>feel like i want to kms>every test and every person online tells me to go to a doctor>"So anon, do you want to kill yourself">"Well u-uhm you see-"how do i just say it? i don't know why but every time im there i just can't say anything. its like my head switches to some alternative personality that is all PC and not edgy at all. How do i make myself say "Yes doctor i have nothing to strive for in life and just want to die" instead of doing this stupid masking?
>>83506187molly. i'm serious.
Maybe Ur embarrassed by the fact U want to kys and the fact U have no goals? I mean I get pretty embarrassed when talking to people about anything bothering me, idk if it's the same with you
>>83506251im not sure. i think everybody can see that i have nothing planned in life and i don't think that that weighs on me. i think its just that social interactions are a learned thing for me and don't come natural so anything that goes against the programming is very hard. appearing normal and non-corny is part of what i learned.
It just means you have your own feelings/reasons that don't translate well to words. Until the time comes when you find some way to express why you wanna kys, you won't able to communicate your whys to anyone.Best to keep it to yourself until then. There's nothing in it for you to discuss this with anyone. Best case, you'll just come off as an attentionwhore.
>>83506378what would the worst case be? coming off as a attentionwhore and thus ruining your chances of being taken seriously seems really bad already
>>83506409Some people believe that you becoming an hero hurts *them* instead of *you*. To these people, your admission to suicide ideations is a hostile act and they are the victims. You can guess what comes next.Pic related is not a universally-accepted perspective.
>>83506447is it possible to break the news to people like that in a way that doesn't make everything even worse?
>>83506187Write a tl;dr and give it to the doctor, tell him it's hard for you to talk about it directly.
