my mind will try to use whatever outlet it can to be seenwhy do i need to be seen?why do i want others to hear my thoughts, to watch what i watch, to listen to what i listen to?why do i want others to feel what i feel?what is *it*? the pressure, the something, the craving, this is the core that needs to be figure out?do i want to be seen by others so that i can be loved?is love what i need?can i exist without it?can i exist without others?will i be in this hamster wheel until i die?
because it's a human need to let others know you exist.
>>83688322and that can't be turned off, and i'm seeking it in maladaptive ways because of isolation?also, which less insane, trying to get this advice from /r9k/ or chatgpt?
>>83688306because you need feedback from other human beings or you will gradually turn into a roach a la kafka
>>83688306also lovelove is very important
>>83688383yeah. i love AI for asking questions. AI is more human than most of us
>>83688383nothing wrong with using ai to gain insight into these things. i think its very very useful in this aspect. talking about psychological and perceptual structures and such
>>83688429>>83688443https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chatbot_psychosisi don't know guys these things might fuck you up in very insidious ways
>>83688407How do I know if it's real or fake tho?
>>83688407yeah but what if you don't have it
>>83688626by if it's stable and reliable, like anything really.it won't be more real than you or the other because you're both a part of it (love).>>83688641love is not something you have, it's something you are together with one or more others. it's an integration.your body is one form in which you can experience how your ancestors love you, it's the physical representation of that.
>>83688306we are social creatures by nature and what we're doing right now which is isolating ourselves because of societal rules and customs goes against the way we lived for milleniawhich is why you feel this way, because it's natural to crave attention, to be seen, to be loved, to be exist with othersit is unnatural not to want it and you shouldn't try to achieve that as it will only hurt you
>>83688684I've buried my affection for her over a decade since she seem to be in a happy relationship but now that she came out of the shadows, in kind of a rough shape, made me realize what I've been suppressing all these years. I know I'm delusional but even interacting with her via chat made my day for some stupid reason. I hate how my emotional state is so dependent on someone's approval like this. This is some kind of mental illness, right? I guess it's my time to finally lose my mind.
>>83688691to want it but not being able to get it also hurtstrying to remove the want feels like the only choice
