>>83660613
you are about to receive multiple marriage proposals

>>83660613
Sorry. That sucks. I don't know what to say.

>>83660613
hi do you want to be friends i will give you moral support or whatever i just want to see your face

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> Thinking about maybe finding a man online who wants someone to clean their house and sex every once and a while abroad
Do not do this OP I read an autobiographical webtoon called Nora Swipes Right about an asian girl that did the same thing with multiple different guys and ended up getting lowkey abused and coerced. Do you really want some foreign scrote screaming at you at 2am for not washing a fork properly or threatening to make you homeless if you won't put out
Living at home is just a temporary thing you will get out of it you just need to make a plan. I personally can't be around my parents for more than like a day or I get suicidal myself

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>>83660613
former starving girlie here, you asked to be seen, you asked for hope. here: you wrote this. you asked to be seen. the part of you that did that is still fighting.
feed her. like literally, please eat something. even small. she needs to stay alive long enough to find the door out.
the door exists. I didn't believe it either. I was wrong. dead wrong.

For what it's worth I'm sorry you're going through that :(

>>83660613
You can come to Canada if you want as long as you're willing to contribute at least half to a plane ticket :P

In all seriousness I feel for you but I won't offer prayers because I know they won't work. You shouldn't be counting on deliverance or a saviour that will never come, and from what you described I doubt your problems will improve on their own. You need to live more consciously and focus on doing the things that will help you get better, otherwise your situation will continue to degrade like a malignant rotting wound. I know it might hurt to look at it and face it, but you need to if you have any hope of getting out of this.

Sorry if it's not the answer you wanted but I would rather be a voice of lucidity. Stop praying for deliverance that won't come. Alternatively you can come to Canada if you want...the world is filled with strange opportunities, doors but they don't open themselves.

>>83660650
day 3. i hear the sounds again. i almost went to check but stopped myself. i know there must be a way out. there must be. day 4. i was wrong. dead wrong.

>>83660635
I literally cannot hold down a job right now without fainting bursting into tears. Im trying so hard not to hurt myself. At least if the man didn't love me perhaps I could actually branch out from the dynamic into something better. My options here are extremely limited. I need to figure out an internet money hack/job from my phone until I can get a computer. I want to feel like I can make a plan but the starvation and daily psychological torture of large dogs barking all day long screaming parents leave me frozen. I feel like im decent at holding conversations online if anyone wants to be friends and try to help me brainstorm on what I should do. Everything seems really difficult and I dont feel like I have it in me anymore. I just watched my ceiling today for almost 4 hours

>>83660613
Why are you american?
Why do you smoke like a subhuman?
Why are you yet again jobless and moneyless?
Why are you a skydaddy worshiping freak?

>>83660678
>I feel like im decent at holding conversations online if anyone wants to be friends and try to help me brainstorm on what I should do. Everything seems really difficult and I dont feel like I have it in me anymore. I just watched my ceiling today for almost 4 hours
Well...you started your post with 4 discontents
>no money
>no friends
>no car
>no job
The last two I can't help with but the first two is something I could help with especially if you want someone to simply talk to, however I sense even if you had an e-friend and $2k you still wouldn't be happy...

There's clearly some void that you're trying to fill...may I ask when's the last time you felt happy or content with life for a prolonged period of time? When did things start going to shit? You're 31 and haven't kill yourself yet...so it couldn't have been nothing but misery...

>>83660662
Do not do this OP. Canada is hell on earth (literally a 4th world shithole) and Canadians are the most evil people I have ever had to interact with in my 35 years of life (and despite being here, I've been forced to interact with all kinds of people).

>>83660718
What did Canada and canadians ever do to you? From my experience it just seems at the very least a slightly better version of the US unless you're extremely wealthy, but even then it's not bad

Besides I doubt OP is seriously considering anything.

>>83660735
Canada tells veterans to kill themselves and lets cannibals roam free what are you smoking

>>83660621
this
>>83660613
i am free op

>>83660741
You sure you're not thinking of Sudan? I've never heard any problem with vets being treated with dignity or getting benefits probably since we don't have a bloated military like the US so vet benefits aren't a big portion of our budget (and I would know...my Dad's family are a family of soldiers and police officers lol) the only thing that comes to mind with cannibals roaming free is the killing of Timothy McLean where a crazy Chinese schizo beheaded some kid and ate parts of his body later got released because he wasn't schizo anymore crazier shit happens in the US every hour though

To be fair Canada has gotten shitted up with a variety of problems recently but it's not too bad when you consider the whole world has, anyway never heard of anyone having such a vehemently negative opinion of Canada usually we're just wonderfully forgettable

>>83660741
>Canada tells veterans to kill themselves
Why should veterans not kill themselves? They went to war to KILL people

>>83660613
>If you past by this post and manage to read until this point can you pray for me or something?
I'll pray for you, but I don't consider myself a good person, and the Bible says the prayer of a righteous man avails much. I am definitely not a righteous person. Oh well, hopefully things look up for you, anon. Don't end your life either. You are loved.

>>83660735
Canada has every last bad part of the US. Any shit policy the US implements immediately makes it to Canada. But Canada has none of the good parts. Example: all employment in Canada is at-will, but all people/businesses/funding sources are extremely conservative so it is nearly impossible to find a job, get funded for a startup, etc. Taxes for the same income bracket are equal to Sweden's, but there is 0 unemployment protection (in Sweden you would get 80% of your income for 100 days, 70% for 50 days, and >50% for another 200 days or some shit like that. In Canada, you will get maximum 30% of your income in practice due to the upper cap they put on it, which is not enough to even pay rent, and that is if the government even pays it at all, which is extremely rare especially nowadays), roads are unironically worse maintained than in the middle of the jungle in Manaus, Brazil, healthcare is one of the worst in the world (and in the past decade or so it has finally been recognized as such by international bodies), and unlike the typical lie to the contrary, due to discrepancies on regional coverage and the federal vs regional duties, anything but the most trivial required tests will not be covered which is why everyone relies on private insurance from work, as well as going to the US for any serious care needs. Nowadays, indians in canada go back to india when they need healthcare unironically.
Canadians are the most duplicitous people on earth. They lie like they breathe and their favorite sport is stabbing people in the back. They are rude, cold, and retarded like the average american redneck. If they ever show any sign of politeness, it's because they're trying to scam you in some way.
Life costs are SF-tier while salaries are Idaho-tier.
Jews wish they had the lack of shame and the greediness of the average quebecker. Chinks look up to the unscrupulousness of torontian managers.

>>83660784
No, he is talking about canada. It's the same with anyone with any kind of chronic pain nowadays, instead of operating they tell them to go kill themselves.
But as usual you are canadian so you're going to lap up the propaganda and lie to defend your country. This is peak canadian behavior.
Meanwhile in the rest of the world people at least acknowledge the problems and defend their country by instead pointing out the good parts. But no. In canada, pure denial of reality is key. There's a reason everyone is on fentanyl and you can't go 5 seconds in a major metro without being harassed by drugged up zombies threatening to kill you for looking at them while they're shooting up in publish as cops point and laugh among themselves at the sight they're all too familiar with.

>>83660808
Don't forget how fucked up their police is too, I bet that anon has never even heard of twilight tours

>>83660712
A e-friend would be amazing and 2k could get me a decent computer or laptop so I can be creative or find work remote work. I thought I was happy a yesr ago my life has slowly deteriorated since I lost my job in a laboratory. Hoped from gig to gig until I lost my car. I've sold most of my things and am just straight up out of money and in debt. Canon events happened from september onwards and now i am completely at my breaking point. I dont think I can live like this anymore my soul feels as if its splitting

>>83660735
I cant afford even half a ticket to Canada and I find that person's disposition very rude. To believe that prayer equates to a monotheistic ideology or that the will of a human beings mind cannot supersede obstacles or other man made things just kinds seems ignorant to me on a quantum level. I know I can get ultimately somehow get out of this fate I just truly think I need assistance and like compassion for my overall health mental and physical. I am not receiving that at all in my living environment infact I am being punished for being alive and needing sustenance.

>>83660790
My parents dont know how to love me realistically these are the only people that "love" me I want to believe in romantic love one day. I believed in platonic love until a series of misfortune events occurred

>>83660811
Very good point. Holy fuck. People complain about US police, they have no fucking idea what cucknadian police is like. Got your house broken into? Yes they'll come get your declaration in 2 weeks and inform you they know these methheads and they've been doing that for years. They'll keep you posted (lol).
You're out in the woods looking at the stars and having a drink on a summer night? You better believe they'll beat you up and make shit up about you resisting or whatever.
New road signage? It'll be installed at a dead angle with 0 advertisement that this has happened, and they'll be hiding so they can fuck with people all month.
Kids fucking around in the metro? They'll threaten to arrest them for doing drugs they don't have.
Brush against one in a busy street? Get a baton to the face for "assault".
The amount of cases of police planting shit (primarily drugs) on completely innocent people they don't like is insane.
The amount of actual crimes they tackle? 0. They only exist to find any excuse to beat people up and abuse their authority.
The only props I'll give is for the RCMP actually arresting mayors for corruption with local mafias, but when they do back-to-back arrests for this reason, obviously it's not working.

>>83660838
>My parents dont know how to love me realistically these are the only people that "love" me I want to believe in romantic love one day. I believed in platonic love until a series of misfortune events occurred
Well, at any rate, God loves you. I feel like a hypocrite for even saying this to you, because I am no example of what a good person should be. But, in my darkest times in life, God was there for me to show me His love. Maybe the only thing that will keep you going at this point is a sincere faith in Jesus Christ. Don't end your life, anon. Things may suck right now, but there is always hope.

>>83660818
If I gave you a 'loan' of $3k so you could get back your feet would you really be happy? Is this really and truly why you're miserable? 3k and a year of hardship is no reason to end your life especially if it was perfectly fine before. Not to be rude this just a manipulative e-begging thread? There's lots of guys who are into findom who would do that have alot more than I do...

I don't believe that is just some narcissist scheme to sucker poor fools like me of money...I think probably maybe you're crying out for help, wishing for help that isn't yourself, wishing someone would help you, that aren't alone in the darkness. Am I wrong?

Anyways...I would seriously give you the money, but I'm curious what it truly is that you are deficient of...well I guess my thoughts outpace my thoughts, sorry about that. You're not alone though...

>>83660771
How do I contact you?

>>83660613
Good luck OP, hopefully it will get better.

>>83660613
>I'm 31 no job no friends no money no car no computer
So get a job so you can get other things more easily.

>My dad says I eat everything
Parents can say dumb things sometimes even if they love you. You have to process what they say and decide if it's them being silly boomers or if it makes sense.

>Thinking about maybe finding a man online who wants someone to clean their house and sex every once and a while abroad
You do what you like but you should clean your own house first, metaphorically speaking. If you're a mess, you shouldn't rush into a relationship as a panacea, you should try to get in a good place.
You should quit smoking and eat 3 normie meals a day (not some bullshit like just the skins). If you're worried about getting fat, exercise. Exercise anyway.

>The closest gas station is a mile and a half away and it is very cold
What business do you have at a gas station if you have no car?

>>83660871
I'm miserable because I dont understand why several things happened to me and why my parents want to deny their only daughter food because employment equals self worth to them this mirrors somw childhood neglect i felt i escaped. I stated in a previous reply I wouldnt mind just being able to afford a decent computer with good processing capabilities so that I can be creative as well as find different source of income possibly remote work. I think I am a very emotional person who really values human life and relationships so when things exit my life it is quite overwhelming. The sensory of my environment is kind of debilitating. I am 118lbs I am 5'3 my muscles are gone it makes me sad. If I knew how to properly execute financial domination I would consider it. I just wanted some sort of reciprocity with another human being where money or employment isn't the main caveat. I used to feel like I had so much to offer the world maybe with my personality and thoughts. Im not so sure now my self concept is kind of shattered right now because I cant feed myself. If this is a begging thread I clearly dont know what im doing. I genuinely just wanted maybe someone to talk to, quips of advice, energetic donation of hope faith and resilience

>>83660921
118lbs 5 foot 3? you fat as hell you should probably keep this up a little longer

>>83660937
that's like 20 BMI, how is that fat as hell?

>>83660937
>118lbs 5 foot 3? you fat as hell you should probably keep this up a little longer
Is this a troll or bait? That is a normal and healthy weight for that height.

>>83660919
My parents do not let me use their cars, how would I get to the job they dont want to even drive me to job if i got a job? There is like nothing around me besides a gas station for anything to consume. When I do walk there I wear 2 sets of clothes and try not to get hit by a car. I get coconut water and a peice of fruit when I can afford to do so.

Smoking is keeping me awake, I would love to eat 3 meals a day if I could I love working out doing yoga and breath work has kept me alive until this point i'm not worried about getting fat I'm literally absent of food.

>>83660947
Its not really healthy for me I've never been this thin before and the weightloss is rather rapid I feel very weak I genuinely have started documenting myself fainting as I fluctuate from 122-118 the past 2 weeks I used to be 140 and mostly muscle

>>83660877
jj6363778@proton.me
i won't actually become your husband or fly you anywhere or give you money. i'm just a human being somewhere that can be messaged.

>>83660921
We cant really give you good advice exept generic get a job, move out, find a good man etc. as we dont know much about your circumstances and thus realistic options.

If you can handle publicity maybe become right wing tradgirl grifter, it looks that this niche still has potential? Or can you get neetbux or some other state help? Do you like doing anything, to pass time (walks, drawing, games etc.)?

>>83660953
>My parents do not let me use their cars, how would I get to the job they dont want to even drive me to job if i got a job?
Did you talk to them and did they specifically tell you they would not let you use their car if you needed it for a job? I almost can't imagine they're pushing you to get a job, but don't want to help in that regard. I think they just don't want to give you a car if you're not working. Maybe I'm wrong.

>There is like nothing around me besides a gas station for anything to consume
What do your parents eat? Are they also starving?

>Smoking is keeping me awake
It's just draining your limited money and keeping you addicted to a shitty unhealthy thing that does you no good. It's not helping. If you can't stay awake, then nap.

>>83660613
Just get a job and you'll feel fine.

>>83660921
Hmm I feel you anon, I really do, my parents always tied my value to financial and academic performance...even kicked me out when I was 17 to be homeless and replaced my room with an airbnb

I didn't get too much love as a kid either but strangely enough I wasn't completely deprived of it, but I didn't really develop any inherent self-worth outside self-efficacy, accomplishment what I contribute to relationships since that just how I was raised and it's something I struggle with a lot as well.

I'm really sorry to hear you're not in a great environment and I can definitely understand how crippling setbacks can be when you've built your entire existence around it.

But I mean it when I say that you are valued, even if you can't feel it. You have warm and gentle soul, albeit a bit lonely. I really do care, as strange as it is saying it as an anonymous stranger. I'd give you money just to nuture and remind you of that, even if I you don't do anything or change, you'll still be worthy of love and cared for.

I'm sure one day, you'll make someone very happy.

>>83660953
Why dont they give you anything to eat? Cant you take it yourself, isnt there any food at home? If they get violent just call cops or something, not a fan of snitching you senpai but if they starve you its pretty serious abuse, I wouldnt have much sympathy for parents who starve me?

>>83660613
>haven't eaten in 2 days
Just make a dating profile and say you wanna move in with someone but no fornicating.
You could be gone today because women get flooded with so many likes.

>>83660985
Yes i talked to them. I have nowhere to go realistically and dont want to waste gas anyways so you are wrong.

My parents eat a lot of fast food sometimes they cook. They got agitated when I ate some of the cooking and my mom asked if I wanted food from a diner once and then got mad when I said I could only afford half of the meal. I was not a bad kid I am not a mean adult. Ive only been here 4 months im not a drain on them or their resources like they are trying to make me feel. They just had certain expectations or ideas about how I should have existed or how my life should have gone that they cannot fathom how I am currently. I should be married with at least a child by now in their eyes

I should probably quit smoking again but it does keep my nerves at bay and lets me stay awake although which is helpful in this situation.

>>83660980
I walk sometimes its pretty cold. I like drawing. I have a switch but videogames arent fun for some reason anymore. I started experiencing some level of ahedonia. I just kind of started being able to watch films again

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>>83660613
You're a woman you can always find a man who will happily take care of you. Count your fucking blessings.

>>83661010
Its high possibility she would just get abused in one way or another with this. Most guys arent kind, starved for affection incels, and they tend to be much more convincing then first group.

>>83661035
Then she could leave again.

>>83661035
>he told her she should try to get a job, omg that's ABOOOOS
Fucking zoomers mang

>>83661005
Yes im thinking about getting a bit meaner about it. I have to eat. I guess if I get kicked out or things get physical I can kill myself then. I will get more proficient at looking into what programs are offered to me by local government what all my options are I just feel very weak and overwhelmed alot of the time. This thread is helping me process a bit more

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1- What country do you live in?
2- are you getting psychiatric help? You definitely need it if you're considering suicide. Reach out, I am sure your country has some free psychiatric services.
3- What are your passions? I understand that depression makes everything tiring and uninteresting but try to remember what brought you satisfaction in the past.
4- I am a 6 feet tall 26 year old man and I weight 147.71lb and I don't even have ED, your weight is FINE, completely fine, don't let fatties gaslight you.

>>83661049
that's what?

>>83661056
Where do you live?
Where I live (Canada) they have food banks and programs where you can free food it helped me alot when I was homeless though you have to walk a lot better than starving though

>>83661059
I dont think this user can read or reply to the right post

>>83661059
>>83661064
Case in points. Illterate zoomers are illiterate.

>>83661063
She would not be eligible for food banks in canada because she's not actually homeless and lives at home in a household that can afford food.

>>83660613
Damn reading this actually made me really sad, I wish I could help OP

>>83661068
>is replying to a post about scouting dating apps for a meal
>talked about job seeking=/=abuse

????

>>83660613
Are you like ultra ugly or something, why do you think youre not having success with men? Sorry about your situation but remember things can always change, so stick around, i wish you well if this is real.

>>83661027
At least weather will get warmer soon so you could spend more time outside. But you should resolve the food issue first, with talking/arguing with parents or any other way.

Also you are not a shitty person and you should feel worthy just for being you. Its just people think they can give you (us) some shitty obligations and see people just as cogs. With the same people spouting this shit about how you must be usefull offten taking the most from others.

Where were you before? Cant you go back, have any people you know there who could help you find a place to stay or a job?

>>83661027
>Yes i talked to them
I would maybe talk to them about the car issue again, especially if you land a job interview somewhere or something. Sometimes people don't see reason right away but you can sway them on repeat attempts. I think it's reasonable for parents to support their child's effort to contribute economically.

>They got agitated when I ate some of the cooking and my mom asked if I wanted food from a diner once and then got mad when I said I could only afford half of the meal
I think you should probably talk about this and explain that you're not eating healthy the way things are right now.
Frankly your family sounds completely alien to me so maybe I don't know how to handle your situation properly. Maybe you just need to get out of there for all I know. I think you definitely need to find a way to sustain yourself independently.

>but it does keep my nerves at bay
It's a kind of a trick, it gives you an addiction, the addiction gives you pangs of craving it, and then sating that craving feels like it relaxed you. But it's just not helpful.

>lets me stay awake
You should try to get a regular amount of sleep, not stay up late, and not use your phone in bed. I know it's very difficult not to, but phones kill sleep quality. Smoking to stay awake just makes you less healthy and spends your precious money. Drink more water and do at least light exercise if you want to feel more awake. And get your proper sleep.
Anyway I know I'm kind of argumentative but I think you need to work out things like eating, sleeping, and being able to function, so that you can actually work on the hard part of fixing your economic and family situation.

>>83661074
I don't think you know how those services work you can just walk in and get free food most of the time though I did notice the good stuff being taken more and more often because of jeet university students abusing the system to save money even though they have hundreds of thousands of dollars there's basically no requirement here have you ever met a homeless guy do really think actual homeless retards couch surfing can provide documentation of being homeless I get you have a real hate boner for Canada but at least be grounded in reality

>>83661097
I have never seen a food kitchen that doesn't require ID to walk in the door. Even before COVID they routinely stopped and questioned people, but after COVID they often have permanent security at the door.

>>83661056
Dont do it, even if it comes to that. Think of it that way, if you are that far to seriously consider it, you have nothing to lose and could try anything.

At least you have the option of becoming reliant on a man (other than your father).
A man in your situation would only have the option of either toughening the fuck up or pulling the trigger.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, it could be worse lol. Be thankful to your genetics.

>>83661212
>At least you have the option of becoming reliant on a man
Not like you can't go gay4pay. You should (probably not actually) go to /soc/ sometimes and check those adopt a neet threads.

Op be honest it's ok we won't judge
1: are you trans?
2: are you American?

I'm East coast USA and have property in WV, FL, and NY; maybe you could take care of one of my houses for a bit while you look for a real job. I'd pay you of course. But you'd live on your own. Lmk.

You gone op?
If you want someone to talk to and perhaps money to buy a computer you can email me at spamhamfordays@gmail.com