the most exciting day of the week has flanally come anon! it's friday! that means spending time with your friends and having weekend plans you'll get to do. you did remember to nurture those connections so you can have experiences and make memories, right?todays doompost is sponsored by whiskey with a side of mucus on the pillow
>>83683641I purposely act in a way to not make friends. I spent today smoking weed and playing Starsector. Now I'm off to bed, early to sleep early to rise after all.
>>83683641>take halfday from work bc friday>coworkers think Im off to do some fun shit>just come home, play vidya and do nothing
>>83683641i sometimes get random friend requests from people i don't have mutuals with or any mutual servers with on discordrussian roulette if it's some bot trying to sell me "art" or someone from 4chan
>>83683655i purposely act in a way to make friends. i claw at people like a clingy gross mess to try keep them. i am up all night.>>83683663im pretty close to blowing my brains out next time a coworker talks about spending time with their family on the weekend and then asking what i did>>83683690you just have a certain je ne sais quoi, nonny
I don't think I care about making friends anymoreI always end up playing all by myself
>>83683641Today I just made friends with people my age in a remote rural town I'm visiting. We played soccer and videogames. It is nice.
>>83683855I need a friend like you because I have the tendency to randomly get convinced I'm bothering my friends and they hate talking to me and ghosting everyone until they convince me otherwise.
>>83683855>you just have a certain je ne sais quoi, nonnythe weird thing about the random 4chan users is it's from i assume tagmap which is a mostly dead sitethey usually don't talk to me at all after and it's kind of weirdlike i will talk a little bit with them and then they just ghost lole
I'm so done with not having any close relationships. I'm so sick of keeping people at a distance because I'm afraid they secretly hate me or that they will hate me if I talk to them. I hate that I can never be certain of how they feel about me. They'll never be able to reassure me enough, even if I break down and beg them just to be genuine and tell me the truth because I'll always just think they're lying. I literally have nobody and I never will because I just can't get over this shit. I wish I wasn't a sperg and I wish I didn't have anxiety so I could actually feel at ease and not have to worry about if I'm fucking up or acting weird. I have a full-time job but when I get home I just do the same bullshit and nothing eventful happens so life just feels pointless. Why don't I just become a NEET again? Nothing's gonna change when I move out except that I don't have to worry my parents hate me whenever I pass by them in the kitchen
>>83683641Got an add off /soc/ living reasonably close by, she seemed interested in meeting up, Friday rolls around no contact from her, no reply.I want to die.>>83683655Based Starsector enjoyer.
>>83683977Omg, you're just like me! We can be paranoid about hating eachother and then ghost eachother, together!
>>83683863i really really dont want to be alone anymore.. playing by myself makes me... not good>>83683868i hope it flourishes for you anon>>83683893you don't want a friend like me. i am in a cycle of deleting and re-adding the last person i know>>83683905i don't think i've ever had someone randomly add me. do you have any good interactions?>>83683977the eternal tragedy told across every culture, every age, every generation, is of being unable to communicate with people. not able to connect, feeling isolated. wanting to feel a part of something greater than our selves, a part of our whole. you're not alone in feeling like a pariah, an interloper. but other than that, i don't have any magic words for you. i suffer from the same fate. alone.>>83684006easy come easy go.>>83684015modern day romance
>>83684297>i don't think i've ever had someone randomly add me. do you have any good interactions?once in a while i will make a long term friend, but not very ofteni go through phases of obsessive interests so tend to meet people more through that
i need to slam my head against the corner of my desk until i can';t see anymore>>83684310that sounds nice to have. friends you share a common ground with
