todays retard one meal of th day is lychee soju with q side of old messages for that refreshing nostalgic flavor
Hi alcoholic anon. How are you this evening?
>>83667542that's cool i had pasta with pesto and smoked like 20 cigarettes
>>83667553they speak of my drinking, but never my thirst. unquenchable. you?>>83667555500 cigarettes. im joking. cigarettes are a really gross habit. sorry. you should smoke cigars or something instead.
>>83667591I'm alright. Unable to move on as well.
>>83667591have been at it since i was a teenager so doubt im quitting any time soonglad u didn't kys btw
>>83667600i moved on. i returned to my bassline, how i was before i had something to be hopeful about.Adachi did nothing wrong. >>83667601you should quit because it makes your fingers yucky. i have signed my warrant unfortunately with too many years of reckless copium and now i wait for it to be collected.
>>83667753If moving on will do that to me I will stay in my delusions
>>83667753>i have signed my warrant unfortunately with too many years of reckless copium and now i wait for it to be collected.this is 2 cryptic 4 me but i enjoy the art you post in your threads
>>83667841you will be labeled delusional regardless>>83667880i am facing adverse health effects from spending so long coping with the loneliness through escapism
>>83667919>i am facing adverse health effects from spending so long coping with the loneliness through escapismlike what you mentioned having a really bad drinking problem, are you just in a loop of spiraling from this or
i jus wanted to matter to someone. just, one person. i never felt good enough t o be loved, but i wanted to be special in my own way.>>83668043signs of internal hemorrhaging and im beginning to see things and hear things and im puking.im spiraling because its hteo nly thing that silences the impulses in my head and the overthinkkinnig and the
>>83667919>you will be labeled delusional regardlessI may as well act like it then. I'll double down on it. More daydreams. More emails begging her to come back.
>>83668079What the hell... Have you been to the hospital? Please get help.
>side of old messagespost a screenie
>>83668079not sure what part of the world you live in but are you able to see a doctor about that? if you're hallucinating could mean a ton of different thingswhat's caused you to isolate and have these feelings about yourself like this anywayseems like part of you at least still wants to find someone
>>83668110Is this supposed to be a larp? Hmm.
>>83668135It's not a larp I just miss her a lot.I too read old messages and upset myself.
>>83668110i will let you in on a secret. your emails go unread. if you're such a mess like this, you're too much work to fix. give up. there's nothing to salvage.>>83668113>>83668125no. why would i? this is our secret, nonny.>what's caused you to isolate and have these feelings about yourself like this anywayself awareness that every desperate grasp to connect with anyone is seen as bothersome and a nuisance. self awareness that i bring people dread, not smiles. self awareness.>seems like part of you at least still wants to find someonei cannot cope with the madness. knowing that there exists people who can make me flourish, but to them, i am nothing. to know that others see me as someone who could make them flourish, but i do not see them in such a way. being aware of it all makes everything feel so pointless.
>>83668163>your emails go unreadShe always replies eventually... Rarely she will forget to put her cold facade up and I ride that high for weeks.
>>83668163unfortunate part of meeting anyone is being vulnerable like thatim a miserable fuck too and people seem to like talking to me and i don't make their life worse by existing or being in itt. mdd for 15+ years and i cope with edgy music
>>83668230recommend me a song anon :D
waste>>83668215okay. happy for you. glad. thank you for the reminder that the whole world is afforded opportunities im not. not despairing or anything.>>83668230k. happy for you too. coyldnt be me.
>>83668235listen to the album i posted, can't really recommend things in the dark don't know what you like
>>83668270i like pig destroyer i've seen them live! my fave genres are death metal, deathcore, rock, emo, post hardcorewot are urs O_o
>>83668284nasum, early napalm death, early cryptopsy, converge, agoraphobic nosebleed, drop dead, suffocation, nails
>>83668284anaal nathrakh has some good shit as well pic rel
>>83668321i feel like i could totally get into converge. pls pls recommend me an album?>>83668334i will listen to picrel!
>>83668341they change stylistically a lot over the years, most people like jane doe but you fail me was my personal favoriteeven their new stuff is good, they are all over the place
>>83668364i'll listen to some tracks off you fail me rn>they change stylistically a lot over the yearsI'm a dance gavin dance fan and they're basically known for doing that lol
>>83668396you might like melt banana, but they are very weird and similar levels of noisy i guess but in a different way
>>83668409converge is good. i liked heartless.>very weird and similar levels of noisyI LOVE NOISY MUSIClistening rn
>>83668438if you like the noisy shit big recommend full of hell, they did a split with merzbow that went hard
>>83668452oh shiii i've only heard their track with health. i'll look into them anonthanks for the reccs!!
>>83668464np origami original
