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I'm confined in an infinite pain and angst. I will keep the cause a little vague, but it is just bad, suffering like that, because there is no escape and no perfect solution. The only solution to end this pain is to ignore a thing that I value, and I can't do that, I don't want to. But the main thing is this pain of not being able to do what I love anymore, and not only that but a few things more. People treat it as absurd, but it's really painful to me. Nobody feels my pain, everybody can make it worse just by existing with me. This world is aggressive and dirty, really. I would like to have something better to write. I actually had a good stream of consciousness when I was on the bus a few moments ago. Things are just too stressful. And I was reading The Catcher in the Rye again and now I'm worrying about writing similarly to Holden, absorbing its "voice". I don't want that. No matter how good the prose is, it just isn't the way I would like to write things, be it on 4chan posts or my diary, be it on my own fictional writings. But hell, the prose is just good. I've read 210 pages in 4 days and a half.
i'm drinking and incelishly shitposting all day instead of workingi'm not going to be able to pay my bills and i'll lose suppliers and my life will be fuckedddddddddddd
>>83507943Kinda wish I had a drunk girl asking me if I would still love her if she was a worm while I consider shooting myself because I feel like a cornered rat
>>83507943Can't think of anything that's not too grim to post but something that's been on my mind are the robot discussions on this board, the semantics keep shifting and sometimes latch onto details that seem oddly specific and strange, maybe even a little aggressive since the term is often used as an attempt to dehumanize.Maybe there should be a dating show where r9k posters (male) wake up trapped in a mansion and are instructed to debate what being a truebot means and to vote out those who are suspected to be too normal based on evidence they gather through psychological warfare. the penalty for elimination is (pseudo) death.>That doesn't sound like a dating show? THAT'S THE PUNCHLINE, because if they fell in love and started dating i' the show they'd be eliminated HAHAHAHA
>>83507943Blunt rolled badly so it's pulling a bit tight. Little windy outside, kind of want to smoke in my room. Starsector warno bloodlines kingmaker bloodlines warno starsector what to play what to play. Fixed the blunt pulling good, not too windy just enough to feel a breeze.
