You know what really wrecks me guys? I was happier when I thought I was a superstar who just never got a chance to shine. I got a chance and I couldn't perform, I wasn't up to the task, I was a dud. I'm still a loser, but now I know it's my own fault. I've accepted it and coped, but damn. When I was given the chance to be a chad, it quickly became apparent I just wasn't chad.
>>83690919become a chad and prove everyone wrong
>>83690919to become a superstar you need to 100% complete Kirby superstar saga
congrats, you're officially mediocre. most of us are.
>>83690919I used to be a high achiever but I never got the recognition or the pay. Never had a good boss in my entire life. Nearly 40 years old now. Like 13 years ago I got out of the military, and said screwed I'm going to work for myself. Doing the skilled trade that I did long before the navy. I'm really good at it but I'm slow now. There's no fire under my ass. There is nothing to aim for, no goals or targets to hit, and there's certainly isn't going to be any girls in my life either. It was bad 15 years ago for me trying to get with somebody because I'm just not it didn't send genuineous person and that's really how you have to talk to girls at first, you have to be completely disingenuous. That's what I've observed. Either that or girls are just into the dumbest assholes you've ever fucking seen lol!I have learned to do stuff that has less honor in it. That's what I've seen everybody else do, they take the least honorable path and they get ahead by far! So my $42,000 worth of unsecured debt? Not to mention another 30 grand from credit cards I stopped paying eight years ago. Well, all of that is going to be discharged in chapter 7 bankruptcy. I have no assets, so nothing is going to be taken away from me. But now, I am no longer throwing all of my money away at debt. And then I decided to use up the last two semesters of Pell grant that I have left, plus my GI bill goes away in July of 2027. So now I'm going back to school and raking in 10,000 per semester, and I should be able to forward $2,000 per month which means by this December I should have a minimum of $40,000 in my pocket. And if I can possibly get a fire lit under my ass, if somebody can make something available in my life worth reaching for, I could do a whole lot better. I could end this whole year with $100,000 easy. $140,000 would be hard. And you know what's going to happen? I bet you that I'm going to make it to December and have basically nothing. And you know it really sucks?
I'm not a coward, I've just never been testedI'd like to think that if I was I would passLook at the tested and think "There but for the grace go I"Might be a coward, I'm afraid of what I might find outNever had to knock on woodBut I know someone who hasWhich makes me wonder if I couldIt makes me wonder if I'veNever had to knock on woodAnd I'm glad I haven't yetBecause I'm sure it isn't goodThat's the impression that I get
