II was once unable to go outside and my entire existence felt like a nightmare. I would be crying from the moment I woke up, I would drink to stop existing and used to cut myself. Life can just be such unrelenting suffering and I hope you can endure it and be able to find peace. It is nice not being a hikikomori even if I only go out to the shops for snacks and chill with nature.I made this post as I would like to try encourage some of the people who are currently living as I once did and to everyone suffering in general. I wish I could actually help but I wont pretend I can. We have to learn these things for ourselves.Stay comfy especially if hikki and good luck keeping away from disrespectful brutes. Don't want to get all preachy and faggy about it but tripping on nature can help us. I was miserable and anxious wreck and started working with salvia divinorum and a loving maternal feminine consciousness gave me love and now I love life like a miracle.. so try trip before rope I guess
