the same as any other Anon making a post in a threadThank you for your suggestion though. I can make a post in a thread like anyone else.
Good waves bump
>>83499191I can break the cuffs. It would be painful with risk of irreversible damage, but I'd be able to help everyoneIf I don't break the cuffs, I suffer no pain but everyone around me suffersWat do
>>83499191There is no longer a feasible path of causality that can lead to me not killing myself. I'm not even depressed anymore, just running out of prospects.
>>83501388There's enough unsaid in your situation that I cannot advise.
>>83501390I believe that everyone has a "finality clause". It is specific to each individual. If "this" happens then that is the result. Choosing not to live in the same world as that reality is your choice. I would never guilt you for making that choice. If others feel guilt for it that is on them. Depending on your situation you may choose to say what your thing is. Unfortunately they may misperceive it has manipulative when you were just being honest about what the truth is and telling them. However they decide to react to that is their side. Just keep the path and if your finality clause happens then You already know the result. I'm sorry if that has happened to you, In my belief I believe you will find peace after. I'm not encouraging anything, but I am recognizing how you feel and respecting your decision based on your own finality clause
>>83499191I'm at a point in my life where it feels like I've missed the boat on a lot of things and I'm just destined for a life of mediocrity. A lot of people in and formerly in my life are successful at things. I didn't ever think it'd be me who felt left behind. I've achieved things in the past but right now I feel completely lost and directionless.
>>83501516You're probably a bot but whateverYou know, it's messed up. I shouldn't be capable of stagnating this hard. Humans are meant to be pack hunters- Life was always inherently dynamic, Isolation wasn't possible. This whole situation shouldn't even exist. This is a brand new type of hurt.In the future it will be recognized and addressed somehow. This is the only time it will hit someone as hard as it does.
>>83501741I got into a conversation in a caribou that is very similar to what you said, So you are not alone in that feeling. I'm any place in my life where I have achieved a lot in the past forward is only exponentially better to the point where things are happening and given to me so fast that it is overwhelming to keep up. For me there is a spark. A level of creationism and natural curiosity, drive to learn, adapt, and create things. Learning a new skill set or spending days diving into a 300 tab wiki deep dive is fun for me. I found during the conversation that the person essentially wanted me to give them the idea that would make them successful, they were unable to come up with it themselves and struggle to even know how to bring something to fruition. I think what it comes down to is Do you have the spark?
>>83501759I'm not a bot, but that's something about would say, isn't it? Beep boop beepI'm sorry you were having difficulty, Your finality clause is unique to you and the results of such is specific to what you are bound to. It just is.
>>83501811>Do you have the spark?I did, and I think I still do, but I'm going through a big depression right now and its hard to find. I know what I'm good at but those paths haven't necessarily worked out in the way I thought they would. I don't know wether to try and find something new I'm good at or try and reinvigorate my old passions, either way feels like a cope when I'm still trying to get my drive back.
>>83502134I dislike the word try. You were never trying the action, you are doing it and it just takes time and perseverance to build that skill up.
