I spent about a year (give or take) strategically getting myself addicted to porn and casual sex with the goal of reconditioning my brain and changing my sexual orientation and it worked but in the process it also created a host of other psychological problems I have to deal with
>the goal of reconditioning my brain and changing my sexual orientationElaborate? You made yourself straight?
>>83641332other way. I made myself gay. I'm a misogynist and I hate women so I sought to cut them out off as many areas of my life as possible, including as the focus of sexual fixation. at first I thought about eliminating my libido entirely but that proved too difficult a task, so I decided instead to redirect my orientation toward homosexuality and succeeded there, with caveats.
>>83641386>decide to psyop yourself into becoming gay instead of facing reality and getting over your misogynyyou are straight up retarded, no other way to put it
>>83641386What caveats?>>83641503>women crying about misogyny while giving men no reason to not be misogynistHe made the right choice.
>>83641503the reality is that misogyny is a strength because women are subhuman psychopaths and must not be respected as legitimate people.>>83641510>What caveats?I've been forcing myself to have sex with a minimum amount of men for the majority of this project's duration and that has fomented averse effects, particularly related to post-orgasm anxiety, stress and disgust. I've succeeded in rewiring my arousal responses toward the male form and when I think sexual thoughts, my mind now defaults to men over women, but after I cum I feel a crushing, almost existentially so, sense of regret. I'm currently working on correcting this response too but it's led to some rather stressful incidents (e.g. in one incident I vomited into a man's bathroom sink immediately after a sexual encounter with him, and on many other occasions I ended up crying and hyperventilating afterward). it's not so bad if you push through, but I can't wait for that feeling to be gone.
Youre vomiting and crying because you know deep down its wrongShow yourself some love and leave the gay stuff behindJesus loves you bro and I love you too will be praying for you Jesus is GodDont worry about the women for now and just love yourself first and probably get yourself checked for STDs brother wishing you all the best
>>83641841>jew on a stick cult babblingkys
>>83641386>thought about eliminating my libido entirely but that proved too difficult a taskAntiandrogens work, anon.
That picture of adachi is so hot I actually want to bash his skull in and rub his grey matter all over me
>>83641386>>83641662Imagine being this spectacularly retarded, you should just straight up kill yourself at this point.
But fr I used to be a lesbian before I found adachi now I don't like ANYONE except him.
>>83641841bit late to stop now 2bh. I'm almost finished anyway, just a few small things to work out and I'm done. >>83641869for many reasons, I'd prefer not to use any drugs or substances during this process, especially not those developed by the pharmaceutical industry and prescribed by medical doctors. >>83641883>>83641902no idea who that is honestly. I just used the most recent pic I found at the bottom of the catalog. >>83641895its mostly worked. you remain a slave to pussy. who's the retard now?
>>83641883>>83641902it's no surpriselook how cute he is!
>>83641923#With God nothing is impossible OP only when you give up on yourself do you actually loseDont listen to any of the haters on here if you want to change your life you can and no one can stop youGod has got your back and dont hate yourself thats a trap that holds you back from being mentally stable
>>83642038>more jew on a stick yapping
>>83642010I would do unspeakable things to him. I would legitimately do EVIL things to be able to give him the most dangerous head ever. He's so cute I want to die with him In a normal and non-retarded way obviously. Ignore my shrine wall. He's so cute :3
>>83642061Praying for you too
>>83642073>Ignore my shrine wallyou can't just mention an adachi shrine and NOT post it
>>83642038sorry anon I tried the whole god thing for the first like half of my life and I don't believe in any of it. I want to be gay and am going to be gay even if it kills me which it might but whatever. >>83642073is the cabbage supposed to signify something? is that like a thing with his character?
>>83641386You could've just taken SSRIs and been done with it.
>>83641503Lol seething foid. They always get mad when a man doesn't want their hole
>>83642109>hating women is inherently irrational and nobody wants to avoid them for a good reasontheyve got a hole in the brain too
>>8364103Nothing you have to apologize for, I sincerely hope you find joy and peace in your life anon. Have a good one
>>83642103>>83642157Tagged it wrong
>>83642098This picture is 1) old2) doesn't even show the whole thing or my standees / most of my home made trinketsAnd I dont get back to campus for a week so no full shrine reveal yet :(
>>83642184looks coolyou should post the full version the next time you make an adachi thread
>>83642105yeah but, as I said here >>83641923, I don't want to use pharmaceuticals to accomplish this kind of thing. ssris are especially evil. >>83642157>>83642161you too anon, take care out there. :)hopefully if you see one of my threads again by this time next year I'll be doing much better.
>>83641386This is why I say men need onaholes and to let go of wanting female validation >>83637379
>>83642261I need human to human sexual contact. a sex toy won't cut it.
>>83642277You said you tried to be asexual at first and couldn't do it (which makes sense) and because of that you've tried to force yourself to be gay. Sexual orientation isn't a choice, you are either straight, bisexual, or gay. Gay conversion therapy works about as well as straight conversion therapy, as in 0, as your body is screaming at you about. You are literally better off hiring a prostitute than getting on grindr and doing gay stuff you don't wanna do.
This is the how to guide, I still recommend you get a fleshlight/tenga/onahole and work from there.>>>/jp/50562220
>>83642305>Sexual orientation isn't a choice, you are either straight, bisexual, or gay. Gay conversion therapy works about as well as straight conversion therapy, as in 0, as your body is screaming at you about. this is where you're very wrong. sexual orientation can absolutely be changed, as with just about everything else in the human psyche; you just can't go about it the way christians would have you do it, because their methods are ineffectual. your brain always maintains some degree of adaptability and plasticity. changing your orientation is just a matter of establishing and reinforcing certain neural pathways while starving out other, pre-established ones. this works with just about any other formed habit. thing is, within the contexts of sex, you'll have to indulge in sexual behaviors and activities that the Christian conservatives would consider highly sinful in order to accomplish this, which is why their methods of AVOIDING that kind of stimulation outright in an attempt to stay 'pure' doesn't work. if you want to change your orientation, you certainly can do that, an in fact changes in sexual orientation as a result of porn usage is pretty well-documented, but you'll have to actively sexualize any particular gender you'll want to be attracted to. most traditional "conversion therapy" methods rely on prayer and negative aversion (torture). my approach is more...goony. porny.
>>83642504I'm an atheist. What you are doing is doomed to fail. Just bang sex toys or hookers.
>>83642546so am I, but as I said earlier, changes in sexual interest as a direct result of porn consumption and overconsumption are very well documented. constant, repeated exposure to the right kinds of sexual stimuli can gradually shift your sexual interests, and if you choose to consciously avoid certain types of stimuli, you can numb your brain's responses to them over time, meaning you can harness that stimuli and morph your sexual orientation strategically.so far it's already been working. I do feel genuine sexual attraction to men that I did not experience before starting this, and I have recently begun to enjoy sexual encounters with them. now I'm just working on the response that kicks in post-orgasm. the female body no longer disgusts me but it also no longer provokes any notable physiological response in me at all. you could do it to if you really wanted to. toys are great but not enough and I assume that by hookers you mean female hookers, which defeats the purpose. I want women out of my life in as many practical forms as possible and will go to whatever lengths needed to avoid them.
>>83641895>t. malding because he didn't think of it first
>>83641503>face reality>stop being a misogynistpick one
>>83642592no nigger, what you're explaining is just latent bisexuality with extra steps
>>83643421sure, I suppose you could theoretically describe it that way. it's essentially just deliberately conditioned bisexuality. but my sexual feelings for women have rapidly dissipated along with my romantic feelings for them as well, so it's practically homosexuality at this point. uncontrolled porn consumption does inevitably lead to bisexuality though.
>>83643425>uncontrolled porn consumption does inevitably lead to bisexuality thoughSounds like an easier path than what you did.And far more pleasant too.>t. bigod
>>83643687your preference is your preference but I personally cannot see how anyone could possibly view interacting with females as pleasant by any stretch of the imagination. it seems better to be gay than bi to me.
Just jack off to femboy hentai. It's so much easier than what you're doing.
