i always hear people in here talking about being autistic but i never hear people talk about sensory sensitivities. makes me think, are u guys actually autistic?here's what i struggle with:>can't sleep without a big blanket and can't sleep without my blanket covering my face and can't sleep without a pillow on my face>can't sleep without earplugs>can't go to the toilet with anyone in the near vicinity, can't poop if not naked>can't wear socks with seams regularly, i have to wear them inside out>scared of people's saliva and even my own saliva. when i was a kid i compulsively spat out my saliva >can't stand people talking in another room, i can't think if someone is talking in another room or if they're in the same room as me>if something or someone is making noise, a small noise, i can't relax. i become constantly tense i can't recover when im exhausted i could go on etc etcdesu, i wish i could just be normal
>>83717261Nothing you haven't already figured out. I'm one of those hyposensitive autists and have fairly heavy alexithymia, so it's easy for me to ignore my own needs
>>83717261Can't eat 99.9% of food that exists. The texture, smell, taste all make me vomit. I also have headphones on almost 100% of the time, ANC ones when outside. Always conscious of which parts of my body have recently touched any surfaces I consider unclean, like keeping specific fingers sticking out until I can clean them.
yes sort of (headphones)yes nononoyes
>>83717290i have alexithymia as well. im really numb and brain fogged all the timebut i wish i was hyposensitive tho at least it wouldn't be so bad
>>83717292omg i do this. like sometimes when i perceive something to be arbitrarily dirty, even if it's not really dirty, i will have the compulsion to clean them and prevent myself from touching italso when i can't stand still because i always start a sensation in my body starts bugging me
I have bladder OCD and certain physical sensations will basically give me a crippling anxiety attack that will last for an hour
Those are way too relatable. My problems with noises have fucked up my whole life in a variety of ways since college. No wonder I'm a virgin approaching his 40s. I never had a fucking chance.
>can't go to the toilet with anyone in the near vicinity, can't poop if not naked>can't stand people talking in another room, i can't think if someone is talking in another room or if they're in the same room as me>if something or someone is making noise, a small noise, i can't relax. i become constantly tense i can't recover when im exhaustedyeahthose plus symmetry - need to do things symmetrically to my bodyanxiety about touch, eye contact, big sensorylist can go on and onwish I was normal
>>83717346same not only did it ruin my ability to socialize because i always feel overwhelmed by it pretty much ruined my ability to function on a daily basis as a normal human too. just taking care of my basic needs gets so difficult. im pretty young but i know im still doomed
>>83717261i also can't stand people talking, mostly if they repeat certain things over and over in different ways.i hate certain food textures/smells/colors, i dont like when my food touches.i hate the feeling of wet hair, both in general and on my body.i can hear like wires/static of quiet tvs from like a room away and it annoyed the hell out of me.when i do shower i need the bathroom door opened or i feel like im suffocating.ontop of this one ^ idk if it's a sensory related issue but i hate closed doors/being alone in rooms so even if im taking a bath or using the bathroom i'll keep the door open.there's probs more i just cant think of them rn plus just regular basic stuff (lights, sounds, etc)
>>83717261Autism isn't a thing anon, you just have some childish habits that you will grow out of eventually
Have you guys ever tried not being like this? Anxiety is within your control
>>83717647it's not anxiety it's almost a painful sensation
>>83717261I can feel the pips in bannanas and I'm sick of pretending they dont fucking exsist just so I dont get into back a forths over the exsistance of something I can fucking feel.
anons are usually autistic in a normal way not autistic in a retarded way
>>83717261autistic on 4chan = asocial awkward retard
>>83717373People have no idea how stressful and debilitating it really is. I feel like my head is being torn apart when a noise I don't like enters audible range, it's awful. It's like I'm constantly expected to justify my unnaturally severe innate reaction to unwanted stimuli. I curl up in a ball in bed when asshole neighbors down the road occasionally play loud music and I can hear the bass faintly through the walls. It feels like an electrical pressure is smothering me from all sides, I think it's a psychosomatic thing but it's like my body feels noise even when it's just barely audible. I don't know how people can live in truly noisy cities, I'd have to just kill myself.
>>83717261diagnosed with the tism here>i hate HATE bubbly drinks, it feels like world war 2 is happening in my mouth>i love deep pressure stimulation (heavy weights on me or tight uniform pressure), it makes me feel instantly extremely relaxed and horny>loud consistent noises like music at a bar makes my head hurt, i wear noise-cancelling headphones to mitigate the noise>sleep with a pregnancy pillow, ultra comfy with the aforementioned deep pressure stimulation>impossible to fall asleep if another living being is in the same bed as me, or worse if i'm physically touching them. even cuddling my cat makes it impossible for me to fall asleep>i constantly walk on the tip of my toes like i'm sneaking around, and sometimes have my left arm up like a dinosaur or mr. burns from the simpsonsamong other things
>>83717261I'm clinically diagnosed with autism, but I've never had sensory issues in my life. Sure, I have the social ineptitude and all, which is all pervasive, but that's it. They just diagnose anyone these days. I didn't even get meds from it, the counselor basically told me to just be your retarded self. Why bother?
>>83717772The vast majority of self-dx autism cases are petty assholes who just want to use the """dx""" as a get out of jail free card. It's pretty much "yuo can't gibb me detention, I'm wetawded!!!!" for grownups; too bad it hardly works since adults are allowed to freely dissociate from obnoxious twats.
>>83717795Thanks for doing your part to ensure that you can never be a clinician, lawyer, pharmacist, or pilot, and having to jump through extra hoops to hold a security clearance. Less competition for me lol.
>>83717261When I'm tired and exhausted, I have to listen to videos on my laptop speaker or my tv at 1-5 volume because I get feedback ringing in my ears. Sort of like a tinnitus that rises and falls along with the audio. Sometimes it's painful. That's the only one I'm aware of and I wear earplugs in the evenings now, I didn't even realise I had it until my mid 20s.
>>83717795 OP, i don't have any medication either. i wish there was anything i could take for my sensory sensitivity, if it existed I'd take it in a heartbeat>>83717783 #ikr, neurotypicals have no idea how painful sensory issues are. they don't get it and always think im exaggerating or using it as an excuse, but all of this stuff makes my daily life such a sensory hell.i have a roommate where i live. he's talking right now loudly on the phone and the moment he started talking, i froze up because i absolutely cannot tolerate people talking and whatever i was thinking about completely escaped my head. when people are making too much noise or are simply in my vicinity, i stop being able to think and i freeze up because it's stressful and almost painful to me, and i have to wait until they stop making noise to think again and properly function. i wish he could never talk again and simply be quiet as i am but i know that's a wildly unrealistic request to ask of a normie
>>83717857>i have to wait until they stop making noise to think again and properly function.Yeah, I'm the same exact way with people talking around me, it's like a sudden soundwave based attack disrupting everything. Loud people are like demons.
>>83717261I think I have a lot of self soothing behaviours. I didn't notice at first but like the I always rub my feet together. I only noticed in bed because guys would comment on it and make me feel weird lol. But otherwise I can't sleep unless my arms are crossed and my head is covered by a blanket. Even if it's like 40 degrees outside
>>83717795>I didn't even get meds from itThat's because there aren't any meds for autism, at most they might give you an anxiolytic if you're very anxious.
>>83717261Well let's see, I fucking LOATHE green bell peppers, gelatin of any kind, pears, meat cartilage and gummies.I'm also not the sweet tooth I used to be, so I'm getting more bothered by any corn syrup I taste and American frosting makes me sick. Any powdery stuff makes my mouth dry. Two bodily quirks I have are that touching my tendons freaks me out because it makes me think they're gonna get cut up and I can't move anymore. I also don't like touching or bending up my neck uncovered because it makes me think I'm gonna get my throat slit (very big fear of mine)I want anal with Osaka while she's pinned down and struggling.
>>83718910also tasting gritty shit in soft food makes me sick. pretty everyone has that tho.
>>83717261Consider myself high functioning or aspergers (someone can share that comic but it's true; the less severely you have autism, I feel like the more you notice and get insecure about what autism you do have) and I still have a couple, though they're not too severe.I get unnerved by any kind of moderate to loud motor/engine noise (prevents my driving alongside the usual crippling anxiety). Mowing the lawn is agony for me. For some reason a loud noise makes me think people are looking at me because of it (even if the engine noise would be completely normal in that situation), and it triggers an urge to hide/flee the noise.I also can't pee if I can hear anyone else at all. Even in another stall or washing their hands at a sink outside. I have never used a urinal in my entire life for that reason; and not for the usual "I don't want people to see my pp" insecurity. Pooping is difficult but possible, but my bladder seals up completely in anxiety with any noise at all. I had probation once many years ago (for weed lmao, back when it was still illegal in my state) and the guy who had to watch me pee into a cup literally gave up and let me close the door to pee after like 8 attempts.
>>83719006my hearing sensitivity is weird. I couldn't operate a blender without my ears closed into my late teens. my right side is also more delicate than the left side too.
>>83719033Yeah loud food processing equipment or other household tools (like vacuums) also does it to me, I forgot to mention that. I can somewhat handle it indoors, because I know I'm the only one who can hear it though.
>>83717261I don't know if it counts but as someone who likes going on walks before sunrise, modern car headlights piss me the fuck off. Unless you are driving a commercial truck or emergency response vehicle you have no business shining God rays up the road from a mile away. I even see joggers with head lamps like this too. Fucking stay at home if you can't see in the dark, Jesus Christ.
>>83719198I don't know if this is autism either but I 100% agree. I genuinely want to see a guerilla war waged on light population by people with high powered BB guns, popping bulbs left and right.
>>83719225*light pollution, got autocorrected
>>83719225Hell, I almost considered buying the highest lumen flashlight I could find just so I could shine it back at people.
>>83719267My dad put floodlights on his van just so he can blind people who don't take the "turn your brights off, I can't fuckin see" hint when he flashes his brights back.I'm too autistic and nervous to ever do something like that though (not the floodlight part, the driving part).
>>83717346>>83719033what are those drawings dawg go kill yourselves already
>>83719393nta but,>angry about japanese drawingsnigga where the fuck do you think you are? look at your address bar right fucking now.
>>83719393LEAVE ME ALONE MORALFAG
>>83719225i dream about this every time i go out. headlamps should require legitimate purpose and risk jail time if there isn't one, and there should be a state program to minimize the amount of lighting reaching nature areas. if i hadn't promised my gf to not risk getting into any kind of trouble i'd go out and start smashing up the new superbright lights put up by my favourite lake
