>be me, foid who found an exploit in the loneliness engine>acquired bf from /soc/ like a misclick that cleared the whole board>not a situationship, an actual reciprocal human attachment>the simulation didn't account for this. neither did I.>he's asleep on the other side of the sea>staring at his discord status like it contains scripture>met him three (3) times irl>now I exist knowing what his heartbeat sounds like but can't access it>someone in 1847 threw herself under a train over less & they put it in the curriculum>we fell asleep on call & I almost recorded his breathing>I'm not weird. I'm an archivist.>some ancient Greek ripped her poems over a girl & they called it foundational>I'm simply innovating on the format>the longing is load-bearing at this point>touched his stupid perfect face 47 times & remember each one>what if some local girl perceives him in 3D while I render him from videos>she has PROXIMITY. she could smell him WHENEVER.>I will become her problem>I made him videos. plural. the kind you delete your telegram for.>he has a folder of me & I think about it at 3am with my whole chest>some French guy wrote 500 pages about waiting by the phone & got awards>I have simply adapted the tradition>currently: missing him so bad it's somatic>also: profoundly aroused>these are occurring simultaneously & I don't know what to do with my hands>the third visit broke me. learned what he smells like waking up. ruined now.>some Yorkshire man on a moor had nothing on me>considered booking a flight at 3am. closed tab. opened it again.>I could simply be normal about this>instead I'm on a Bangladeshi kite-fighting forum seeking validation>when we close the distance I'll be so chill>lie>wat do when you love someone so much the sea feels like a personal attack from god>asking for a friend (the friend is me) (flight tab open) (feral) (I want to bite him)
you will never be a woman, do get a job
nobody will ever feel about me like this. ropefuel
>>83658750>tfw will never have a cultured, literate woman like this who wants to physically merge with me and become a collective consciousnessCongrats, you actually managed to make me feel jealous, while hundreds of daily "Chad fucks hot bitches and you don't haha" threads do nothing. I grant you permission to brag to him that your schizo rambling managed to make one of the most jaded, pessimistic, cynical posters here feel jealousy. Now I'm gonna go sleep so I can feel disappointed again when I wake up as with every morning.
XX chromosomes & ultrasound-confirmed uterus but go off; he's also a NEET: we're both drains on society. it's called compatibility. >>83658764aw but anon this is the most romantic reply I've ever received on here & it wasn't even from my boyfriend, shhhhhh, your cynicism cracked, that's exactly the kind of thing some foid will one day find unbearably attractive, the jaded ones love the hardest once breached. I know this. I am also like this. sleep. dream of something that doesn't disappoint. & when you wake up, know that a strange woman on the internet is genuinely rooting for you. >>83658790
This ranting is quite enjoyable
>>83658781you say rope, I say: outlast the oddsone must imagine sisyphus swiping rightI was also convinced I was structurally unlovable & then some man on /soc/ decided to make me his problemthe feral foid who will memorize your sleep schedule hasn't loaded into your timeline yet
>>83658750LDRs fucking suck. I don't think they can work for a long time, so good luck.Also, how do I pull a woman who is into Nier?
>that picTrust me, Tyrone has PROXIMITY. He splits his ass WHENEVER.
>>83658750>be an foid who did not do all that>rewatching jjk and playing shapez>daydreaming about dating the guy who speaks in rice ball ingredients and communicating through emotions and physical touch>after i close my computer i will think about killing myself for a few hours and fall asleep>then i will wake up and have to go to workwish i could steal your story for my life
>>83658879he got me into NieR, was adamant we start with Replicant & I love him for thatcorrect onboarding protocol. this is how you build a foid who will sob at the Kaine ending & then want to be physically close to you about it.the distance is tough but I stayed over a month at his place last timeI won't let this man exit my narrative, stap>how to pull a woman into NieRI don't even play, I watch him play, offering commentary & emotional support when he misses a combo, also Idk, I'd do anything to sit next to him & enjoy a piece of his day, him being into Yoko Taro's emotional terrorism is just an added bonus.>>83658941hi cutie, was also just surviving once. now I'm posting feral manifestos at 5am about a man I met on /soc/. the script do be flipping sometimes.
>>83658750>stupid perfect faceThere it is. Every day I manifest being reincarnated as a turbo-handsome Chad that women fall in love with on sight, just so I can break their hearts in the most sadistic ways possible. Maybe then they'll consider me as a human being.
>>83658750i really wish you'd just keep it yourself, hiding the thread
>>83659020my man isn't some Chad. he's just a guy with a face I happen to want to perceive forever.I looked at his face & something in my brain simply declared war on reason. the unhinged kind of foid you want is not checking on your bone structure, you sweet simpleton.>>83659065no <3my unhinged is a public service now
You are still a shallow whore who only cares for looks and height. I hope you end up as a crazy cat lady spinster and when you die your cats eat you.
>>83659103His face is bone structure dumbass. Also how old are you?Also I don't believe you're foid either fag, but the OP did hurt my feelerinos so congrats. No one is ever going to want my fuckin ugly sack of malformed bones.
>>83658750>we fell asleep on call & I almost recorded his breathing>almostWhy didn't you? When I was invested in my online ex gf I would record video and snap photos from all of our calls. Got some incredible pics from that desu, but I can't appreciate them anymore because she's such a stupid, hylic bitch.
>>83659149>bone structureI've been viscerally attracted to men who looked like a Picasso sketch gave up halfway. bone structure is a cope. I'm 28, also anon, do me a favour, stap projecting a universal rejection based on a sample size you've convinced yourself is complete.>>83659151cowardice mostly. also he'd probably find it endearing & that felt worse somehow, being loved through the unhinged. also, I'd rather make space for his homemade porn.>hylic bitch.pulling out Gnostic insults in 2026, I respect the vocabularysorry she didn't have the pneuma to match yours, anon.
OP I wish someone would surprise pour acid on you.
>be me>never even talked to a girl for long enough for either of us to be interested in eachother>until a girl added me off of a /soc/ post and i think she's perfect and she actually likes me back>fall in love and have experiences extremely similar to yours, down to falling asleep on vc, without the meeting irl even though i wanted toexcept she unadded me after like 7 months because she started hating me lolyour post almost made me cry but i am happy that it's going better for you than it did for melong distance relationship really is something. just reading "i love you" over text from a woman i've never met made me require a new pair of underwear, no joke. i miss being happy
>>83658750The key to this larp is >1847>Touch face 47 timesIt's a 47 larp Ignore
>>83659235Trauma unrelated to us, me
>>83659228>>83659140hope whatever's hurting you hurts less tomorrow <3>>83659235well, she was calibration. the real run is next. she built the architecture. someone else will live in it.
>>83659269There's nothing hurting me. You're just dumber than rocks
>>83659269>she was the calibrationmaybe. i used to worry that i would get a gf and then still be unhappy. atleast now i know that having a gf would unironically just solve my issues. no idea where to go from here though, ive been trying to meet another girl online since november and i havent found one that i ended up speaking to for more than a few hourshow long were you looking before you found your bf?
i can't tell if this thread is ropefuel or hopefuel. i'm going to choose the latter for my own sake. she WILL find me. and i WILL make sure she doesn't regret it
>>83659397both virgins. both first relationships. both convinced it would never happen.I waited a lifetime for someone to see me & so did he.we met in the middle of our own skepticism & built something neither of us believed we deserved.everything we know, we learned on each other desu, also, keep looking, anon, you don't find her by searching harder. you find her by staying on the air long enough.
>>83659482>both virgins. both first relationships. both convinced it would never happen.>I waited a lifetime for someone to see me & so did he.>we met in the middle of our own skepticism & built something neither of us believed we deserved.thats so nice that i started smiling when i read itim in a good mood now thx>you don't find her by searching harder. you find her by staying on the air long enough.true. i guess ill just try to stay sane long enough while im waiting
>>83658750Anon.. Do you speak this eloquently out loud, too? I'm very jealous. How are you like this? I think there is something wrong with me. Most of the time I don't say much, partially out of shyness, but also because I simply have nothing to say. I know this is off-topic but I had to ask, I really really love the way you type ^^
>>83659538>stay sane while waitingsanity is optional. I'm held together with yearning & spite & somehow a man still wants me.you don't have to be stable. you just have to be there when she arrives.she's probably also barely holding it together somewhere, waiting for someone like you to make it make sense.>smilinggood. save that. she's going to want to see it. <3
OP: FaggotEvery person who's even slightly sympathetic to her bullshit: An even bigger faggotThis entire thread: A garbage heap
>>83659443True, My girl will find me and I Will make sure she doesn't regret it
Attention seeking retards like OP should:1) Leave this board2) Kill themselves.
>>83659564>do you speak like this out loudno. out loud I'm such a stammering, restarting, losing the thread mid-sentence kind of mess.the version of me that writes like this only exists in the delay between thought & keyboard. she needs the buffer time to assemble.>I have nothing to sayyou just said something kind to someone you'll never meet, without expecting anything back. that's not emptiness, that's presence. nothing wrong about shyness either, it isn't absence of language. it's language held close, released carefully. some people pour out. some people steep. you're like tea, nothing wrong with tea, right?
>>83659644You should kill yourself. You piss me off and are truly a shining example of how narcissistic, vitrolic and genuinely psychotic women can be. You contribute absolutely nothing to the world and your parents are ashamed of you.
>>83658750you are not a womanthis is the syntax of a tranny
>>83659579you are very good at motivating or whatever you'd call it. gonna be thinking about this for atleast a few weeks whenever i feel downthanks again <3
>>83658750>acquired bf from /soc/The only guys that ever get attention on /soc/ are dark triad types. on /r9k/ too, you have the same few gunjy-tier guys with literal harems and that's it.
>>83659710>dark triad types.you're watching the guys who stayed on the board & assuming they won.they're still there because they're still looking. the ones who actually connected? gone. building something quiet. on a late night call.my bf isn't dark triad. he's gentle & strange & chose me specifically, not as part of a collection.the foids who wanted to be collected got collected. rest of us want to be chosen.different game entirely. & it's being played off-stage.
>>83659757You would've spat in his face if he was ugly, missy. Don't give us this virtue signalling shit.
>>83658750How do people even find partners on soc?
>>83659757That's a fair point I suppose.
>>83659644Agh. You're really good at this. Thank you so much for the advice and the kindness. I'm a bit younger than you so I hope maybe with time I can learn to write as well as you do <3<3
>>83659774>how do people find partners on socby accident.he posted his discord. no bait, no performance, no angle.I clicked because I was awake & empty & he was there.we talked until 6am. then did it again. repetition became the whole argument.novelty is tourism. he wasn't novel. he was consistent.kept logging on. kept listening. kept not leaving.that's it. presence + time + staying. the whole proof.most people are looking for a spark, we built a fire by showing up with kindling every night until it caught. & it did.
>>83658750You are clearly a bpdemon so you should kill yourself before you ruin him. He doesn't deserve the evil of your presence near him.
>>83659833chatgpt-generated post
>>83659910>>83659931yes. I hope whatever's rotting inside you finds its way out eventually, though. <3chatgpt? how dare u, anon, this is artisanal mental illness.
Damn, this is my dream, I want this sort of mutual yandere love, preferably not on the other side of the globe so we can live toghether foreverAre you sure you're not a bpdemon in the idolization stage though, op?
>>83660404>Are you sure you're not a bpdemon in the idolization stage though, op?fair question, I've asked myself numerous times, but, we've fallen asleep on call enough times that I know what he sounds like unconscious. I'm not filling gaps with my imagination; seen him at his least curated.the pedestal requires not knowing. I know.still chose this. still choosing. still feral. still want him. though, the bpdemon knows what she wants & it's not a fantasy. it's him, specific & real. all of him.
>>83658750I was gonna say something like>>83658790what that guy saidI want a woman (or a femboy) who screams her love for me into the anonymous void of the internet like you're doing
>>83660458You are amazing, both your eloquence and your passion, I wish I had a yandere gf just like you, you fill me with hope. Do you have realistic plans to start living toghether? One of you should just learn the language and move over to the other. I am sure you can endure the wage existance if you have each other to come home to. Imagine getting to smell, taste, hear, see him every day and cuddle in bed all you want and know you will never ever be separated again.
>>83658750Most men in LDRs live in constant fear that their partner is cheating on them, and often it is the case. But here you are professing your love anonymously to a tibetan basket weaving forum. To say that I'm jealous of him would be an understatement. I can only cope by saying to myself that this is just the honeymoon phase, and that you won't be singing this same tune a year from now. But for his sake, I hope I'm wrong.
>>83660476>I wish I had a yandere gf just like you,she exists. she's somewhere, also unable to sleep, also waiting. stay findable.>realistic planswe're making them. slowly. bureaucracy is its own circle of hell.& to be clear, 'm not a cute quirky foid. I was a full hermit neet. hadn't left my apartment for anything real in longer than I'll say. mental illness as a lifestyle, not an aesthetic. collecting diagnoses, not hobbies.he made me take three flights. I didn't fly before him. was barely eating before him either; he noticed, cared, didn't let me disappear into it.>imagine having him every dayI imagine it so often the imagining has load-bearing walls..he's my /soc/ accident turned answered prayer. a 4chan miracle in a world that doesn't usually allow those.thank you sweet anon, we'll close the gap. the timeline is uncertain but the outcome isn't.
>>83660478>LDRs live in constant fear that their partner is cheating on them,fair. the statistics aren't gentle.but I should tell you where I started: dedicated ewhore. instagram for lingerie content. the whole curated thirst pipeline, running on fumes from strangers.I was so attention-starved I assumed that's all I'd ever be, a mediocre girl who'd "peak" at 25 & fade out chasing validation from men who'd never know me for more than weeks.then I sent him a message, he answered & the whole map changed.almost two years now. I closed the exhibition. the only audience I need is him.>honeymoon phaseyou might be right. but I've never wanted to be someone's proof of concept so badly.he gets my good mornings now. all of them. & I get his. & he opened doors in me I didn't know were sealed. made me feel things I'd filed under "not for people like me."even if it all collapses, I got to be this. I got to feel this.
>>83660580>former ewhore that found love on /soc/Kek there are dozens of us, dozens!
>>83660610the reformed ewhore to devoted girlfriend pipeline is real & thriving, I see... turns out we didn't need saving. just someone worth closing the shop for.
Grats anon, hope everything goes well.
>>83658750I've never seen a greentext be so poetic, good job
All of you faggots are hopeless. You only have a chance of getting a girlfriend like this if you're Chad. I thought we taught you that a while ago.You didn't fucking listen. Go figure. You never fucking listen to us, do you? Enjoy your fake hope, buster.
>>83661856>i just bumped the shittiest thread on the catalogI've made a grave mistake.>>83661004>poeticHAAHHAHAHAHA shut the fuck up, kiddo.>>83660529I'm gonna be praying that your ebf leaves you, don't forget that <3>>83660471Are you Chad?>>83660404Are you Chad?
Wait actually no I didn't, I was sorting by last reply, fug>>83660580You are a worthless leech and you should swing from a tree.
>>83660629You're becoming completely incomprehensible at this point.>>83660660I hope everything goes shit.>>83659954This is the most retarded thing you could've said in response and you said it. You deserve a round of applause.>>83659657Based.
