>only slept for one hour last night because of alcohol withdrawal>the sleep was more like daydreaming than actual sleep>half a protein drink and lots of water for breakfast>casual lifting for a bit in the morning>go to lunch with friend >stop by mom's house to take a shit since she lives downtown and don't want to shit at the YMCA>go swim a quarter mile (I haven't done any cardio in almost a year)>feels very weird to stress my body this much during withdrawal, get a headache from it>drink another half a protein drink>drink a shit ton of water>still have a headache>still not sleepy whatsoever>just microdosed a weed edible (2.5 THCx2.5 CBDx2.5 CBN) hopefully it makes me sleepy.Fuck this shit. Self-improvement is difficult.I will say doing cardio put me in a zen state afterwards from the endorphins. I'm not even angry or depressed anymore. also my "friend" that I went to lunch with is my ex and she's the reason I am often angry and depressed. but I'm not angry at her anymore. She can't help who she is, for better or for worse. I'm ready to ascend and meet better women.
This is now my stupid faggot blog thread. The headache is from sleep deprivation. I drank 2 drinks because I was hoping it would numb the pain. It's still there. Maybe if I just have another drink or two the withdrawals will subside enough for me to sleep so my brain doesn't explode and I don't lose any gainz....As long as I keep it 4 or less than it shouldn't be too bad for my timeline (usually have 12 drinks per night)
dear FAGGOT get a job
>>83674806I have a job it's just the offseason right now. Good time to self improve while being essentially a temporary NEET. Gonna go for a a ski trip soon then get a second job.If I work two jobs I won't have time to be a subhuman
